A Midnight Escape Story for Farmers

"From today on, let's sleep separately. I'll move to the guest room."

After finishing the meal, Fang Shiqing said while staring down at the rice grains in the bowl.

He didn't dare to look up at Xiao Fengdi's expression on the other side, but he could still feel that the other side paused.

"Why?" Xiao Fengdi showed obvious surprise, "We are already—I mean, why should we sleep separately? Do you feel uncomfortable with me?"

Now it's autumn, and the two have just lived together for more than half a year.

During this period of time, Fang Shiqing's body recovered quite a lot, the speed was so fast that the doctor was amazed, and now he is no longer a patient, but just an ordinary person with a poor physique.Of course, as their bodies improved, their relationship took a step further.

They have been living together since the beginning of their conversation, and their relationship is now closer than before. From the perspective of the other party, it makes no sense to sleep separately.

"No, no, it's not that kind of problem," Fang Shiqing quickly explained, "It's just that I'm moving to another room these days, is that okay? I just want to adjust it myself."

Although he wanted to sleep separately temporarily, he didn't want to cause the other party's misunderstanding or cause conflicts at all, and he didn't want to break up with the other party at all.Rather, it is precisely to maintain the relationship for a long time that he wants to do this.

But even so, when he spoke, he couldn't help feeling guilty and sad.

"What do you want to adjust?" Xiao Fengdi frowned even tighter, and simply put down the chopsticks in his hand.

"That's right...you know," Fang Shiqing's face was almost buried in the bowl, he whispered, "I always wake up in the middle of the night, and then wake you up. I can't keep disturbing your rest, So I want to get over it myself.”

Speaking of which, it started after that chance meeting with a college classmate in the summer.

In July, he ran into a junior who was two years younger, and the other party mentioned his friend who unfortunately drowned before graduation.At that time, he just felt angry and had no other thoughts, but that night... the long-lost nightmare came again.

In the dream, I returned to the bottom of Fengyue Lake.The icy lake water wrapped around his body, continuously pouring into his mouth and nose, a pair of hands as powerful as iron pincers held him tightly and sank down, he struggled desperately, but it was all in vain——

Just before he was completely suffocated, he woke up suddenly.

Sweat drenched his thin summer pajamas, he panted heavily, and glanced at the time, it was 02:30 in the morning.

Xiao Fengdi had always been a light sleeper, and he woke up the moment he woke up.The other party put his arms around his waist and asked softly, "What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?"

"……Um."

Fang Shiqing grabbed the opponent's hand, only in this way could he feel a little sense of security.

Before that, he thought that he had overcome the corresponding fear, but he didn't expect that it was just a small inducement, which once again triggered a performance similar to PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder).

"Don't be afraid, those are in the past. Now I'm here."

Xiao Fengdi held his hand tightly, stroked and kissed his forehead and cheek tenderly.Under the comfort of the other party, he slowly relaxed and fell asleep again after a while.

however--

From that day on, almost two or three nights a week, he would be awakened by different kinds of nightmares.

Sometimes I dreamed of corpses, sometimes of various monsters, and most of all I dreamed of darkness and water everywhere.The time of waking up from fright is not the same, and it is distributed from 12 o'clock to three or four in the morning.

The only thing that remains the same is that every time, the person sleeping next to him will wake up immediately, give him a safe enough embrace and gentle comfort, until he falls asleep again.

A day or two was enough, but the nightmare continued intermittently for several months.

Fang Shiqing once suspected that he was suffering from neurasthenia, but these brief nightmares did not cause much discomfort to his body and daily life, in other words, he basically had no physical symptoms.On the whole, it is more appropriate to use mild PTSD to describe it.

He thought about going to see a psychiatrist, but the situation in that game was too unimaginable, and it was impossible to tell any outsiders, and it would be difficult to diagnose without clearly explaining the source of the trauma, so he gave up.

Xiao Fengdi seemed to think that it was because of his lack of security, so during this period of time he took him closer and tried to treat him better.Whenever he was quarreled, he never showed any displeasure or boredom.

At the beginning, the tenderness from the other party was effective, and it did reduce the frequency of nightmares.But... It's embarrassing to say, but after a while, it became Fang Shixin's source of anxiety.

"I didn't think you disturbed me," Xiao Fengdi stared at him and said, "If it's just for this, there's no need to separate."

"However, objectively speaking, I did disturb you. It must be uncomfortable to be woken up by me in the middle of the night."

Fang Shi early in the morning thought that the other party would say that.But to be honest, he didn't believe it.

In order to avoid trouble, he simply said: "That's it, I'll clean it up later."

The house they currently live in has two bedrooms and one living room, and the smaller bedroom also has a bed, so people can live in it as long as they pack the bedding.

