almost lonely

Holding on to the apron awkwardly, she tentatively asked, "Why don't you leave after eating?" Ning Juechen still smiled gently: "No, you all have dinner together, what am I doing here?" Chen Yuhong only felt This was said so mercilessly that she was really speechless and ashamed.She stumbled and followed a few steps to the door, and asked her little son in a trembling voice: "How are you doing now?" Ning Juechen opened the door and walked out, without stopping or looking back, he said: "Better than before. "

Ning Juechen was breathing deeply when he was going down the stairs. His phone rang, and he picked it up without looking at it: "Brother Ye, where are you?" Things need to be added..."

Ning Juechen interrupted him, and the last half of the sentence was very soft and even a little pleading: "I know you are following me, where are you? Brother Yi, I feel a little uncomfortable, can you hug me now?" Xu Ye He was so frightened by his words that his breathing became rough, and his heart ached: "I'm downstairs, do I want to come up to pick you up? Wait a minute."

Just after Xu Ye finished speaking, he saw Ning Juechen walking towards him, like a wounded migratory bird, flapping its wings and walking towards him with difficulty and clumsily.Xu Ye went up to meet him, opened his arms to catch him, and hugged him tightly.Ning Juechen put all his weight on and closed his eyes tiredly: "Thank you for finding me."

Six years ago and six years from now, thank you for finding me.

They went to dinner, and Ning Juechen ordered wontons, with a lot of chili oil added.Xu Ye couldn't stop him, he could only watch him cry crazily while eating, and then he started to have a stomachache after eating.

After going back, Ning Juechen shrunk into a small shrimp on the bed, Xu Ye hugged him from behind, and gently rubbed his stomach, Ning Juechen squinted his eyes and babbled a lot, Xu Ye felt that after he woke up, Never said so much.

"My brother is married and has children. They are two little boys, twins, four and a half years old."

"Actually, he doesn't look like my brother."

"Uncle is not at home, I didn't ask. My mother is a lot older, with white hair and more wrinkles. She is almost sixty, which is normal."

"She cooked a lot of dishes. I saw Kung Pao Chicken and Potato Beef Stew, both of which my brother likes. There is also pork rib soup in the pot."

"They seem to have dinner with the whole family every weekend."

"I never imagined that they remembered me, but I suddenly realized that it would be better without me."

"You see, I'm like an extra part, they're like a machine, they're fine, but they can't turn when I'm put on them. Take me away, and everything will be fine."

"I'm superfluous."

"Why me? Why is there an extra me?"

"I see them living such a happy life, and I feel a little uncomfortable in my heart."

"Only one, I swear."

"Maybe I shouldn't have come here."

Finally Ning Juechen asked in a daze: "My brother said you disappeared for two years, where did you go?" Xu Yi kissed the little mole on the back of his neck: "Do you really want to know?"

34 If you are a migratory bird【End of HE】

Ning Juechen nodded, his hair gently brushed Xu Ye's Adam's apple, making him itchy.Xu Ye thought for a while: "I didn't go anywhere, but my mother took her back and locked her up."

This statement is not entirely false.On the night when Ning Juechen disappeared, he had an emotional breakdown, sat alone on the ruins of Baile Lane with a high fever, and drank alcohol. The next day, he was so sick that he fell into a coma and was almost regarded as a dead body.The other party called the police, and the police contacted his mother, and he was taken back to Lian City.

In the past six months, Xu Ye has been sleepless and exhausted in order to take care of Ning Juechen, all relying on the faint thoughts in his heart, but now he has no more thoughts, and the string is broken. the difference.After a few days, the cold didn't get better at all, but got worse. I asked a doctor to check and found out that it was not a common cold, but viral myocarditis.

This disease is difficult to diagnose, and the severity of the disease varies greatly. Mild cases will not feel, severe shock and sudden death are possible.Xu Ye's condition is serious and dangerous, and he has issued a critical illness notice once.He didn't have the will to survive at first, but after going to the gate of hell, he seemed to know he was afraid again.

Not afraid of death, but afraid of missing Chen Chen.What if Chenchen is also struggling so hard to wake up?He promised that Chenchen would wait for him.This idea supported him to survive the most difficult and dangerous period.

After the situation improved a bit, he clamored to be discharged from the hospital and to go back to Jingcheng. Not only did his mother not refuse at that time, but she also gave him some hope, saying that she would send him there when he recovered.It took almost a year from diagnosis to treatment to recovery from the disease, but on the day he was discharged from the hospital, he was unable to return to Jingcheng, where he was thinking about day and night and dreaming about it day and night.

