life in a hurry

After getting into the carriage, Chen Feiqing pulled down the curtains, and when he turned around, he saw that Fu Nansheng was no longer drunk and was looking out from the gap in the curtains.

After Fu Nansheng looked away, Chen Feiqing gave him a thumbs up and said silently: Well done.

Fu Nansheng smiled at him, and when he saw him sitting over, he turned his head and whispered in his ear, "Any clues?"

Chen Feiqing shook her head, lowered her voice, and said, "We'll talk about it when we go back. But if you pretend to be drunk, pretend to be drunk, why are you pretending to be so exaggerated?"

Fu Nansheng was silent for a while, and said: "Don't sleep in the black shop for the last night before departure, don't drink the last glass of wine when you have to leave early in the brothel, and don't eat the last bowl of rice before the trial of the unjust case. This is what my mother taught. mine."

Chen Feiqing: "..."

Chen Feiqing came to his senses after a while, turned his head and put his fingers into his mouth to induce vomiting, but of course he couldn't vomit.

He was worried about the groom, so he could only turn around and grab Fu Nansheng's lapel, and said in a low voice, "Didn't you say it earlier?!"

Fu Nansheng frowned at him, and said, "I didn't expect you to snatch that glass of wine. I think this old bustard will be useful in the future, and I don't dare to offend her. She intends to toast me. If I refuse directly , it will be difficult to have anything to do with her in the future, what if she has no bad intentions? I can't be sure, so I can only pretend to be a fool and pretend to spill the wine accidentally. The old bustard has sharp eyes, and I haven't grasped it If you can fool me, you snatched the wine just before you even started singing."

Chen Feiqing frantically said: "How do I know what you mean? I wanted to leave quickly at that time, and Lu Ding didn't tell me about this!"

Fu Nansheng said slowly: "Don't worry too much, young master. They open the door to do business, and they don't deliberately take people's lives. Generally speaking, they don't take medicine that hurts the body. The risk of being discovered will also stop you. Are you uncomfortable now?"

Chen Feiqing didn't feel it at first, but when he was asked at this time, he felt it carefully, leaned back, and said: "It's over, I got tricked, it's really uncomfortable, but it's not serious."

Fu Nansheng said: "Maybe she saw that I was weak, so she wouldn't take too much dose. Actually, it's not as scary as you think, the dose is small, and you practiced martial arts since childhood, this glass of wine is just for you thing."

Chen Feiqing thought distressedly, but I'm not interested in asking for help. Could it be that I'm being asked to do a marksmanship in the middle of the night?The key point is that I neither have a gun nor a sword. If Lu Ding comes with me, I can still fight him with bare hands.

Fu Nansheng continued: "Go back and take a bath, lie down, and sleep, and you will be fine tomorrow, and you will have a stomachache for two days at most."

Chen Feiqing asked in surprise: "Wait, are you saying that she gave me laxatives?"

Tonight, he drank a round of spirits with the king of the Mo Kingdom, and before he woke up, he came here again and was filled with alcohol. Although he was not drunk, his eyes were a little dizzy, and his body was a little heavy. He pinched himself They are all numb, and I can't figure out where the pain is.At this time, he listened to Fu Nansheng's words and covered his stomach, not sure why he felt uncomfortable for a while.

Fu Nansheng leaned on the frame of the car, looked up at him slightly, half-closed his eyes, and smiled with the corners of his mouth curled up. He was really intoxicated with the aftertaste of wine, and his words were not as respectful as before. : "This kind of place is only for fools like you."

Chen Feiqing: "I know you're not drunk, don't pretend to be drunk and scold me."

Fu Nansheng waved his hand: "I'm not fully dressed, I can't drink Moguo's spirits, I'm really dizzy."

Chen Feiqing said: "Then tell me what I want to do first?"

Fu Nansheng became a little impatient, and said: "I said it's okay, go back and take a shower, cover yourself with the quilt, sleep well, and I'm not lying to you, I can't die, how could something happen to you."

