Holding the hand of the child, grow old with the child

She grabbed his waist and buried her head deep in his bare chest.

"Brother, I love you too." I said the last sentence with all my strength, and then gradually fell into a coma.

When I woke up in the morning, I found that I was still lying in my brother's arms. I opened my sleepy eyes and met my brother's gentle eyes.

In the slender light brown Danfeng eyes, there is a love that does not belong to the elder brother.

Seeing that I was awake, he kissed my forehead and said, "Are you awake? I'll cook for you."

He just wanted to get up, but I pulled him back abruptly.The corners of his mouth rose slightly, and he returned to me again, holding me in his arms.

I don't know how long it took.

It wasn't until my stomach began to resist that I reluctantly let go of my brother. After he left the room, I got up with great effort, took a shower, and finally went downstairs to eat.

Seeing me coming down, my brother showed a bright smile.

The most beautiful smile in the world, and the owner of the smile, belong to me at this moment.

From that day on, my brother moved back, to be precise, he moved back to my room.Occasionally he used to go back to sleep in his own room, but now his room is almost deserted, unless he can't find what he wants after searching my room upside down, he will go back to his own room to look for it ;As before, we still hold each other's hands and go to and from school together.

In the eyes of others, we are a pair of brothers who have a good relationship, but only we know that the relationship between us is not only brotherhood, but also love. As long as we don’t see each other for a moment, we will miss each other to death. This point Even my mother and Xia Ying didn't know.And since then, we have had a relationship almost every three or four days, and we are intoxicated in the combination of pain and pleasure every time. The feeling of integration is even more difficult for me to give up.

Two years have passed in a blink of an eye, and it's time to graduate.Of course, there is no need to worry about my brother's good grades, but Xia Ying's usual non-job work made him realize that the fire had already reached his eyebrows when the college entrance examination was approaching, so he began to ask his brother to give him tutoring, but in order to avoid letting his father know, he had to stay In our house, I sleep in my brother's room.At the same time, my brother often has to allocate part of his energy to take care of my study and his study, as well as the daily cooking at home, so he is too busy to divide himself.So I started to share some household cooking for him, and at the same time studied like crazy, so that he would not worry about my grades, so that he could put all his energy on his own and Xia Ying's study.But in this way, we spent much less time alone than usual. Every night, the two of us dragged our tired bodies to lie on the bed, and then fell asleep with our heads covered until the sound of the alarm clock woke us up in the morning.

Life goes on day by day.

It was still raining outside the window, and the raindrops were crackling on the window.

When it was time to eat, I saw that they hadn't come down yet, so I went upstairs to look for them, complaining in my heart.

The door of the room was not closed, it was almost half open, accompanied by a silver lightning that pierced the sky, showing me an amazing scene in the room.

The elder brother hugged Xia Ying tightly in his arms and said to him "Ying, I like you", Xia Ying also hugged her elder brother's waist tightly.

I opened my eyes wide and watched, something seemed to be broken in my heart, my mind went blank instantly, and I stepped back helplessly, but bumped into the stairs, a sudden sound made my brother and Xia Ying look at me together .

"So you like Xia Ying!" I pointed at my brother tremblingly, trying not to let tears fall. "you......"

Then I ignored the yelling of my brother and Xia Ying behind me, and rushed out of the house without even changing my clothes.

Hold Your Hand, Grow Old Together Text Chapter 10

章节字数：1270更新时间：07-08-2622:22

Although the summer rain is cool, it will be cold after a long time, but I can't feel it.

Because my heart is colder.

I couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears on my face, I just ran forward without purpose, and finally found myself running in front of Zhang Bo's cafe.

Through the brown velvet curtains, I could see that there was still a light on inside, so I opened the door and went in.

Same as the first visit, the standard British style, soft piano music, soft sofas, and the strong aroma of coffee in the air. . . . . .Only one person is missing.

Hearing the sound of pushing the door, Uncle Zhang came out from behind, and saw me who was drenched in the rain. "You?" Uncle Zhang called me suspiciously, the warmth of the surrounding made my tears fall again.

