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"Why do you want to go with me? Didn't you mean to go home separately?"

Walking on the way home, my head gradually became able to think about basic things, such as ordering my feet to move to my wooden house.

From time to time, on the sunken muddy road, some peasants still showed indifferent and timid expressions, and even the patrolling swordsmen showed disgust and contempt when they saw Jieshi.

If it wasn't for Dun who followed along the way, Jieshi might have been targeted by stones or fruits that could be thrown.

"I want to know your answer."

After finally walking to the countryside where he lived, when he opened the wooden door and entered the house to lie down, he didn't let Jieshi ask about this serious topic.

"Please let me rest. This question is like a death call. It's terrible."

"You can't be a criminal, it's tantamount to death."

"Yeah, it is indeed equivalent to sending to death."

Reluctantly, he moved to the bed made of hard wood, ignoring Dun who had been standing at the gate, and Jieshi tried his best to relax his nerves.

As a result, the pressure that Dun gave was too heavy, even if he ignored it, there was still a heavy oppression.

"Hurry up and go home, don't stay in my house like a piece of wood."

"I want to know your answer."

"How could there be an answer so quickly?"

"No, you've already figured out the answer."

"what?"

Staring at Jie with a puzzled expression, he stood still and continued talking.

"When you are involved in the death of many people, you will have the answer. No matter how much you think about it, as long as it involves the lives of innocent people, you will have the answer. You are undoubtedly planning to die. You are afraid that you will become a killer who kills everyone. It's just that you are the master of the sword. The country’s important combat power, even if you save a batch of lives now, you will still be able to rely on your strength to save more lives in the future.”

"This is war, huh? The number of people I was sent to save is definitely not the amount I can repay with a single word."

"That doesn't mean you can choose to die just because you're afraid."

"My life is my own consideration, right?"

Jie Shi turned around so that his face would not be seen by Dun, and he also did not want to see Dun's tense or even angry face.

"There are still many promises, which represent a part of you."

"Dun, for the sake of the country, for the many civilians, shouldn't I die?"

"Never."

"Wow, don't let other people hear that, or they'll hate you."

"You cannot be handed over."

"Oh, anyway, go back quickly."

"Don't die, Jieshi."

After saying this, he turned around and closed the wooden door, and slowly moved towards his house.

It wasn't until the footsteps left that Jie Shi could relax and sigh heavily.

"Oh, that's annoying enough."

The body is gradually rolled into a ball with the abdomen as the center, and the head is tightly wrapped with both hands, begging for his own existence not to be revealed, fearing that he will be discovered by others.

"It's so annoying."

dong dong.

The door of the wooden house suddenly remembered two knocking sounds. It was not a trained "sign" finger knocking, but a simple way that ordinary people would knock on the wooden door to call the inside of the house.

"Jess, are you home?"

Through the wooden door came a female high-pitched voice with a slightly forceful tone, which seemed hurried and flustered.

It is impossible to accurately determine the purpose of coming here, but this tone shows that the identity of the other party is known.

It has been several years since I heard it, but it is still clearly and deeply imprinted in the depths of Jieshi's memory.

"Aunt?"

Thinking of this familiar voice, Jie Shi jumped up from the bed, hurriedly moved to the gate, and opened the wooden door.

"Auntie, you have lost a lot of weight."

I have been taken care of by the other party since I was a child. Every time I get injured, I go to my aunt’s house to apply medicine. Sometimes when I am too hungry to bear a piece of bread, I will go to my aunt’s house for dinner. Whenever I quarrel with Dun or other friends, I will go to my aunt’s house. Hiding, every time I encounter setbacks, I will be run to my aunt's house.

The hair in front of my eyes was covered with white hair due to age, and there were many wrinkles on the face. After decades of sun exposure, the skin looked dark and rough. The middle-aged woman who should be slightly fat in my memory was obviously thinner at this moment.

It's Jieshi's family, an existence that has no blood relationship but is closer than anyone else.

"Hehe, the speech is still the same as before. I haven't seen you for so many days. It seems that I have suffered a lot. Come, come to my house for dinner?"

Different from everyone I met along the way, the aunt under the eyes is obviously happy for Jieshi to return to the Kingdom of Swords from the bottom of his heart. His smile is full of warmth and kindness. The kindness released makes Jieshi feel an illusion of happiness for a moment. If he didn't immediately shake his head away from the drowsiness, Jie Shi might collapse uncontrollably because of it.

"This...may be inconvenient."

He was very eager to run over to eat and hug his aunt whom Jieshi believed to be his family, but when Jieshi thought about the reactions of those people along the way, he could understand that the kingdom of the sword had spread throughout the hostage team.

In this case, it should not increase the trouble of the aunt.

"Others may believe such baseless rumors, but I will never believe it, Auntie, because Jieshi is a good child, a child I raised with my own hands, and a child I am proud of. How could that be possible? Will be the plague god of our country, right?"

"Auntie, I, I have something urgent to do later."

It's almost unstoppable.

Looking directly at him is very familiar, it is probably the only warm affection he has gained in this life, and Jieshi is almost unable to hold on.

He wanted to take a step back and close the door, unable to continue the conversation, because as long as he spoke, Jieshi would shed tears that were a sign of weakness.

"That's right, that's right, then at least roast this large piece of black pork, even if it's original, it's very delicious."

He stretched out his hand to grab Jieshi's shoulder, and forcibly handed a large piece of bright red meat to Jieshi's hand. The degree of freshness can be judged from the traces of blood dripping from the warmth on the top, which is just out of the oven. The white veins under the bright red meat are tightly and orderly distributed, and the meat quality is very firm judging from the touch.

It is a thigh meat of a black pig raised in the Kingdom of Swords.

