My brother is so strong, I am also disappointed

Before Fang Qingyu went out, I stopped him and asked Xia Yu about his health.

Fang Qingyu said that there is indeed no serious problem. Most of the internal energy of Baichuan Guihai has already flowed into my meridians, and only a very small part remains in Xia Yu's body. It will not be long before it will be completely dispelled. Slowly restored by the soft and stable internal force of Jiushan Sword Art.

And Fang Qingyu's needle for me is to dissipate all my internal energy again, so that Baichuan Guihai and Jiushan Sword Art will "perish together", so that my sight and hearing will probably be restored, and my meridians will no longer hurt.

But he also said that the meridians of my left hand were damaged too much, whether I can regain consciousness as before is still unknown, maybe this hand will be useless from now on, and this is also related to whether I can rebuild the Nine Mountain Sword tactic.

I still thanked Fang Qingyu, but after he left, I was also a little sad.

Actually I am a little tired.

When Xia Yu was around, I could laugh or cry with him, whether I was willful or noisy, but I couldn't be sentimental or sigh. Anyone could sympathize with me, but I couldn't.

It's not that I can't think about it, and I don't regret it. What I got is even more precious than what I lost. I believe this kind of exchange is worth it.It's just that the more a person deliberately wants to avoid things, the more he has to show his own existence in front of his heart from time to time.Even if Xia Yu is with me all the time, I always feel down, not to mention that I am a depressed person who always thinks things are bad.

For Xia Yu these days, I've always been pretending to be casual, pretending to be free and easy, and smiling harder than usual.

In fact, sometimes I just want to be like I have been for so many years, paralyzed on the bed with a stinky face all day long, doubting life, spurning everything, abandoning myself, resenting myself, and ignoring anyone who comes to me.

I found an opportunity today. Xia Yu and Twelve were fighting in the yard, but I completely relaxed, didn't want to pay attention to anything, just let myself think wildly: life is hopeless, everything is wrong, if I die suddenly Woolen cloth?What if Xia Yu killed Twelve later?What if Twelve killed Xia Yu?What is the most convenient and painless way to commit suicide?

Depression, an emotion that shouldn't be rooted in the heart of a strong person, may also be a unique medicine for me who has been immersed in it all year round.

It's just that the free time is very short. Xia Yu came back not long after and said that the weather outside is warm today and he wants to take me out to bask in the sun.

I asked, "Who won?"

Xia Yu said, "Of course it's me."

I thought about it, and said to him: "Don't make too much trouble with him now, mother is his eldest sister, after all, we are a family."

Xia Yu said, "Don't worry, I won't kill him."

While talking, Xia Yu had already brought me to the yard, and helped me to rest on a small couch covered with animal skin mattresses. I shrank inward and took his hand to signal him to sit down too.

I have a lot of things I want to say to him, but I don't know which thing to say first when it comes to my mouth.

In the end, it was Xia Yu who said first, "Mother has written."

Could it be that he found his father?I was overjoyed: "Tell me what you said?"

"She just wrote a letter to scold me." Xia Yu said, "She said that I shouldn't hurt you rashly, that I shouldn't give up my life and throw myself into the trap, and... that I shouldn't double cultivate with you."

"Who told her about this!" Although I was surprised, I wasn't surprised. Would Yan Shi let go of this opportunity to punish us! "And why do you have to say that? The white ones are black for you."

Xia Yu lowered his head, covered my ears with his hands, and put his mouth close to my ear, and said softly, "The nameless formula is what Song Mingguang has always wanted."

I don't know why Song Mingguang wants my family's thoughts, but now that we are in this Jinmeitan, we need to always beware of the ears in the walls, so I don't feel comfortable asking, knowing the result is enough.I lowered my voice and said, "So you're worried... there will be a second Yan Jiu?"

"Yes."

I finally understand that Xia Yu has always been cautious. He was worried that someone in Hongyan Book was lurking here and would cause trouble after learning that we had practiced the nameless pose, so he simply admitted the matter of double cultivation and hid the nameless pose.After that night, his injury was healed, and I was seriously injured again. If such an abnormal situation was explained by secret magic, it would make sense. Anyway, I have long been notorious, and we are brothers. No one else can figure out any mysterious and wonderful connection.

"Then you deserve to be scolded by your mother." I thought to myself that you said it yourself, and I have to cooperate with you. I don't care if my mother scolds you.

Xia Yu said: "So I'm telling you now, the next time you see your mother, go and explain to her clearly, she believes that I forced you and said she wanted to break my leg."

I laughed so hard that my stomach hurts. If I say forced, it's because I forced him. If my mother wants to break his leg, it's none of my business!

"Then you beg me, it's still too late for you to beg me." I lost myself as soon as I was proud.

"Don't push yourself too far." Xia Yu said, poking my waist with his finger.

"Wow! I was wrong!"

I can't fight, I can't fight, Xia Yu knows where my dead spots are!In fact, he is also very ticklish, but when I fight with him, I can't always touch him. When he scratches me, he will always be sure.

I fought with him for a while, and then I remembered what I had been wanting to ask: "Why did you make such a plan in the first place? Why did you let Twelve save me? How much do you know about your parents?"

Xia Yu seemed to be thinking about what to say. He didn't speak, but his fingers tapped the back of my hand rhythmically.

