It's better to fall in love than seize the heir

After a fresh rain, the courtyard was washed clear and bright.The sky is high and the clouds are light, and the oriole sings and flies low among the flower branches.

However, such a bright scenery could not soothe the slightly frowning brows of the people in the room.

Recently, Shen Jinghe has always felt a faint uneasiness lingering in his heart, an inexplicable irritability surrounding his body, always making him walk or sit, but he still has no way to settle down.

Could it be that Liang Yan has been away for so long and he misses him too much?

He sighed, and took out the few battle reports he copied earlier to read them one by one.What is recorded above is how Liang Yan won the victories of one city after another, and there is no lack of his exquisite layout and heroic demeanor.

He watched the location in the letter advance southward inch by inch as time went by, and his fingertips also moved slowly along the map on the letter's description, as if this also accompanied Liang Yan to retrace the path he had traveled one by one He walked over and over again, reliving and engraving the difficult and fierce battles he had experienced.

All the news that came back in these days was Liang Yan's victory. Calculated at this speed, it won't be long before Liang Yan finally wins and returns to Beijing, right?

Shen Jinghe lowered his eyelashes, covering the yearning and concern in his eyes that were almost overflowing.

He's been waiting too long for him.

Someone knocked lightly on the door of the study, and Cheng Mo poked his head out from the door, "Master, the Fifth Prince invited you to go to his mansion to drink tea and have a chat today, do you want the slave to prepare a car for you?"

Shen Jinghe was stunned for a moment, thinking that it seemed that he hadn't stepped out of the house in his spare time for too long, and there was nothing wrong with him today, so he nodded in agreement, "Go."

Horseshoeed all the way through the spacious bluestone streets, and when they finally arrived at the fifth prince's mansion, Shen Jinghe got out of the car and saw Shen Zhuoxuan standing outside the gate of the mansion waiting for him with a smile on his face.

"You are here, Jinghe." Shen Zhuoxuan stepped forward to greet him, and walked side by side with him to the main hall where the tea was prepared, "Since Liang Yan went out to fight, I want to invite you out for a good reunion, but It’s a lot harder than usual.”

He glanced at Shen Jinghe again with a teasing look, until he was a little embarrassed to see him, then he laughed and looked away.

He naturally knew that although Shen Jinghe didn't say anything on his lips, he was still extremely concerned about the army going west, and he didn't even have the interest to go out to party and play.However, he also didn't want to see Shen Jinghe bored at home all day except going to court, so he did everything possible to pull him out to relax, so as not to overthink and hurt his body easily.

"Fifth Brother, you're making fun of me again." Shen Jinghe shook his head with a rather helpless expression, but he didn't say anything more.

During the chat, the two had already walked into the hall and took their seats.Shen Zhuoxuan picked up the fragrant porcelain cup with one hand, brought it to his lips and took a sip, "Let's not talk about it. I think this battle is coming to an end, and there will be no troubles with the King of Southwest. Have you thought about what to do next?"

Shen Jinghe pondered for a while, and naturally understood that Shen Zhuoxuan was referring to the issue of military power and the emperor's trust after Liang Yan returned to the court.However, this matter is of great importance, and if it is touched a little, it will shake and affect the situation between the DPRK and China, so he has no way to make a definite idea for a while.

"I'm still thinking about it too...Maybe we have to discuss it after Liang Yan comes back before we can make a final decision."

Shen Zhuoxuan nodded in understanding, and was about to continue to say something, but suddenly there was a rush of horseshoes outside the gate of the mansion, which sounded like a rampage, rushing straight from a distance.

"What's going on? Who is making noise outside?" Shen Zhuoxuan stood up suddenly and looked out with a serious expression.

"Fifth Prince, Fifth Prince! It's not good!"

A young man dressed as a messenger fell off his horse and scrambled, ignoring the pain in his body. He staggered and ran towards the mansion, "You...you go to the palace! All the ministers above the fourth grade were summoned to the Golden Luan Hall. It seems that something happened to General Liang!"

The entire mansion was suddenly silent for a moment after hearing the words, and the suddenly tense and heavy atmosphere was almost overwhelming.

Shen Zhuoxuan and the servants in the mansion suddenly changed their colors. Almost at the same time, they all turned their heads to the hall with a swipe, and looked at Shen Jinghe who was still sitting upright in his seat, with his head lowered and expressionless face.

He sat there quietly, without saying a word, his eyes were empty and he couldn't see any waves, but he was like a snow mountain covered by a vast mist, giving people a feeling of being lonely and repelling others thousands of miles away.For a moment, people wondered whether he had heard what the messenger said just now.

"Shocked Crane?" Shen Zhuoxuan spoke with difficulty, a trace of unbearable and astonishment flashed across his eyes, "You..."

There was a slight cracking sound of porcelain.

Shen Zhuoxuan suddenly stared at him with wide eyes, his face obviously stained with panic.

