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In the office, Shen Qiao pressed her temples. Just for a moment, she felt a splitting headache.

"What's the matter with you?" Li Xiao asked, recently he was worried about Shen Qiao, and ran to him every three days, Shen Qiao said several times that he refused to change, and had no choice but to let him.

"It's time to take the medicine." Shen Qiao said, skillfully took out a bottle of medicine from the drawer, Li Xiao saw something wrong with the medicine and snatched it immediately, Shen Qiao felt helpless, "It's just mild depression, don't be nervous. "

"Did you get it recently?" Li Xiao asked warily.

"It's been many years." Shen Qiao said, "I haven't recovered from the sequelae of filming "The Love of Time" all these years."

"Why didn't you say it?" Li Xiao's face was still tense.

"If you have anything to say, give me the medicine." Shen Qiao stretched out her hand angrily, "Isn't it very common to be too involved in the drama?"

"It's common, but there's no actor who hasn't appeared in a show for more than ten years." Li Xiao clenched the medicine bottle tightly, "Tell me, is there any other reason?"

Shen Qiao looked at him and said helplessly, "Yes."

"Say."

"Okay." Shen Qiao braced her chin, "Tell me the outline of the plot of "Nianhua" first."

crazy.Yes, Shen Qiao almost went crazy for acting in his movie many years ago.

"Years" tells the story of a young man from mainland China, Ye Hong, who came to Hong Kong to work hard. His original simple thoughts and beliefs were gradually eroded by the prosperous and chaotic capitalist metropolis, and finally returned to his hometown with nothing.From life experience to experience, Shen Qiao at that time was not at all similar to Ye Hong. In order to play him well, Shen Qiao used methods.

The so-called method school is to get yourself as close to the character as possible, so as to achieve the integration of the character and the actor.Generally speaking, the greater the overlap between the character and itself, the easier it is to shape.

When Shen Qiao first started to prepare for the role, he couldn't reach the state he wanted: it didn't mean that Shen Qiao's state wasn't close enough at that time, but that he couldn't reach the level he wanted. The same or even higher performance in "Nanshan", but for a role that does not overlap with him at all, this kind of request is actually a bit too much.

In this regard, his choice is to persecute.He scouted locations in Hong Kong and found a black restaurant for Shen Qiao to work part-time, emphasizing the boss's "special care" for Shen Qiao.He took away all his communication equipment and ignored him for three whole months.

"Part-time job?" Li Xiao was stunned, thinking of how smooth Shen Qiao's life was 20 years ago, he immediately sighed, "It's thanks to Zhao Wenyan that he figured it out."

"Yes." Shen Qiao shrugged, "The restaurant Zhao Wenyan found is really top-notch. The cigarette butts and belts are trivial matters. I asked my sister to take care of that one after I finished filming the movie."

"This kind of restaurant should be cleaned up." Li Xiao said clearly, "Speaking of which, Zhao Wenyan is really willing to let you go."

"He has stepped on it himself. Both the director and the actor should contribute to the role, and he did nothing wrong." Shen Qiao said with faint admiration and pride, "He is a really good director."

Three months later, Shen Qiao did meet his basic requirements: he himself was conscious of getting closer to the role. With his talent and years of experience, it was easy to enter the play in that environment, but he still wanted to The important thing is that with the development of the story, the sense of despair in "Ye Hong" gradually soaked into the bone marrow.

With Shen Qiao behind his back, he had already made another plan.

The filming went smoothly at the beginning, but as the film progressed, he called NG more and more times, and it was only for Shen Qiao.

Guan Yunying, who is also making this movie, has complained that he is too picky about Shen Qiao, but his attitude is not to comment on it.

He continued his indifferent and even harsh attitude outside the play. He deliberately scolded Shen Qiao in front of everyone, and his attitude became more and more indifferent when they met outside the play.At first, Shen Qiao thought that he was doing it for the needs of the movie, and she cooperated very well, but later, he slandered him time and time again, and he finally took it seriously.

He scolded him again before calling it a day.After everyone left, Shen Qiao walked carefully behind the monitor and asked him, "Wen Yan, am I really acting badly?"

That cautious and cowardly voice belonged to Ye Hong, but it never belonged to the Shen Qiao he knew.

After a brief heartache, the emotion that emerged in his heart was extreme satisfaction.

The highest state of an actor is the unity of human and drama.

He really became the character, and in "Nanshan", he didn't even do it.

This sign must not be extinguished.So he looked at him indifferently, with impatience and boredom in his eyes: "You can't even shoot this kind of scene well, are you worthy of being an international actor?"

"This can only explain your problem of getting into the drama, what about the problem of getting out of the drama?" Li Xiao asked, "Tell me, why haven't you been out of the drama for more than ten years?"

"Didn't I ask you to tell me the outline of the plot?" Shen Qiao said, her relaxed tone finally became faintly depressed, "At that time, I felt that I had almost recovered, but in July... "

He couldn't continue, Li Xiao immediately understood.

