Holding Onto My Man

Fu Junli slowly opened the book with the words "Poetry Collection" written on it, and there were beautiful ink marks on the snow-white paper.

The above are not amazing works, but some simple records of mood, no rhyme, no words, just some ordinary words.

"...I finally saw the eldest young master today. He is still so handsome and elegant. He is not as cold and scary as the rumors said. Instead, he is very gentle. He even hugged me, so warm in his arms, so warm that I dare not speak." ..."

"He praised me for my beautiful eyes. Many people said that I have beautiful eyes, but I have never been so happy. He also asked me if I like orchids, and I said yes... Actually, I don't like orchids, I just saw them His yard is full of orchids, I guess he likes orchids, so he scented orchids, I wanted to talk to him, but I never had a chance, since I saw him on the first day I entered the mansion..."

"Eldest young master actually let me stay in his yard to recuperate. He even let me live in his yard. He said he asked me to call him brother Jun Li. Why is he so gentle to me?... No, he didn't treat me , it should be a person named 'Lianzhi', that day he seemed to be whispering a name called Lianzhi..."

"...The weather is very good today. Brother Jun Li is very excited. He asked someone to set up a guqin in the yard. He is really a talented person. He has a bright Tsinghua University and a peerless elegance...I summoned up the courage to invite him to play the qin and flute with me. I thought about this scene countless times in my dream, but, I played the flute, but he didn't play the piano. Brother Jun Li looked at me, his eyes blurred again, as if he was looking at another person... suddenly It hurt so much, I hurried away..."

"Who is that man named Lianzhi? Who is he, brother Jun Li? Does he look like me? Why does brother Jun Li always stare at me and mutter that name? He always looks into my eyes as if Look at the other person...he is kind to me and gentle to me, is it because he regards me as Lianzhi..."

"Brother Jun Li only thinks of me as a shadow, the shadow of Lian Zhi, if it wasn't for Lian Zhi, he would probably never have looked at me in his life, but I am Yunxi, I am not Lianzhi, I am Yunxi, I am I like red clothes, I like Tanxiang, I like the sound of Xiao..."

"...Brother Jun Li told me who Lianzhi is today. He is a peerless and handsome young master. He is a young master who has a deep affection for Brother Jun Li. His clothes are getting wider and wider, and he has no regrets. He makes people haggard because of Yi Xiao. , Brother Jun Li has been thinking about that young master for eight years..."

"Brother Jun Li asked me: Entering my lovesickness gate, you will know that lovesickness is hard for me. Long lovesickness means long lovesickness, and short lovesickness means infinity. Yunxi, do you understand?"

"I say I understand, I understand, I really understand... I knew it from the day I first saw Brother Jun Li when I entered the mansion, Brother Jun Li, Yunxi has shamelessly thought about you that way..."

"... Lian Zhi appeared. At the palace banquet today, I saw Lian Zhi in the mouth of Brother Jun Li. He is really a peerless young man. No wonder Brother Jun Li misses him so much..."

"Brother Jun Li looked at Young Master Lianzhi with such tenderness and tenderness in his eyes, so full of the friendship I dream of, but he loves Young Master Lianzhi, he loves Lianzhi, loves Lianzhi... If only he could love me... ..."

"In the carriage, Brother Jun Li looked very sad, yes, although he found Lianzhi, but Young Master Lianzhi belongs to the Crown Prince, the Crown Prince has a noble status, how could Brother Jun Li have the opportunity to compete with the Prince for beauty..."

"I want to persuade Brother Jun Li to give up, but I can't say it out loud. Brother Jun Li has such deep affection for Young Master Lian Zhi. He has been looking for Young Master Lian Zhi for eight years. If he can't be with Young Master Lian Zhi, is he right?" I will continue to be unhappy, and I will continue to miss you..."

"Maybe I can help him... At the banquet, the prince looked at me strangely. I guess he must have taken a fancy to me. If I go to ask the prince, maybe Brother Jun Li and Young Master Lianzhi will have a chance... "

"...to enter the palace today, I begged the crown prince to reward Young Master Lian Zhi to brother Jun Li, and the crown prince agreed, but the condition is that I have to be his man... Then, I took off my clothes, it doesn't matter, as long as brother Jun Li It’s good if I can get what I want, he used to think of me as the shadow of Young Master Lianzhi, but now that the real Lianzhi is back, the shadow doesn’t need me..."

"But I still couldn't help crying. I tried very hard to bear it, but I just couldn't help it. I really wanted to tell him that I am not someone's shadow. Don't think of me as a shadow. Don't look at others through me. My name is Yunxi, brother Junli, do you know? Do you know that I am Yunxi... Yunxi likes you, but you don't know, and you don't want to know, because you only love Lianzhi..."

