The editor is always teasing me gl

The author has something to say: The work schedule has been too irregular these days, which caused my head to hurt this afternoon, and then I came back to sleep at night, woke up at [-] o'clock, and started writing, so I am posting it now.

I changed a little bit of settings, and some things were changed in the previous chapter, um... I asked the professionals, Bei Qi belongs to the situation that needs to be accompanied by relatives and friends during the hospitalization, so Lao Qin has to be accompanied, so I also Adjusted the direction of the next article.

In addition, the open course is different from the closed course. The closed course is indeed like going to jail, even scarier than prison.Open subjects are not, the environment of open subjects is quite good, you can bring everything (except sharp and dangerous objects), and then play with your computer and mobile phone

After systematic understanding, Qin Yichun realized that Yan Beiqi's need to be hospitalized does not mean that she is terminally ill. It's not something particularly terrible, but she has never been in contact with it, doesn't understand, and her mind is full of that knife. That's why I'm so scared.

In addition, after learning that he could accompany him, Qin Yichun finally felt at ease.

After leaving the hospital at night, Qin Yichun went to Yan Beiqi's home.

Because before going out, she noticed that the room was quite messy.

When Yan Beiqi was healthy, he was a very clean person.Therefore, Qin Yichun hoped that when she came back from the hospital, she would find the house tidy.

Moreover, it is said that a tidy space will subtly improve people's mood.Although it doesn't matter to Qin Yichun whether it's messy or not, as long as it's not dirty... But for a person with special circumstances like Yan Beiqi, a good environment is definitely important.

He coiled up his hair, unplugged the refrigerator and cleaned it from inside to outside, took out the trash from the trash can, replaced it with clean bags, and then Qin Yichun started mopping the floor and so on.

Qin Yichun, who was not very active in tidying up the room at first, and put the things in the cabinet after washing and taking them back, suddenly seemed to have become a housekeeping superman.

She didn't expect that she was so powerful and diligent.

After that, Qin Yichun walked into Yan Beiqi's bedroom.

When tidying up the writing desk, Qin Yichun found a glass jar in a corner at the back, half stuffed inside was a thousand origami cranes folded from various colored post-it notes.

Next to the jar were two stacks of post-it notes with a half-folded paper crane on top.

There is such a legend.

Each paper crane can live for 1000 years.As long as a sick person folds a thousand, he can recover.

And these, to Qin Yichun, each one is like a signal for survival.

Qin Yichun pursed his lips, stretched out his hand, picked up the half-folded paper crane and sat down, keeping his back straight and continuing to fold the paper crane.

After folding it, she took the paper crane's small tail and looked it up in front of her eyes, then opened the glass jar and gently put it in.

After that, Qin Yizhen began to tidy up the books on the table.

Then she saw the collection of essays she wrote back then - "On the Way".

The cover of the book is dark blue, with some deep and shallow footprints printed on it, the overall look is very elegant.

This is the original printed version. Yan Beiqi has preserved it very well, and there is a bookmark inside. Although it looks like it should have been read many times, the paper still has no creases.

Qin Yichun held the book in his hands, and after flipping through it for a while, a few pieces of paper fell down lightly and lay on the ground.

Bending down to pick it up, I saw beautiful pen writing on each of them.

To Queenie:

It took two days to finally finish reading your book. The flowers that I thought had withered are blooming so brilliantly under your pen, which is great.

I have always looked at things too radically, and I like to think wildly all day long, building walls around me, setting up cannons, not letting a stranger in, and not letting myself out, but now I realize that, in fact, the outside world may not have so bad.

And I painted the ground as a prison, which may be really bad.

I hope that one day, I can also have a positive attitude towards life like yours.When said and done, I think I will.

To Queenie:

Sorry, didn't do it again.Sometimes many things may really be easier said than done.

I don't understand why it's so easy for me to slip into negativity.

Speaking of which, there are too many things I don't understand.How to do it?How can I break free from this state?

Qin Yichun sighed softly after reading those things one by one.

Was Yan Beiqi already sick at that time, or was he just pessimistic and unstable?

Thinking of the first meeting, the initial contact, she really did not expect that Yan Beiqi's inner world is like this.

Afterwards, Qin Yichun hurriedly stood up again, walked to the bed, opened the pillow, and took out the fruit knife.

The knife was shining brightly, Qin Yichun's whole body shivered after the image of the sharp blade cutting into the flesh suddenly appeared in Qin Yichun's mind.

That's true, it hurts just thinking about it.

Afterwards, Qin Yichun changed the bed sheet and quilt cover, and took out the clothes that Yan Beiqi changed earlier to wash.

After packing everything up, Qin Yichun took a few sets of clean clothes, a few books, and Yan Beiqi's laptop, and then left, returning to his own residence.

When I got back, it was past ten o'clock.

As soon as Qin Yichun entered the door, he received a call from Qianzi.

Qian Zi asked her if she wanted to go out to play, but she refused without thinking.

