No.70 days

In the early morning of the next day, when Shao Wu woke up, the sky was already bright.The bed on the opposite side was empty, the window was pushed open a narrow gap, and the curtains were also drawn. At first glance, the sky was as clear as blue, and it was a sunny day.

Shao Wu glanced at his phone, it was past nine o'clock.

Seven minutes ago, Yang Shuyi sent a WeChat message: I'm going to buy a mobile phone and I'll be right back.

Shao Wu rubbed the center of his brows, still a little dazed: Yingxiu came unexpectedly.

He got up and went to the bathroom to wash up. When he was brushing his teeth with a thick, hard disposable toothbrush, Yang Shuyi opened the door and came in.He was still dressed as yesterday, with a paper bag in his hand.

Shao Wu walked out of the bathroom, Yang Shuyi said: "You should wear this, it will be warmer."

In the bag was a khaki jacket, made of fleece, with the tag still on.

Shao Wu's face became hot, and he clutched the coat, a little embarrassed: "Thank you..." Maybe he should ask how much the coat is, but he feels that it is too unfamiliar to ask this question given the relationship between the two of them now up.

Although he can't tell what kind of relationship they are.

It's no longer just a simple friendship, hugging and holding hands, but no one has explicitly mentioned "together"-and even if they are "together" now, so what?Yang Shuyi is still married, it's unclear, it's still a bad debt.

Shao Wu put on the coat that Yang Shuyi bought for him, the size was right.He turned around and stuffed his mobile phone wallet into his pocket, while smiling bitterly to himself.

When the two went downstairs, the boss was sitting in the yard peeling peanuts, and asked enthusiastically, "Are you going to eat?"

"Well," Yang Shuyi smiled at him, "Which one is delicious?"

"Go to the right, there is a shop that sells Chaoshou, it's very comfortable."

The two thanked the boss, followed the path he pointed, and went to the breakfast shop to eat two bowls of rattan pepper chaoshou.I don't know if it's because of the proximity to the Minjiang River, but the wind in Yingxiu is cooler than that in Shuimo, and the sun is stronger.After dinner, Yang Shuyi said, "Go to the ruins?"

Shao Wu said, "Okay."

The proprietress was cleaning the table at the side, and she heard the words: "Hey, remember to find a guide, 100 yuan a time... Some of their units come in groups, and they all ask for an explanation, and you can also listen along."

Shao Wu said, "Okay, thank you."

The proprietress smiled: "You're welcome."

After a while, she suppressed her smile again: "We don't have much fun here. Some people came to visit the ruins, and they said it was very boring, and they couldn't make fun of themselves...Then what can we do?" She shook her head and smiled again, "But the cherries here are delicious, remember to bargain when you buy them."

Yingxiu Town is really too small. After walking out of the breakfast shop, they arrived at the ruins of Xuankou Middle School in less than 10 minutes.

The white wall, bold black characters, read: Sichuan Wenchuan Earthquake Xuankou Middle School Ruins.

That's how depressing it was.

However, when he got closer, Shao Wu saw a sign on the right side of the gate, also in black on a white background, which read "Xuankou Middle School, Wenchuan County".It is thin and black, with a bit of elegance, Shao Wu thought, if you only look at this sign, everyone will think that this is an ordinary middle school, right?

It used to be an ordinary middle school.

The lecturer introduced that the reason why the earthquake site of Xuankou Middle School was preserved is actually because the damage to Xuankou Middle School was relatively minor.In contrast, Yingxiu Primary School was almost razed to the ground, and the casualties were even more severe. After the earthquake, Dongguan City, Guangdong Province provided aid for the reconstruction of Yingxiu Primary School and funded the reconstruction of Yingxiu Primary School.The new Yingxiu Primary School is located on the edge of the Minjiang River, which is the safest place in Yingxiu Town.

This was the first time that Shao Wu saw with his own eyes the huge, broken clock dial that he had seen and seen in the news.There is a railing around it, so they can only see from a distance, but they can see clearly, and the pointer on it points to 14:28.

The narrator said that this is the dial of the second and third classes of high school.

