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When Hang Jianxing applied to stay with his mother in the ward for the last time, Zongzheng had already left temporarily, which was requested by Hang Jianxing.He wondered if Hang Jianxing knew something and didn't let him stay here.

Hang Jianxing sat quietly in the ward, the sky outside was gradually turning white, the day and night passed so long, his body now seemed to be filled with lead, and he no longer had the ability to move.The mother seemed to be walking very peacefully, and she left in a deep sleep, but she didn't know if she had any unfulfilled wishes.

And myself, since then, I have been alone.

Su Minghuai pushed open the door of the ward and saw the man sitting in the dark room. Every time he saw him, he couldn't help but sigh in his heart, he was really suffering.A person who originally suffered from a phobia of the dark is now in the dark, unmoved.This kind of picture made his eyes red in just a moment.

He came over, handed a letter forward and said, "Auntie asked me to give it to you after the operation."

It turned out that Hang Jianxing was not unresponsive. He suddenly turned his head and stared at Su Minghuai, gritted his teeth and said, "What do you mean? Why did you tell me now!" Did Mom prepare for the funeral early in the morning?Did she expect that she would sleep on the operating table forever?

"Surgery is inherently risky. Auntie is just in case. No one wants to have such a result." Su Minghuai said in a low voice, "I won't give it to you in advance. I promised Auntie, and it's not a big deal to give it to you directly." good sign."

Hang Jianxing didn't blame him. The most important person had just passed away, and his emotions would inevitably get out of control. After receiving the letter, he sorted out his emotions and said sincerely: "Thank you, I'm sorry just now, I..." Hang Jianxing looked When I saw my mother's handwriting on the envelope, I burst into tears, and I was choked up and couldn't speak for a while.Su Minghuai understood him, and also said hoarsely: "I won't disturb your final reunion, there are still two hours left, and the hospital staff will come and take Auntie away when the sky is completely bright."

He left, leaving space for the mother and son. Hang Jianxing opened the last letter with the faint light. His mother said a lot. At the beginning, Hang Jianxing couldn't read the words at all. Li gradually cried out.In fact, this letter is not important anymore. Many things have lost their meaning since the moment my mother left. These tears were shed for my mother, but also for myself.

It is said that it is always good to cry, but after Hang Jianxing shed these tears, he no longer has any emotions and returns to his hometown.

Mom explained a lot of things in the letter, all of which were trivial, as if she wanted to explain clearly about the next few decades, and even wrote down what she should pay attention to when she was old.However, the following words made Hang Jianxing focus on:

I always knew that you were bound by someone because of me. I guessed it when your friend came to me a few years ago.But then you kept covering it up in front of me. I thought you were tired but still able to hold on, so I didn't ask.You are a man with ideas and don't need me to intervene.But now, boy, I can't see you really smiling.In fact, my burden to become you is greater than your spiritual support, so please forgive my mother for leaving without saying goodbye. Mom is really tired, but my departure can fulfill the two of us.Do what you want, mother's last wish is to see you happy in heaven, nothing more.

Always miss your mom, stay.

After reading it, Hang Jianxing was completely stunned. He knew that he couldn't hide these things from his mother, but he didn't expect that his mother knew about it early in the morning.Thinking about these years, I have been worrying about myself.Although his mother's step is fulfilling him, he can't be happy no matter what, and my mother's last wish may not come true either.

As for leaving, do what you want... Hang Jianxing looked at the letter paper again, stroked the traces on it, his eyes slowly settled, the time of a letter, it should be dawn.

Mother Hang's funeral was handled very simply. During the cremation, no one came except Zongzheng, Su Minghuai and other friends.After that, Mother Hang became a jar of ashes held by Hang Jianxing, too light to feel.He doesn't plan to bury his mother in Hangzhou, this place doesn't belong to them, he plans to take his mother back to his hometown and find a cemetery for burial.

"I don't think my aunt's funeral should be so simple, and I have the conditions to organize it well."

Zongzheng was very concerned about this matter. After all, the dead are dead, isn't that what the living can do?Especially seeing Hang Jianxing's taciturn appearance, Zongzheng became more and more worried, always feeling that this person would choke his health.Finding some mourners to send off Chuicuidada might make Hang Jianxing vent and make him realize that he has left.This is Zongzheng's original intention.

But Hang Jianxing looked at Zongzheng coldly, and refused without hesitation: "My mother doesn't like this, and there is no need to waste your money on such meaningless things. Don't worry, I just sent my mother back to my hometown, and I won't run away." Yes. Or do you not even give me the right to bury my mother?"

