For the rest of his life

You don't know this place, and you will never know it, as if the wind blows from the far north, and it will never remember the south, it only remembers its roots, as if you remember your hometown.You are born here, and you end here. Whoever gets the starting point of life will have life.

Xu Chenmu found that his memory of this alley was so deep that after leaving, he still recalled the smell from time to time. His nose missed Lu Qiong more faithfully than her. She didn't know what the smell was, but it seemed to come from her hair. In contrast, she regretted being angered by Tang Yi and walked out, and fled Lu Qiong's house.

But what Tang Yi said was right, she couldn't bother Lu Qiong anymore, it was over.

It's not easy for her to stuff herself into a box. When she looked up and saw someone coming to adopt her, she said, ah, please adopt meow~

So a person walked out alone, without money or keys, without ID card, bus card, and even without extra clothes to put on to resist the inexplicable cold. It was clearly when the sun was shining, everyone at noon They were all working together, she was walking on that wide street and hugging herself, she was so hungry that she wanted to cry, but she felt that she was really worthless, couldn't she just get a job or something!

Who is not a baby and is not allowed to cry or something.She found a reason for herself, but suddenly realized that she was a little stupid, patted her head and smiled wryly, but suddenly recalled the scene of someone standing on the street waiting for her, it was dark when the lights were dim, she was terrified A person was crying aggrievedly, and while walking, he suddenly caught a glimpse of the intersection in front of him. There was a thin woman standing there, waiting for her arrival regardless of the danger of the night.

Who is that face?She was vague but couldn't remember it, she just remembered that it seemed like a long, long night, after a long, long time, the night was so long that she couldn't see the beginning and end, she came down from the drunken dinner party alone, only her I walked out sober, terrified of the night.

It seemed extremely embarrassing that day again. They were not pleasantly surprised when they met, but she remembered that she was clearly pleasantly surprised, but she was hiding a wonderful unspeakable secret.

"Going home?" The woman seemed to be saying this, her voice was very low and heavy, like cotton soaked in water, and the outline of her face was not clear, Xu Chenmu couldn't see clearly, so she nodded, I put my hand in my pocket, touched something cool and hard, hesitated for a while, and didn't hand it out.

So the woman opened the car door and asked her to get in the car. She sat on it, lowered her head as if she had made a mistake, wiped her tears with her sleeve, and pretended to be indifferent.

There is a feeling of not being able to return home.

"Come and pick me up..."

"Yes."

"Isn't Tang Yi angry? He's still at home, right?" Xu Chenmu remembered saying this in a sad voice, "It's good for me to stay outside freely, what do you come to pick me up for? Tell me. "

"Then get down." The woman opened the car door silently, "You decide."

Her fingers touched the cold thing coldly, she tried hard to recall the outline of the thing, it was a key, and there was a moon-shaped key chain, which was warmed by herself, and she was about to take it out, but suddenly Turning a corner and changing her mind, she opened the door and got out of the car. She turned around and smiled, "Then I'm leaving. I'm busy running outside, so I won't bother you."

"Why are you always outside?" the woman asked suddenly.

She clearly remembered that she seemed to be shaking that day, not knowing whether it was cold or something, but she heard herself say, "Aha, I'm a reporter."

It turned out that she was a reporter, she suddenly realized.

The appearance of the woman with the memory was blurred with a sour taste, but the voice was still clear: "It's not this."

"Then what else is there, I'm a fool, I'm not there every day when Tang Yi is there, it's as simple as that." He said it solemnly and with some determination, then he slammed the door and walked away without hesitation.

Memory terminated.

She patted herself on the head, the woman's face was blurry no matter what, but she remembered it was Lu Qiong with her voice, Lu Qiong's figure was so thin, her voice was gentle but at a certain time there was something irresistible decision.

She had quarreled with Lu Qiong because of Tang Yi.She stopped suddenly.Why is this so?She couldn't figure it out, touched her face in doubt, and continued walking forward.At any rate, I made up my mind to leave, so as not to burden her anymore, it was right, I used to make trouble for her, and said such annoying and troublesome words.

The aroma of food was coming from all directions, she rubbed her temples to force herself to forget these things, for some reason, when there was nothing to do, it was easy to want to eat, she obviously didn’t feel very hungry, she ate in the morning After eating a lot, she sat next to Lu Qiong.