Going in, a low dormitory building appeared in front of us, and we can only see the third floor now—although the building did not collapse, the first and second floors sank directly into the ground during the earthquake, so it was originally There are five floors, the explainer paused, and continued to say that when the earthquake happened, the students were in class, and a boy took sick leave to rest in the dormitory. Later, his body was not found, and it is speculated that he sank into the ground with the floor So far... According to statistics, there are still 11 remains in the site. After obtaining the consent of their families, we decided to let them rest here and bury them in peace.

They continued to walk forward, passing through lonely corridors, passing sloping teaching buildings and libraries.Shao Wu found that here, all the signs and gates erected after the earthquake were black and white.The only two colors are the overgrown weeds and the red paint on the ruins of the teaching building.Who can believe it?Even in the gaps between the fallen boulders, green grass grows, swaying in the sun and wind.There are still victims who died forever, but vitality has enveloped the ruins unstoppably. When the wind blows, the lamp tubes in the classroom sway, Shao Wu suddenly feels that here, even "life" is part of the inhumane world.

Throughout the whole process, Yang Shuyi didn't say a word.

The commentator said that, in fact, so far, there are still many victims whose bodies have not been found as "missing", including the boy in the dormitory building.

Shao Wu wondered, could his family often dream that he came back alive?He's gone missing—of course he's not dead if he can't see the body—and maybe he lied about being sick that afternoon when he actually climbed over the wall and went out to play.This is such a cruel and beautiful thing, that knife never fell, missing, a certain boy from Yingxiu, speaking Sichuan dialect, probably still wearing a school uniform, he didn’t die, he just went to a far away place, If someone comes across, please help call him home.

They circled the ruins and returned to the clock face.On the other side of the "Sichuan Wenchuan Earthquake Xuankou Middle School Site", it is written: Deep condolences to the victims of the Sichuan Wenchuan Earthquake.

The two walked out of the ruins of Xuankou Middle School, Yang Shuyi bought a few bottles of mineral water, and then they walked to the epicenter memorial hall.

The Epicenter Memorial Hall is built on a hillside adjacent to National Highway 213, and the halfway up the hill is the cemetery for the victims of the earthquake.Walking up the mountain, the cemetery is full of green grass, and occasionally a tablet of Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva can be seen in the corner.It was already past one o'clock in the afternoon when they took a closer look at the memorial hall.

Yang Shuyi still didn't speak much, at most he asked Shao Wu: "Will you drink water?" He also had no expression on his face, always walking beside Shao Wu quietly.

When going down the mountain, passing by the cemetery, Yang Shuyi suddenly said, "Wait for me."

Shao Wu watched him take out a stick of incense from his backpack and lit it.He walked to the Wenchuan Earthquake Victims Monument of the China Railway Thirteenth Bureau halfway up the mountain, knelt down facing the cemetery, and kowtowed slowly.The sun fell on him unobstructed, coating his black jacket with bright yellow, making him look like a statue.He knelt for about half a minute.

Then he put the stick of incense in a small altar that someone had placed in front of the monument.

Mourning flowers were scattered around the monument.

Yang Shuyi got up, patted the dirt on his knees, and said, "Let's go, go eat."

He was still calm, and Shao Wu worriedly grabbed his hand: "Shuyi." He didn't know what the sudden kneeling just now meant, he just felt that Yang Shuyi had come prepared, he was already prepared, this time kneel.

Yang Shuyi smiled, and said in a low voice, "I don't know where my dad and Aunt Xiaojuan are... just pretend they are in this cemetery." After a pause, he added, "I apologize to them."

Shao Wu's heart twitched. He remembered that year when Longlong was still in elementary school and was bullied by his deskmate. The little boy who deserved a beating said that your father went to Yingxiu because of you and your mother!But later Yang Shuyi told Longlong that it was all his brother's fault.

Eight years later, he still couldn't forgive that boy, and that boy, like the boy in the dormitory of Xuankou Middle School, disappeared in the earthquake.

Shao Wu clenched Yang Shuyi's hand tightly, and Yang Shuyi embraced him. In this place where death and life are connected, Yang Shuyi put his forehead on Shao Wu's shoulder, and said, "I apologized to my dad just now... You're not sensible, you shouldn't be arguing with him."

