almost lonely

It takes longer and longer, 10 minutes, half an hour, a morning, a day, and in the end he will hand over this body, where will he go then?

Ning Juechen left for his house very late on New Year's Eve. It was raining heavily outside. Chen Yuhong opened the door to let him in, stood on tiptoe and wiped his hair with a towel: "Why don't you hold an umbrella? The cold in winter What should I do?" Ning Juechen sniffed, Chen Yuhong's gentleness towards Lu Juelan made him feel ashamed of occupying a magpie's nest, he avoided it uncomfortably, and called out in a low voice: "Mom."

Ning Juechen hasn't been home to celebrate the New Year for many years. To be precise, he hasn't celebrated the New Year with anyone for many years. This kind of lively and warm scene is really strange.He is like a nail that doesn't fit in, it can't fit in, and he stays out of the picture stupidly.Chen Yuhong still cooked a table of dishes as before, most of which Lu Juelan likes to eat.

Lu Chengxiong asked him seriously why he broke up with Xu Tingya and why he lost his job.Chen Yuhong gave Ning Juechen a reproachful look, grabbed Ning Juechen's hand and asked him where he lived now.Ning Juechen said truthfully: "Zhu Ye...Xu Ye's side." Chen Yuhong frowned, and her face immediately changed: "Why are you getting involved with him again!"

Ning Juechen's eyes flashed: "We are friends." Chen Yuhong seemed a little embarrassed: "What kind of friend! He and your brother are like that..." "That kind of person? What kind of person?" Ning Juechen died Biting his lips, he didn't say the next sentence slowly until he tasted the salty taste of blood, "Mom, how long has it been since you went to the hospital to see... him? You just, hate him so much?"

Lu Chengxiong stopped him sharply: "Why are you talking to your mother! Hurry up and apologize to your mother!" Here we go, watch TV."

Ning Juechen lowered his head, his hands were shaking and he could hardly hold the chopsticks.Although I had expected it to be like this, it was still uncomfortable and painful.It turns out that he is a secret that cannot be told, an annoying topic that will affect the atmosphere of the New Year and must be skipped.

After dinner, Chen Yuhong asked him if he would stay and watch the night, and Ning Juechen shook his head.As soon as he walked to the gate of the community, it began to rain lightly, and it became scary in the blink of an eye. Ning Juechen thought it must have been broken again just now, but luckily he had already left the house.A phone call came in, and Chen Yuhong asked him where he wanted to send him an umbrella. Ning Juechen lied to her that he had already taken a taxi.

All the shops on the street were closed, and he was hiding from the rain under the eaves of a convenience store while waiting for the bus.The street lamps cast shadows of wires, cutting his shadow into several pieces.After a long time, no taxi came. He waited for the rain to get smaller and got up and walked into the rain curtain.

Ning Juechen walked through the streets and alleys of Jingcheng, and finally stopped at the entrance of the Central Hospital.The rain had stopped, and he was still dripping with water. The nurse on duty looked at him hesitantly.

He stopped in that ward, and looked in vaguely through the small pane of glass on the door: the room was a little dark, and only a small desk lamp was turned on.The hospital bed was rocked, that "Ning Juechen" sat unconsciously, and Xu Ye sat by the bed and buttoned him.

The two wore the same clothes, Ning Juechen had seen this dress in the paper bag that Xu Ye took back last time.After getting dressed, Xu Ye raised "Ning Juechen"'s hand and kissed his wrist, then leaned forward and kissed his lips quickly.Ning Juechen saw that Xu Ye seemed to be talking, and he guessed that he was saying: Happy New Year.

The phone rang, and Ning Juechen picked it up in a hurry: "Hello?" He was blacked out as a liar.

Before he had time to speak, that indescribable feeling came up again. Fortunately, this time it was very fast, it should only be a few seconds.When Ning Juechen came back to his senses, he was stunned for a moment, and found that his hand was sticking to the door, and he was about to push it away. This was not his own action at all!

——Ning Juechen withdrew his hand suddenly as if being burned by a flame, he thought the blankness was the body turning into an empty shell, until this moment he suddenly realized that things were not that simple.

He staggered back two steps and stumbled through the long corridor of the hospital.Qiu Hui kept calling his name, asking if he was still listening, and if the signal was bad.Ning Juechen walked out of the hospital in a daze, and looked up to see countless fireworks rushing towards the sky carrying people's good wishes to bid farewell to the old and welcome the new.In his ear, Qiu Hui said, "Xiaochen, Happy New Year."

A new year begins.

23 I have someone else in my heart

That day in the hospital, this body made movements against Ning Juechen's wishes for the first time.At that time, it was just trying to open the door, but it developed to the point where it could walk around the next day.

