beloved does not come back

After Zhou Ke's sharp scolding, the audio stopped abruptly.

There was silence.

After a long time, Yu Lang said, "Tell me——Chi Yang?"

Chi Yang lowered his head deeply and did not speak.

"I've always known," Yu Lang walked up to Chi Yang unhurriedly: "You didn't tell us the whole truth—but it doesn't matter, at least you're looking for Zhou Ke, it's true. But now, Chi Yang ...I think you can trust us already, right?"

"If you don't believe me and Xiaoqiu," Yang Ji sighed, "Let's put it this way, Xiaochi, we can get out of the newspaper as soon as we go back and write the report... I'm all in "Daily Beijing" Do you know that I’ve been working for more than ten years? I’m really going all out this time.”

Chi Yang remained silent.

Yu Lang crossed his arms and lit a cigarette without urging him.

When Yu Lang lit the second cigarette, Chi Yang raised his head and said in a hoarse voice, "We didn't meet Zhou Ke in Houhai, but in... Sanlitun. At that time, I accompanied my college classmate to the bar to find her boyfriend. , I saw her boyfriend hugging a woman. My classmate went crazy, went up and poured wine on the woman's face, and ran away with her boyfriend.

"I was left where I was, and it was quite embarrassing. Everyone in the circle looked at us—at Zhou Ke and me. Her face was dripping with wine, and her long hair was sticking to her face. I don't know. Why is she standing there still? She is so thin, and she wears a tube top skirt that goes below her knees in winter... I think she is pitiful, thinking of a girl, she probably has no face, so I will go In the past, put a piece of clothing on her.

"It was that night... Zhou Ke and I chatted in the bar until three o'clock in the morning. At that time, I didn't know that she... was a transgender person. She had breasts, was very white, and her voice was thick, but she told me she had a cold Yes. We all drank a little beer and chatted nonsense. She is from Guizhou. I asked her what Guizhou is like. She said that it is actually quite beautiful. There are many mountains and waters, and the branches have leaves in winter. Unlike Beijing, when winter comes The trees are all bare... At three o'clock in the morning, she said she was going back. I asked her if she could give me her mobile phone number, and she said forget it.

"The next night I went again, and I bumped into her and was hugged mouth-to-mouth by a bald old man. In fact, I regretted it instantly. It turned out that she was... I really regretted it, and I was going to turn around and leave. But at this moment she saw me - what a fucking coincidence - she saw me a few seconds later and I left, but she saw me, and when she and I looked at each other, she was still hugged by the old man in arms.

"She jumped off the high stool at the bar and threw herself on me. The smell of alcohol all over her body ... I was stunned, I didn't know what to do. At this moment, she raised her head and said, are you It doesn't matter if I think my mouth is dirty, let's go to the private room, and I'll give it to you.

"I was pulled all the way to the private room on the second floor by her, and then she knelt on the ground to untie my belt. I reacted and pushed her away hard to let her roll... She was pushed to the ground by me, and the light in the private room shone on her There was a sparkle on her face, and I realized that she was crying.

"She said that it would cost 50 yuan for a mouthful, and she said she would give it to me for free, and asked if I could come once in a while, just to chat with her.

"I brought her home that night and found out she was trans. Then she stopped going to the bar and we were together."

Jiang Tianxiao gasped.

In the quiet private room, Xiaoqiu's weeping voice sounded.

Chi Yang didn't cry, he just stared at the wall of the private room like a statue, his bloodshot eyes were like a dry well.

Yu Lang: "At that time, you said that after you found out about Zhou Ke's prostitution, you had a big fight with her, and that's why Zhou Ke left... So this is fake?"

"False, what I know is another thing."

"what's up?"

"In the past, she not only prostituted herself, but also participated in the marijuana trade in the bar. There were underworld drug dealers in the bar, and their women who prostituted had to participate... usually in drug trafficking. After she left the bar for a long time, She hid at my house and didn’t go out, she told me at the time that it was because she was taking medicine and she was in poor health, but she later admitted that it was because she was hiding from people in the bar.”

"That's what happened..." Yang Ji said slowly: "Then, did she leave because you knew about her drug trafficking?"

"I don't know," Chi Yang covered his eyes with his hands: "...After the report was published in the newspaper, she admitted to me that she used to transport drugs. Nothing good happened after that."

"How could you—" Xiao Qiu sniffled fiercely, "How could you say that about her...she..."

"I was wrong, I regret it," Chi Yang's body trembled violently: "I'm a bastard, I know she doesn't want to, and she can't help it, she needs money for medicine and surgery—if she has How can she go back to prostitution? She just wants to be a woman..."

Jiang Tianxiao and He Sheng dragged Chi Yang out of the Internet cafe.

