almost lonely

Following behind him and Lu Juelan without saying a word, Xu Ye said at that time that he was "silent" and that he was "like a beautiful dummy".

In the morning, Ning Juechen would read a book for a while, and after lunch, if it was a sunny day, he would sit on the balcony and bask in the sun. He looked very tired, and sometimes fell asleep accidentally.On a cloudy day with no sun, he sat on the sofa with a notebook and wrote, even breathing very lightly. The room was too quiet, only the intermittent sound of typing on the keyboard.

Xu Ye didn't like Ning Juechen being so "silent". In fact, he was very afraid that he would be replaced silently in his body, and he was even more afraid that Ning Juechen would disappear one day.He used to think that he could grasp Ning Juechen as long as he hugged the weak body connected to the gastric tube, but now he can't grasp at all, nothing.

This afternoon, a small examination was arranged at the hospital, and Xu Ye had to go there early.Ning Juechen curled up on the recliner and fell asleep again, the book in his hand was spread out on his lap, the milk was finished, and the cup and mobile phone were placed on the small table at hand.The screen of the mobile phone was still lit up with new messages, the note name was H, and Xu Ye knew that this person was Qiu Hui.

He only learned that Qiu Hui was Ning Juechen's senior in college a few days ago. He didn't know that the two of them met by chance at work. They started talking about life philosophy every day when they were in school.Just imagining that scene makes Xu Ye go crazy.

But he has no right to be angry. Ning Juechen treated him so wholeheartedly during those years in college, but he was always pretending to be deaf and dumb, pretending not to understand, pretending not to see.

Although their schools are in the same city, the distance is not very close. It takes nearly two hours to take the bus and then change to the subway.Ning Juechen went to look for him when he was free on weekends. Xu Ye was in a good mood to meet him, but he forgot when he was busy. Ning Juechen wandered around the school and waited. Later, he was more familiar with the area outside Xu Ye's school than Xu Ye. And four years later, Xu Yelian didn't know which district Ning Juechen's school was in, because he had never been there.

Chenchen should have seen him clearly at that time and stayed as far away from him as possible, Xu Yi thought.

Xu Ye knelt down and took out the book, Ning Juechen moved his fingers and woke up.Xu Ye stuffed a hot water bag into his hand: "I have a checkup today, I have to go to the hospital earlier." Ning Juechen paused, nodded, and without speaking, took the phone to send a message to Qiu Hui, Xu Ye suddenly felt sour and jealous and went mad again, which was very unpleasant.

He still can't get used to Ning Juechen's indifferent attitude towards him, sometimes Xu Yi wonders if his Chenchen doesn't like him anymore?Or, did you not like it earlier?

The more than an hour in the hospital was completely exhausted, and then he heard a little noise outside the ward, Xu Yi opened the door and went out to see Aunt Xu standing aggressively at the door with her hips akimbo, and a person standing opposite her.Xu Ye was very surprised, and almost blurted out "Chenchen", but suddenly realized that Aunt Xu was there, and swallowed the words back.

Aunt Xu has some complaints about the twin brother. In her eyes, the whole family is terribly indifferent. Since the accident, she has only visited the doctor a handful of times, leaving only her a nurse and a friend here to take care of her.In addition to what happened a few days ago, even though Xu Ye concealed everything that should have happened that day, she is not stupid, as soon as her brother who hasn't been here for 800 years comes, she will send him away, and something will happen immediately when she turns around. No matter how you think about it, you can't get away from this unexpected guest.

Therefore, the ruthless and unrighteous elder brother is undoubtedly more sinful in Aunt Xu's heart, so she is not polite at all when she speaks: "Why are you here again? What do you want to do this time? I think your brother has not suffered enough. ah?"

Ning Juechen's face was flushed red by her words, his fingertips turned white, and he stood with his head bowed against the wall like a child being scolded by a teacher.Xu Ye asked Aunt Xu to go in first, turned to him and asked, "Why did you come here suddenly?" Ning Juechen handed over the thing he was clutching in his hand: "Here."

The situation seems to be getting worse in the past few days, the body is getting harder and harder to control, walking or talking has become incapable, every minute and every second is indescribably sleepy and tired, and thinking things are very slow, sometimes It takes Ning Juechen a long time to figure out what it means when you say a word.He pulled down the scarf a little, and took a breath: "The key."

Xu Ye was taken aback, he was a little anxious to go out today, and he didn't realize that he forgot to bring the house key: "Did you send it to me specially?" Ning Juechen hummed: "I'm going back." Xu Ye stretched out his hand to hold him "Chenchen accompany me to finish dinner before leaving. Is there anything you want to eat?" Ning Juechen didn't respond again, Xu Ye thought he was unwilling, and after a while he heard him whisper: "I want to eat, soup Bao, is it okay?" Xu Ye hurriedly responded: "Okay, just wait for me."