At noon, he was talking on the phone with Qiu Hui in his room, and he had kept a shocking secret for so long by himself. Ning Juelan felt a kind of sincere gratitude for Qiu Hui's trust.After saying a few words, he suddenly lost consciousness again, and when he came back to his senses, he found himself standing at the door of the house, still holding the phone firmly in his hand.

Qiu Hui was calling his name: "Xiaochen? Are you listening?" Ning Juechen broke out in a layer of cold sweat, the whole body was chilly and the wind leaked, and his back was as cold as a handful of piercing ice slag poured into it.

He raised his hand to lock the door, his voice trembling uncontrollably: "Senior, did you hear what I said just now?" Qiu Hui thought that his signal was not good, so he unconsciously raised the volume: "Did you just speak? Is there a problem with the mobile phone? Last night, it seemed to be like this for a while." Ning Juechen answered indiscriminately.

Qiu Hui stayed quiet for a while before tentatively asking: "Are you still staying with your...boyfriend these few days? What about him? In the hospital with...?" one.Ning Juechen smiled wryly: "He's not my boyfriend." Qiu Hui was taken aback: "But last time he said..."

Ning Juechen didn't answer, Qiu Hui realized that he didn't want to discuss this any more, and immediately changed the subject with interest: "I'll go to see you tomorrow, okay, it's boring to celebrate the New Year alone." Ning Juechen is used to this kind of " Bored": "No, you rarely have the chance to go back, so spend more time with your parents at home." Qiu Hui continued: "Then you come to my place to play? I will pick you up." "No." Ning Jue Chen paused, "I still have something to do here."

Qiu Hui sighed slightly: "Xiaochen, have you told others?" Ning Juechen said no, Qiu Hui's tone suddenly became serious: "Okay, then I'm the only one who knows now. You must tell me something, okay?" Ning Juechen struggled in his heart, and after a long silence he said uncertainly: "My brother, he seems to be back..."

The alternation of the next few days became more and more frequent, but Ning Juechen also gradually discovered some rules that could not be called regular: for example, the time of mental relaxation like late at night tends to lose control; for example, dizziness and weakness are the precursors of the exchange; For example, if you force yourself to wake up immediately at the moment of returning to the soul, you can regain the dominance faster.

——Just like now, Ning Juechen felt that his appearance must be very strange at the moment, the security guard on duty in the sentry box had turned his head and stared at him for several minutes.For the first time, he felt so clearly that there was "another person" in his body, that person was pulling this body forward, and he desperately wanted to stop.

Under the confrontation between the two forces, the body seemed to be inserted violently by two giant hands, and then it was slowly torn into two pieces from the heart.In the end, he shivered and squatted down exhaustedly against the wall, his clothes were soaked with sweat, his forehead was sticky and wet, and the wind was colder than ice.

This time he won.

Ning Juechen took a long time to stand up reluctantly, and when he looked up, he saw Xu Ye. He originally thought that Xu Ye would stay with the hospital all the time during the Chinese New Year.Xu Ye came over slowly and stopped in front of him, Ning Juechen smelled exaggerated alcohol.

After the accident, Xu Ye had never drank alcohol. After he really started taking care of the vegetative, he rarely smoked. Ning Juechen didn't know why he suddenly drank like this today.Xu Ye raised his face, and Ning Juechen saw him... crying by the faint light of the street lamp.

Ning Juechen was a little at a loss: "Yo...Xu Ye?" Xu Ye hesitated and said, "Chenchen?" Ning Juechen's heart was beating wildly, and his breathing stopped suddenly.Xu Ye frowned, his face slowly filled with confusion: "Is it Chenchen or Juelan?"

Ning Juechen just felt like a stick in his throat, biting his lips so hard that he couldn't say a word.Xu Ye stared at him sadly for a while, then suddenly his body went limp, staggered and fell down.Before Ning Juechen could react, his body moved unconsciously.

He quickly reached out to catch Xu Ye, they hadn't been so close for a long time, Xu Ye became so thin, Ning Juechen's hand was clasped on his back, and he could feel it through such thick clothes His protruding shoulder blades.

Xu Ye snuggled up to Ning Juechen in a daze, his frozen face pressed heavily on his shoulders, and when he spoke, his lips gently pressed against his neck through the tears, like a trembling kiss: "Juelan, I can't tell you apart. Don't appear in my mind like this again, don't come again..." Ning Juechen tightened his arms and hugged him, his eyes turned red.

Ning Juechen carried Xu Ye back, and asked him in a low voice, "Why drink?" It was too cold, and Xu Ye let out a cloud of white gas as soon as he opened his mouth: "I did something wrong, I didn't take good care of him." Ning Juechen Juechen was stunned for a moment: "What's the matter?" "Suddenly in the morning he had stomach bleeding, and the medicine couldn't be fed, and he kept vomiting..." Xu Ye was trembling, and Ning Juechen thought he was cold, so he hugged him tightly. Even