Klein bottle personality

The girl died.

When Ding Muyan arrived, the girl's heart stopped beating once, and she was forcibly pulled back.

Xiao Jin had never seen what it was like to rescue a critically ill patient, and now he saw it with his own eyes.There were already several medical staff around the girl, and Ding Muyan rushed in without saying a word, staring at the monitor to direct the rescue, and personally performed cardiopulmonary resuscitation when the heart stopped.

Like a ship sailing on the sea, it was suddenly attacked by a group of vicious pirates, and the crew fought hard. As the captain, Ding Muyan drew his sword to defend his dignity.

From time to time, the nurse's voice repeating the doctor's order can be heard, the voice is so torn that it seems to be broken at any time, every expression is chilling and anxious, fighting against the god of death in the field of time, the tense atmosphere condenses into dark clouds, covering them and affecting them. Looking at the others, even Xiao Jin stood aside solemnly, praying secretly that there would be no danger.

The girl's mother stood precariously at the door.She looked helplessly at the doctors and nurses surrounding her daughter, her hands trembling uncontrollably, and there was nothing she could do except pray for God's mercy.

However, the girl died anyway.

After all the efforts, the young heart still stopped beating.

Anyone is insignificant at this moment, no match for the cruel fate, the god of death wields a sickle and cuts off her connection with this world.

He saw Ding Muyan standing with his hands down, announcing the death of the patient, a little nurse wept on the spot, and then the girl's mother screamed and collapsed to the ground.

Ding Muyan came out without any expression, his lips were pressed together, and the line of his jaw was tightened, his face was iron blue, full of gloom and depression, as if a rainstorm was coming.When he faced Xiao Jin, his dark eyes were bottomless.

Xiao Jin thought that Ding Muyan would come to him, depressed and frustrated, he made up his mind to give him a big hug, give him a shoulder to lean on, comfort him and kiss him.

He raised his hand halfway, and he had already assumed a hugging posture, but Ding Muyan turned around and helped his mother who was sitting on the ground crying.Xu Lilan was so out of breath from crying that she didn't even dare to go near the hospital bed to see her daughter, for fear that she would be sure that her daughter was dead.She lay on Ding Muyan's arm, unconsciously grabbing his clothes with both hands, she had to grab something to make sure she was still connected with this world.Other medical staff comforted her and tried to lift her up, but she couldn't stand up at all, as if her bones had been pulled out.Ding Muyan held her by the arm, didn't say a word, and remained silent from beginning to end.

Ding Muyan's surgery records, doctor's orders, and all the materials related to the girl were brought into the office.

"I have to watch it again." He seemed to be talking to himself, but also seemed to be explaining something to Xiao Jin.

Xiao Jin persuaded: "Let's go home first."

Ding Muyan has already entered the working state: "Go and accompany Shao Jun, I will be busy for a while."

"He has Jiang Chen there, shall I be a light bulb?"

Ding Muyan's gaze stayed on the medical record for a long time without moving. He lowered his head, his shoulders looked a little slumped, and he said in a low voice: "I should go back to the hospital first when I get off the plane. My colleague asked me if I wanted to go together, but I refused. If I had been there the first time, maybe the result would have been different..."

Halfway through the speech, Ding Muyan realized that he had said something wrong, and when he looked up, he found that Xiao Jin was also looking at him.

"Sorry, that's not what I meant, I just thought that if I could join the rescue sooner..."

Xiao Jin waved his hand: "No need to explain, I understand."

Ding Muyan's words will make people misunderstand that he is blaming Xiao Jin for picking up the plane for failing to save the patient, but Xiao Jin is not the kind of narrow-minded person at all, and he understands his self-blame for not being able to grab a few more seconds .This kind of self-blame has no limit. Even if Ding Muyan was in the hospital at the time, he would blame himself for why he was in the office instead of rounds. Ding Muyan naturally understood this truth, but emotions always need a point to vent.

Ding Muyan smiled lightly, he didn't need to explain too much to Xiao Jin, and he didn't have to worry that he would misunderstand, as he understood everything he was thinking, which was great.The stone on his chest loosened, and he breathed in the cool fresh air again.

Xiao Jin went to him and knelt down, held his hand, looked up at Ding Muyan: "Let's go home first."

Ding Muyan looked down at Xiao Jin, the tall man squatted at his feet, persuading him gently, even with a hint of pleading, from this angle, it was particularly moving.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Xiao Jin knew that he had agreed, put away the documents on the desk, exited the program in the computer, and held his hand firmly again: "Go home."

Back home, the half-eaten tomato and egg noodles were still spread out on the table, it was already cold, so Xiao Jin took the initiative to clean it up.

Because something regrettable happened, both of them were not in a high mood, and the atmosphere at home was a little heavy. Ding Muyan packed his luggage silently, took out the changed clothes and washed them again. Xiao Jin accompanied him, and occasionally Handle or something.

At night, Ding Muyan was sitting on the bed reading a book, and Xiao Jin brought a cup of hot milk into the room.

Xiao Jin suddenly discovered that Ding Muyan's liking for drinking milk is really a good habit, so that he can often show his caring attitude to deliver milk to him and stay in his room smoothly. too right.

Ding Muyan was drinking milk, Xiao Jin sat on the other side of the bed, flipped through the book he was reading, it was a science fiction novel.