The beginning of the movie briefly explained Ye Hong's life experience. His relatives died due to accidents, leaving only a little nephew who wanted to be raised by him, but later the nephew was abducted and trafficked because of his negligence, and he died soon after he was found.

Although he didn't know the specific experience of Shen Qiao in those years, but as far as he knew... this experience was too similar to Shen Qiao's!

"I've been wondering for a while whether my life was arranged by the goddess of fate according to the script." Shen Qiao sighed, "Don't ask me the details. I can tell you, if you can give me a dream at that time, I will definitely tell me that the script can be used as a prophecy."

That day was the first time he saw Shen Qiao crying in front of him.

He bit his lips tightly, and the tears fell uncontrollably: no matter what he recalled or who he met, he had never cried like this before.

He knew that Shen Qiao had always had an obstacle in his mind: many people thought he shouldn't get the Venice best actor trophy.He acted in his true colors, and he has not surpassed the role of "Nanshan" in three years. He is not worthy of the trophy of the best actor, nor is he worthy of the name of genius that the Venice judges said.

Shen Qiao never revealed it, but he really cared about those comments.He won't know how sad he will be when his lover provokes him with such words.

But at that time, he only had the ecstasy of wish fulfillment in his heart, so he ignored him at all, grabbed his notebook and turned to leave.

For a long time, he has been unable to believe why he would treat his lover in that cruel way. The explanation he has been unwilling to accept is actually the truth------

He really wanted this movie to be successful and to prove himself.Like Shen Qiao who was born in Venice in 1994, he will shock the world in the name of a genius.

At that moment, he could stand beside Shen Qiao without any psychological burden, instead of harboring inferiority complex and jealousy.

Yes, jealousy.

Long, long ago, when they met, he was jealous of Shen Qiao------

They are roommates, but why, Shen Qiao's life is so smooth, why can he live his life so willfully?Why is that good?

"...It's hard for you." After a while, Li Xiao sighed.

Shen Qiao declined to comment.He stretched out his hand: "Medicine."

Li Xiao handed the medicine bottle back.Shen Qiao skillfully unscrewed the bottle cap, poured a few in her palm, and drank the water in one gulp.

It's easy to say now, but he really doesn't want to think about how the days passed.

The 19-year-old has almost no resemblance to Ye Hong. Using method to deduce, it is equivalent to creating another soul in the body, and then destroying him alive.If it's just like this, it's okay to say that the very different reality will always force actors to play.But in July of that year, the situation of the character really happened to him.

The coincidence of fantasy and reality, he sometimes marvels at how he survived.

"But having said that, why did you play this role?" Li Xiao seemed to have thought of something.

Shen Qiao glanced at him: "What do you think?"

Li Xiao didn't speak.

"When I heard that I was going to play this role, Mrs. Song called me to persuade me." Shen Qiao supported her jaw and recalled, "This role is too unsuitable for me. If I play it, I will either fail to play it. My own mental damage will also be great. I really hope to get out of the role of 'Nanshan', but according to the situation at the time, I don't need to be in such a hurry." He said in a slightly low tone, "If the director wasn't Zhao Wenyan, I definitely wouldn't take it. From "Nian Hua"."

He didn't say anything, but Li Xiao knew the reason.He was silent for a moment, then suddenly asked: "Then do you regret it?"

Do you regret taking this role, because of a love that has not been cultivated, not to mention the psychological pressure, people who are more superstitious may think that what happened to them is because they took this role.

"I don't regret it." Shen Qiao said, word by word, extremely firm.

"Even if I don't consider the actor trophy, the challenge of an actor to the role, and the opportunity for me to give a speech at the Berlin Film Festival, I only say that I am not suitable for Ye Hong to Zhao Wenyan, but after I entered the film, no one can compare I act better." His eyes dimmed, "When I was acting, I even really doubted whether he was targeting me. After the film was finished, he had to call me once a week in order to hurry up the play, although I knew He was busy with the post game...but I was just thinking about myself."

He got up, poured himself a glass of water, his tone mixed with bitterness and sweetness, soaked in heavy guilt: "I'm sorry for him, he loves me so much, but I can't give him what he wants."

At that time, it wasn't that he didn't know how this would hurt Shen Qiao, but he was only thinking about himself at that time.

Even, there is a gloomy fluke in his heart:

If Shen Qiao gets into the drama too deeply, then he will no longer be that perfect person, his career may flourish and decline, but he will not.

They are finally a good match, and even, he may become a strong person in this relationship.They can finally love each other in the way he prefers, Shen Qiao loves him, and will rely on him more unconsciously in the future, and even if Shen Qiao is no longer that bright young man who can burn people, his love will not decrease a bit a cent.

At that time, he really looked forward to such a future.

At least at that time, Shen Qiao was willing to do anything for him.He is so good, so excellent, but he would rather use all his radiance to warm him.

He loves him so much.Whoever has his love is the luckiest person.

But he, that filthy clown, was favored by the prince --- in fact, he didn't love him that much at all.

Later, Director Zhao finally became a better person than Shen Qiao, but at this moment, Shen Qiao was no longer his.