"Quick! Call the doctor!"

Shen Jinghe sat at the same place in a daze, without any other movements in his body, not even turning his eyes.However, his left hand holding the teacup tightened repeatedly forbearance and restraint, until the back of the hand was full of blue veins, until the teacup could no longer bear the huge grip and instantly shattered and burst open.

Broken porcelain pieces and hot tea fell to the ground, and the sharp edges of the porcelain pieces scraped out several messy bloodstains on his palm. The blood mixed with the tea flowed along the red palm As it flowed down, he didn't seem to feel any pain, and he didn't tremble or dodge at all.

"What are you still doing in a daze! Hurry up and find the wound medicine!"

In the next second, Shen Zhuoxuan rushed to his side anxiously, gently opened his left hand that was still clenched into a fist carefully, and took a deep breath, looking at the bloody flesh in his palm and feeling a little at a loss.

"Jinghe, Jinghe, listen to me... Liang Yan must be fine. Don't do this, don't scare Fifth Brother like this, huh?"

The servants in the mansion were in turmoil, some rushed to the nearest medical clinic outside the mansion to ask for a doctor; .However, Shen Jinghe's whole body seemed to be wrapped in a thick fog, completely separating him from the outside world.

He watched the people around him frantically circling around him with somewhat indifferent eyes, and the voice in his ears shrieked and receded like a tidal wave.He couldn't feel the scar on his palm, couldn't feel the sound of speaking, couldn't feel Shen Zhuoxuan anxiously shaking his shoulder lightly.

He couldn't feel it, but the sudden pain in his chest that almost completely destroyed his whole body.The heart seemed to be twisted into a ball by being played with by one hand. The boiling blood froze instantly. Starting from the place where the heart beat, it climbed and spread all the way until the sharp ice pierced his whole body, but he couldn't feel it. arrive.

Can't feel it, can't feel it at all.

He suddenly shuddered all over his body, took a breath, and the connection between his body and the world was severed suddenly.Before his eyes darkened and he passed out, the last thing he saw was Shen Zhuoxuan yelling at him in panic.

It was like sinking into the dark and cold deep sea, unable to breathe.

……

"Jinghe...Jinghe? Brother Wu is here, is he alright?"

In the bedroom of the Fifth Prince's Mansion, the censer burns with a calming fragrance.Just as Shen Zhuoxuan sent the doctor out of the mansion, he turned around and quickly walked back to Shen Jinghe's resting bedroom, sat beside his bed, and sighed heavily.

Seeing Shen Jinghe faintly waking up, he hastily sat closer again, waved his hand tentatively in front of his eyes, and spoke softly.

"Shocked Crane? Are you finally awake?"

"...Fifth brother."

Shen Jinghe was silent for a long time, but still whispered these two words in a dry and hoarse voice.He raised his left hand, which had been carefully treated and bandaged, dense tiny pains danced in his palm, but it was nothing compared to the heavy pain in his heart.

Shen Zhuoxuan was visibly relieved when he saw that he had finally escaped from the state that made him fear and worry just now.He turned his head slightly to look out the window, not wanting Shen Jinghe to see the darkness in his eyes.

He had already asked the doctor just now. The reason why Shen Jinghe had the situation just now was because he suddenly heard the news that was almost unbelievable to him. past.Now that it's all over, he doesn't want to say anything about Liang Yan to irritate him, and he's also afraid that Shen Jinghe will do something impulsive because of it.

"Fifth brother, tell me... Liang Yan, what happened to Liang Yan?"

Shen Jinghe saw Shen Zhuoxuan's evasive movements and embarrassed expression, and the last hope in his heart was extinguished little by little, turning into an ancient night that was thicker than ink.

Shen Zhuoxuan turned his eyes back with some hesitation, and didn't look at the expression on his face, just clenched his fist and coughed dryly on his mouth, and replied lightly: "You should rest well first, take care of your body, if you have anything to do, you can wait until later... ..."

"Fifth brother."

Shen Jinghe looked at Shen Zhuoxuan without blinking or avoiding, his hands under the quilt were trembling uncontrollably, but the voice in his mouth was still calm and determined without any hesitation.

"You... well, okay."

Shen Zhuoxuan sighed deeply, and finally seemed to give in, he was silent for a moment, carefully considering his words and speaking carefully.

"A military report came from the southwest, saying that it was... that an advance force led by Liang Yan accidentally got miasma in the dense forest outside Jinyang City, and the entire team lost the rest of the Yanyun Cavalry outside. Contact. The lieutenant general sent people to search, but outside the forest, they found a soldier who was slightly poisoned and stumbled back to ask for help. He said... the situation in the forest is not very good. ..."

