spring tide with rain

Jiang's mother's birthday is on Saturday. According to Jiang Qiuze, a small party will be held.

Jiang Qiuze invited Yao Shu to go with him, but Yao Shu was afraid of strangers and had stage fright, so he didn't agree, but only prepared a small gift for Jiang Qiuze to send on his behalf.

In fact, he has concerns. Even as an ordinary classmate, Yao Shu would be afraid that Jiang Qiuze's family would not like him.He was used to being unpopular, so he would inevitably think too much.

Jiang Qiuze didn't think about it. He didn't want to go if he didn't want to. He knew that Yao Shu was afraid of strangers and couldn't get along with strangers. Although the birthday party was small this time, there were quite a few people who came.Besides, if someone asks about his girlfriend without thinking, he really doesn't know how to explain it.

Without Yao Shu, he could still handle a few words, but in front of Yao Shu, he really admitted that he was not, and he would not admit it.

Jiang Qiuze went home on Friday night. His home is also in this city, and it is in the opposite direction from Yao Shu's.He is a native of the country, but his voice does not have the slightest local taste. His pure Mandarin is thanks to his father who has just been promoted to a university professor and his mother who can spit out beautiful English with a standard broadcast accent at any time.Yao Shu is different. Although he grew up in this city, he is not really a local.His grandmother's house is in a small water town in the south of the Yangtze River. When I was a child, I would go back to live there for more than half a month every summer vacation. As for the accent, Yao Shu listened too much, and his speech became a bit of Jiangnan soft language.

I haven't gone back for so many years and haven't changed it.

Therefore, in Yao Shu's view, he does not belong to a big city, maybe he is not born with much pursuit, and just wants to spend his whole life in a gentle village.Now he often misses that small but beautiful place, where the women wash their clothes by the water, the laughter of children can be heard half a street away, and the grandmother walking across the bridge with a pole, It became the best memory in his life but he could never get it back.

At night, Jiang Qiuze made a video call to Yao Shu.In fact, the two of them spent very little time together in the past two days, because of their different majors, almost no classes were the same. When Jiang Qiuze was not in class, Yao Shu was always in class, and they only had time to spend together at night.The roof of that teaching building became their secret base, but the weather was not beautiful these two days, and it rained heavily for two consecutive days.Even so Yao Shu is very satisfied, he used to be alone, no matter what he does now, at least Jiang Qiuze is with him, even if sometimes he can't be by his side all the time.

Jiang Qiuze closed the door of his room, lay on the bed and made a video call with Yao Shu.It felt a bit like watching a live broadcast.

Yao Shucai didn't know what he was thinking. He changed into a nightgown, and it was still the silk pajamas that was as short as his thighs. He also specially changed into a pair of tight-fitting underwear. The texture can always remind him of his own existence.

This time Jiang Qiuze felt more like watching Yao Shu's live broadcast, but it was an exclusive live broadcast only for him to watch.

Not long after the rain stopped outside, it started to rain again, and it was even heavier than before. A thunderous thunder came down, resounding through half of the sky.

Yao Shu was so frightened that he hid himself under the quilt, "It's raining so hard outside."

Jiang Qiuze knew that he was timid, and the rain was really frightening. Yao Shu huddled half of his head in the quilt, looking pitiful. Jiang Qiuze wished that he could go over immediately and let him hide in his arms.

The idea is very romantic, but unfortunately life is very realistic.

He didn't know how long the rain would last, the weather was harder to guess than his mother's thoughts, and he couldn't make it through here, Jiang Qiuze had no choice but to comfort him from the air, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

Yao Shu was exposed by him. In such a bad weather, he really missed Jiang Qiuze's warm embrace, but he tried to be brave, blushing and muttering in a low voice, "Who's scared..."

Jiang Qiuze didn't speak, just laughed, Yao Shu's appearance was so cute, he almost hid his whole head, even his nose was covered by the side, and he had to be brave.

"Stop laughing." Yao Shu pretended to be fierce, but he didn't have the slightest power to be fierce.