"Why can't I ask you out recently? Are you really chasing her wholeheartedly?" Although Qianzi didn't say anything, she knew Yan Beiqi, who was as stubborn as a rock, from Xiaoya, so she was actually not very optimistic about it from the bottom of her heart. of.

"Yes." Qin Yichun answered casually while turning on his computer.

"come on."

"I'm not in a hurry." Qin Yichun opened the document and glanced at what he wrote.

"Strange, why?"

"Don't talk about this, I'll hang up first." Qin Yichun didn't intend to tell others about Yan Beiqi's situation.Because, she understood that Yan Beiqi would be very concerned about it.

After that, Qin Yichun began to look up some related things on the Internet.

"Increasing the concentration of serotonin can improve the symptoms of patients with depression... Save and save..." Qin Yichun squatted in front of the computer, resting his chin on his knees, staring at the words on the screen with wide eyes, and then copied useful information one after another Come down and save it in your own files.

"Banana blueberry juice, grape juice, raspberry apple juice, all can help reduce depression and make people feel better... I actually like to eat them, I don't know if Bei Qi likes them..." Qin Yichun stretched out his hand Scratching his neck, he continued to copy and save.

After reading many pages, it was mentioned that bananas can help people feel better and help suppress depression. Qin Yizhen couldn't help pursing his lips, and then posted a Weibo: "Bananas are a good thing, how many Eating is good for your mental health, you all should eat more."

But after the release, within a few minutes, I don't know who took the lead, and then everyone raised the dog head: "Sister Queenie didn't sleep in the middle of the night and suddenly drove, oh~"

After Qin Yichun saw it, she rolled her eyes at the screen, and then, already upset, she quickly typed in the reply box below: "Driving? It's funny, don't make such vulgar jokes all the time, okay?"

However, after typing, Qin Yizhen rolled his eyes again, deleted it, and then changed a more gentle tone and posted another Weibo: "I didn't drive, I'm telling you very seriously, the banana inside It contains things that will make people feel better, so you can usually buy more of it to eat, so don’t think about it at this time.”

After this Weibo was sent out, the big guy quickly put away those jokes.

Then, someone replied: "Thank you! I was just joking _(:зゝ∠)_ and wanted to say that I hope Miss Queenie will be happy too!"

If you speak in the former tone, the other party may feel that you can be sprayed even if you are joking, which is inexplicable.

But if you say it in the latter tone, everyone will be fine.This is probably the power of language.

After seeing many things, Qin Yizhen began to understand that the world in the eyes of depression patients is quite different from the world in his own eyes.

The sound heard by the patient is also different from the sound heard by oneself.

If a depressed patient sighs: "I'm so unhappy recently", she'd better not make any comments like "What's so unhappy", "Oh, don't think about it so much", "Everyone will be like this, think about it". class responses.

Because such an answer will only make them think "Oh, it's my fault, I shouldn't be so sad", "I'm sorry, I lost you, I won't talk to you about this in the future." and other thoughts.

In fact, this is also not always to forcefully refute with your own point of view.In fact, whether it is for ordinary people or people with mental illness, empathy is very important.Because you are you and he is him, each other's living environment and life experience are very different, it is better to be tolerant and understand each other than to fight against each other and swear to be superior.

At one o'clock in the morning, Qin Yichun finally turned off the computer and went to sleep.

Then the next morning, Qin Yichun got up at around seven o'clock.Waking up so early is really rare for her.

After washing up, Qin Yichun took the tidy things and went out. According to the memo, he went to buy some fruit and some food, and then took a taxi to the hospital.

It's just that there was some traffic jam on the road at this point, so that Qin Yizhen frequently looked down at the time on his phone.

On the other side, Yan Beiqi was woken up by the nurse at seven o'clock.

When going to wash up, Yan Beiqi looked at himself in the glasses, he seemed haggard and ugly.Teacher Qin will come, seeing her like this...

But even so, he still wanted to see her.She looked very worried yesterday, but today I have to behave better and not make her anxious.

After that, Yan Beiqi took the medicine under the care of the nurse.She has always been a worry-free person, probably because she really hopes that she can get better, so she never vomits or hides medicine, and she recovers pretty well every time. , including the director, still quite like her.Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to live in this suite.

Breakfast is still not very good, and she has no appetite recently.However, Yan Beiqi still tried his best to eat.Perhaps it is more appropriate to say that forcing myself to eat.

There seemed to be many questions in my mind, but I didn't think deeply about each question, so I switched to it again.

Not long after returning to the ward, Qin Yichun arrived.

"Bei Qi, look, I've brought you a lot of things!" Qin Yichun said, highlighting the items in his hand, and then trotted to her.

Yan Beiqi looked up at her, then quietly lowered his head.

She was still in a daze.

Such a self, exposed in front of Mr. Qin... It feels like the image I created for myself in the past seems to have completely collapsed.

But on the other hand, when she saw Qin Yichun, she was very happy.

"Is it heavy? Give it to me." After Yan Beiqi finished speaking, he reached out to her.