After finishing speaking, he closed his eyes and refused to open them even if he was killed.

What else could Chen Feiqing do? She rubbed her throat down and back for a long time, trying to figure out what was causing the discomfort.

But the sensations of the body are transmitted very slowly at this moment, and the mind is not so clear-headed. When I get nervous, I feel uncomfortable anywhere, especially as if there is nowhere to dissipate the breath in my heart, which is very uncomfortable.

If Fu Nansheng hadn't sworn that his life would not be in danger, Chen Feiqing would have suspected that he had taken heart-burning poison.

The carriage was walking slowly on the street in the middle of the night. Perhaps the groom was worried about startling the guests, so he drove the horse extremely slowly.

Chen Feiqing raised the curtain to let the groom go faster, but the groom couldn't understand the Central Plains dialect at all, and Chen Feiqing didn't know how to use Moguo dialect to urge the groom to hurry up, so he had to give up resentfully, put down the curtain and sat back, but the boring feeling But it is getting stronger and stronger.

Chen Feiqing glanced at Fu Nansheng who was lying there taking a nap, then at the car curtain, forced himself to calm down, sat cross-legged, and adjusted his breath with luck.

In fact, he didn't know if it would be useful, but Master said it was a method of calming the mind, so it must be useful at this time.

Slowly, he really calmed down. Although his body became more and more uncomfortable, his heart calmed down.

He closed his eyes and recited the Dharma silently, recalling what his father taught him: the reason why people are human, not animals, is because they know how to control themselves, self-control, and self-restraint.If a person indulges in leisure and pleasure blindly, knowing that one thing is bad but still doing that thing, this person is contemptuous of human beings.

At that time, Chen Feiqing was still young, and asked back: "But I think many people are as indulgent as you said, and they are still human."

His father glared at him: "People are divided into three, six, and nine classes. If you are willing to be an inferior person, you can leave the house immediately. I don't care about you."

Chen Feiqing was particularly wronged. What's the matter with always driving people away when they disagreed? Was it her own?

He endured the humiliation and said, "That's not what I mean, but Uncle Thai eats, drinks, prostitutes and gambles every day and kills innocent people indiscriminately. Is he an inferior person?"

His father looked at him for a while, and when he saw that his heart was trembling, he said: "In my eyes, he is still not a human being."

What is a human being, what is the difference between human beings and mountains, rivers, plants, birds, animals, what is the basis for the division of three, six, nine, etc., a human life is only a few decades, what is the purpose of coming to the world, and what to accomplish.

These are the questions his father asked him to think about since he was a child, and he never gave him a complete answer.

He tries his best to explore, and no one will tell him which choice is right and which choice is wrong, but let him think more about the thorns his father hung in the ancestral hall when making a choice.

He felt unconvinced at the time, and sat on the steps at the entrance of the Hou Mansion to sulk, and was seen by King Ning who was passing by.

When King Ning saw his puffy appearance, he smiled and asked, "What are you doing sitting here?"

Chen Feiqing said dejectedly: "My father made me think about things that I can't understand, but I still can't understand."

King Ning raised his eyebrows slightly, thought for a while, and asked him, "Do you eat sweet-scented osmanthus?"

Chen Feiqing: "Huh?"

King Ning bought him a bag of sweet-scented osmanthus candies, led him to the teahouse, watched him eat the candies, and said slowly: "Your father has already given you the answer, and the wattle is already the answer."

Chen Feiqing just bit into a piece of sweet-scented osmanthus candy, and his mouth was so sweet, he quickly took a sip of tea, and said unconvinced: "What's the answer?"

King Ning said: "You said that your father likes to watch you make mistakes and punish you afterwards, but he never tells you what to do and what not to do in advance. But you really don't know what to do and what not to do? ?”

Chen Feiqing was stunned, pinched an osmanthus candy and put it in his mouth, biting while tilting his head to look at King Ning.

King Ning smiled and said: "Actually, everyone knows whether what they do is right or wrong, but many people know that it is wrong, but they still do it. That's all. Maybe you can understand it. For example, when you are short of money, and someone walks past you and leaves an ingot of gold behind, what would you do?"