Zongzheng was a little astonished, he obviously didn't mean that, why did Hang Jianxing suddenly look at him coldly?He asked himself that he hadn't done anything to hurt him recently.Considering that Hang Jianxing had just lost his mother, Zongzheng didn't argue with him, but said, "Then I'll go back with you."

"No need, isn't there a lot going on in the company recently?" Although he had rested for a long time, he also knew the outside news. The former chairman died of illness, Zongzheng Company was greatly affected, and with Wu's opponent, it was already an internal and external trouble. . "As Zongzheng's current director, you should know what to do."

Hang Jianxing had already packed his luggage, and stepped out of the apartment entrance with one foot, "I'll ask Xiao Li to take me back, if you don't worry, you can contact him." After finishing speaking, Hang Jianxing closed the door again, and the relationship between the two The line of sight was cut off inside and outside the door.

It should be the first time in these years that Hang Jianxing showed Zongzheng his face.

Zongzheng stood alone in the porch for a long time, and then he turned around and walked back to the living room. He glanced at the empty room, as if Hang Jianxing would never come back, and all the warmth had been lost here.

A place without him is not a home.Zongzheng suddenly felt very cold, but what could he do, he could only wait for someone to come back and trust him.

When Hang Jianxing was sitting in the car going back to his hometown, he still shed a tear without any hope. His mood has fluctuated too much recently. Although those words just came from his heart, they were deliberately done.From the day he knew the truth, he wanted to get angry with Zongzheng once, but he didn't dare to let Zongzheng notice it. Now this is considered "reasonable".

Even at this point, he is still very timid, afraid that Zongzheng will know his true thoughts, and the fear between them is more important than anything else.This kind of abnormal relationship, he no longer wants to continue!

Entering Wenzhou, although Hang Jianxing couldn't tell the difference from the neighboring cities, just that sign made him feel close.He held his mother's ashes and looked at the passing scenery outside the window. After six years, he finally returned to this land.Things have changed. At first I settled in Hangzhou because of my mother's illness, but now, because of my mother's death, I came back again. Apart from memories, I am also a native of Wenzhou.

Before returning home, I arranged for my mother's grave, and it only took one afternoon for my mother to live in her hometown forever, next to my father.He didn't know what his mother's last feelings for his father were when she was alive. When they met in another world, they should clear up their past suspicions and make up for the regrets of this world.

Because the opportunity to return to Wenzhou is rare, and it is estimated that he will not come back in the future, Hang Jian went to some places he used to go to when he was a child.I walked and took pictures all the way, looking at the street in the photo, compared with the memory, it has really changed a lot.

Even if I can find my hometown, I can’t go back. A group of people have changed there, and the house is a bit dilapidated. In a few years, even the house will be demolished and rebuilt.So there is nothing wrong with saying that I am a rootless person.

He also went to the high school and junior high school he attended. The memories of the high school session were all related to Su Minghuai. It seemed that he had an ignorant liking for a girl at that time, but Huai quickly drew his attention back.

Then came the elementary school. He stood at the gate of the school, looking at the mottled characters: Wenzhou Experimental Primary School—the place where he first met Zongzheng.

The memory of meeting him for the first time is very vague. I only remember that I was at the same table with him at that time. He talked a lot at that time, but Zongzheng was very withdrawn since he was a child, and he always ignored him.What impressed me the most was that I was beaten by him.

Standing under the camphor tree on the campus, Hang Jianxing subconsciously touched his head. At that time, he beat him very hard. He just wanted to hug him in exchange for a lesson.Originally, I wanted to draw a clear line with him from now on, but that person suddenly treated me well.At that time, I even gave myself a set of Lego toys, and I was bribed for nothing.At that time, this toy was the whole world to him!When I was young, I had no concept of money, but I also knew that this deskmate was a "big brother", so I became his younger brother without any principles.

Two children ran over at this time, probably in physical education class, and when they passed by Hang Jianxing, they thought they whispered something: "That brother looks good when he smiles, and his eyes are talking." The other child nodded in agreement, Hang Jianxing also noticed that he was smiling.It seems that when elementary school is about to graduate, the classmate list is handed out to the whole class. He hopes that everyone can write a few words on it. Zongzheng wrote it like: Your eyes can talk, I like it very much.

Could it be that he fell in love with her at that time and confessed?

The wind blew quietly, the children playing ran away, and the laughter and laughter gradually faded away, and they were not taken care of.

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