Remembrance Hibiscus GL

Binglun went out of the west gate of the city alone, without taking the main road, lashing his whip and galloping all the way through the mountains, with the sound of wind in his ears, countless tree shadows flying back in front of his eyes, from time to time, branches and leaves scratched his cheeks, causing burning pain.He drove straight for more than ten li in one breath, and finally came to a low cliff, there was no way to go in front of him, the Xuelong horse was very spiritual, suddenly hissed, its hooves stood upright, and it stopped abruptly.She rolled down from the saddle, her steps were flimsy, she just walked forward involuntarily, a voice in her heart said over and over again: "What is the purpose of a person's life? What is my life for? I have done so much, what have I gained? Is everything today what I want? What is the interest in my life?"

She is the most shrewd and calm person, and she has been maximally self-restraining and suppressing for more than ten years. Once her thoughts are unleashed today, she is like a galloping horse, and the river is surging. She is looking up at the peak in the distance. In the illusory clouds and mist, scenes of the past clearly reappeared in her mind. In a trance, she saw Lin Wanxi again, saw the dagger, saw the blood staining her clothes, saw the queen and the concubines in the harem. Seeing the billowing smoke, the rain of swords and arrows all over the sky, and seeing the corpses of thousands of soldiers, she heard Zong Xu crying and saying, "I hate you, why aren't you my biological mother?" , I also hate myself, why is it not your own son!" Then came Lianzhen's voice: "Is the life of others not life?" "Huo Binglun, I will never forgive you!" Her heart suddenly burst Shrinking, murmured: "Who said that good will be rewarded with good, evil will be rewarded with evil, Wan'er is such a beautiful and kind girl, why is fate so cruel to her? Ah! Everything is my fault, it is my fault! If Back then, if I hadn’t been tempted by Wan’er, so many things wouldn’t have happened, and she wouldn’t have died! Now even if I take revenge, the things I lost, the most precious things in my youth, will never be found again ...Wan'er's death made me feel unspeakably painful. Wouldn't it be the same pain if other people lost their loved ones, husbands, wives and children? In the past seven or eight years, because of me, There are no less than hundreds of thousands of dead people. My hands are bloody and my body is full of sins. Am I the most heinous person in the world? What kind of retribution will God give me? No! There is no causal cycle in the world, where What is the retribution of good and evil! It’s just the self-deceiving words of the fool and the weak. If God really exists, then it must also deceive the good and fear the evil!” A self-pitying smile appeared on her face, and she shook her head again: "Huo Binglun, do you think you are fine now? Yes, everything in the world is within your reach, but so what? No matter how gorgeous and comfortable the bed curtain is, you can't sleep soundly, and no matter how delicate and delicious the food is, you can't eat it. , the only person you still love and care about, already treats you like a devil, and even doesn't want to see you again, and doesn't want you to touch her again!"

The ice wheel was deeply trapped in the quagmire of pain and confusion, and she walked to the edge of the cliff unknowingly. It was the beginning of the year, the spring was cold, and the morning wind was biting her skin. She didn't even notice it. , didn't know who she was, let alone what she wanted to do, when she suddenly heard a "dong", a thick and long bell sound came from a distance, her heart was shocked, and she woke up suddenly, only then did she hear the sound of her surroundings. There seemed to be a sound of a horse yelling, and subconsciously turned around, only to see a kneeling guard behind him at some point.

Seeing her standing on the edge of the cliff, the leading military officer did not dare to act rashly. He was on high alert and wanted to rush up to rescue her at any time, while saying: "I beg the master to cherish the phoenix body! If the master makes a mistake, the only thing I can do is to lead all my subordinates immediately." Apologize with death!"

Binglun looked at them, his mind became clearer, and he said slightly: "Tao Zhijian, do you think I'm going to commit suicide?"

It was Tao Zhijian who spoke. He is the commander of the outer guards. As soon as he heard that Binglun was missing, he hurriedly summoned all the city gate officers for questioning. Binglun was very conspicuous, and the guards all remembered him. He was anxious and knew the general situation. Afterwards, before he could report to Tie Yi, he personally led the troops to follow him.He was originally from the iron guards, he only knows how to be loyal to protect the master, he is not good at words, hearing what Binglun said, his eyes were filled with tears, and he said repeatedly: "I beg the master to cherish the phoenix body!"

