Affected by the earth's photo-deception culture

"I'm sorry." Shen Yiran's breathing was out of rhythm, he couldn't help panting, he couldn't control his expression for a while and almost cried, and he held back with difficulty, apologizing over and over again, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry Qiu Luo, I'm sorry You... I know that I shouldn't appear to disturb your life again, but I... I really don't want you to misunderstand that I have any hostility towards your lover... I didn't dare to face you before, so I kept hiding and trying to escape Shaorong's death, I'm afraid you'll blame me, I'm afraid you'll hate me, if it wasn't for me Shaorong nothing would happen..."

Shen Yiran couldn't hold it back in the end, his voice became more trembling as he spoke, and he couldn't control his emotions anymore when he talked about Shaorong, he turned around in embarrassment and wiped his tears vigorously with the back of his hand.

The staff member suddenly said calmly: "Qiu Luo never blamed you for Shao Rong's accident, it's none of your business, and Qiu Luo is not such a person, you have been with Qiu Luo for so many years, don't you know this A little bit? You blamed yourself for this incident, thinking that Chu Luo would blame you too. You were afraid of being blamed and dared not face it, so you kept avoiding Chu Luo. Then have you ever thought about losing Shaorong Houqiu? What's Luo's mood? In this situation, you hide and refuse to see him, what's Qiu Luo's mood?"

Shen Yiran turned his head to look at Qiu Luo with red eyes, but Qiu Luo didn't react violently, his eyes were still cold and disgusted.

This look made Shen Yiran's heart ache.

"Don't you blame me?" Shen Yiran looked at Qiu Luo tremblingly and asked.

"I don't blame you, I never blamed you." Qiu Luo said quietly and indifferently.

Everything in Shen Yiran's heart suddenly collapsed because of these words, he laughed lightly at himself, then bent over and covered his face and burst into tears.

"I always thought you blamed me. I killed Shaorong. I thought you would hate me so much that you shot me! You tell me now that you never blamed me for it? Then I..." Then I have been so many years What is the reason for the torture?

It's not that he doesn't love Qiu Luo, on the contrary, he loves Qiu Luo so much that he can't bear Qiu Luo Ding's blame or even hatred.

After Shaorong's accident, he was terrified, he didn't dare to face Qiu Luo at all, he just wanted to escape in a panic.At the beginning, Chu Luo was looking for him frequently, and even waited at his door for two whole days, but he never dared to go out.Gradually, Qiu Luo's frequency of looking for him decreased, and then there was no news at all.

From the time when Shao Rong had an accident, Shen Yiran concluded that the relationship between him and Chu Luo was over, and all his subsequent actions were based on this wrong idea, which made him farther and farther away from Qiu Luo, and finally lost Qiu Luo completely.

But now he suddenly learned that as long as he had even a little courage to face Chu Luo and talk to him, nothing would have happened afterwards.If he had opened the door back then, Chu Luo would not have stabbed him at all, but would have hugged him into his arms.

The pain of this moment of regret was more turbulent than the two years of self-torture.

For Shen Yiran, the staff has always been very angry.He has always been a good talker, if someone cried so heartbroken in front of him, how could the staff give him a few words of comfort, but if this person were Shen Yiran, he wouldn't be able to.On the contrary, Shen Yiran's tears made him feel very upset, he had nothing to cry for, it was all his own fault, the one who wanted to cry should be Qiu Luo who lost his brother and was ruthlessly abandoned by his lover back then.

Until now, the staff dare not think about how Qiu Luo survived that year.

He was very angry and wanted to lose his temper with Shen Yiran and throw some nasty words in his face, but his upbringing and temper made him unable to open his mouth.

"You didn't harm Shaorong, but Qiu Luo." The staff was full of anger, and that was all he said.

Chu Luo seemed to sense that the staff member was angry, so he held his hand and squeezed it lightly.The staff looked up at him, Qiu Luo laughed softly, "I'm fine, don't get excited."

The staff wanted to cry a little bit, he didn't know how much effort Chu Luo had to go through and how much pain he had to go through before he could laugh again.

Although he has always felt guilty about forcibly bringing Chu Luo to the empire, at this moment he is very glad that he was clamoring to be with Chu Luo at that time.Now Chu Luo makes him feel happy and happy all the time, and he also makes Qiu Luo feel these again, no longer living in the shadow brought by Shen Yiran.