"What's wrong? Is something wrong? Where's Xiaoxiu?" Hearing my brother's name, my tears fell even harder.Uncle Zhang didn't ask any more questions, he quickly closed the store door, took me to his house, and changed into clean clothes.Zhang Bo's clothes are too big to wear, which makes him a little uncomfortable.

"Let's do it first, if it doesn't work, I'll go to your house tomorrow and get your clothes." Uncle Zhang looked at me, and there seemed to be something wrong, "Maybe I'll take you to the street to buy some clothes." After finishing speaking, Zhang Uncle started to help with the cooking again, and it was past eight o'clock in the evening after dinner. Uncle Zhang let me sleep in his room, while he slept in the living room. This kind of warm care made me cry again when I lay down. Immediately, that scene repeated itself in my mind.

"Ying, I like you"

"Ying, I like you..."

"Ying, I like you."

"Ying, I like you!"

Finally, I sat up, and the pain in my heart made it impossible to sleep.

elder brother. . . . . .

why did you lie to me

If you like Xia Ying, you can tell me, I won't force you to stay with me.

After all, we still are. . . . . .brother.That word that I didn't care about two years ago came back to my mind.

That's the best, you like your Xia Ying, and I will live my life.

Live my days without you.

I didn't go to school the next day, so I went home to get my schoolbag, some clothes, and daily necessities when there was no one at home, and then went back to Zhang Bo's house.Zhang Bo said that if I don't want to go home, I can live with him first, and it doesn't matter how long I stay.I was afraid that it would be bad for him to sleep in the living room for a long time, so he packed up another empty room for me to sleep in.He also reassured me that my brother only knew the address of the cafe, not his home.I told Uncle Zhang that if my brother asked, he would say he didn't know.

"Then will Xiaoxiu be worried?" Uncle Zhang asked.

Worry?Probably not, even if it was, he was just worried about his younger brother as an older brother.So I said, "It's fine."

I went to school on the third day, and I heard from my classmates that my brother came to see me yesterday, I asked them how they answered, they said "Yin Zhiyou didn't come", my brother asked them if they knew where I was, they also replied "No Know".

do not know.

Great.

In this way, I can gradually disappear in his life, and he can rest assured to be with Xia Ying without worrying about me.

Brother, do you know?

I don't want to have you anymore.

Now I just want you to be happy and happy.

No matter who you are with.

That's all I hope for.

elder brother. . . . . .

I love you.

real. . . . . .really love you.

Hold Your Hand, Grow Old Together Text Chapter 11

章节字数：2878更新时间：07-08-2622:22

The life in Zhang Bo’s house was very peaceful. Every night after school, I would go back to his house to study, and then prepare a meal, and wait for Zhang Bo to come back; the days at school were the same. When we met, I almost never stepped out of the classroom; at first when I slept at Zhang Bo's house, I couldn't sleep, but after about half a month, I gradually got used to it.Although I closed my eyes, I still had that scene in my mind, but I still tried my best not to let myself think about it, so I studied hard every day, whether it was at school or at Zhang Bo’s house.

I heard from Uncle Zhang that during the period when I was not home, my brother also went to the cafe to ask him. He answered my brother "I don't know" as I asked, and my brother believed it, so he didn't ask again.About three days after I left, my mother knew about it and was very anxious, so I called her and told her I was fine, but didn't say that I was staying at Uncle Zhang's house.

Everything is working as I want.

The results of the high school entrance examination came out, which is not bad.I always felt that it was not good to live in Uncle Zhang’s house all the time, so I told my mother that I wanted to move out in the future. My mother asked me why, but I didn’t answer, so she didn’t continue to ask, but just asked a friend of hers to live near the new school. I found a house, but I've always hated calling it "home" because there was nothing like home in the whole house.At first I was still worried about whether my mother would tell my brother the address, but after a week, I felt relieved, because according to my brother's personality, if he knew the address, he would definitely come to me as soon as possible, but he never came , and my mother will only come to see me on weekends, buy me some things, let me take care of myself, and often disclose some information about my brother intentionally or unintentionally.Mom told him I was fine, so he didn't worry so much. Although he was still looking for me, at least he wasn't as crazy as he was at the beginning, so I was relieved.

