No.70 days

Shao Wu's chest jumped wildly immediately, he cursed himself for being worthless, and couldn't help asking: "What did he ask me?"

"It's those things, whether you're busy at work, how about the lectures, etc., oh—" Longlong showed a smirk, "I also asked if you have a girlfriend."

Shao Wu thought he heard it wrong: "What are you talking about?"

"Girl, friend, friend," Longlong said eagerly, "Did you talk? Brother Xiao Shao? Many girls in our class have a crush on you."

Shao Wu was astonished, so he smiled stiffly: "No nonsense."

"I'm not talking nonsense, they discuss whether you are single every day!"

"You guys are pretty free. You are already in the third year of high school and you still have time to discuss these things? Don't you say that you can't finish your homework every day?"

Longlong really felt guilty: "I didn't tell them..."

Finally shifting the topic to study, Shao Wu secretly breathed a sigh of relief, if Longlong continued to ask him if he was single, he really didn't know how to answer.

But why did Yang Shuyi ask Longlong that question?Does he think that sexual orientation can change at will?He thought that as long as he rejected him, he would fall in love with girls again?Is he thinking so?

At this moment, Shao Wu felt very, very lost, maybe because he was too excited for the first minute, but now he seems to have jumped from a high place suddenly, the ground is cold and hard, and his feet are numb from the shock.

Maybe this is the thinking of straight men, homosexuality is wrong, deformed, abnormal, homosexuality should be corrected - corrected back to heterosexuality.is that so?

"How are you doing in the studio recently?" Shao Wu tried his best to calm down, and asked in a gentle voice.

"that's it……"

"'Winter vacation is about to start the training camp, right?" Shao Wu asked again, "Have you decided which schools to get into?"

Longlong said softly: "Not yet..."

"Well, this matter needs to be discussed with your brother, and he will definitely accompany you to the exam then."

Longlong stopped talking, and lowered her head to pick at the plastic film wrapped around the drink bottle.

Shao Wu saw that she had something on her mind, so he sat quietly opposite her without urging her.She didn't say until the whole plastic film was torn into small pieces, "Brother Shao, I don't want to learn to draw anymore."

"why?"

"It's too expensive," Longlong lowered her head and whispered, "I haven't gone to college yet, and I spent a lot of money just in the studio... The tuition fee of the Academy of Fine Arts is also much more expensive than that of ordinary schools. The classmates who study painting together are all rich in their families.”

So it was because of this, Shao Wu sighed in his heart.

"Isn't your brother at work? With him here, don't worry about money."

Longlong stopped talking again, and continued to toss the pile of plastic film.

Shao Wu said in a low voice: "Actually, think about it, your brother graduated with a book of the eight classics, and his teacher introduced him to the job, so he can't afford you?"

"...I know he can afford it," Longlong raised her face, her eyes burning, "but I don't want him to sacrifice for me again."

Shao Wuxin said, it seems that Longlong knows.That's right, at her age, there are some things she can't hide.

"Brother Xiao Shao, you actually understand, right? My brother could have gone to graduate school. It's not that he doesn't want to go to graduate school, and it doesn't mean that it's not good for him to go to graduate school. He just wants to use money, so he's in a hurry to go to work."

Shao Wu hesitated for a few seconds and said, "This is only part of the reason."

"Don't lie to me, you lied to my mother-in-law and you lied to me," Longlong pursed her lips, "Before my brother said that going to graduate school is not good, it is very tiring, and it doesn't make money. He said he didn't want to go to school at all..."

Shao Wu thought, what a clumsy lie, just like he told others back then that he did not want to be too far away from home.There are some things that no matter how much you lie, you can't get it right.

"Some time ago, I was packing things at home," Longlong wiped her eyes, her voice sounded a little crying, "It's the things my brother sent back before graduation, a big box, I thought they were all useless... But I see I saw his waiver statement, signed by him, and the notebook given by his teacher, and wrote a paragraph on it."

Longlong's teardrops fell on the table, pattering.Although he knew the truth a long time ago, Shao Wu's heart would still ache after hearing these details.It's really strange, 10 minutes ago he was so disappointed and angry that he felt a bit of resentment towards Yang Shuyi, but now, he was so distressed that he wished that Longlong could become his younger sister, so that Yang Shuyi could go to school without worries up.