"This piece of meat is delicious! And Auntie and I have always believed that you are not the plague god of the country, but my treasure and hope. No matter what decision you make, you will always be my pride."

"Woo!"

A burning heat erupted from his body, especially when he noticed the hot and slippery touch from the corner of his eyes, he immediately punched his face in the pork to avoid the expression on his face from being seen by the aunt.

"Huh? That's not okay, even if you're very hungry, you can't eat like this."

The thick lines are so thick that it makes people laugh, even in this situation Jie Shi still wants to laugh, but he can't.

In the ear, there is only the gentle tone that is so familiar that I really want to be with you forever.

The right hand with dark skin was placed gently on Jieshi's head, stroking Jieshi's hair from side to side.

"Next, I'm going to make dinner for the children. Of course, if you want to come to my house, you are welcome at any time. Don't be afraid, baby, I will always support you behind my back."

"wait wait wait!"

Withdrawing his stroking right hand, Jie looked like a pet that had lost his favor, and looked up at his aunt in shock.

"Huh? What's the matter baby?"

boom.

As a result, just as he turned his head, Jie Shi immediately slapped his face on the pork again, even more forcefully than before, and made a loud sound.

"Jessie?"

"Auntie, what would I do if you were me? In order to save everyone, I would be regarded as a criminal by the whole world and sent to the Magic Kingdom."

The volume was as low as whispering, and even the sound of mosquitoes flying around was clearer than Jie Shi's words.

As a swordsman of the kingdom of swords, his physical talent is still able to hear what Jieshi said, and more importantly, this middle-aged woman focused on what Jieshi said wholeheartedly.

"Why are you talking about this all of a sudden?"

Hearing this reverse inquiry, Jieshi suddenly felt ashamed, and his mind was full of self-shaming negative thoughts such as "to put his own problems on others".

Jieshi could only keep silent, unable to face his aunt and sinking his face further into the pork.

"Auntie, I don't know how to answer this question, but let me tell you a little story from before."

Sitting directly at the gate, wrapping slightly thick arms around Jieshi's shoulders, he raised his head and looked at the night sky that was gradually turning dark but shone with light the size of a grain of rice.

"Baby Jieshi also knows that we are farmers who grow vegetables and rice. The country is rich in food, but sometimes there will be natural disasters. Not long after you left the country, there were actually several months of famines. The self-sufficient life suddenly We were in trouble, and the gold coins were not enough to support the family. My child’s father and I were in a dilemma, whether to sell the land and live a stable life temporarily, or let the four children in the family adopt two children from other wealthy families to reduce the burden on the family.”

Slowly turned his head from the gap squeezed in the pork, and looked at Auntie from the corner of his eyes under the blurred vision that gradually turned black.

Looking at the stars that are gradually shining with countless lights and hopes, those ordinary eyes seem to be shedding tears at the moment-Jieshe knows that aunts rarely lie, but this is undoubtedly a real and serious "experience".

It is clearly the pain of the past, and it is likely that just thinking about it will make you feel, unhappy, and sad, but you are willing to bring it up again for the sake of a show.

"At that time, my child's father and I thought about it for a long time and were unwilling to make a separation. One side was our baby, and the other side was the land we had worked so hard for half our lives. How could we be willing to give up because of a major famine? Until we found out that eating After eating all the rice, no vegetables, and no meat, we realized that we had to make a choice, which was a very painful choice. After that, we sold half of the land and hoped to be able to We survived until it rained, and continued to live a reluctant but happy life again, but the rain still did not fall. In the end...we entrusted our two young children to a wealthy family that was more famous but unable to have children. After this painful farewell The next day it rained heavily and the crops continued to grow, but the two children never came back to live with us.”

Having said that, the aunt lowered her head and wiped the corners of her eyes with the back of her hand.

"We hoped to procrastinate and pray to God, but in the end we lost everything."

I don't know that my aunt has actually gone through such painful choices, but at this moment, she longs for her warmth. Not only is she humiliated, but even guilt creeps into Jiexi's heart.

Unknowingly craving warmth that shouldn't be expected, it's the worst.

"A story will always bring something to say to the good children who listen. What do you think this story wants to tell?"

Not knowing whether to see through Jieshi's heart or a purely meaningless act, he gently stroked Jieshi's hair again without seeing Jieshi's face.

"Keep delaying choices, and you'll end up with a lot of pain and disappointment."

"That's right, a lot of pain and despair, but Auntie has realized many things besides these."

Jieshi stared at his aunt from the corner of his eyes through the gap in the meat, and found that those eyes, which were obviously filled with sad tears, had a strong light that made people feel strong.

"Life is still very hard. The remaining two children are still hungry from time to time, but we can still live happily and enjoy every hard work. The other two children, when I secretly saw them from the window happy, I already satisfy."

The painful choice between sadness and joy, even in the dim despair, still moves forward with a glimmer of hope.

A faint smile squeezed out of that brave and strong expression.

"If I selfishly abandoned my children at that time, I would be so sad that I couldn't even eat food, but seeing them happily eating and having fun in other people's homes, I am satisfied, and I think this is enough... Sorry for the inexplicable story, In short, no matter what the choice is, I will not blame you, because you will be my pride."

After finishing speaking, the aunt stood up and walked to her home.

As a mother in the family, she cannot accompany Jieshi all the time, she has her own housework.

It wasn't until the aunt disappeared from Jieshi's eyes that Jieshi gradually raised his head. The pork on his hands was deformed due to his excessive squeezing, and too much liquid was stained on the pork, making it unclear whether it was blood from fresh meat. Still tears.

"Does it make you proud to ask me to sacrifice the whole country?"

Looking up at the starry night sky, Jieshi's face gradually revealed a distorted face intertwined with pain and grief.