Chen Feiqing said without hesitation: "Of course I stopped him and returned it to him."

King Ning shook his head: "You don't lack food and clothing on weekdays, so you don't need this ingot of gold. But if you think about it, you are a very poor child, your father died early, your mother was seriously ill, and your family was destitute. Buy this ingot of gold for your mother, and your mother may die tomorrow. At this time, what are you going to do?"

Chen Feiqing was startled, and lowered his head to think.

King Ning looked at him with a smile: "Look, things in the world are very complicated, and we don't take it for granted. Many times, people are forced to do so. But in fact, let's take a look at it and put aside those cumbersome things. Let's look at this matter again. , this matter is nothing more than someone dropping gold, do you want to pay it back? Pay it back, of course you have to pay it back, this is the only correct reason, you can’t find another one. However, if you need it very much, maybe you don’t I would like to pay it back, and said to myself and others, "I want to save my mother, and I took this ingot of gold not because I was greedy for money, but because I want to save people."

People in the world may not want to cure their mother, but they always have their own reasons. There are many reasons, thousands of them, and thousands of people decide not to return it.Don't these people really know the truth of not picking up lost things on the road?It is impossible not to know that good is good and evil is evil. Good and evil are always in conflict. Unless you are a fool, no one can know that stealing is wrong and helping others is right. It is impossible not to know.Everyone knows these principles, but not everyone can do it. "

Chen Feiqing seemed to understand a little bit, but not particularly, and looked at King Ning thoughtfully.

King Ning took a fan and tapped him on the head: "You will gradually understand these in the future, don't worry. I just want to tell you that the reason why your father punished you with thorns is not because you don't know what is right and what is right." Wrong, but because you knew what was wrong, but still did that. You knew that the crown prince shouldn’t eat foreign food, but you secretly brought him candied haws, shouldn’t you be punished?”

Chen Feiqing touched his head embarrassingly, and said: "It's not something you can't eat, it won't be bad. If it wasn't for him insisting that you can't eat too much sugar at one time, and hiding most of the remaining skewers under the pillow to attract ants, you wouldn't be caught. found."

King Ning was amused by him, and knocked his head with a fan again: "You are right, the reason why many people know that they can't do it is because they are as lucky as you think, anyway, they picked up other people's gold , others will not lose their fortunes because of this, anyway, if they beat someone, that person will not die because of it, anyway, if I kill someone, the government will not be able to catch me, so I can do it, right?"

Chen Feiqing argued: "This is not the same thing! I just brought a candied haws for the prince, it's not that serious, right?"

King Ning said: "There is no excuse at all, because people are the most cunning, and they can find countless excuses for their actions, but even 1 excuses can't cover up that he did something wrong. There is no right or wrong in this world. Divided into big and small, didn’t the Taifu teach you not to do good because it’s small, and not to do evil when it’s small? Did you doze off again when you were in class? Let me tell you, if I were your father, I have to punish you too. Studying with the prince is a benefit that no one can live in for a few lifetimes. Zhou Taifu is a great Confucian who can never be found in the court. How many scholars want to see him, and the articles he writes will be published as soon as they come out. Luoyang Zhigui, you, you are really useless."

The more Chen Feiqing listened, the more ashamed she became. She couldn't eat the sweet-scented osmanthus candy anymore. She lowered her head and said, "I know I was wrong, Uncle Ning."

Ning Wang said: "It's good to know, after eating sugar and tea, I will send you back to your residence."

Chen Feiqing suddenly thought: "Then Uncle Ning, you still buy me candy, and my mother won't let me eat more candy."

King Ning smiled: "But no one punishes me."

Chen Feiqing: "..."

Chen Feiqing shouted: "Isn't this just a fluke for you?"

King Ning gathered the fan, slowly flattened it with his palm, lowered his head and said: "Of course it is because we are all lucky people that I let you be a lucky person. You and the prince are still young, and A long time and a lot of possibilities, and we have not been able to."