After a long time, it will always be forgotten.One day he will give up looking for me too.

So I live on my own.

It's summer vacation, and it's idle anyway, so I agreed to my friend and went to the amusement park with a group of people, about five or six, including Wang Yifan.

After lunch, I was going to continue playing, but Wang Yifan said she wanted to buy ice cream, I was afraid that she would get lost as a girl, so I went with her, but I unexpectedly met my brother and Xia Ying.

When I saw them, I froze in place, because they turned their backs to me, so they didn't see me.I subconsciously wanted to leave immediately, but I didn't expect Wang Yifan to call me, which made my brother and Xia Ying turn their heads, and after confirming that it was me, they ran towards me immediately.I instinctively wanted to leave immediately, but I couldn't escape because there were too many people.

"Xiao You..." The elder brother's voice was choked with sobs, and he called out his own name.I replied in a daze, brother.He held me tightly in his arms, and I didn't struggle or reach out to hug him.

"Zhiyou!" At this moment, Wang Yifan just walked to my side, so my brother let me go.

"Yifan, let me introduce. This is my brother Yin Zhixiu, and this is his friend Xia Ying." I calmly said to Wang Yifan, then turned my head to my brother and Xia Ying, and added another sentence.

"This is my girlfriend Wang Yifan."

I looked up and saw the incredible brother written all over his face.

Brother, don't look at me like that, your expression makes me feel bad.

In fact, even I didn't know why I added that sentence, but Wang Yifan acted with me very wittily, smiled and called "brother", and took my hand.

"Xiaoyou, you..." My brother's lips were trembling uncontrollably, his beautiful eyebrows were twisted together, his hurt expression was heartbreaking, even Xia Ying was surprised.

Brother, do you know?Your little You has grown up and is no longer the little child who needs your daily care.

My friend seemed to be getting impatient with waiting, so he walked up to us and patted me on the shoulder. "Hey, you two, it's been so long buying an ice cream." I smiled at him, then turned my head to my brother.

"I'm sorry, brother, I have something else to do, so I'm leaving first." After speaking, he turned around and left the place with his friends, leaving the surprised brother and Xia Ying behind.

After a while, I heard my brother's voice behind me.

"Xiao You, go home tonight! I'll wait for you!"

I held back my tears and didn't look back.

The elder brother waited for the younger brother to come home. . . . . .?

Afterwards we started playing in the amusement park again, and although nothing changed on the surface, I was never happy in my heart.Until after eight o'clock in the evening, the friends were tired after playing all day, so they finally decided to go back to their respective homes.As soon as I walked out of the gate of the amusement park, I saw Xia Ying leaning against the gate.

I wanted to pretend that I didn't see the person passing by, but he stopped me. Of course, this was what I expected, so I let my friends go first.

"What's the matter?" I asked after my friends left.Xia Ying sighed, then straightened up and replied, "What happened to that girl at noon?"

"That's my own business, it has nothing to do with other people." I don't know how to explain, so I can only say this, in order to avoid him asking the bottom line, I was about to move on, but Xia Ying pulled me back.

"Indeed, it's your own business, but do you know that Xiaoxiu cried because of this?! It's because you have a girlfriend!" Xia Ying finally couldn't restrain herself and yelled at me. "Didn't you see that Xiaoxiu was stunned after you left, shaking his head constantly, and only repeated one sentence, 'he has a girlfriend, he doesn't love me anymore'. Xiaoxiu never He would never cry no matter how hard he worked, but today he just cried like that regardless of everyone in the playground! Do you know how much your words hurt him?!"