This is rare. Basically, what Ding Muyan reads are journal papers, most of which are in the original foreign language. Once, he took a German paper and asked him to translate it.At the beginning, Xiao Jin was full of confidence, as if he had found the value of life. He thought that translating a paper was not a trivial matter, but when he finally got the paper, he found that there were too many medical vocabulary in it, and then he started to have a headache. , I don’t know what I’m talking about when I put it together. In the end, he secretly found a friend to finish the translation smoothly.Later, Xiao Jin triumphantly handed the translated paper to Ding Muyan, and he realized that he was tricked when he saw him laughing. He must be able to understand German documents, even if he really doesn’t understand, at least he can find English documents. translated version.

But reading novels is still rare, he should like it, but he doesn’t have time, Xiao Jin remembered what Han Shaojun said: You can’t see it, he used to be a freshman of literature and art.In fact, it was not before, he is also now, but he is easily deceived by his indifferent appearance.

"I've already finished reading this book, and the ending is..."

Ding Muyan gave Xiao Jin a push, and then gave him a fierce look to prevent him from spoiling the story.

Xiao Jin raised his hands in surrender: "Actually, I haven't seen it, I lied to you."

Ding Muyan gouged him out.

Xiao Jin laughed, and Ding Muyan laughed too. He smiled very nicely. Xiao Jin always thought that Ding Muyan smiled nicely.

"Be careful, the milk is about to spill."

Xiao Jin pulled a tissue to try to help Ding Muyan wipe the milk stains around his mouth, Ding Muyan grabbed the tissue and wiped it himself.

"Don't be sad." Xiao Jin stretched out his arms and blocked Ding Muyan's shoulder.

He had been thinking about doing this for a whole day, and he took the initiative to put his shoulders on his shoulders, hug him in his arms, and comfort him.But in fact Ding Muyan is not a weak person who needs to be comforted, nor is he a single-minded person who does not know how to adapt. He is too independent, can properly handle emotions, find a place to put negative energy and let a little bit of himself Digestion.

In other words, without him, Ding Muyan can still live well, but this knowledge makes Xiao Jin even more unwilling and wants to get close to him, as if everything that is banned and hidden can always attract people to follow.

"I'm not sad." Ding Muyan put the milk cup aside and thought for a while, "Well, I'm a little sad, but not that kind of sad. I have so many patients, and there are always some that I can't do anything about. I am a patient." Surgeon, which surgeon doesn't have a few lives on his hands?"

He told a self-deprecating joke and smiled a bit, but was still a little downcast.

"Powerless." He repeated, "That's it. The so-called advanced medicine is only compared to ancient times. We know too little about the human body. There are too many diseases that we can't treat, and there may be more diseases that we don't even have. We found that there were too many causes that we could not explain."

Lin Min's death was a blow to Ding Muyan. After all the efforts, the ending is still the worst. How can it not be frustrating.

"My surgery is fine." Ding Muyan said firmly, "Although I have to review the records tomorrow to make a final confirmation, I can say that there is no problem with my surgery now."

"I believe you."

Ding Muyan picked up the science fiction novel and flipped through it casually: "Sometimes, I really want to travel to the future to be a doctor. At that time, the medical level is more advanced, and I can save more people and treat more diseases that cannot be cured now. .”

Xiao Jin nodded in agreement: "Well, then you will find out: Damn, why are people still dying every day? Why are there more strange diseases? There are more unknowns about the human body! Oh, this doctor can't be a doctor anymore. !"

Ding Muyan couldn't laugh or cry: "Can't you just follow my words? What about your EQ?"

"I was wrong, you continue." Xiao Jin immediately admitted his mistake.

"Stop talking." Ding Muyan complained that he ruined the atmosphere.

Xiao Jin hugged Ding Muyan tightly, and kissed him on the forehead: "Speak, tell, I'm listening."

Ding Muyan sighed: "Actually, there is nothing to say, you don't need to comfort me, I understand your reasoning. It will be fine tomorrow, and tomorrow will be my outpatient clinic."

"I didn't want to comfort you, I just wanted to take this opportunity to hug you." Xiao Jin said sternly.

Ding Muyan couldn't do anything about Xiao Jin, he pushed Xiao Jin away in disgust, Xiao Jin stuck to him like brown sugar, clasped his shoulder and didn't let go.

"The shoulders are ready for you, why don't you lean on them?" Xiao Jin looked aggrieved, as if he was the one who was in a bad mood.

Ding Muyan looked at him coldly for a long time, when Xiao Jin thought he was about to turn his back on him, he really leaned over, as docile as if he wasn't himself.

On the contrary, Xiao Jin was stunned for a moment, then reacted and adjusted his posture so that he could lean more comfortably.

"Then I'll lean on you and satisfy you." Ding Muyan said, "The person being comforted will give a certain reaction, which is also a kind of comfort to the person giving comfort."

Xiao Jin laughed silently, and hugged Ding Muyan even tighter: "How about I sleep here today? I promise I won't do anything!"

Ding Muyan closed his eyes and said, "You think I will let you do whatever you want? Sleep!"

Xiao Jin, who got his wish, immediately turned off the lights, not giving Ding Muyan a chance to repent.

"Do you know what I'm most afraid of?" In the darkness, Ding Muyan's voice seemed to come from a different world.

"What are you afraid of?"

Ding Muyan was silent for a while and said, "I'm afraid of death."

Xiao Jin hugged Ding Muyan tightly from behind: "Before I die, let me hug you."