Ning Juechen hummed, and asked in a low voice: "And then?" Xu Ye stopped his hands and replied in as relaxed a tone as possible: "Then I want to run, but the gatekeeper is too powerful, and I can't even run away. "Brother Ye, you are shaking." Ning Juechen turned around and grabbed Xu Ye's wrist with his backhand. There was a butterfly-shaped scar like his wrist. He asked Xu Ye how he did it, but Xu Ye refused explain.

He was sent to a treatment center. In fact, until now Xu Ye didn't know how much his parents knew about the so-called homosexual treatment institution, whether they were ignorant or heartless.He has never shy away from his relationship with Ning Juechen. Before that, his family's attitude has always been to turn a blind eye, thinking that he was just playing casually. Until this time, he probably found that he was serious, so Measures have been taken.

He was tricked into taking the car arranged by his mother, thinking that he could finally find his long-lost lover, only to be transferred from one hospital to another "hospital".Although myocarditis did not leave too serious sequelae, it was somewhat affected. The intensity of the electric shock "treatment" in the later period became more and more intense, and once almost killed him.

But it can be regarded as a blessing in disguise. I am afraid that people will be killed there, and the so-called treatment in the back is all fake.One course of treatment lasted half a year, and he was locked up inside for a whole year.It was a hell of a time, so painful, so hopeless, that there were times when he felt he couldn't take it anymore.

Every day I count the days on my fingers, and when I can't sleep, I scratch my wrist and think about Chen Chen, it breaks, bleeds, scabs, breaks again, bleeds again, scabs again.It turns out that this is the feeling of betraying relatives, did Chen Chen come here every day before? ——I can only see you when I live, and I can love you only when I have life.

"I'll go back to Jingcheng to find you later," Xu Ye's kisses fell like a shower, rubbing Ning Juechen's bangs, kissing from the corner of his forehead along the wound to the center of the eyebrows, from the center of the eyebrows to the red eyes From the corner of his eyes to his thin cheek, he finally pressed his lips lightly, as if he wanted to send a few words directly between his lips and teeth, "I snatched you away."

After two years, he finally returned to Jingcheng and went straight to the Central Hospital, but the person he was looking for was gone.At that time, his first reaction was that Ning Juechen had already woken up, and he was discharged from the hospital.He went to Lu's house, but Chen Yuhong told him that they transferred Ning Juechen to another hospital last year because of too much financial pressure.

Then there was another round of twists and turns. He drove through the whole city for more than two hours, and found the remote and simple small hospital.In the small and dark ward, the nurses were roughly moving the patient away and changing the slightly yellowed bed sheet underneath.

His baby was picked up casually by that person, so small, so light, so pitiful, the hanging arms were skinny, and there was a large patch of red prickly heat on his neck. At that time, he didn't know that Ning Juechen's hospital gown Two bedsores were hidden.

When Ning Juechen first became a vegetative, Xu Ye frantically searched the Internet. There was an article with the title "All vegetatives starve to death in the end", and he was so scared that he dropped his phone in an instant.Of course the Lu family would not be able to do this, they would spend money to support Ning Juechen, at least to keep him alive, just like this, but at that moment Xu Ye really felt cold all over his body and his heart was cold.

He knelt at Lu's house for three days and three nights, begging Chen Yuhong and Lu Chengxiong to let him take Ning Juechen away. The reason why the old couple hesitated was because they were afraid of being honest, and worried that others would talk behind their backs if they knew they didn't take care of their seriously ill son. .He saw clearly that this family had no heart at all.

"You're lying, there's no way you snatched it away." Ning Juechen blinked slowly, "They wish they could get rid of me sooner." Xu Ye hugged him, and patted him on the back like a coaxing child : "It's true, so I took you to elope to another city, just because I was afraid they would come looking for you."

He entrusted someone to transfer Ning Juechen to a large hospital in the provincial capital, hired the best experts, arranged the best wards, and found the best nurses.Xu Ye's past 27 years have been smooth sailing, at least he has not experienced financial pressure.Although he had been mentally prepared for a long time, the cost of seeing a doctor was too high, and the money on his card was almost used up soon.

He had no choice but to borrow money from his family, and he lost face and self-esteem.A few months ago, he lost his temper and left, and kept saying that he would never come back, but in the face of reality, no matter how proud he was, he had to bow his head.His mother was also straightforward, and directly transferred the money to his account, and asked him to set up a written statement, and he had to go home if he didn't pay it within two years.Those two years were the hardest days. He found a job and began to commute regularly, and all the little salary he earned was used to fill this hole.

When he was in his own company, he was the young master, the son, and the people around him