The staff didn't have time to cry, but a thin layer of tears welled up in his eyes. When Qiu Luo saw it, he hurriedly coaxed him, "What's wrong? Don't cry."

The staff didn't want to cry in front of Shen Yiran, he felt a little ashamed, but as soon as someone coaxed him, he couldn't help it, tears fell down in a blink.

Qiu Luo's attitude suddenly became serious, and regardless of Shen Yiran's still here, he directly hugged the staff on his lap, looked down at his face, and asked him in a low voice: "What's wrong? Don't cry first."

"It's okay." The staff member grabbed the hem of his clothes and gently sucked the tip of his nose, shaking his head vigorously.

Qiu Luo seemed to understand, chuckled lightly, and stroked his head twice with his big hand.

Shen Yiran gradually managed his emotions well, and endured all the churning emotions.He calmly looked at the way Chu Luo coaxed the staff, and intuitively felt that Chu Luo really didn't love him anymore, because the staff didn't resemble him in any way.

Chu Luo was wearing pajamas with cartoon patterns that he would never wear before, coaxing his young lover patiently and gently. Shen Yiran had never seen him like this for so many years when he was with him.

Before that, Shen Yiran still had a little uneasy fantasy, does Qiu Luo still love him?Even a little bit, do you still have a trace of affection for him?

Chu-ro didn't answer him, but he already knew the answer.

No.

"Can I have a private conversation with you?" Shen Yiran said suddenly.

The staff glanced at him, and before Chu Luo could speak, he walked away from his lap and sat aside.

Qiu Luo frowned and looked at Shen Yiran, the staff said to him: "It's okay, let's talk."

Qiu Luo also had the idea of ​​talking to Shen Yiran before, but he never thought about talking to him alone, even if it wasn't for the sake of his staff, Qiu Luo was not very willing to be alone with Shen Yiran, "Say what you have to say. "

"Please." Shen Yiran said with red eyes, even the words just now made him feel very embarrassed in front of the staff.

Chu Luo was silent for a while, and finally let go of the staff's hand and stood up. Without looking for a separate room, he went to the balcony of the living room after getting up.The most he can create for Shen Yiran is to close the glass screen door on the balcony.Maybe they couldn't hear what they were saying, but the staff could see them through the screened door in the living room.

Shen Yiran lowered his head slightly in embarrassment and followed him.

The staff turned their heads and glanced at them. Qiu Luo's behavior was so obedient, and the staff immediately felt very happy in their hearts.He wasn't curious about what they were saying on the terrace, anyway, if he wanted to know, Churro would tell him.

The worker himself was bored in the living room, so he happily turned on the TV and started browsing.

After a while, the door of Shen Feng's room finally opened. He had slept for more than ten hours, and he probably woke up from thirst. Cheli lay on top of his head, and Shen Feng came out with a water glass and poured water into his belly.He refilled the glass again, and found the staff in the living room, walking over with a sleepy face.

Just as Shen Feng was about to say something, he suddenly opened his eyes wide and looked at Shen Yiran on the balcony as if he had seen a ghost, and for a while suspected that he hadn't woken up yet.The cup in his hand was also not held firmly, and fell to the ground and snapped into pieces.

Shen Feng was awakened by this movement, and found that he was not dreaming, the person who was talking to Qiu Luo on the balcony was really Shen Yiran, and his expression suddenly became more horrified.He squatted blankly to pick up the debris, and Cherry jumped off his head, slapping his hands away.

"I'll clean it up, don't scratch your hands," Cherry said.

Shen Feng really didn't care about it, and threw himself on the staff on the sofa, but he tripped over the carpet and fell to the ground.

"Are you okay?" The staff went to help him, but there was nothing on the ground.

"Why is he here?!" Shen Feng didn't care about his sore knee, he sat next to the staff and secretly glanced at the balcony.

This is a long story, the staff picked up the important ones and summed it up to Shen Feng, took a peek at Cheli who was picking up the glass shards not far away, and said to Shen Feng in a low voice: "Don't tell the second brother."

What Xia Yin did shocked Shen Feng even more than seeing Shen Yiran here, and he didn't speak for a long time after listening.

"He suddenly ran to say that he didn't instigate Xia Yin." The staff looked at Shen Feng and asked, "What do you think?"

Shen Feng looked into the staff's eyes, pursed his lips and said, "I said I believed him in this matter, will you be angry with me?"

The worker immediately shook his head.