"Hey, not heavy!" Qin Yizhen shook his head, then took the things aside and put them down, then turned around and walked to Yan Beiqi's side, holding her arm, "How did you sleep last night?"

"Well... I slept pretty well last night." Yan Beiqi nodded, his eyes turned around in front of his own hand, then drifted to Qin Yichun, and finally took it back, "I dreamed that Fly in the sky by yourself."

"I heard that if you dream of flying in the sky, you will grow taller. You can't grow any longer. If you grow to two meters, then I will have to move a stool when I look at you in the future." Qin Yichun said with a smile .

"Then I'll be like this." After Yan Beiqi finished speaking, he bent his knees and squatted down slightly.

"Why, propose..." Qin Yichun supported her arm and pulled her up.However, after those thoughtless words were spoken, she felt a little uneasy in her heart.

Hearing this, Yan Beiqi looked sideways at her, then pursed his lips slightly, and lowered his head.

If I can in the future... If I can...

"Oh, I'm just kidding... Don't worry, sooner or later you will be able to fly freely in the vast and boundless world!" Qin Yichun stretched out his hand and straightened her collar, "I speak very well."

"Is there magic?" Yan Beiqi asked.

"Yeah, have you forgotten, I am omnipotent. Hey, come on, watch me cast spells on you!" After Qin Yichun finished speaking, he put his index and middle fingers together like people in TV dramas, bowed his head and muttered nonsense "Spell", it's really decent to pretend.

Then, she raised her head, raised her arms, and pointed her fingers at the center of Yan Beiqi's eyebrows: "Look, soon, soon, your dreams will come true!"

Yan Beiqi did not dodge, fixedly stared at Qin Yichun's beautiful eyes, and then nodded.

That look... a little melancholy, but it still makes people feel distressed.

Qin Yichun looked at her for a while, then withdrew his hand, coughed twice, and put his hands behind his back: "Did you have a good breakfast? How about the hospital food? Are you full? I bought you some food and fruit , if you’re not full, let’s add another meal!”

"I have delicious food." Yan Beiqi looked over there, nodded, and then asked, "Mr. Qin, have I been ugly these two days?"

"Where is it ugly? You are so beautiful in my eyes. Do you know what it means to be a fairy? You are." After Qin Yizhen finished speaking, his eyebrows and eyes were crooked with a smile.

"Teacher Qin is joking again." Yan Beiqi looked at her and smiled slightly, but it seemed that he was not very good at smiling, so he looked a little stiff.

"No. When I first saw you, I thought in my heart, I'll go, this person is too good-looking, no, I can't look like a nymphomaniac, I want to be colder, haha. Then, Even now, you are still sick." Qin Yichun said, raising his hand to stroke a strand of hair hanging from Yan Beiqi's cheek to the back of the helix.

It seems that there is a lot of spirit.Xi Shi is sick, it's all nonsense, Yan Beiqi looks haggard.However, Qin Yichun's filter is thicker than the city wall.

"The first time I saw Teacher Qin, I was so amazed." Yan Beiqi recalled her words, and said so unintentionally.

"Really?" Qin Yizhen couldn't help covering his lips with his hands, to prevent himself from laughing too exaggeratedly, which would not affect him well.

Hearing these words from the serious Yan Beiqi, the feeling was amazing, incredible.It simply surpasses all the compliments that other people have said.

"Really." Yan Beiqi nodded, the corners of his lips twitched, then lifted up, showing another smile.

When the two were boasting to each other, the director and the head nurse just came to make rounds.

The director is a kind-looking lady with a smile on her face like a spring breeze.

Seeing Yan Beiqi and Qin Yichun staying together, the director couldn't help laughing.

Yan Beiqi is a very obedient person, but every time he comes alone, he always seems to be alone, which makes people feel distressed.

She still remembers how she gritted her teeth and shook her head the first time she asked Yan Beiqi if he wanted to notify his family members to come over.

But this time, she finally had someone by her side, and after Qin Yichun appeared, Yan Beiqi's situation seemed to be better than expected.

"Miss Qin, Bei Qi seems quite happy when you are here." After asking Yan Beiqi some questions, the director turned his head, looked at Qin Yichun, and said with a smile.

After Qin Yichun listened, he smiled, then turned his head to look at Yan Beiqi, and gently shook her arm, "Really, will you be happy to see me?"

Yan Beiqi looked sideways at her, but didn't say a word for a long time.

"It's okay if you don't say it. I don't care. Anyway, the director says yes, I'll listen to the director." The moment Yan Beiqi nodded, Qin Yizhen turned his head to look at the director with a smile.

"Hahaha, good, good." The director nodded.

So, Yan Beiqi pursed his lower lips: "Happy."

Her voice was a little dry, almost a whisper, but Qin Yichun caught it very well.

The moment Qin Yichun heard it, he was slightly stunned, and then turned his head to look at Yan Beiqi.Pursing his lower lip, Qin Yichun stretched out his hand and clasped her hand: "Me too."