Finally I heard his voice again: "Let me tell you from the beginning, it may be very long."

"it is good."

"Actually, I always knew what my parents wanted to investigate when they left home. They would correspond with me wherever they went. In the past two years, I have not gained much, but everything has been safe and sound. Half a year ago——the day before I told you to hold a pen and sword, I received a letter from my mother. The letter was written in blood, "Things or failures, if there is no way out, you can go into the thousand snows, and the name is Yan Xuege, and the empty grave is enough, don't give up."

"At that time, I saw my mother's blood book, and the pigeons with the last number came back. I thought they were all... but I didn't think about it. At the same time, I received an urgent letter from Hongyan Book, saying that Chapter 6 came to pass it on personally. The first order of the book, I went.

"Chapter 6 Li Xingyun, he was waiting for me in an inn in Yingcheng, and asked some common questions. The first order of the book is about asking you to be the ninth page. I think the first chapter of the chapter personally passed the first order to appoint a subordinate. It was a little too grand, Li Xingyun chatted with me, but asked me if I had heard the legend of the author's blood sacrifice, implying that Song Mingguang wanted you to try, and hoped that I would do my best for the sake of 'righteousness'.

"I came back after receiving the order, and Qingyu said that I had some smell on my body, which was like a kind of incense. That kind of fragrance can make people dizzy, put down their guard and tell the truth. It is mostly used to interrogate people. But I I clearly didn't feel unwell in the inn. When I heard about this, I quietly followed Li Xingyun for a few days, and one day I actually found out that he bought something from a person, wrapped in paper, as if he had taken medicine.

"After they parted, I turned to follow that person, and was discovered by that person. I fought against him, and found that this person's martial arts were exquisite, and he used a method that I had never heard of before. I still remember that person covered his face, It smells very fragrant—so I guess it might be a taller woman. But I didn't expect that she would use secret tricks like smoke. I was accidentally poisoned and I was exhausted. He didn't kill me, he just trapped me I left in a hurry, but someone from Chapter 6 turned around and came back to silence me. I had no choice but to fight with them until Qingyu came to pick me up, and I was able to retreat completely.

"I don't know if this has anything to do with the letter passing between parents. I've never seen that person again. I can't find any more information about how Li Xingyun became Chapter 6. The only thing I can be sure is that Song Mingguang wants to kill you. At that time, I was really scared, I couldn’t sleep all night, my parents were gone, if you had any mistakes... I thought of many ways, but I didn’t dare to trust anyone in Hongyan Book, I could only trust my mother , leaving Qian Chongxue as a way out, and President Yan Twelve wrote to you saying that he likes you, I finally finalized this risky move.

"I made a lot of preparations, hoping that there is still room for maneuver, but my plans failed one after another. I deliberately made Qingyu worsen your wind chill. I told you that you are useless so that no one will see you. I killed that There are quite a few people who specialize in smelting and were entrusted by Song Mingguang to forge iron pens. But it was useless. Mo Yuanshan refused to compromise. Song Mingguang still thinks that you can be a side, and those skilled craftsmen can't be killed. Song Mingguang let me Find out the murderer, while still planning to sacrifice the pen after the Qingyun Club! I... I had already betrayed my morals at that time, so I simply did nothing and took this last step, thinking that I could only let you die Only in front of everyone can they make them give up on you.

"Twelve took you away. I insisted that you were dead. Song Mingguang didn't blame me, and didn't even decide on the spot to ask me to sacrifice the pen for you. He just revealed to me that his father and mother were still alive, and then asked me to lead others Attacking Qian Chongxue with all my strength, I had to continue to work for him in order to get news from my parents again, until Yan Jiu ran back by himself because of fear of the Spring River tide, and said in front of everyone that you were alive, I suddenly wanted to end Forget it all. I think you have always been afraid of me. If you survived Qianchongxue, you will probably hate me too. But my internal energy is disordered and my meridians are damaged, so why should I be tortured alive? So I took the initiative to ask for a sacrificial pen to exchange them for nothing. Joy is also a joy, but I didn't expect you to come, so I was very angry at that moment, I felt that everything was in vain, and I couldn't help but want to fight to the death..."

Xia Yu slowly finished his story, the blurry sky in my eyes gradually dimmed, and the wind felt cool on my body.

He probably saved a lot of painful thoughts, just picking the part related to my question is enough to make me feel thrilling.

These truths are so tortuous and bizarre that I dare not write them like this in my script!

He is the one who should despair, but he is like a tree growing on the edge of light and shadow, never giving up the chance to spread its branches to the sun and cling to the chance to survive.He wants to live and let me live, he stands in despair looking for a glimmer of hope, and he wants to be the sun that illuminates me.

He is really tired.

"You should have told me these things a long time ago. You just never believed that I would stand by your side. My father has liked you since I was a child and raised you too domineeringly. You have to change in the future and be more sincere to me, you know? Don't Hold everything back, I'm not stupid, I can help you find a way, and I can only decide my own way." I have never been so calm and honest with him, "But I also have mistakes, I I also want to apologize to you, I didn't work hard enough in the past, and I never thought of sharing the responsibility for you, so forget it, come, let me hug you again, and the old grievances and misunderstandings will be wiped out."

I open my hands to hug.

Xia Yu didn't speak any more, and suddenly pounced on me, almost smashing me to death on the couch.