Chi Yang has completely collapsed, unable to stand like a piece of wilted fruit peel, muttering repeatedly in his mouth: "Zhou Ke, Zhou Ke, I was wrong... Come back Zhou Ke... I will accompany you back to Guizhou... ..."

Yu Lang said to let Chi Yang stay by himself for a while, so the others stood outside.

Jiang Tianxiao squatted silently on the side of the road, his nose a little sore.

He seems to understand Zhou Ke's feeling a little bit. During the four years in college, he worked everywhere to earn his own tuition and living expenses, but his studies unknowingly fell behind, so that he almost failed to graduate.In fact, he didn't mean to mess up his life on purpose, he was just pushed and pushed, and he had no choice.

What about Zhou Ke?Does Zhou Ke have a choice?

Probably not.Maybe when she first started making money through prostitution, she just wanted to make money through prostitution, and then go for surgery to become a woman-but what can she do if others force her to transport drugs?Does she have a choice?Can she say no?The truth of the so-called wrong step is that if one step is wrong, the next step cannot be decided by oneself.

We are just small and powerless ordinary people, like a leaf falling into the sea, unable to resist the monstrous waves of fate.

"Xiao Jiang," Yu Lang came over and squatted down, "What are you thinking?"

"I..." Jiang Tianxiao said with a nasal voice, a little embarrassed: "I was thinking, Zhou Ke is very pitiful."

"Well," Yu Lang sighed softly, "Chi Yang is also very pitiful."

"If he hadn't said those things—"

"Do you know why Chi Yang didn't go home after returning to Lanzhou?" Yu Lang interrupted Jiang Tianxiao: "I think it's because his parents knew about him and Zhou Ke."

"What, what?" Jiang Tianxiao was stunned: "Why?"

"When I went to Chi Yang's house, I saw two pairs of cloth shoes in his shoe cabinet," Yu Lang said softly, "these are often worn by rural people, they are black and big, and you can tell they are not Chi Yang's shoes. I think it might have been worn by his parents when they went to his house."

"...So, Chi Yang has fallen out with his parents?"

"Well, it's possible." Yu Lang glanced into the car, "So I said that it's not easy for Chi Yang. He is a graduate of a key university and teaches in a key high school in Beijing. His life is going smoothly. If he can find A normal woman who falls in love and gets married will definitely have a lot less trouble than being with Zhou Ke. Do you understand what I mean? He is willing to accept that Zhou Ke used to be a prostitute, and he is willing to accept that Zhou Ke is a transgender person, which is very... no easy."

"They..." Jiang Tianxiao's nose was still sore: "They are too miserable."

"Well," Yu Lang pursed his lips, with a somewhat bleak look in his eyes: "It's all fate."

After staying alone in the car for more than an hour, Chi Yang opened the car door and walked towards Yu Lang: "Yu Lang, I'm sorry, I have nothing to hide now... If you transport drugs, you will transport drugs, and if you break the law, you will break the law. I just want to find Zhou Ke."

"Well," Yu Lang nodded: "I don't know why Zhou Ke used this method... Did you find out? The audio he left is evidence that he was threatened. He seems to want to tell the truth one by one. Let me tell you."

"I don't know why she did this," Chi Yang said, "Why can't you... tell me yourself."

"Are your parents okay?" Yu Lang asked.

Chi Yang was silent for a few seconds, then shook his head: "My mother found out about Zhou Ke and I, committed suicide once, drank pesticide... she was rescued, but her stomach burned out, and she is still in the hospital now."

Yu Lang didn't say anything more.

When driving out of Shenghugou, Chi Yang's mailbox received another email.

The sender is still Zhou Ke, and it is still sent regularly.

Chi Yang:

Forgive me for saying goodbye to you again and again in this way.I dare not tell you in person, and I dare not even call you.I'm afraid that as soon as I hear your voice, I can't help but come back to you.Come back for you, then continue to drag you down, torture you, and ultimately ruin your life.You've suffered a lot with me, I can't make it up to you, you've spent so much money on me, your mother committed suicide, and now even your job is ruined by me.It can't go on like this.I know that if I come back to you, you will definitely forgive me, and you will say it's okay, I'll be with you.That's why I can't come back to you.

I think you've seen it.I sent so many emails, went to these places, and talked so much.But because, I can't bear you.I prolong my farewell, as if I could spend a little longer with you.

Honey, you know, I hate you.The days with you are the happiest days of my life.

But the time came, and I could no longer hesitate.I hope you are well.You know, I love you.

周恪

in Lanzhou

"He... returned to Lanzhou?"

Jiang Tianxiao stared blankly at the screen.

"Go back to Lanzhou." Yu Lang paused, looked at Chi Yang and said, "Lanzhou is your hometown, maybe he... wants to be with you in this way."