Chen Feiqing asked: "Why?"

King Ning looked into his eyes and said: "Because this world is not so comfortable that we can be innocent children, but I hope there will be such a day in the future, and I hope that this day will be brought by you and the prince. "

Chen Feiqing will always remember King Ning's eyes that day, those eyes were filled with the most gentle hope he had ever seen.

Chen Feiqing opened his eyes, and lowered his head to meet Fu Nansheng's shiny black eyes.

Fu Nansheng said awkwardly: "I think you seem to be very uncomfortable, and your face is hot. Maybe I made a mistake just now, and it's not as simple as I said."

Chen Feiqing reached out to pinch Fu Nansheng's jaw, forcing him to open his mouth and raise his head, and said slowly: "I saved you because I did kill the Wang family according to the sacred order, and you were indeed wronged in that case. I help you because I have seen your policy and theory, and I think you also have a positive heart. I eat the imperial salary, and the salary is nothing but the treasury. It's my job. Maybe you don't believe it, but I really never expect the people I help to repay me, because it's just a little effort. If you must repay the favor, be a person who is useful to the country and the people, To serve the imperial court, to be loyal to the emperor and to love the country, is enough for me."

Fu Nansheng was speechless, and the hands hanging by his sides gradually curled up.

At this time, the carriage stopped, and the groom yelled outside, perhaps he had finally arrived outside the post house.

Chen Feiqing let go of her hand, straightened her clothes, and then got out of the car.

Fu Nansheng was finally able to speak. He swallowed and said, "I'm not repaying you, I admire you."

Chen Feiqing stopped there when she got out of the car, and looked at him sideways.

Fu Nansheng still knelt there, raised his head, did not look at him, and said, "I don't have any purpose, not for your money, nor for your power, I just admire you, I like you, I If I want to be your person, it doesn't matter if I don't have a name or a title, or if you want to marry a wife and have children in the future, I will not be reconciled, but I will not regret it. But if I don't fight for it, I will give up, and I will definitely hate myself day and night. I don't need you to give me anything, and I won't tell anyone that if you don't like it, I can pretend to be a woman."

Chen Feiqing said: "That's enough, don't go on talking. If you just want to fight for it, then I can tell you now that you have already fought for it, and I very clearly rejected you."

His voice was very calm, almost gentle.

Fu Nansheng heard pity and contempt in such a voice.

Fu Nansheng remembered what King Ning said again, he couldn't help turning his head to look at Chen Feiqing, and asked, "My mother is a prostitute, so it's wrong for me to even like you?"

Chen Feiqing didn't understand why he was suddenly involved in his life experience. He frowned in confusion, but his voice was still very gentle, and said: "I didn't say you were wrong, and you are not wrong, but I can't accept it, sorry."

Fu Nansheng only felt the buzzing in his head, couldn't help raising the volume, and said: "I know there is something in that wine, I let you drink it on purpose."

Chen Feiqing was startled.

Fu Nansheng couldn't help looking vicious in his eyes, and asked, "Don't you have any doubts at all?"

Chen Feiqing had indeed doubted it, but such doubts were fleeting and he did not pursue it further.

He said to Fu Nansheng: "I thought so, but you once told me that you would be loyal to me."

Fu Nansheng asked him almost with hatred: "You believe me when I tell you. Are you a fool? You believe everything anyone says. How did you survive to this day?"

Chen Feiqing looked at him seriously for a while, the tenderness in his eyes gradually dissipated, and he said: "I don't believe in everyone, so I have lived to this day. But I believed in you, but you told me that I am a fool .”

Fu Nansheng clenched his hands even tighter, and his nails dug into the flesh fiercely.

He suddenly shouted in panic: "I was wrong, what I just said was angry, I just drank like this today."

Chen Feiqing shook her head: "You get out of the car first, go to the post house with me, have a rest early, and talk about everything tomorrow."

After finishing speaking, Chen Feiqing got out of the carriage.

