Obeying idol morality is the first responsibility of top streamers

Nanchu kswlLV.9

The last comment just now comes from Dumu Chenglin Chaohua

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Ahhhhhhh bhys sisters, I am so nervous to be a mother for the first time! !I'm so worried that after the broadcast, Xiao Chu's acting skills will be sprayed with oooooooooooooooooooooooooooo [tears] I'm just worried!I don't mean that Xiao Chu's acting skills are bad. After all, he is really good at acting [kneeling]

Sitting up in shock while dying: Sister, don’t be afraid, Mr. Hao is taking her with her [thumb]

Only eat sugar and don’t suffer: Hahahahaha, it’s okay, I’ve been a mother for several years and I still worry about it all the time, it’s normal

I saw it under Nanchu's bed: if you want to be angry, you can be angry, and we can use normal Amway to control and comment normally.

Campus dramas are not difficult to film among all dramas.In addition, Hao Nan often gave me a small talk in private and taught me some tricks. The shooting process was not as bad as I imagined at first.

Half a month later, I feel that I have improved a lot.

But there's one scene I've always cared about.Han Junzhe was on the verge of collapse because of Cheng Qiuwen and Pei Min's quarrel, coupled with the changes in his studies and family. He came out of the bar in the middle of the night after getting drunk, ran and shouted on the street, and finally rolled into the snow.

I am not a person who often expresses emotions. I even cry silently. I am very worried that I will not be able to get in and shout out in this scene.If you design it yourself and perform it again, you will lose that crazy feeling.

Hao Nan probably saw that I was feeling a little depressed for several days, so he took the initiative to ask me, and then he simply came to give me some advice.

"Think about it, is there anything recently that made you emotionally ups and downs?" Hao Nan asked.

I stared at the ceiling of the room and thought for a while.Yes, but you can't tell Hao Nan.

Hao Nan looked at me, and suddenly suggested: "If you can't find that feeling, then I'll try to induce it for you." He paused, and then added, "Don't suppress yourself, just release it as much as possible."

I sat on the bed and nodded in a daze.

Hao Nan dug out a dark tie from the closet and tightly covered my eyes with it.

When he was doing the department, I called him a little uneasy: "Teacher Hao?"

"I won't hurt you." Hao Nan tied the knot, put his lips next to my ear, and said warmly, "Xiao Chu, trust me, okay?"

I took a deep breath and replied, "Okay."

I heard Hao Nan stepping on the slippers a little farther away, and gradually approaching my footsteps.He seemed to have turned off all the lights in the room, and there was not even a ray of light in front of my eyes at the moment.

I felt the bed sag a little and he sat up.

"Empty yourself, don't think about anything for now." Hao Nan's voice was very close to me.

I tried to clear my mind and let myself blend into this silent darkness.

The body gradually relaxes.

Hao Nan asked: "Who is the person you miss the most now?" As soon as his words fell, a figure popped up in my mind, and the hand resting on the bed tightly grasped the quilt.

"You love him very much." Hao Nan's voice was very melodious, very soft, with a kind of seductive charm, "Does he love you too?"

I nodded and shook my head again.I have no idea.I don't know why cruelty and tenderness are mixed in the same person, and I don't know which side is his truth.

"It seems that you are all entangled."

An eerie silence followed.After a while, Hao Nan finally said, "Can you treat me as him?"

how is this possible--

I was about to shake my head, but he pressed my shoulder: "Cooperate with me, this is just helping you find your feelings."

I didn't move, acquiesced.

Hao Nan lowered his hands slowly, took mine lightly, and called me, "Xiao Chu."

"..."

"neat."

"..."

"Wen Chuchen."

My little finger twitched.

"Wen Chuchen." Seeing my reaction, he continued to call me that way, "What do you want from me?"

Almost without hesitation, I rushed forward, embraced the living body in front of me, held him tightly in my arms, and pressed him down.

"You think I'll be by your side forever, right? You're afraid that I'll leave." He turned his head, his lips pressed against the side of my face, stroking my warm palms ambiguously, "I want to be with you too. You're together. We're going to hold hands, hug and kiss, and have sex/love in the same bed. My body and my heart are all yours."

I nodded vigorously and hugged him tightly with all my strength, not wanting to let go for a moment.

"Unfortunately, these are all your delusions." His tone suddenly turned cold, like a basin of ice water poured over his head in the middle of winter, "I'm leaving and never coming back." He pushed me away without mercy Pushed me away.

I fell into the quilt, a little dizzy.

"I'll marry someone else." His voice suddenly became farther away. "We'll have children, and we'll have a long, good life."

I hurriedly propped up my body and grabbed forward indiscriminately.

But there was nothing in front of him.