Shen Feng said quietly: "Although Shen Yiran is a bit timid and selfish, he is not the kind of person with a particularly bad heart. I believe he has no hostility towards you. He is sorry for Qiu Luo, and he should also regret it. Later, he tried to redeem, Qiu Luo During the six months before Luo went to the empire to recuperate in K city, Shen Yiran wanted to see Qiu Luo several times, but was blocked by Fei Chuan and Xiaodao. He is not a bad person, but he hurt Qiu Luo, and we friends will not forgive him , and will not slander him with this prejudice."

The worker nodded, "Chu Luo said to wait for the results of the investigation."

Shen Feng responded, sighed and said: "He shouldn't have come here, he's embarrassing himself, and it's also causing trouble for you."

"It's okay, I don't feel blocked." The staff said without any grudges.

Shen Feng looked at the balcony together with him, guessing what they were talking about.

Outside the screened door, Shen Yiran looked at Qiu Luo's straight but indifferent back, and his mouth was dry for a while. He never thought that he would see Qiu Luo again, and wanted to chat with him alone, but he didn't know what to say for a while.

He reached for the cigarette case in his pocket, walked up to Chu Luo and handed it to him, and said softly, "Do you want cigarettes?"

"Quit." Qiu Luo said indifferently.

Shen Yiran was stunned for a long time before he silently took out a cigarette and lit it by himself, with embarrassment in his eyes.

The person who used to be addicted to smoking was Qiu Luo. Shen Yiran never smoked or drank alcohol. He once told Qiu Luo to quit smoking. Qiu Luo tried several times but failed to quit.After two years of absence, Chu Luo successfully quit smoking for others, but he started smoking instead.

"I'm not married." Shen Yiran's emotions seemed to have completely calmed down. Standing beside Qiu Luo and looking at the clouds in the distance, he smoked a cigarette with lonely eyes and said slowly: "When I went to the military area to talk to you about this, I Almost collapsed, in fact, I hoped that you could keep me at that time. If you still have any feelings for me, I will drop everything and come back to you. "

"It's too late," Churro said.

That time was a year after Shaorong's death, they met for the first time.

Shen Yiran escaped for a whole year and finally plucked up the courage to come back to Qiu Luo. On the one hand, he had a bright future at his fingertips, and on the other hand, he was a lover who had been in love for seven years. He made up his mind that if Qiu Luo still loves him and forgives him, he will come back no matter what. of.If Chu Luo no longer loves him, he also has an enviable retreat.

Qiu Luo didn't wait for him where he was, his feelings for Shen Yiran had been worn out in the past year, and he didn't even have the patience to say a good word, so he turned his head and left.

Shen Yiran had imagined the scene at that time, but when it really happened, he couldn't face it calmly as he imagined, and calmly stepped into the retreat he had prepared.

In the end, Shen Yiran couldn't bear this kind of torture, and confessed to the woman, willing to bear any price.The woman is the daughter of a major general in the military region, and she has a good character and well-bred. In the end, she couldn't help but slapped him twice.

Shen Yiran still chose Qiu Luo between the retreat route and Qiu Luo. He knew that Qiu Luo was very temperamental and held grudges very much. He was not sure whether Qiu Luo was still angry with him at the time when he was separated from the military region. He wanted to save it, but if it ended Once married, the relationship between him and Chu Luo is really over.

Unexpectedly, he was not married, but Qiu Luo married someone else before him.

He didn't have the hope of getting married, which could finally save Qiu Luo. It was the same as when he went to the military region to find Qiu Luo. It was too late, too late, and meaningless.

After a cigarette was burned out, Shen Yiran smiled wryly and said, "I'm sorry, I'm a selfish coward."

"You don't need to keep apologizing, I won't accept it, and I won't forgive you, but I won't do anything to you, I just hope you don't appear in my life again." Qiu Luo looked at him indifferently: "I He Xiaozhi will come back often in the future, I don't want anyone to come out to make trouble for him, be it Lin Tao or Xia Yin, their motive is to protect you, I will thoroughly investigate whether it has anything to do with you. It’s best not to have one, and I won’t have one in the future.”

This is a warning, Shen Yiran gritted his teeth slightly, "I can guarantee that I didn't, but...do you have anything else you want to tell me besides these?"

"No." Qiu Luo's eyes were so cold that they were almost heartless, which was very different from the tenderness and connivance when he looked at the staff.

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