It's the same as being coquettish.

Jiang Qiuze just wanted to pinch his little face at this moment, "It's so cute."

Yao Shu was embarrassed by his praise, and Jiang Qiuze seldom said such things to him in person, because he kissed him directly without saying anything.Only when two people are not together will they say, so cute, so pretty, so obedient, so...

"I really want to kiss you." Jiang Qiuze didn't just want to kiss you, he also wanted to hug Yao Shu and sleep until he woke up naturally.

"Ah..." Yao Shu heard Jiang Qiuze's straightforward words for the first time. Although he was shy, he liked Jiang Qiuze's undisguised liking, "I can kiss you after tomorrow..."

"But I want to kiss now, what should I do?" Jiang Qiuze's naughty voice was sexy and hoarse, deliberately making Yao Shu look shy.

"Then..." Yao Shu showed half of his face, "Then give you a kiss."

He was still afraid that Jiang Qiuze would make an inch of it. After all, Jiang Qiuze hadn't done this kind of thing before, so he added, "Just for a while."

Forget it, a kiss in the air is also a kiss, Jiang Qiuze told himself to learn to be content.

Jiang Qiuze has to get up early tomorrow morning to help greet the guests, so he can't stay up too late, otherwise he will be angry for a long time, and he won't be able to recover for most of the day. After being kissed by him, the two said good night.

Jiang Qiuze couldn't sleep until he woke up naturally, but Yao Shu helped him sleep until he woke up naturally.

It was almost nine o'clock when I woke up, and Yao Shu planned to go home this week, because Yao Yuan would also be back.

He bought some fruit at a nearby fruit shop, and he was as polite as a guest when he was clearly going home.After getting off the bus, there was still a long way to go. The road was old and no one repaired it all year round. Because of the heavy rain for several days in a row, it was muddy. Yao Shu walked on tiptoe, and his white shoes were still dirty.

Today, he heard his parents quarreling without being downstairs, which seemed like a good omen.

Yao Shu also didn't want to make the relationship between himself and his parents so bad, it seemed like he was an unfilial son.He also wanted a turnaround, and he wanted to have a good talk with his parents, but neither Yang Fang nor Yao Jun ever gave him this chance.

They are always quarreling endlessly, sneering and sarcastic, tearing their faces for a little thing.Sometimes Yao Shu was very curious about why they gave birth to him, and how they could get along under the same roof for so many years. In his opinion, it would be better to get a divorce.

Sure enough, he still guessed wrong. When they reached the door, the two were still arguing.

The door was half-open, Yao Shu didn't want to go in at all, at least not now, and he didn't want to be cannon fodder for the two of them.

Yang Fang's voice was very high-pitched, and he didn't inherit the gentleness from his grandmother. Yao Shu could hear it clearly standing outside the door, and there was a bit of crying in her voice, "Oh, this is going to go against the sky. It's gone!"

Yao Jun's voice is not very friendly, also, they are always evenly matched when it comes to quarreling, "Can you keep your voice down, what kind of glorious thing is this? With your voice, the whole building will know gone."

Not to be outdone, Yang Fang said, "Hey, you still have the nerve to say that I'm not you. If you don't fight for money and don't care about your family, if you spend more time educating your son, he can become like this!"

"Hmph, I don't have a perverted son like him!" Yao Jun's tone was full of anger and remorse, "Don't blame me, if he didn't stay with you women every day, he would become like a woman Do you want him to learn how to dance, you are satisfied now!"

He... are they talking about him?Yao Shu wanted to step into the house, but now he was frozen in place, unable to move, unable to open his mouth, his whole body froze.

He was sure that Yang Fang and Yao Jun were his only sons.

Like a woman... Are you talking about him too?

"It's been so many years since you still mentioned it to me, isn't that what their teacher said! I didn't expect how it would become like this." It can be heard that Yang Fang's tone is also regretful, "When he was young, I said He gave it to his uncle, let's make another one, it's because you disagree."