A round of red sun pierced through the clouds and fog, and finally jumped out. The sky was already bright at this time, and the ice wheel slowly turned back. At the foot of the mountain, there were villages and farmhouses in a patchwork order, hidden among the green mountains and green waters. There was a curl of smoke floating in the sky, it seemed that I got up late in the morning and was still making breakfast, but it was a peaceful and peaceful scene. Binglun's mood gradually calmed down. After a long time, he said: "Don't worry, my life is very precious, and I won't take it lightly." dead."

Tao Zhijian's tense heartstrings relaxed slightly, and he immediately said, "Master, please move, and I will escort you back to the city."

Binglun was still thinking about the bell just now, and the deep and long sound seemed to still be echoing in the mountains and valleys, resounding in her mind, she looked around and asked, "Are there any temples around here?"

Tao Zhijian was stunned, turned his head to look at others with questioning eyes, and a guard replied in a low voice: "Dutong, there seems to be only one Huangci Nunnery nearby."

Tao Zhijian hurriedly replied, "Master, Huang Ci Temple is nearby."

Binglun repeated in a low voice: "Huangci Temple, Huangci Temple..."

Back then, when she came to the imperial court to rule and took control of the power of the world, she secretly ordered Gao Xian to relocate Lin Wanxi to Xinghualin in the southwest suburb of the capital, and designate it as Huangzhuang. Afterwards, she ordered her confidants to start building there Huang Ci Nunnery, and ordered not to publicize it. There used to be several large-scale royal nunneries inside and outside the capital, so even if some people knew about it, no one cared about it. It took four years before Huang Ci Nunnery was completed.

Her back was trembling slightly, Tao Zhijian could see clearly behind her, and his heart raised his throat again, begging bitterly: "Master, it's windy here, if it blows like this, I'm going to get sick, please get on your horse, and go back earlier."

Binglun suddenly turned around and walked towards his mount. Tao Zhijian was overjoyed and took big strides, three steps in parallel to get to the side of the Xuelong stallion, then knelt down on one knee, bent down, and Binglun stepped on his horse with his left foot. Back on his back, he got on his horse and said, "I'm fine, but I'm going somewhere, and none of you are allowed to follow, this is an order!"

What catches the eye is the more and more familiar path. The air is filled with the smell of astringent green grass. Gradually, there is a touch of flower fragrance. The further you go, the sweeter and more fragrant the flower fragrance is.After more than ten years, returning to the old place, the scenery remains the same, but the beauty returned to the dust long ago.The horse moved forward slowly, with the sound of hooves, as if stepping on Binglun's heart with every sound, an inexplicable dull pain spread in her chest, her palms trembled slightly, and she couldn't help pulling the reins, the Xuelong horse got the order and stopped immediately down.

A large forest of apricot blossoms stretches and undulates, like clouds and fog, like dreams and illusions. Binglun looked at it from a distance across the stream, with a bewildered expression, and seemed to be a little confused again. It took a long time before he made up his mind. Gritting his teeth, he continued to urge the horse forward, and the Xuelong colt shot out like a shooting star. Thousands of silver flowers were immediately stirred up in the stream, and scattered like flying pearls and broken jade.

The past is vivid, as in the bottom of my eyes, the green and fluffy grass, slender and soft, where the fragrant wind passes, it seems that there is a rain of flower petals falling, one after another, fluttering, two innocent and unworldly girls are chasing in the rain of apricot blossoms Play, snuggle and hug each other.

"Cousin, this place is so beautiful, I like it so much, can you bring me here often when you have time? This will be our garden from now on, the private garden of the two of us."

"I didn't cry, I was just blinded by the pollen... You always go hunting outside the city with your uncle now, and sometimes you go for a few days, causing people to wait at home, so worried."

"Binglun, if we can build a house here and live here, it would be great, I...I really want to be with you like this every day, and I can look at you like this all the time."