"Don't move out," Xiao Fengdi held his left hand, lowered his eyes and said softly, "I want to sleep with you."

"But, if you haven't been sleeping well—"

"I really don't think there is any problem with this," Xiao Fengdi said, "Isn't this the time when I should take care of you? Why are you, a nightmare, thinking about me instead?"

"I'm not..." Fang Shiqing was so ashamed, he knew that he wasn't really thinking about the other party.

In the end he was thinking of himself.

The so-called long-term sickness has no filial son, let alone a lover who has no blood relationship.The boss is very kind and patient, and they are currently in love with each other, so they can bear it for a while, but no one likes being woken up in the middle of the night, in the long run...

Will the relationship between them be slowly wiped out by similar trivial matters?

He was really afraid that the other party would stop loving him.

"Besides," Xiao Fengdi paused for a few seconds, "I actually don't hate that feeling. When you wake up, you will take the initiative to crawl into my arms, hold me and never let go, and sometimes you will play coquettishly with me in a low voice. Lovely."

"???" Fang Shiqing shuddered all over, "Boss, your filter is too heavy."

He didn't think he would hug someone and act like a baby, and he was not a little girl.This filter is really scary, so scary that he can't help but think, if the filter is broken one day, what will they look like?

"I'm going to get some calming things for you to drink in these two days, and you'll get better." Xiao Fengdi said again, "Compared to moving out of the room, it's more reliable to recuperate your spirit earlier. Don't move out— —”

"No, I have to move out to sleep," Fang Shiqing bit his lips and said with determination, "Boss, you are just too kind to me. Maybe desensitizing myself for two days can cure this problem."

Xiao Fengdi wanted to say something more, but he was very determined, so he finally moved.After dinner, Fang Shiqing went to make the bed in the guest room, and hugged all his pillows and quilts.

During this process, Xiao Fengdi has been watching from the side.

His emotions were so obvious that it was hard to ignore. Fang Shiqing was stared at by him when he walked in and out, and the guilt in his heart went up to a higher level.

After thinking about it, he whispered, "When I don't have nightmares, I will move back..."

"Why has it been so long, you still can't rely on me more? If you have insomnia today, sleep separately from me. If something else happens to you later, are you going to break up with me in order not to disturb me?" Xiao Feng Di stood up and said expressionlessly, "I'm going to sleep."

"..."

It seems that he is really angry.Fang Shiqing was a little frustrated, but he still didn't chase after him to apologize.

In a sense, the other party was right, he thought.Among other things, if his illness is not cured, then he may not have the confidence to spend a lifetime with the other party.

Until now, he still doesn't understand why someone like Xiao Fengdi, who is outstanding in appearance and strength, gentle and considerate to his lover, and perfect in that aspect...why choose him.

It doesn’t matter when we are still in the game. At that time, the situation is very extreme. Everyone needs to find a pillar to persevere. Even if it is just a bouquet of wild flowers accidentally sent, it can become an opportunity to fall in love.

But now it has returned to reality. In this colorful world, the other party can definitely find a better partner and talk about the most perfect love.The so-called shared adversity cannot share wealth and honor, probably this is the truth.

So far, they've been giving each other more when they're together.He always wanted to do something for the other party, but what could he do?The boss knows everything, the only thing he is not good at is probably entertainment, but he is not interested in this at all.

If one day, the other party suddenly wakes up, suddenly no longer loves him, and suddenly wants to leave, then what can he do?

As a result, Fang Shiqing suffered from insomnia that night.

He tossed and turned in an unfamiliar bed and didn't fall asleep for hours.I tried wearing a blindfold and playing soothing music, but it didn't help at all.

That is why ah?Fang Shiqing was very sure that he didn't have a problem with bed recognition. After all, he was often hospitalized as a teenager, and he was used to falling asleep alone in different beds.

Is sleeping too much during the day?Stimulating drink before bed?still……

The bed in the guest room was also a double bed, and he was lying in the middle alone. When he subconsciously touched the side for the third time, he finally gave up the idea of ​​deceiving himself.

It is easy to go from frugality to extravagance, but it is difficult to go from extravagance to frugality. After living with Xiao Fengdi for this period of time, I can no longer adapt to being alone at night.

...The boss should have fallen asleep.

After posting for a while, he turned on his phone and found that it was already one o'clock in the morning.After hesitating again and again, he finally got up.

He didn't mean anything else, he just wanted to take a look at each other.Although... But, in short, I just want to see it.

The room was covered with wooden floors, Fang Shiqing walked towards the bedroom lightly with bare feet, but hesitated before opening the door.

With Xiao Fengdi's vigilance when he fell asleep, no matter how lightly he moved, he would definitely wake him up.

Didn't they move out just to avoid disturbing others?Going to push the door now, will it backfire soon?