They took a taxi to the No. [-] Middle School. In fact, Xu Ye wasn't sure if the old Liu's breakfast shop was still there. He was just trying his luck.The store has been redecorated a long time ago, and now it is called Xiao Liu Snacks. After asking, I found out that the store is still the same store, and it has been passed from Lao Liu to Xiao Liu.

Ning Juechen first ordered two cages of three fresh soup dumplings, two tea eggs, a cup of sweet soy milk, and a bowl of tofu nao. The young new boss explained that tofu nao was only available at breakfast time, and replaced it with soy milk.Xu Ye added two more bowls of miscellaneous grain porridge. He didn't expect that Ning Juechen still remembered the "standard" breakfast they had when they were in school, and his heart softened.

It was time for dinner, and the shop was full of students in groups of three or four. The two finally got two seats in the corner, and there were two high school students on the same table. They looked like a young couple, girls. Picking noodles into the boy's bowl: "What happened later? What did Lao Zhou tell you? Did you call your parents?" The boy stuffed a soup dumpling into his mouth and muttered, "You just taught me a lesson. Stop it, I was punished to stand all afternoon, I was exhausted, but I didn't tell my parents to come over."

"Oh my God! One afternoon! What did you say? How did you offend him?" "I said we were not in a relationship, I was chasing you wishful thinking, but you sternly refused, saying that you should concentrate on studying hard, and I became more and more frustrated." Yong, if you insist on pestering you, if you continue to reject me, I will continue to pester you..." The girl stretched out her hand and flicked the boy's forehead: "It's alright, alright, then you've thrown yourself into a trap!" The boy Covering her forehead, she softly acted like a baby: "Then you have to surrender, I am here to protect my daughter-in-law!" The girl's face turned red immediately: "What nonsense! Who is your daughter-in-law!"

Ning Juechen heard them quarreling, and an incident from a long time ago vaguely appeared in his mind.It should be the last semester of the third year of high school. Xu Ye didn't do her Chinese homework for two weeks. The teacher gave an ultimatum, saying that she would not take her Chinese class if she didn't hand in her weekend homework.Xu Ye didn't take it seriously at all, and ran out to play with Lu Juelan again at noon.

Ning Juechen spent the entire lunch break imitating Xu Ye's handwriting for a paper, but in the end he was too sleepy and stupid, and wrote his name in the name column.For such an obedient student as Ning Juechen, he was punished to stand once in his life.In the afternoon, when Xu Ye and Lu Juelan came back from the Internet cafe, they saw Ning Juechen standing at the back of the classroom, facing the blackboard and facing the wall, thinking.

Ning Juechen thought foolishly at that time: Fortunately, he and Xu Ye are no longer friends, otherwise what would he say when he asked?The reason for being punished seems too stupid and a bit embarrassing.

After thinking about this paragraph, Ning Juechen pursed his lips and smiled, it turned out that he liked Xu Ye so much at that time, he almost forgot.Xu Ye hadn't seen him smile for a long time, and asked him what was wrong, Ning Juechen shook his head silently, Xu Ye didn't know about those things, they were all his own secrets.

The soup is filled with thin skin and fresh soup, which is still the old taste of the student days, but Xu Ye really doesn't know how to eat it. Ning Juechen seems to have returned to ten years ago, always nodding and shaking his head dullly, talking very little, inside The other half is saying "I'm sorry".Seeing him like this, Xu Ye's heart also sank, day after day it felt like being tortured.

The couple of high school students next to them left after eating. Xu Yi turned his head for a while to look at the backs of them secretly holding their little fingers and leaving: "Chenchen, I want to go back to school."

The gatekeeper of the school was no longer the old man in white sweatshirt, but a group of security guards in uniform. Xu Ye lied without blushing, saying that he was the parent of a student and was called by the teacher to talk.The security uncle looked suspicious, probably because he didn't believe there were such young parents of high school students.

Before the security could react, Xu Ye pulled Ning Juechen past him and slipped in. Time seemed to go back to the first day they met.Lu Juelan suddenly threw a younger brother on the back seat of him. He was late gorgeously after breakfast with this little thing that came out of nowhere, so he kicked him hard and broke into the school gate. The gatekeeper was behind He blew the whistle to ask him to stop, and the dean chased him and yelled, "Which class is in front! Stop for me!"

He didn't want to stop, he wanted to take Ning Juechen and keep walking.

Evening self-study has already started, and the school is very quiet.Everything seemed strange yet familiar. They passed by the remodeled carport, passed by the brightly lit classrooms, walked through the long corridors, and finally came to the playground, where they sat on the soft grass and watched the stars. In the deep purple night sky, there are only a few but very bright.

Xu Ye secretly grabbed Ning Juechen's hand and squeezed it into his own: "Chenchen, if we do it all over again, if we start from the beginning... I must have liked you early on, from the very first day."

If we do it all over again.

If we meet in another way.

I know I was wrong, give me another chance.

Ning Juechen heard Xu Ye say a long, long speech, but he couldn't think of it.