The private garden of two people, the shining eyes like stars, the delicate and timid expression, and the soft and soft voice can make people's hearts melt. . . . . .

But when he opened his eyes, everything was just hallucinations, just auditory hallucinations, Binglun's chest was cramping, his face was like the petals of white apricot blossoms, there were tears in his phoenix eyes, but they didn't fall after all.

In the depths of the flower forest, the corners of the cornices are faintly exposed. Going forward, there are Daiqing tiles, snow-white walls, and a plaque on the main entrance. It is simple and vigorous, and when it is illuminated by the sun, it is golden.

Master Huixian, the presiding officer of Huangci Nunnery, heard Binglun's arrival, and immediately came to greet her. Seeing Binglun's lost soul, she was secretly surprised. Seeing the ceremony, she said: "Why did Your Highness come here alone?"

"I'm out for a walk, just passing by here, let's take a look." Binglun handed the reins to one of her disciples, not wanting to say anything, and went inside with her.

Huangci Nunnery faces south and has three courtyards. It is not very big, but because Binglun personally ordered the construction, the official in charge of this matter put a lot of painstaking efforts in the construction.The layout of the whole temple is rigorous, neat and symmetrical, and a clear spring is specially drawn from the mountain, flowing into the nunnery, forming a lotus leaf pond, a carp pond, and then around the edge of the house, flowing out to the front yard wall, and the stream in front of the apricot blossom forest. confluence.Walking through it, you can see winding corridors, fragrant flowers and trees, rainbows hanging from small bridges, gurgling springs, bluestone paved roads, and winding paths leading to secluded places. It is extremely quiet and elegant, with a bit of the charm of Jiangnan gardens.

Binglun didn't pay attention to these, went straight to the last main hall, the Daxiong Hall, burnt incense and bowed in front of the enshrined Buddha statues, and said to Huixian, "I've been quite restless recently, and I intend to stay here for a while."

Huixian said: "The poor nun knows that His Highness will come sooner or later, but he has already prepared for it."

After finishing speaking, he clasped his hands together and bowed, leading the way and leading her to a courtyard in the east, but this place was quite different from other places, there were no flowers and plants of any color, only thousands of stalks of green bamboos were lush and lush, and the rest were only planted with a few plants. Plantains, the whole courtyard is cold and emerald, reflecting green skin and hair.

Binglun saw a raised mound of soil in the courtyard at a glance, and tremblingly said: "That...that is..."

Huixian nodded, and Binglun felt a pain in his heart. He felt dizzy, staggered, and tried to take two steps forward. Huixian hurriedly followed her and helped her. Sighing softly, he silently backed out.

It's just an inconspicuous mound without even a tombstone, but there is a bunch of white apricot flowers in front of the tomb, which seems to have been picked in the early morning.

Binglun's eyes were blurred with tears, and he moved forward step by step, each step seemed to use up all the strength in his body, and when he reached the tomb, his legs could no longer support him, and he knelt down with a "plop".

"I...I came to see you. In fact, I could have come to see you a long time ago, but I haven't come. Do you blame me? Are you angry with me and think I'm too heartless?"

Her voice was very soft, full of shame, and surprisingly gentle, as she stroked the mound of dirt with her hand, she gradually choked up: "You didn't have time to see me again and tell me your grievances, and you left with hatred. It must be very reconciled...you must be lonely and scared when you are alone in the ground...you must miss me as much as I miss you...so, these Over the past few years, you have often come to my dreams."

She grabbed a handful of soil with her right hand and slowly clenched it tightly. "I once swore in my heart that anyone who hurt you, I will make them pay a painful price, I want them to die in pain, or life is worse than death! I did it..." Her beautiful face slightly Twitching, she murmured: "I did it, for this, I did a lot of things, many things you wouldn't like, let alone see... Wan'er, I am no longer with you in the past. The person you get along with, maybe... Maybe now that you see me, you don't know me anymore."

Speaking of the last sentence, I couldn't control it anymore, tears burst like a flood, and big and big ones rolled down, sinking into the soil silently.