I was stunned for a moment, but I immediately realized that I couldn't suppress the anger in my heart, and shouted at Xia Ying: "That's because he was sorry for me first! You know what you have done! Every day you keep saying you love me, Love me, he can say such unconscionable words! Can he repeat the life that he can feel at ease every day like that?! Don’t forget, I saw it when he hugged you at home and said ‘I like you’ to you that day, I've seen it all! If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn't have believed it, and I wouldn't have known that the two of you have come together to lie to me!" "Yes, it's his business whether he loves me or not, but even if he doesn't It’s always okay to tell me if you love me! I won’t stop you! Don’t I even have this qualification? Would you rather lie to me than tell me the truth?! Only he can Can't I go out with other people without telling me? Then what am I? His toy? Or his pet?!" "Now that he is with you, I don't have to worry about it, so I can live my life Can you? Can you?!"

"You..." Xia Ying showed a guilty expression on his face, and his tone became much calmer. "So you still care about what happened that day? Well, I'll make it clear to you now. I told Xiaoxiu that day that my dad was going to let me take over the company, so I went to study in England after graduating from high school. After hearing this, Xiaoxiu said he could agree. One thing for me, no matter what it is, he will try his best to help me do it. I confessed to him, and he said that he knew it a long time ago, so I asked him to hug me and say something to me before I left 'I like you', he did as he did, but he didn't expect that scene just happened to be seen by you. At that time, he wanted to explain clearly to you, but you ran out without listening to anything, and he and I searched for a whole I didn't find it all night; then, he looked for the school, Uncle Zhang, and your friends one after another, but no one knew where you went, and he was going crazy at that time! He didn't even go to class Looking for you everywhere, for fear that something might happen to you outside alone. He didn’t go back to school until his aunt told him that you were safe, but he was still absent-minded, and couldn’t listen to what the teacher said in class. I'm afraid that if things go on like this, even if you don't have an accident, Xiaoxiu will have an accident, so I begged my father to promise me to delay the time until after the end of the summer vacation, so that I can spend more time with him so that he won't be overwhelmed. Take him out for a stroll, and prevent him from thinking wildly at home alone."

After listening to Xia Ying's words, I was so surprised that I didn't know what to say.

"Now you know the truth, and you know that Xiaoxiu really loves you." Xia Yingfu leaned against the wall again. "Go back quickly, Xiaoxiu is still waiting for you."

I ran to the station quickly, with only one thought in my mind: Brother, wait for me, I will go back right away, brother!

Hold Your Hand, Grow Old Together Text Chapter 12

章节字数：3195更新时间：07-08-2622:23

Due to the traffic jam, and the amusement park is far away from home, it was almost ten o'clock when we got home.I opened the door in a panic, and saw that the restaurant was full of dishes, as well. . . . . .And my brother who was asleep on the sofa.

"Brother..." I walked to him, knelt down, stroked his face, and kissed his lips lightly.

Is it because you are sad that your eyebrows are still furrowed so tightly when you sleep?

"Brother, I'm sorry."

Presumably he hasn't slept well recently, he can even fall asleep lying on the sofa.I wanted to get up and go back to the room to get him a pillow and blanket, but suddenly I was hugged tightly in his arms.

"Xiao You... Xiao You, don't leave me...I know you still love me...you still love me, right?! Xiao You... ."

"Little Yu!"

My brother screamed and sat up. Under the reflection of the light, I could clearly see the beads of sweat on his forehead.

"Brother..." I called him cautiously, but he seemed to notice that it was me in his arms. "Xiaoyou...Xiaoyou..." My brother buried his head in my neck and called my name with sobs, hot tears fell on my shoulders.I reached out and hugged him tightly in my arms, stroking his back, and it took a long time before I let him go.

"Brother, don't sleep outside, you'll catch a cold, go back to your room." Then I helped him upstairs, entered his room, let him lie on the bed, and just about to get up and leave, he hugged me tightly again.

Suddenly, he let me go again, and looked at me nervously, like a seriously injured animal.

"Xiao You, do you still love me? You..." Before he finished speaking, I pressed his lips, thinking about the time when we had our first relationship two years ago, he That's how I blocked my unfinished sentence.Then, everything seemed to go back to two years ago, we hugged each other tightly, took off all the clothes on each other, my brother hugged me to the bed, pressed me under the body, and kissed my whole body like raindrops, from my lips to my neck , the collarbone, and finally still resting on my chest, it took a long time before he opened his mouth and said: "Xiaoyou..." Then he separated my legs, unfolded his plunder, and continued to kiss me deeply.