She always thinks of Lu Qiong. Lu Qiong's face is cold and distant, but she just feels close. Once Lu Qiong smiles, she feels that the world is brighter. They have known each other for a long time, and she remembers that they have known each other for a long time, so she knows that they are really It's a lover, not a conclusion deduced from memory, but a personal feeling of the heart beating non-stop in his chest.

It seems that everyone has been together for 1 years, 1000 years.

She felt very lonely walking on the street.

That afternoon, she seemed to have walked a hundred and eight thousand miles. She felt the pain of learning from the West, and she also understood that probably every year when watching various satellite TVs play Journey to the West in turn, seeing Monkey King's face became more ferocious, and she pulled it out every year. One lap is indeed quite annoying.I don't know if it's a hallucination.

She experienced this road for a while, and she probably understood that this is a newly built residential area. A piece was abruptly cut out from the previous edge area, and she saw a brand new community rising from the ground. This road is full of hot and sour There are rice noodle shops, steamed stuffed bun shops, self-service small hot pots, Malatang, pancake stalls and finger cake stalls, small soy milk workshops, braised pig's trotters, and scallion pancakes...

Wait, why does she pay attention to restaurants!

On the way, she found that she had kicked her shoes and had blisters on her feet. She was so hungry that she felt like she was going to rush into a certain store to grab food. He didn't learn anything when he was a child, but he actually learned to go out and steal food from other people. I'm not a reporter, so I don't have any skills to make a living. Didn't I agree to come out by myself so that I wouldn't be a burden to Lu Qiong?

She walked like a greedy snake in a maze, and she couldn't remember the way back. She let go as if she was self-destructing her future. Whatever she loves, she can do whatever she wants. After walking a few steps, she couldn't recognize her eyes. It's time to go, the sky is already dark, and the evening comes in accordance with the daily agreement.

Today, three stray dogs passed her by with dirty hair. She squatted down and touched one of them. When she got to the second one, she suddenly remembered that someone had told her not to touch it in case she was bitten. That's not good.So they stood up neatly and looked at them dignifiedly. Every time the dogs passed by, they would stand upright and pay attention, out of sympathy and awe for something.

The dogs licked their fur, then looked vulnerablely at the passerby and at her.She felt that her eyes were almost the same as those of dogs. Every time she saw those dogs, she felt that she should squat down and look at them at the same level, seeing the inferior world and seeing the ending of self-exile or self-abandonment.

They are similar, except that the dog is forced to come out, and she chooses to come out by herself.

She realized that even if she had gotten lost, unless a miracle happened, Lu Qiong would definitely not be able to find her. She is connected with Lu Qiong, because of this hidden connection, she didn't find odd jobs or do other things, although she doesn't remember anything - but because of this connection, she can't imagine herself What is it like to take root in another place.

It's like digging out a tree abruptly and transplanting it to take root in a distant place that its ancestors have never been to.She felt terrified, she was attached to Lu Qiong as if they had lived together for many years, she couldn't rub this person onto another piece of paper.

My mind was in a mess, I just remembered that I said a lot of inexplicable words with poetic metaphors, and then I missed Lu Qiong uncontrollably, she wondered if Lu Qiong got up, did Lu Qiong eat, she would do it Let's cook, she obviously can't cook.

She was taken aback when the information came out.Where did she come to the conclusion that Lu Qiong can't cook?Why doesn't she prepare the meal and put it in the refrigerator, so that Lu Qiong can just heat it up when he eats it?Why did she not think of this so selfishly, just patted her ass and left?

She fell into endless remorse, and it was difficult to breathe as if her mouth and nose were covered with sand.

The bright distant lights hit her all of a sudden, her eyes hurt from the shaking, she moved to the side of the road, her eyes were closed desperately but she still felt that the sky was bright, and her eyelids were covered with light, she thought that if she could get rid of the things she had done before Remember, when you go back to the newspaper office, you must write a long follow-up report for this kind of person who turns on the high beam for no reason.

At this time, she had already forgotten that she remembered the group of people in the newspaper office. Old Xu was sitting in the office smoking a cigarette, frowning and reprimanding the new intern who didn't understand the rules. Subconsciously thinking of Xu Chenmu, his tone inexplicably became much gentler, and he sighed.

He still didn't know that Xu Chenmu was silently in the high beam, and his image popped up in his mind, but he forgot it in an instant.

The high beams went out.

The car stopped in front of Xu Chenmu, poked her head out, and looked at her in surprise, she finally opened her eyes, and glared at him too.

"Xu—I...why are you here?" The man was taken aback.