At last he went away very quietly, and went into the hall, where he poured himself a glass of warm water.

When drinking water, the phone screen that was turned on automatically turned off.

When he turned his head, he saw a black human figure on the sofa, and he almost threw the cup away in fright.But then the shadow's head turned, and he immediately recognized the familiar outline.

"...Boss?"

In the darkness, the shadow moved slightly: "Yes."

Fang Shiqing breathed a sigh of relief: "It's so late, you haven't slept yet."

The other party didn't make a sound this time.He gradually got used to the darkness, and found that Xiao Fengdi seemed to be staring at him again.

Even if he is a boss, it is impossible for him to have night vision ability. In the dark, he should be just a black shadow?Fang Shiqing muttered in his heart.

"Do you want to drink water?"

"No need." After a while, Xiao Fengdi asked in a low voice, "Did you have a nightmare today?"

"...No, no."

He was ashamed to say that he hadn't been able to fall asleep at all.

The two fell silent again.After hesitating for a while, Fang Shiqing still walked over and asked softly, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

Xiao Fengdi looked very sober, not like he woke up from a sleep.

"Already awake." He said unexpectedly.

"Hey?"

"Go and rest quickly, it's already late." Xiao Fengdi interrupted him and stood up at the same time, "I'll go back too."

"..."

There was a strange awkward atmosphere between the two, and it was indescribably irritating.

"..."

Xiao Fengdi walked past him, but he couldn't feel relieved.He felt that the other party seemed to be suppressing something, could it be that he was still angry?

Is this something to be so angry about?Should I apologize?

Under all kinds of contradictory psychology, Fang Shiqing finally grabbed his cuff: "Well, boss, I..."

The sound stopped suddenly.

The moment he met the other party, Xiao Fengdi turned around abruptly, as if he had been suppressed for a long time and couldn't hold it anymore, and pulled him into his arms with all his strength, hugging him tightly.

"...Boss? What's wrong with you? What happened?" Fang Shiqing was taken aback. The other party hugged him so hard that his ribs hurt. This is a rare thing.Even when we just met in reality, his emotions were not so intense.

"I'm sorry," Xiao Fengdi buried his face in his neck and murmured, "I'm sorry, I made a mistake."

"...?"

Fang Shiqing was at a loss, "What are you talking about? What's wrong?"

The other party didn't answer, just turned his head and bit his neck.This movement was very light, but Fang Shiqing's whole body trembled like an electric shock, and his breathing became disordered.

He couldn't help but took half a step back, his knee hit the sofa, and the two of them fell backwards.Before he could cry out, Xiao Fengdi had already bit his lip.

The kiss made his mind go blank and he couldn't think at all.

After the end, Fang Shiqing's rationality slowly returned to its place, when he suddenly had a flash of inspiration.

"Boss, you shouldn't...

"Could it be a nightmare?"

"Can't you?" Xiao Fengdi didn't deny it at all.

"No, it's not impossible..." There is nothing wrong with this kind of thing, "Were you afraid just now?"

"Yes," he said, "I'm afraid."

"What did you dream about?"

This time Xiao Fengdi didn't answer right away, he said after a while:

"I dreamed that you were going to break up with me..."

"what?"

"I don't agree, but you insist on leaving," he said. "We had a quarrel, and you locked yourself in the room. By the time I reacted and opened the door to go in, you had already jumped out the window and left."

"..." Fang Shiqing said, "We live on the sixteenth floor." This dream is actually a joke.

"Yes, in the dream you would rather jump off the sixteenth floor than be with me. This is what I'm most afraid of now."

While talking, Xiao Fengdi hugged him again, as if preventing him from escaping at any time.

"How is this possible..."

"It's impossible that I don't know," Xiao Fengdi seemed to let out a light breath, "but I'm scared. You might think I'm staring at you too closely. Sorry, I'm just scared. You should know that you treat me how important it is.”

"Is it important……"

"Very important. I'd be mad if you did go."

They snuggled up on the sofa, surrounded by the early morning darkness, but at this moment Fang Shiqing felt a little relieved.

Just based on the other party's words, he will never be the one who goes first anyway, and will definitely persist until one day the other party no longer loves him.

He felt sleepy, and the upper and lower eyelids started to stick together unconsciously.Before falling asleep, he seemed to have said something upside down, Xiao Fengdi smiled and said: "The things you are worried about, I should be worried about you instead."

He knew that Fang Shiqing had always lacked understanding of his own situation. To put it bluntly, he had an excessively low self-esteem, but—did this silly boy really not realize that he was already a young billionaire?As long as you are looking for it, you can find any kind of perfect lover, even someone who is hundreds of times better and more considerate than him.

However, it seems that Fang Shiqing really didn't think about it at all.