Shao Wu pushed the paper on the table to Longlong, and asked her: "What did the teacher write?"

"Writing, writing... We all know that your family's conditions are relatively difficult, but you are a smart, hard-working, hard-working student. I hope you face life bravely. If conditions permit in the future, you are also welcome to return to your alma mater to continue your studies .” She recited that passage directly, obviously, she had read it several times.

"Brother Xiao Shao," Longlong said, "I don't want to drag my brother down."

Shao Wu got up and went around the table, sat down beside her, and patted her trembling shoulder: "You didn't drag him down, understand? He never felt that you were dragging him down."

"But the fact is that..."

"No, Longlong, it's like this." Shao Wu paused for a moment to organize his words, "Maybe I said it a bit complicated and hard to understand, but that's what it means—your brother is indeed paying for you, but 'giving 'This matter is not all painful. Some 'giving' can bring happiness to those who give, just like your brother, when he sees you painting happily, he is also happy."

"Why is he so happy," Longlong said, sobbing, "He has delayed his own future!"

"Of course happy. He is your brother and you are his sister. You two are the closest relatives to each other in the world. How can he be unhappy when he sees you doing what you like?"

"What about him? Is his future lost?"

"That's right, your brother is not useless, isn't he working hard? The unit is also very good, and the development prospects are very good."

"I—I'm not saying that it's not good for him to go to work, but he, he always gave up the better way because of me..."

Give up the better way.

Shao Wu suddenly discovered that he and Yang Shuyi were the same in some respects.They all voluntarily gave up the better way.Oh, but Yang Shuyi did it out of necessity, and he was just... a little stupid?Hey yeah, kinda silly.

Longlong's cheeks were wet, reflecting the warm yellow light of the desk lamp.Shao Wu patted Longlong's shoulder lightly, and said to her seriously: "Actually, no one's 'giving' is unilateral. What can support a person's continuous 'giving' must be what this person gets in return, but others may not. Understand what he got... Just like your brother paid for you, what he gets in return is that you grow up healthy and healthy, Longlong, do you remember when we first met? I went to your house for dinner during the Chinese New Year, back then I'm only in the second year of high school... You see, so many years have passed, you and your brother have survived so many hurdles, isn't this a reward?"

Shao Wu's words brought the two of them back to the distant memory. Longlong stared at her red and swollen eyes for a few seconds before saying, "I remember, that year, during the Chinese New Year, my father gave us both a watch."

"I also remember that your brother's watch is blue, and he took that watch with him when he took the college entrance examination, but he was not allowed to wear it in the examination room." Shao Wu smiled, and his tone was very soft, "So look, you Are you and your brother very strong? This is all a reward."

Longlong looked at Shao Wu with tears in her eyes: "Is that so?" She seemed in disbelief.

Shao Wu said firmly: "That's right. You have to believe in yourself, you are worthy of what your brother has paid... Huh? It's only been half a year. Work harder and get admitted to a good school for your brother to see."

It wasn't until the get out of class bell rang and the 45-minute self-study was over that Shao Wu finally coaxed Longlong to be well.

As soon as she left the office, another male teacher walked in, who taught physics, and was a few years older than Shao Wu.

"Oh, it's better for your eloquence in liberal arts," he boasted with a smile, "I listened at the door for a long time, and after studying, I will say the same when a little girl comes to cry in our class."

He actually heard those words... Shao Wu was a little embarrassed: "Didn't you stay up late for self-study?"

"No, today is not my self-study, I do voluntary labor! Students always say that physics is difficult, so I went to give them lectures."

"Oh……"

"Hey, to be honest, Xiao Shao, those few words of yours are really good. I think it's like chicken soup for the soul uploaded on the Internet. It's okay, you, you have a set of principles."

Shao Wu smiled and shook his head: "Actually, I just read these words blindly on the Internet. I just remembered a few sentences and used them all."

Shao Wu knew that this colleague had always been careless, and he was praising him sincerely.But it was also because of this that Shao Wu found it ironic, or in other words, ridiculous.

Does Longlong take his words seriously?Any adult will laugh when they hear it, what is "giving is happy", what is "just others may not understand what he got", who would believe this kind of nonsense?He was like an idiot, muttering words that others could not understand, and then some people said that this person was deliberately pretending to be stupid, and some people said that this person was really an idiot.

In fact, what he said was the truth.

