Respect is worse than obedience

The girl I went on a blind date with today is Fang Yan. She has secretly liked me since college. In fact, I remember her. I met her when I was with Liu Zi.

After leaving the restaurant, I sent her home. Along the way, I asked about my wounds. In fact, there was no fuss. On the way back, I bought a scald ointment and just applied it.

"Gong Qing, thank you for taking me home. I had a great time today."

Seeing Fang Yan's happy face, I didn't want to deceive him.

"Fang Yan..."

"what happened?"

I hesitated for a moment, but said it anyway.

"Sorry, actually, actually...I..."

Before I finished speaking, Fang Yan smiled, "Actually, you don't like me. Actually, you like men."

I was surprised, "How do you know!"

Fang Yan covered her mouth and smiled, "To be honest, I really liked you when I was in college. I don't know if you remember, but I'm in the same class as Bo Yi'an, and I'm with you all for friendship."

"Well, I still remember."

"I really like you, so I asked Bo Yi'an every two days to inquire about you. Later, he couldn't hold back anymore, so he told me."

"then you……"

"Don't worry, I'm not that old-fashioned way of thinking. I'm a rotten girl, and I'm also your solid backing. That's why I agreed to my mother's blind date with you this time."

"Thank you." I looked up at her, it turned out that there are still such people, they wish us well.

"In the future, just use me as a weapon, because I love you~"

Fang Yan made a heart shape, which made me laugh.

"Fang Yan, thank you."

"It's me who wants to thank you. It's you who gave me a good life in college. If I didn't fall in love with you, I wouldn't be as good as I am now."

"Why do you say that?"

"Haha, it's nothing. I'm going upstairs. Goodbye." With a wave of her hand, she disappeared at the entrance of the corridor. I don't know what I changed for her, but having her support is a great comfort to me. .

When I got home, I couldn't avoid giving my mother an explanation. Fang Yan's help made me feel a lot easier. In the future, my mother won't always let me go on blind dates.

"Hey~ Mom... Well, today is not bad, um, ok."

After the simple report was over, I returned to the desk and picked up the pen again.

There are two more days in the week, and I haven't finished the first draft, Musi, and I can't let you down.

After looking at the burns on his hands, he didn't worry about it any more, and raised his hands to draw again.

The design this time is a blue cuff, and there is only one, simple and elegant hexagonal design, with blue crystals as inlaid gemstones.

Blue crystal symbolizes carefree, Musi, can you let me be carefree...

On Friday morning, I handed in my design, and Musi asked me to hand it in to the office in person. I knew he was going to embarrass me, but I didn't expect him to embarrass me so much.

Pushing the door and entering, what I didn't expect was that he was flirting with men in the office. He was not afraid of gossip at all. That's right. Who is he, Musi? Who does not like.

I didn't speak, and without any expression, I put the design draft on his desk.

"Ah~ Mosi, why is it this employee again? It's really annoying. He's on the rise."

Musi glanced at me, and leaned the man in his arms forward again.

"Baby, come and see if the design on the table looks good. If it looks good, I'll make one for you."

Musi put the design draft in the boy's hand without even looking at it.

I keep my head down, showing no emotion.

"Mosi, what are these, cufflinks? It's too ugly and doesn't suit me at all." The boy threw the design draft on the table in disgust.

Design drafts are just scattered on the desk.

Mu Xi took a look and laughed, "Hmph, blue crystal, carefree, hum, Comrade Gong Qing, can you not disgust me with this design!"

With a strong force, the entire design draft was thrown vigorously and scattered in the air.

I am not angry or sad, he is the boss and I am an employee, if I do not do well, I deserve to be scolded.

"Okay, Mosi, why are you getting angry with this little employee? You still said to take me to eat steak later, don't affect your appetite."

The boy got off Musi, took a few red things, stuffed them into my collar,

"Hurry up and go out to work. Here, I'll be fine. Next time, work hard, keep your eyes open, and don't always rush in at special times."

I smiled, answered yes, turned and left, Musi, you think I'm cheap, don't you?

When I closed the office door, the sound of making love inside still came into my ears. I hurriedly closed the door, panting heavily, and then rushed to the toilet.

This kind of hatred really pierces into my heart, Muxi, if torturing me is enjoyable for you, I will work hard to cooperate.

In the bar at night, the lights are red and the willows are green. I hold a wine glass and walk in the crowd as if drunk, staggering.

I deliberately found a day when Xiaoyu was not on duty to drink, as long as he was there, I would definitely not be allowed to drink.

This is a gay, the audience is full of the same men, who would pay attention to me, a heterosexual who pretends to be noble in front of outsiders, but actually loves men crazily.

"Ah hey, whoever touches my ass is shameless." I was drunk and twisted my body wantonly on the dance floor.

"Hey, why, who are you, why are you touching me?"

"Little brother, why, come and play with me." What do I know when I'm drunk, I was groped by another man on the dance floor, and I wanted to fight back but I didn't have the strength.

"Don't touch me, pervert!" I pushed.

The man is stronger than me, and he never let go.

"Didn't you hear that I told you to let go!" A voice came from nowhere, knocking off the man's hand, and then there was a sound of beating, and I lost my memory.

In the dream, my body was very uncomfortable and very hot, as if someone was touching my body, I struggled and moaned, but I had no strength at all.

The man's movements seemed to be getting more and more violent, like a beast that had been hungry for a long time, tearing open my body, constantly asking for it, and I kept screaming for pain, but he didn't intend to stop.

This is a dream, why do I have such a dream, so real, and in the dream, at last, I saw the man's face clearly, and then murmured.

"Musie..."

The feeling in the second half of the night was very warm, just like the feeling when Mu Xi hugged me back then. His tall body was very warm.

Maybe it’s because I miss it too much, maybe I can’t forget it, that’s why I have this kind of real dream, just like the warmth we were still together four years ago, I would kick the quilt at night, he would help me cover it, and then put me rolled into his arms.

In the dream, I cried, I missed this kind of warmth, every winter in the past four years, I would wake up unconsciously in the night, my injured leg could not bear the pain, especially after living alone, I woke up in the middle of the night Cold, only I know.

I started to twitch, as if someone was patting my back lightly, I slowly calmed down, then murmured that person's name, and fell asleep.