"And you are nothing. You don't even dare to chase me, dare not say you like me, you can only watch me go."

"You were kidnapped by fans, and you tried your best to smile at them. You begged for their love for you. It's too pitiful, you are just a plaything of the fan economy."

I knelt down on the bed, covered my ears and shook my head desperately.

"Look, you're running away again. If you don't want to listen, I want you to listen!" He squeezed my wrist and pulled it away, and said sharply, "Listen!"

"You can't even be yourself! Why do you want me to be with a marionette?"

"I'm not!" I pushed him away and punched the bed hard.

This seems to have opened a mouth for myself.Collapse, madness, anger, unwillingness, regret, the negative emotions that have been stuffed in the chest finally burst out all at once.

"Get out! Get out of here! I'm not!!"

I pounded the bed until it made a weird noise, and started grabbing things around without direction, throwing the pillow when I grabbed the pillow, and throwing the quilt when I picked up the quilt.

"What am I did wrong!"

"Is it wrong for me to like you! Is it wrong for me to want to be liked!!"

I cried, and the tears couldn't stop.The fabric of the tie was wet with tears and stuck to my eyelids, which was very uncomfortable.

I've had enough.

I was so tired from the fuss, I fell on the bed exhausted.

The room seemed to light up, and a pair of hands untied the tie that was blindfolded for me.I still keep my eyes closed.

"Xiao Chu." He called to me, his tone a little anxious, "Xiao Chu, open your eyes and see if I'm alright?"

"It's me, it's Hao Nan, not him."

After venting, my mind gradually cleared up, knowing that when I mobilized my emotions just now, I had already said what I couldn't say.

I huddled into a ball, motionless.

I would rather that Jian Junxi was in front of me just now, and I would rather that I really told him everything.

That day Jian Junxi... Maybe he was waiting for me to say to him: Take me away, just like five years ago.

But I'm a hopeless coward.

Hao Nan hugged me, I slowly raised my head, and saw my face in a very bad state reflected in his tired eyes.He moved closer and touched my forehead.

I also reached out and hugged him back, a little greedy for his hot body temperature in the autumn night.The warmth of the night when he applied the medicine to me for the first time also gave me the answer in my heart.

But, the body is close at hand, and the heart is far away.

"...I don't mind if you have someone you like." Hao Nan raised his hand and touched my face, "Try with me, can you?"

"We are friends when we go out, and lovers when we close the door. No one will find out what we are doing. You can rely on me, use me, and use me as a substitute. I don't care. I just want a chance." He said in a hoarse voice, "If you still decide to go to him after the shooting, then we will never see each other again."

"...Okay." I said.

In an instant, I remembered many things.I think of the figure that stood in front of me when Lian Qiming was in a car accident, Tang Youbin’s powerful arm when he was pulling me through the crowd, the smile that Xiang Hua showed me sitting in front of the piano that day when we first met, and Jian Junxi taking me away The tip of my nose that was blown red by the air conditioner that morning in my hometown.

I'm such a heartless bastard.

Hao Nan went to the bathroom to get a wet towel, sat by the bed and wiped my face.

"Does your face still hurt?" he asked.

I pulled out an ugly smile: "It hurts, I need my boyfriend to kiss me to get better."

Hao Nan paused his hand and said, "Don't force yourself, just do as usual."

So I regained my bitter face again, and sat on the bed in a daze.After Hao Nan cleaned up for me, she turned off the light. Seeing that I was still like this, she went back to sleep on her own bed.

The night is already deep.

I took out my phone, clicked on Jian Junxi's WeChat, and started typing.

"Haha, I didn't expect that, I have a boyfriend."

delete.

"I'm in love, no matter what you say, I won't break up."

delete.

"I don't like you anymore, it's useless for you to regret it."

delete.

……

I couldn't sleep, I just kept editing in the dialog box, and deleted word by word, and in the end I still didn't send anything.

Hao Nan also seemed to be suffering from insomnia, I heard him turn over every once in a while.

Xiaofeng's cell phone is still in my drawer. I know there may be something I want to see in it, but I don't want it to affect my mood for the time being.

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There are three people who can't sleep tonight.When Xiao Chu was editing the news, someone was tossing and turning on the bed staring at the line "the other party is typing".In this chapter, Xiao Chu’s memories of the other four concubines are the nodes when he was tempted/favorable to them.

Let me explain: Mr. Hao took the opportunity of helping, and deliberately tested Xiao Chu with some private goods. As a result, he played too big, and Xiao Chu collapsed. Teacher Hao also collapsed when he found out that Xiao Chu liked someone.Both of them started to break their cans and wrecks, one broke the boat and offered to be a spare tire, and the other gave up on himself and became a scumbag.