It's still endless pain, but I can't take care of it anymore, I'm only intoxicated in the pleasure of love and the gap between kisses.

Deeper and harder each time, the thrusting behind me is also gradually accelerating, I can even hear the impact sound coming from my body, mixed with my brother's panting and my muffled groan echoing throughout the room.

After a long time, my brother reluctantly ended this sweet kiss, and continued to wander on my body, and I also let out bursts of groans.

"Brother... Ah! Ah! You... Hurry up! Hurry up..."

The love this time seems to be longer and more intense than any previous one. My brother kept pushing towards the deepest part of my body. He didn't wake up until the cloudy white liquid mixed with some bright red flowed out of my body. Let go of me, quickly hugged me into the bathroom, after cleaning, hugged me into my room, and then hugged me tightly in his arms, but we were also powerless because of the plunder just now, our consciousness was gradually being Corrupted by drowsiness.

When I got up the next morning, my brother was no longer with me. After looking around, I found that he was washing the sheets.Seeing me getting up, he smiled slightly, "There is breakfast in the dining room, and it's already ready. If it's cold, you can warm it up yourself." After speaking, he turned around and looked after the washing machine.I didn't listen to his words and went downstairs to eat, but quietly walked behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist.My brother turned around with a sweet and happy smile on his face. Through his clear eyes, I also saw the same self.I tilted my head and looked at my brother, only to realize that I hadn't seen him like this for a long time.

My brother looks really good-looking.

He held my waist with his arms all the time, stroked my face with the other hand, then lowered his head and kissed my lips.The dexterous tongue stuck into my mouth, gently licked my palate, and then entangled my tongue.I closed my eyes intoxicated and devoted myself to my brother's kiss. I couldn't feel anything except the kiss.

"Zhixiu! Zhi..." The person who broke in suddenly asked us to let go of each other immediately. I turned my head and found that my mother was looking at us in astonishment.My brother and I bit our lips and lowered our heads at the same time, but held each other's hands tightly.Mom was stunned for a while, then went out again.

My brother and I discussed it, and since we have been discovered, we should admit that there is nothing wrong with being together because we love each other.So we went downstairs together, and Mom was sitting on the sofa in the living room.

"Mom..." We stood in front of Mom, and my brother yelled worriedly, but he still didn't let go of my hand.

"Come here." Mom moved to one side, motioning for us to sit next to her.From the moment I sat on the sofa, my mother kept her head down, so I couldn't see her expression clearly. It wasn't until we sat down that she raised her head, stretched out her hand and caressed the faces of the two of us lovingly, and sighed. Finally he spoke:

"So it's all true."

My brother and I exchanged glances and decided to continue listening to my mother.

"Actually, when the two of you were very young, I suspected that you liked each other, especially Zhixiu, who always doted on and spoiled you, no matter what happened, the first thing that came to mind was always Zhiyou, Heh, no one is allowed to call him 'Xiao You'." At this point, Mom suddenly smiled, then paused, as if she had returned to a long time ago.

"The same is true of you. Even when my parents didn't learn how to call, they already knew how to call 'brother'. Every day, I had to hug Zhixiu before I was willing to sleep. But at that time, I thought it might just be that the relationship between brothers was too good. It will be better when I grow up a bit, but I didn't expect the divorce between your father and me to be inserted in the middle. I had no choice but to take Zhixiu away. I remember when I said I would take him away, he He looked at me seriously and asked me 'what about Xiaoyou?', and I said to him, 'Mom doesn't have that much money to support the two of you, so Xiaoyou has to stay'. Zhixiu is very sensible, he didn't argue to bring Zhiyou left without arguing to stay, but cried for several nights in a row, his eyes were swollen, but the tears continued to flow down. In fact, I also thought at the time, if you like each other, take this opportunity It can also be separated, so that it will be forgotten after a long time.