After Shen Zhuoxuan finished speaking hesitantly, he almost didn't dare to meet Shen Jinghe's gaze.He only felt that he was extremely cruel at the moment, and every word he uttered softly was like a sharp knife piercing the hearts of people in front of him.However, he had to clenched his fists tightly, and tried his best to restrain himself not to lose his composure in front of Shen Jinghe, and not to let his emotions be further affected by the anxiety and worry in his heart.

After finally saying it, he paused, and turned his head to look at Shen Jinghe with a look of unbearable expression on his face.Upon seeing this, he turned pale with shock, and his voice even trembled slightly.

"Jinghe...you, why do you—"

He saw Shen Jinghe lying on the bed and listening without saying a word, his face was dazed, his eyes that were usually so clear were now dimmed like stars, what's more...

What's more, he could clearly see two lines of tears streaming down his pale face.The tranquility that always covered his face in the past suddenly fell apart and turned into powder. Only the helplessness and pain from the deepest part of his heart made people dare not look directly into his eyes, as if they would be blinded by the thick You have to be stabbed by the sourness of dripping water.

"Don't scare Fifth Brother...don't cry."

Shen Zhuoxuan flustered and wanted to reach out his hand to wipe away his tears, but just as he stretched out his hand, he suddenly paused in the air, as if he was worried that even the slightest touch might cause the face in front of him to be covered with pain. broken.

"Cry? I won't..."

The last word "cry" was silently swallowed by Shen Jinghe, and the moment he opened his mouth, he had already tasted the salty taste of tears.

He wiped his face randomly with his trembling right hand, and found a gap in his heart in the pain that almost covered his whole body from head to toe, to accommodate the absurdity and surprise that rose up in an instant.

...So he can cry too?

But he would rather never know what it's like to cry.

Shen Jinghe turned his head in a daze, and looked out of the window with his out-of-focus eyes.It was very strange, although he could still feel the throbbing in his left chest, but he always felt that a whole piece of his heart was missing in an instant, and the bone-piercing cold wind blew through the hollow, stripping his body temperature and breathing away, He was only left with a vast expanse of loneliness and coldness.

too bitter.

The taste of crying is really too bitter.

He didn't even know how to describe his state of mind at the moment—why?Obviously, he personally sent Liang Yan out of the city more than a month ago, and obviously the letters and gifts he gave him were still stored in the box in the room, and obviously he still remembered Liang Yan's thin lips gently brushing against his forehead The heart palpitations at the moment of passing, obviously they still have so many words that they haven't had time to whisper in their ears...

Shen Jinghe had to open his mouth wide hastily, in order to breathe the air with difficulty in the depression and suffocation that almost drove him crazy.He felt that his whole body was like a driftwood drifting in the sea, bobbing up and down, but he couldn't find an inch to rest on.The unspeakable heartache and grief hit his mind like a heavy hammer, so that he could only shatter and disintegrate even the idea of ​​deceiving himself and forgetting what happened just now, and looked directly at the reality in front of him soberly and painfully.

"Fifth brother..." Shen Jinghe closed his eyes deeply, clenched his right hand tightly into a fist, and let the sharp edge of his nails pierce his palm, "Dead or alive, I will go to the southwest to find him."

"What?" Shen Zhuoxuan turned pale with shock, and persuaded earnestly, "Jinghe, fifth brother knows that Liang Yan is your best friend, and you feel sad when something happened to him...but you can't joke about your own safety! Lian Liang Yandu...you have never led soldiers before, wouldn't it be tantamount to dying in vain if you go there rashly?"

"more than friends."

Shen Jinghe was silent for a moment, then spoke in a low voice, with a look of exhaustion on his face.

"Liang Yan is not just a friend."

Shen Zhuoxuan paused, and raised his eyebrows slightly in surprise.Before he could digest and understand the meaning of this sentence, Shen Jinghe continued to speak, interrupting his unclarified train of thought.

"Fifth brother, I didn't make this decision on a whim. Although I am not as good at martial arts as Liang Yan, I have never lost a single day in my martial arts practice in the past few years. Even he has praised the art of war and the art of war... He never exaggerates in that regard."

Shen Jinghe pinched his palm hard, using the momentary pain to force himself to struggle and withdraw from the turbulent memories flooding his heart, "I won't just go there alone... Don't worry, I will take the Southwest Bring back the map of the map one inch at a time, bring yourself back properly, and also... bring him back."

Shen Zhuoxuan was stunned by his words, looked at him with a complicated expression, and after a long time, he let out a long sigh.

"...Okay. This is what you promised Fifth Brother yourself, so you must do it. No matter what the final result... is, Fifth Brother hopes to see you come back well, understand?"

Shen Jinghe nodded slowly but forcefully, and closed his eyes again.The moment the light disappeared in front of his eyes, all the fragility and anxiety in his heart were sealed away, leaving only the determination and fearlessness to move forward.

Liang Yan...you must wait for me.

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Thank you Xue Chuimo for mine~ I love you

Thanks to Liu Hanyi for the nutrient solution irrigated!Happy =v=