"Hmph, it's because you can't conceive. First, you were a worthless daughter, married a poor man, and then gave birth to a pervert who is neither male nor female. Do I dare to let you have children?"

Neither male nor female... Are you talking about him?

Obviously, he has been slandered by many people, and he has heard all the harsh words, so why is he so sad now?

"Besides, if your son is like this, if you bring it to the elder brother's family, they will have to take it."

"Oh, what are you talking about? What do you call my son? That's not your son. You are not responsible for it?" Yang Fang said at the top of her throat, her voice was extremely harsh.

"I'm disgusted! I was expecting him to be a big deal, but now, he's a psychopath!"

Yang Fang was speechless, she acquiesced to Yao Jun's words to a certain extent, and after a while she gave herself a step down, "This diary was also written several years ago, maybe it's ready now."

"I don't think so!" Yao Jun almost stared at the diary in Yang Fang's hand, "It's not as good as it was then! If you didn't see it today after cleaning, he doesn't know how long he will hide it from us!"

Journal?

Yao Shu's brain was almost incapable of functioning, but he still knew what they were talking about immediately.

Yao Shu wrote that diary for three full years, writing all his secret thoughts into it.Rather than a notebook, it was more like a friend of his, and he confided all his thoughts to it, including his obsession with women's clothing, and the fact that he didn't like girls.

Later, when he moved out, he lost the diary, and now it is lying in Yang Fang's hands intact.

All his secrets lie in their hands.

"He's like this, let alone married, he can't even find a girlfriend." Yang Fang was a little anxious, "Why don't we find a psychiatrist to show him? It's just... I heard that it's quite expensive. Hundreds of dollars an hour!"

The two argued endlessly, and Yao Shu couldn't listen anymore. His ears seemed to be blocked, and he couldn't move his body.He thought that he was invulnerable to all kinds of speeches, but why was he still sad?

Why do you want to cry...

Perverted, neither male nor female, disgusting, mentally problematic... So there are so many words to describe him.

The most terrifying thing is that those words were still spoken by his parents.

In their eyes, he turned out to be a pervert, a monster who was neither male nor female.They even regretted not giving him away when they were young.

Is he really that disgusting?

Those unbearable words filled his brain, he was about to explode, his fingers lost strength, and the orange rolled to the ground, making a slight sound as it fell to the ground.

Yang Fang and Yao Jun didn't expect anyone outside the door, let alone Yao Shu, both of them looked very ugly, neither of them knew what to say.

Yao Shu has heard what should be heard and what should not be heard.

Yao Shu glanced at the diary in Yang Fang's hand. In fact, he couldn't see clearly anymore. Tears covered his eyes, and he could only vaguely see the familiar cowhide cover, which was the diary that had accompanied him for three years.

He was trembling, trembling uncontrollably, he was too excited to say a word, he seemed to have lost his voice, he opened and closed his mouth but couldn't make a sound.

It would be a joke to stay any longer.

Or maybe he was born to be a joke.

It's funny how he always thought he could escape what fate had brought him.

Inferiority, lowly.

But he's just a disgusting psychopath in the end.

Yao Shu almost snatched the diary from Yang Fang's hand, stumbled and ran downstairs, bumped into Yao Yuan who was just about to go upstairs on the first floor.Before Yao Yuan had time to call him to stop, he had already run away.

He didn't want to embarrass Yao Yuan again.

Yao Shu ran back to his rented house, and muddy water splashed all over his body, on his legs, back, and arms.

He didn't care, he just wanted to lock himself up, to a place where no one could find him.

He took out his mobile phone with trembling hands, in fact his whole body was trembling, and tears dripped onto his already soaked shoes.But Yao Shu didn't care about these, he squatted in the corner, curled up, and wrapped himself up.

He called Jiang Qiuze frantically.

Did not answer.

He didn't pick up.

Jiang Qiuze didn't answer.

I called more than a dozen times in a row but no one answered.

Did he not want him anymore?

The whole world doesn't want him anymore...

Could it be that Jiang Qiuze doesn't want him anymore...