"Brother Jun Li is getting more and more unhappy because of Young Master Lian Zhi. Brother Jun Li, don't worry, Young Master Lian Zhi will be back soon. The crown prince promised me that he will give you Young Master Lian Zhi. That's it. Your lovesickness..."

"Lovesickness, lovesickness... Linglong dice An Hongdou, deep lovesickness, you don't know, brother Jun Li, you don't know, you don't know..."

.........

Fu Junli looked at the ink marks on the poetry collection, and the image of a young man with a bright smile appeared in his mind, but he felt like a knife was twisting his heart, the image of a young man had never been so clear in his heart.

He always thought that he was treating the young man as Lian Zhi, but he was not, maybe at first, but not later.

The boy and Lianzhi are different, even though they have the same color eyes, the expressions that bloom inside are different.

But the long-term obsession with Lianzhi made him unable to see his own heart clearly. Whenever he was caught short of breath by the brilliance of the young man, he always told himself that it was because of the shadow of Lianzhi on the young man.

But at this moment, Lianzhi was by his side, but in his mind was the shadow of a young man.

"Linglong dice An Hongdou, deep lovesickness you don't know, hehehehehehe, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know..."

Fu Junli chewed these words over and over again, seeming to be crying, laughing, angry or foolish.

When the hidden truth came to the surface, the word Yunxi was carved on the tip of his heart...

………………

…………

Gu Bai never saw Fu Junli again.

Fu Junli begged his aunt Xianfei to come to the palace to find him, risking disrespect and ran around the whole palace looking for him, but he didn't see Fu Junli, and Ji Changyin wouldn't let him see him.

That man was as domineering and stubborn as ever, and he wanted to hide him in the golden house so that no one would look at him. Even Du Haitang, a man, was ordered to come into the palace and not let him out.

Such dominance is really dumbfounding, others would definitely not be able to bear it, but he enjoyed it so much.

Because he didn't know when the next time he would see a man again, whether they would have to wait for thousands of years to meet again in thousands of worlds.

As for Fu Junli, although he has never seen him again, Gu Bai can still hear about him.

I heard that Fu Junli changed after he returned from the palace, he became more silent and colder.

He doesn't care about family affairs, business and property, he either locks himself in the study, or stands in the yard playing Xiao, often closing and playing for a whole day, the melancholy and madness in his eyes is shocking.

But when he saw another young man named Lianzhi, he would calm down again, touching the other person's eyes tenderly and affectionately.

But when the other party inadvertently broke an emerald jade flute that he carried with him, he frantically had someone beat the other party's board hard, and he didn't stop until the other party almost died.

From then on, Lian Zhi didn't dare to touch any of his things, only dared to wear red clothes every day, smoked the incense, played the jade flute, and listened to him touching his eyes and calling the name 'Yunxi'...

Gu Bai quietly went back to Fu's residence without telling Ji Changyin.

He saw that Fu Junli's study room was full of picture scrolls, all of which were of a young man, that was Du Yunxi's appearance.

There are panicked, smiling, shy, charming, or bewitching pictures on it, each picture scroll is full of endless lingering and endless thoughts.

Until this moment, he felt that the emotions of the original owner in his chest had finally disappeared without a trace.

Du Yunxi's wish was Fu Junli's deep love, a lingering love that he will miss forever, and he finally got it. From then on, in that person's heart, there was only the word 'Yunxi'...

…………

In this world, Gu Bai is the same as before, always staying by Ji Changyin's side and never leaving, apart from the man's overbearing, there is also his willingness.

After Ji Changyin came to the throne, there was no other concubine or concubine in his harem, and the courtiers asked him to be a concubine to leave heirs, but he was always very stubborn, neither selected nor accepted concubines.

After being the emperor for a few years, he actually abdicated and became the regent. In this way, no one would continue to ask him to accept concubines and leave heirs, which made the courtiers secretly startled.

Gu Bai couldn't deny it, even if this person was reincarnated, his shadow was engraved in his soul, so he knew his place in his heart.

Before Ji Changyin died, Gu Bai looked at the unabated deep love in his eyes, and felt a soreness and pain in his chest that he had never experienced before.

At this moment, he felt that he was no longer indifferent, he had a heart that could beat with flesh and blood.

The moment Ji Changyin closed his eyes, he almost had the urge to go with him. He had experienced the unforgettable heat in his heart. What's the point.

The mysterious master said that if he indulged in the world, he would die.

Staring at Ji Changyin who was no longer breathing, Gu Bai felt that his soul seemed to be getting lighter, feeling like it would dissipate at any moment.

At this last moment, the surrounding space was distorted, his soul was pulled out from his body, and was pulled back into the starry sky by a powerful force...