Shao Wu put the books, keys and water glasses into his backpack, got up and said, "Mr. Wang, then I'll go back to the dormitory first."

"Hey, good, goodbye!"

The evening self-study for the second quarter has begun. At this point, all the gym students training on the playground have already received their training.Shao Wu walked into the deserted playground with a cigarette in his mouth.Smoking is banned in the school, so he just held it in his mouth and didn't light it up—in fact, his smoking frequency has been greatly reduced after going to work. After all, smoking is not allowed in school, and there are roommates in the dormitory, which is not convenient.But at this moment, he wanted to smoke like crazy, at least to smell the tobacco smell, and he finally realized that this might be the addiction to cigarettes.

The playground of No. [-] Middle School is also different from before. The running track is newly paved with soft rubber particles, and there is no sound at all when shoes step on it.Shao Wu walked around the playground, only hearing the rustling of the autumn wind blowing the leaves.

He threw the cigarette in the trash can, thinking he had calmed down.Calm enough to have a normal and decent conversation with Yang Shuyi.

So he dialed Yang Shuyi's number, at 2013:10 on the night of October 29, 9.He couldn't even remember the last time he called Yang Shuyi.While waiting for the call to connect, Shao Wu thought, 37:9 is not too late, so it will not appear ambiguous, which is good.

"Hey?"

Yes - it was Yang Shuyi's voice.

"It's me, Shao Wu."

"I know it's you," Yang Shuyi smiled, with a normal tone, "Why did you think of calling me?"

It's not that I "remembered" today, it's that I think about it every day, but today I finally have a reason.

"It's like this. This month, I'm substituting for Longlong's class, and her old class—sister Shan—said that Longlong's condition is not good recently, so I chatted with her just now."

"Oh, is that so?" Yang Shuyi said, "That's really troublesome for you."

Is it necessary to be so polite? Yang Shuyi.

"No trouble, I should do it. In fact, it's not a serious problem, it's just... Longlong already knows that you gave up graduate school because of her, and she feels a little uncomfortable."

"It's my fault," Yang Shuyi's tone was still relaxed and straightforward, "I should have explained it to her earlier, so that this girl won't think about it—when she comes home at night, I'll call her and talk about it." .”

"...Okay, this is the best. She is now in her third year of high school. It's normal to have emotional ups and downs. You and your mother-in-law try to encourage her as much as possible."

"No problem," Yang Shuyi said with a smile, "I have to make it clear to her that I don't want to go to graduate school because I have to make money, and because of Zou Xin. At that time, she had already decided to go to Chengdu to work. different place."

It turns out that there is also this reason?It's really touching. It turns out that there is another reason. He and she don't want to live in different places, so he gave up studying for graduate school. It's really a love affair——

"Well, okay," Shao Wu felt his Adam's apple trembling slightly, "then let's do this first."

"Well, okay, thanks, Shao Wu."

"you are welcome."

Shao Wu returned to the dormitory, exhausted his last strength to take off his coat and pants, and rolled himself into the quilt.The roommate was clacking on the keyboard, and smiled when he saw this: "Why did you go, you are so stupid."

Shao Wu said hoarsely: "Call the parents of the students."

"Hey, have you encountered a difficult situation again? There is a student's parent in our class too. She insists on talking to you for 5 minutes about something that can be finished in 10 minutes. I beg you to die..."

Shao Wu closed his eyes, showing a wry smile: "Well, it's difficult."

"Are you okay, why is your voice so hoarse?" The roommate raised his hand and took a glass jar from the bookcase, "My girlfriend brought Pang Da Hai over, why don't you drink something?"

Girlfriend, girlfriend again, Shao Wu thought, probably for a straight man, having a girlfriend who loves each other is really a very good thing.

"Okay, thank you...I'll drink it tomorrow."

Shao Wu felt dizzy, as if he had caught a cold, but Yang Shuyi's voice could be heard over and over again in his ears, it was not a hallucination, it was real, real Yang Shuyi's voice.He thought that he was an idiot for secretly recording the phone call with Yang Shuyi.He just felt that he finally had a chance, so he just recorded it.Not only an idiot, but also a pervert.

So this could be retribution?Yang Shuyi's voice came over and over again in the earphones, Yang Shuyi said, we don't want to be in a different place; Yang Shuyi said, thank you, Shaowu.