The dumb guy who sells finger pies

The light after the snow was still surprisingly dim.Father Xun had gone out, so only Xun Fei stayed in the house alone.

In the room, it was as cold as condensation for a while,

The food on the table barely took a few mouthfuls, and then it was cleaned up.Put the bowls and chopsticks into the sink and let the icy cold feel slide down the back of your hands.Xun Fei cleaned quietly, neither fast nor slow, like a machine.

After about a few minutes, he finally came out of the kitchen.An unfamiliar little Ben lay quietly on the dining table.The surface is very worn. If you look closely, you will find that it is a long time ago.

Xun Fei closed his eyes, and then brought Ben back into the room.

He slowly turned on the light and sat on the edge of the bed.He set his eyes on the book and stopped moving.That is to say, from this moment on, the originally calm eyes began to fluctuate.As if the ice cubes were gradually melting, one couldn't help but wonder for a moment whether there were some invisible tears of sadness in his eyes.

He has been sitting like that, almost as if his soul has been taken away.

Xun Fei opened his eyes, all kinds of appearances of Xue Nuo seemed to flash in front of his eyes, so intricate that he could hardly open his eyes.He tried his best to open his eyes wide and saw clearly, but at the same time it was sore and blurred.

All kinds of information about Xue Nuo are recombined into a vivid picture.Just like in memory, under the shade of the trees in the compound, he stuck to Xue Nuo tirelessly, and Xue Nuo was smiling slightly in the colorful sunlight, holding a book in his slender and clean hands cherishingly, The gentle voice told him interesting stories one after another...

Such a peaceful and quiet time, thinking about it now, under such a smile, what kind of heavy burden is Xue Nuo bearing and hiding?

Xue Nuo's experience is straightforward.He also understands intuitively.

All this while, Xue Nuo has endured long hours of bullying alone.

He is not ignorant of this.But no matter what, how could he have thought that those people would treat him so cruelly?On the day they parted with him, they cruelly locked Xue Nuo in the warehouse for a full ten hours and committed atrocities.He couldn't even imagine how Xue Nuo survived those ten hours...

The face of the boy who was also bullied in the morning suddenly exploded in front of Xun Fei's eyes, making his eyes sour!

Such a helpless and sad look made it difficult for him to breathe for a while.

After that, Xue Nuo suffered from depression.

Such a humble and gentle Xue Nuo suffered from depression.

Similarly, from that time on, he lost his voice due to the experience of that day.

"A few years ago, those people all had certain backgrounds. Aunt Xiaonuo and the others were just ordinary people, so they had to live privately in the end... I just feel sorry for Xiao Nuo, such a good child..."

Cold hands and feet.

Xun Fei was at a loss for words.

He just buried his face deeply in the palm of his hand, only his tight lips were exposed, and the corners of his mouth were trembling like crazy...

It seems like a long time.

Suddenly, Xun Fei wiped his cheeks vigorously, then opened the notebook, and smacked his nose fiercely, as if he didn't care about his red eye sockets.

That was Xue Nuo's previous diary.Xue Nuo's aunt gave it to Father Xun.

With trembling fingers, he turned the first page, and Xue Nuo's signature in neat handwriting came into view.

Most of them are Xue Nuo's records of his own life.In the beginning, basically one note a day.Every time I write down the words are not too many, but very serious.

When reading about Xue Nuo's views and feelings on certain things, Xun Fei could even see Xue Nuo sitting alone under the lamp, laughing or tilting his head to think.

"It's Chinese New Year, and there are fireworks in the square tonight. Even though it's far away, you can still see it. It's very beautiful. I hope that everyone around me will be happier and happier in the new year, and so will I. I will work hard to improve my math scores. "

"Today I tried to make finger pancakes for Xiaofei, but he didn't eat green onions. It's so interesting to think of his expression when he took the first bite."

"Tomorrow is the sports meeting, what to bring: water bottle, pencil case, notebook..."

In this way, Xue Nuo dissected his soft heart in this diary.But at this moment, it was also truly and unreservedly displayed in front of his eyes.Xun Fei peeked into Xue Nuo's heart bit by bit like this, and he himself seemed to be touched in the softest part of his heart, palpitations, and he couldn't tell what it was like.

Xun Fei looked down one by one.The content is roughly the same.The time between dates is getting longer and longer.

"It's so painful."

Heart, like being hit hard.

A dull dull pain.

When I moved my eyes, it was not only these three words that dazzled my eyes, but also the obvious tear stains.

What kind of mood did Xue Nuo write these three words?

"It's almost unbearable. The wound on my body hurts, but I really don't want to tell my aunt and let them bother."

"Just be patient."

"Number x is going to find Xiao Fei and say goodbye to Xiao Fei." Seeing this, Xun Fei paused.

The further back, the more chaotic Xue Nuo's handwriting became.

"I really don't know what to do. No matter what, I'm almost going crazy. The exam is about to come, come on, bear with it. Be sure to hold back, don't collapse, don't collapse..."

After that, there is nothing.

Either there is only the date and nothing is written; or, there are only tears...

This noon, he learned what he wanted to know most, Xue Nuo's experience.

He just understands this experience from the perspective of a bystander.And Xue Nuo, who really experienced it, what kind of feelings did he feel during those days?

He didn't dare to think about it.He couldn't think about it.

In the silent room, Xun Fei wept silently with his head down, while holding the diary tightly in his hand.Under the pale sky, his figure is as sad and profound as a silhouette.