Then four years ago, when Zhixiu, Xiaoying and I went to the airport to pick up Zhiyou, I could see that Zhixiu’s eyes were completely different from usual, especially when he looked at Zhiyou, it was full of tenderness and love I don't think so, but Zhiyou may have been separated for too long, so I just look at my brother from the perspective of a younger brother, so I am not worried.

But gradually, I found that Zhiyou's eyes began to change. When I looked at Zhixiu, my eyes were full of admiration and dependence, because I didn't know where to start. I have never mentioned this matter to you. By the time, it was too late.

I remember that Xiuxiu moved to Xiaoying's house for about half a month in his first year of high school. On the night when he came back for the second time, I went into the room very early, slept for a while, and woke up because of thirst. Drinking water in the restaurant, but vaguely heard voices in the repair room.At first I thought something was wrong, but when I walked to the door and listened carefully, I realized that something really happened inside, and it was a big thing.I never thought that you two would love each other so much.I wanted to push the door to stop you, but I never did.Forget it, let you go, I think since you love each other so much, even if I intervene, it won't help, and it may make you leave together. You are still so young, and I am most concerned about you. If you leave, I guess I have suicidal thoughts.So I never broke the window paper, and neither of you ever knew it.At first I just endured it, but slowly, I found that I had unknowingly accepted your relationship. After all, it is not easy to meet someone who truly loves each other in one's life.

A while ago, Zhiyou suddenly told me that he wanted to move out. I asked him the reason, but he didn't say anything. When he was looking for a house, his expression seemed to be afraid that I would tell Zhixiu where he lived, so I asked him why. He didn't say anything, and basically believed that Zhiyou moved out because of Zhixiu's relationship.I've been trying to figure this out, but I have no idea. When I woke up just now, I looked for Zhixiu to see if I could get something out of him, so as to help ease your relationship. In the end, I saw You two are here. . . . . .Alas, it makes me have to explain this matter clearly. "

Mom seemed to wake up from the memory suddenly, stretched out her hand, patted my elder brother and me on the head respectively, and said with a smile: "But you two are really brave, even if you are kissing at home, you have to lock the door Let's go!" After hearing this, my brother and I also burst out laughing.I subconsciously glanced at my brother, and found that he was also looking at me, his eyes were also full of gratitude and guilt, and then we hugged my mother together.

"I'm sorry, Mom." Our voices were a little choked up.Mom let us go, kissed our foreheads respectively, and continued: "But you must be clear now that homosexuality is not accepted in China, let alone brothers and sisters. Anyway, we have enough money now, especially when we wait After high school, I'll take the two of you to America, where you can open up about your relationship."

My brother and I hugged my mother tightly again, but we didn't know what to say.

end

Three years later.

San Francisco, U.S.

"Good Bye, John!"

"Bye!"

After saying goodbye to my classmates, I immediately ran to the corridor.Through the glass window, I could see him leaning against the wall outside the school, waving at me.I ran down quickly.

"What are you in such a hurry for? I won't leave." Seeing me panting, he smiled softly, then moved his lips together, and kissed me deeply.I struggled hard, but was held tighter in his arms.After a while, he reluctantly let me go.

"Brother! This is the gate of the school! Please pay attention to the influence!" I complained as soon as he let go.

"Okay, okay, just this time, don't make an example, okay? Now, as a punishment, I'll make you whatever you want to eat tonight." My brother took my hand and walked home.

I thought about it for a while and answered him, "Hmmm... Cream of Mushroom Soup."

"What else?" My brother continued to ask.

"Also..." I fell into deep thought again, then raised my head and looked at my brother with malicious eyes, "I want to eat you!"

"That will have to wait until after ten o'clock in the evening." My brother replied disapprovingly, and it was only then that I realized that he had misunderstood.

"You... forget it, forget it, I won't tell you! My mind is full of that kind of thought. Cut it!"

"Oh, what a joke!"

"Please, this kind of joke can't be made every day! I just turned 18~~"

"But the first time you were 13."

"You...Yin Zhixiu!! You come back!"