He could hardly bear it any longer, raised his hand and touched a few of his acupuncture points, turned his head to see that Fu Nansheng still refused to come down, then glanced at the strong Moguo coachman, frowned and shouted in a low voice: "Fu Nansheng! Come down!" car!"

Fu Nansheng was shocked, hesitated for a moment, got out of the car, and looked at him with red eyes.

Chen Feiqing took out a few pieces of silver and threw them to the groom, dragged Fu Nansheng into the post house, pushed him into Chen Shu's room, closed the door, and returned to his room like a gust of wind, shook off the quilt and burrowed inside .

Chen Shu was sleeping soundly, when he heard a loud bang, he jumped up from the bed in fright, and turned his head to see that Fu Nansheng was sitting on the ground and crying loudly.

Chen Shu: "..."

He hurriedly asked: "What's the matter? Where's the young master?"

Fu Nansheng ignored him and continued to cry, crying heartbreakingly.

Chen Shu became anxious, opened the door and ran out, ran to the next room and knocked on the door: "Master, are you back?"

Chen Feiqing said angrily in the room: "Go back to your own room and leave me alone!"

Chen Shu: "..."

Chen Shu went back to the house depressed, and asked: "Xiao Nan, what happened to you? Who did you meet? Don't just cry when you talk, no, stop crying, talk!"

Fu Nansheng gradually stopped crying. He looked around the room blankly with sobs, and suddenly his eyes fixed. He stood up, walked to the bed, picked up the dagger that Chen Shu had put on the bedside for self-defense, pulled it out and slashed at his face.

Chen Shuhun was scared away by him, but fortunately he had some skills, he quickly opened the dagger with his hands, and shouted: "If you do this again, I will tie you up! Tell me what you want! Why are you crying, making trouble, and hanging yourself?!"

Fu Nansheng became more bewildered after being drank by him like this. Looking at him, he suddenly said, "I like him."

Chen Shu: "Huh? Who do you like?"

Fu Nansheng said: "I like Chen Feiqing."

Chen Shu: "..."

Chen Shu thought about who "Chen Feiqing" was for a while: "Who are you talking about?"

Fu Nansheng looked up and shouted towards the next room: "I like Chen Feiqing, the young master of the Marquis of Anguo!"

Chen Shu: "..."

Chen Shu quickly covered his mouth and said, "What did you say?! No, no, no, no."

Fu Nansheng broke free and asked, "Why not?"

Chen Shudao: "He's about to get married!"

Fu Nansheng was taken aback, and asked, "Is he going to get married? Who is he going to marry?"

Chen Shudao: "Princess Ting. Didn't the young master tell you? They were formally engaged last month. In fact, the two of them had already engaged, but the young master's stupid head is incomprehensible, and the princess is also young, playful and somewhat The girl has a petty temper, so she used to yell that she refused to get married, but in fact it was all angry words. The emperor loves the princess and is reluctant to marry her, so he plans to..."

Chen Shu was still talking non-stop, but Fu Nansheng couldn't listen. He asked in a low voice: "Is he rejecting me because he is going to get married?"

Chen Shu: "Although I don't quite understand what happened, it shouldn't be. I didn't say that, the young master has no interest in such things."

The faint light in Fu Nansheng's eyes became erratic again, and he slowly sat down with his support on the beam of the bed, staring blankly at the opposite wall.

On the other side of the wall was Chen Feiqing's room. He was supposed to sleep there tonight as before, but he messed up everything, he was a waste.

Chen Shudao: "Why don't you go to sleep first, I think you are drunk? You are talking nonsense. You smell so strong of alcohol, you go to rest first, I will wash your face with water. I don't care about the young master. If you dare to go there, let him do it himself."

Chen Shu really didn't take it seriously, and went to fetch water in a rambling manner. Fu Nansheng lay back on the bed, staring blankly at the top of the bed.

He thought he shouldn't be so impatient.

But Chen Feiqing's frowning and patient look was so beautiful that he hardly remembered what his name was.

It's really nice to see that he wants to hide Chen Feiqing so that no one else can see it.