"Shu Yi." Shao Wu's nose was sore.

"There's another thing," Yang Shuyi said word by word, "I told him that I'm going to divorce Zou Xin, I won't have children, I won't have a wife, I'm going to lie to my mother-in-law until she dies, And...to be with a man. Every year in the future, on the anniversary of his and Aunt Xiaojuan's death, I will think about them...but I want to celebrate your birthday. "

Yang Shuyi raised his head and stared into Shao Wu's eyes, his gaze was like an arrow: "Shao Wu, I will divorce her tomorrow, do you still want to be with me?"

The impact was so great that for a moment, Shao Wu didn't know how to react.It has been nine years since he fell in love with him in 2007. Countless times he fantasizes that he accepts him, and countless times he fantasizes that he forgets him. It has been nine years.So when this moment really came, Shao Wu's mind went blank.

Yang Shuyi said: "It's okay, you can think about it slowly."

The two went down the mountain, Shao Wu followed Yang Shuyi, his mind was filled with countless emotions and thoughts, last night when Yang Shuyi was sleeping on the bed not far away from him, he even thought, what if this life is like this?Yang Shuyi can block the flying stones for him, but he can't stay with him forever, this is also a friendship that can share hardships but not joys?Just as he ran to Yang Shuyi's side again and again in difficult times.But Yang Shuyi doesn't want to stay with him forever, maybe he can't, maybe he doesn't want to, it doesn't matter, they will be like two strange magnets in the crowd, secretly harboring some kind of induction.

If this is the case in this life, he thinks he can accept it.They are all living a good life, even if there are many unwillingness and regrets, even if they are like ants as Zou Xin said——

They walked along the Minjiang River, the river is deep blue, the water surface is wide, rushing continuously, and the sound of the waves echoed in the valley.

The moment Yang Shuyi blocked the stone for him, he had already accepted that not everyone's life can give and receive love smoothly, so even if their lives are really like ants——

"Shao Wu," Yang Shuyi suddenly stopped, "Is this Yingxiu Primary School?"

Yes.On the Minjiang River, the noise of children came from the brand-new teaching building of Yingxiu Primary School.On the outer wall of the teaching building, white, orange, and pink complement each other, and it is set off by the distant green hills, making it even more colorful and bright.

In the Wenchuan earthquake, nearly three quarters of the teachers and students of Yingxiu Primary School were killed.

On the teaching building of the newly built Yingxiu Primary School, there are seven big characters:

all life is wonderful

Shao Wu saw gurgling tears falling from Yang Shuyi's eyes. After the Wenchuan earthquake, he saw Yang Shuyi cry twice. He, your dad is in the sky, and he also wants to watch you go to college.One time, Yang Shuyi was drunk the night before the wedding and told him, love.

He had never seen him in such pain, he was crying, he was lying on the thick stone pier beside the Minjiang River, his two shoulder blades stood upright, twitching and undulating with his cries.From whimpering to crying loudly, it seemed that a soul that had been imprisoned for a long time finally let out a hoarse cry.

So what if he lived like an ant, so what if he had regrets in this life, so what if his life was beaten beyond recognition by the earthquake - he is also one of the survivors of the earthquake, some have amputated limbs, some have been paralyzed, some have lost their loved ones, After the survivors are sung over and over again, the bystanders don't know how they will face the next life.

And Shao Wu knew that their next life would be to fight against the scene of hell that could not be erased for the rest of their lives.Once you walk through the back side of life, you will never return to the front side of life.Are you stupid, you endure, you sacrifice, you use violence against yourself, you hurt those who truly love you, you almost lived like an ant, you never escaped the earthquake at all—

it's fine.

If you have been to Yingxiu, you will understand.

All life is wonderful.

Shao Wu finally, finally came to his senses.

He stepped forward, hugged Yang Shuyi's waist tightly, and pressed his cheek against his trembling back.He has endured it for seventy days, and he thought he could forget him, like quitting smoking.

It turned out not to work.Every day of patience is like a wound being cut open in Ling Chi's body. No. What is after 70 days?But it is, No.70 one day.

"I would like to be with you, of course I would." Shao Wu said.

He couldn't stand it anymore.