Into the modern comprehension

In April of 1986, just a few days after the Qingming Festival, Su Er Qi finished his thesis defense.Since Sui Erqi will be buried next month with his tutor, Professor Yan, his graduation defense for senior year will be earlier, unlike other departments which put it in May.

For Sui Erqi, senior year graduation thesis is not a distressing thing, and the thesis was finalized as early as the second half semester of junior year, and now it is just the final step.In fact, the learning atmosphere of the university is very strong these days. The students in the school run to the library diligently. When walking on the road, you can see some students holding books. In the cafeteria, you can listen to some academic issues. discuss.

"It's better to end it sooner. Although I have written this thesis long ago, I always feel that there is one thing hanging in the air before the defense is successful."

Roommate Shen He is also from the Department of Archeology, and he will also go to the tomb in May, so he also belongs to the group of people who completed the defense in advance.It was a relief to have resolved this important matter before graduation today, but seeing Sui Erqi's expression, he didn't feel that he was also relieved.On the contrary, Sui Erqi seemed to be hiding something in his heart.

Shen He and Sui Erqi have known each other since junior high school. Although they are not classmates in the same school, they can meet each other during the winter and summer vacations every year. The experience of getting along with each other for more than ten years has made him very sensitive to the emotional changes of old friends.Others think that Sui Erqi is indifferent, but in fact, if you feel it carefully and carefully, you can still feel the emotional changes under Sui Erqi's expressionless face.

"I said, do you still have any unfulfilled wishes? Could it be that you have finally given birth to the parting emotions that you can't bear to leave the school? Then don't go to the south. What's wrong with staying in the capital, although Bao's assignment is organizational It's decided, it's not that there is no room for negotiation, there are several research institutes in Beijing who are interested in you, they talk, you can stay if you agree, and I can have a companion."

Sui Erqi finally spoke after listening to Shen He for a long time, but the language was very concise, "I can't. I still have to go to the library, let's go first."

Shen He saw the back of Sui Erqi leaving. He was used to it, but he was a little worried. Sui Erqi was basically the kind of person who didn't care about anything. If he doesn't believe it, then why is he bothered?

Because Sui Erqi had a dream, in which he saw his parents again.

Sui Erqi was born in 45/[-], the second son of Sui’s family, and also the middle-aged son of Sui’s mother. He was already [-] years old when his mother gave birth to him, partly because of the great harm to the body caused by childbirth at an advanced age. In the sixth year after Sui Erqi was born, his mother passed away due to illness.

After that, Sui Erqi always depended on his father for life, but his father's status as a university teacher made him not have a good life in those ten years. After those ten years, his son had the opportunity to go to university in the early 80s. But also came to the end of life.Right after Sui Erqi freshman started school, Sui's father also passed away.

Logically speaking, there is nothing surprising for a son to dream of his dead parents. This is a feeling of nostalgia, but what if he had the same dream for five days in a row?

This year Qingming had to defend immediately, Sui Erqi couldn't go home to visit the grave, but in the five days after Qingming, he dreamed about his parents continuously.

This dream is a bit strange, the father and mother in the dream are still his appearance when he was a child, and he himself is only two or three years old.

It was in the evening, and when his father returned home from work, he immediately changed his cold expression and showed a silly fatherly smile to his younger son. Then he couldn't wait to pick up his son, shook his son a few times, and then released the little one. I sat on the exclusive small chair, and began to pull out a book of ancient poems to read to my son, and I didn't care if the two-year-old child could understand it.Cooking in the kitchen with my mother, it is rare to smell the smell of braised pork. It is not easy to eat a piece of meat.

At this time, the door of Sui's house was opened, and a young man walked into the yard. His face was blurred, and he said to Sui's father, "Dad, you might as well read English to your younger brother." ’ Then the young man picked up Er Qi and let Er Qi ride on his shoulders.

When the sun was setting, my mother yelled in the kitchen, "Go and wash your hands, dinner is ready."

Sui Erqi had never experienced this scene in reality, but all the warmth came to an abrupt end here. The scene in the dream changed suddenly, and the little Erqi disappeared from the screen, while the remaining three people first disappeared. With her mother, she was still holding braised pork in her hand, but the whole person was getting old rapidly, just like a fast-forward movie, Suimu's hair changed from black to white, and her face suddenly wrinkled a lot Wrinkles, and then took a closer look at the bowl of braised pork that had turned into a pile of rotten meat, but at this moment, the mother disappeared into the air as if it was shattered.

At this time, I saw that Suifu also had a very strange change, he also suddenly aged, and the picture of the dream suddenly changed from color to black and white, and at the same time, Suifu's whole body began to crack, and his skin and muscles were rapidly Peeling off, like a portrait made of sand, all dissipated when the strong wind blows, not even the skeleton remains.

As for the young man who couldn't see his face clearly, his face suddenly swelled up, as if he was drowning. He stretched out his hands and tried to grab something desperately, but in the end he sank without grabbing anything.

For some reason, at this moment Sui Erqi suddenly felt very cold, he actually sank into the water, there was no light around him, he couldn’t open his mouth, otherwise the water would pour into his mouth, but his heart was getting colder, I don’t know if there were tears Flowing from the corner of the eye, maybe there is or maybe not, and all the surrounding sounds are slowly disappearing, but the deep and peaceful snoring sound came from far away.

Then it was dawn, and Sui Erqi woke up.The other seven people in the dormitory were still sound asleep, and he saw Shen He snoring.I was sweating coldly behind my back.

The same dream for five days in a row did not make Sui Erqi want to go to see a master under the flyover, instead he went to the library.Although he is not sociable, he also met two or three classmates in the psychology department in the library. His current state is likely to be some kind of psychological problem. The psychology department of Peking University has not been established for ten years. It is nonsense to go to a psychiatrist like the United States.

Sui Erqi can only make a self-diagnosis first, even after the dissertation defense is over, he turns around and buries himself in the library, he can always find a scientific and reasonable explanation for his dreams.As the saying goes, every line is like a mountain. Although Sui Erqi reads books fast and has a high comprehension ability, it is unrealistic for him to master psychology overnight. After borrowing books such as science and brain science back to the dormitory, Shen He had to ask what happened.

Sui Erqi was annoyed by Shen He's questioning, so he briefly recounted the dream.

Then Shen He looked at Sui Erqi like a fool, and touched his forehead, "You don't have a fever, why did you get this, I thought you were going to take the postgraduate entrance examination of medicine. Erpai, I said This matter is quite simple, why are you so complicated. It means that uncles and aunts miss you, and you only need to go home and visit the grave to cure your subconscious thoughts! You are afraid of being alone, right? I also failed to go back to my hometown in Qingming for this thesis. I will go back with you, just to visit the graves of my grandparents."

Sui Er Qi patted Shen He's hand away, "I told you not to call me Er Pai, the word Qi has the same pronunciation as it. It's not π, and the two don't look alike."

But this is not the key point, but Sui Erqi thinks that things can really be so simple, is this really just a passing yearning?

So where does the feeling of being suffocated by being surrounded by icy water come from?