if you don't love me

If you don't love me (I'm afraid everyone didn't notice the thoughtful reminder of the copy: the odd number is Chen Ningyu, and the even number is Yuancheng)

My name is Chen Ningyu.Love someone unrestrainedly and indulgently for a lifetime.

It's a pity that someone only treats me as a brother.

I really couldn't figure out why someone who said he was so cold and unscrupulous could keep a calm and serious face under my obvious seduction.

After thinking about it for a long time, I reluctantly came up with an answer: probably the wisdom passed down from the ancestors, rabbits don’t eat grass beside their nests.

We grew up together, my grass is said to be barely on the edge of the nest, and I wish I could just grow into the nest.

We copied summer homework together, were punished by the teacher to stand together, haunted various bars like guerrillas together, fought together, watched movies together, ate a bowl of instant noodles together, and smoked a cigarette together.

Then he said he was in love with a woman.

At this time, should I leave the stage sadly?

I like him and thought about telling him, but he didn't seem to have the same feelings under the test, so I gave up. Eight out of ten unsatisfactory things in life, but when he said that he wanted to be with someone else, I was very unwilling.

But I can't do anything.

I didn't even have the courage to leave.

I can't bear not to see him again, not to hear him speak.Continue to be a good buddy he can drink and chat with.Like before, there's nothing wrong with it.

Nothing bad.

After all, he doesn't owe me, and God doesn't owe me either.

2.

My name is He Yuancheng.Love someone unrestrainedly and indulgently for a lifetime.

I guess this so-and-so probably loves me too.

But he never said it.

I wanted to confess to him, but was afraid that the change of relationship would make us strangers - I'm sure if we remained brothers, we would have a lifetime.But I don't know if we are lovers, will I have the courage to accompany that fool who has gone all the way to the dark without looking back or letting go.

Sometimes I also wonder why I am a big man who is hesitant and overwhelmed like a woman - when facing the person I love.

Probably because I followed my irresponsible and caring father, a coward, greedy for the tenderness he gave, knowing his pain, but still not taking the initiative, rejecting or taking responsibility.

Pity him for falling in love with such a scumbag like me.

We copied summer homework together, were punished by the teacher to stand together, haunted various bars like guerrillas together, fought together, watched movies together, ate a bowl of instant noodles together, and smoked a cigarette together.

Let's be good brothers for a lifetime.

I am planning to get married.Find a girl who isn't ugly and doesn't have a difficult personality.

I know he won't leave me.

But if I give this signal, he may give up and hang himself on my tree.

I know, I'm sorry for both of them.

But I will work hard to be a good husband, a good brother.

3.

The name Chen Ningyu is very nice. My mother said that when she was pregnant with me, she often dreamed of a beautiful island with singing birds and fragrant flowers, a fairyland on earth, so I called it Chen Ningyu.

I also think my name sounds nice.

It's a pity that in this life, it will probably be called this name, as a lonely island.

I am reticent, slow to warm up, and not good at making friends.After living for more than twenty years, there is only one person who can be called a good friend.

But I don't want him to be my good friend.

I want him to be my boyfriend.

When he has become someone else's boyfriend, and may become someone else's husband in the future, I think so, isn't it a bit despicable?

But I can't help it, I can't help it, every sleepless night, I imagine him hugging me, warming my cold toes with his weed-like calves, and resting me with his thick chest sleeping heart.At this time, I will call his name.

After the ultimate happiness is the sense of emptiness that cannot be resolved and dissipated.

Do I need a man's body to give me warmth and security, or do I need him?

If I need him, I can look at his photos, review his text messages, I can make my world full of him, so why is it still empty.

If I need a man, then why, when I see him standing with others, I will have vicious thoughts, as if my heart is corroded by jealousy.

I do not know.

4.

He looked a bit lonely after meeting my new girlfriend.

All the considerations of the overall situation, for his good and for everyone's good, all collapsed. If there was no one sitting next to me, I would be so impulsive that I would hug him into my arms.

As long as I open my mouth to say a word, this person, who I have been thinking about for many years, will come into my arms by himself, and will be so obedient that I will ask for it.

He is the most soft and sticky person, and he is willing to give everything for the people he approves of.

I even hated myself for being in his circle.

At your fingertips.

but I can not.

5.

What's the meaning of existence on weekends when I dare not ask him out.

I lay in bed as if I were dead.

There seemed to be a lot of thoughts in my head, and it seemed that I didn't think about anything.

I don't want to eat dinner, so I sleep until the next day.Don't want to get up, keep your eyes open until dawn.I don't want to take medicine, I just have a cold, young people can bear it.

No one cares about me.

I am so at ease.

I didn't want to talk, I was alone, the music was turned up to the maximum volume, and at the end of the loop, I was already crying with emotion.

A man who bleeds and sweats but not tears.

But I fell out of love.

Let me cry for a while, maybe I will be tired from crying.Fell asleep when tired.Wake up and forget about it.

Anyway, no one cares about me, and no one looks at me anyway.Mom doesn't care at all.

I think the person who cares about me may be worrying about why others don't even wear scarves when they go out in the cold.

I wasn't wearing a scarf either, not sure what to expect.

6.

What is the meaning of existence if you can't get tired of spending weekends with him.

Weibo space is all about how to spend Christmas Eve for single dogs. I am not single, I have a girlfriend.My girlfriend is very nice, gentle, cute, adores me, and can act like a baby.

But so what?

Reasonably refusing Christmas Eve dinner, though perhaps she didn't think I could be forgiven for doing so.Now I am treated like many single dogs, staying in front of the computer, bored and lonely, not even interested in watching movies.

Of course, I am still interested in watching the film, but I need someone to be with me.

I don't know what he was doing, did he go out for a stroll, if he went out, did he bring a mobile phone key wallet, did he pay attention to keeping warm and windproof.

From the outside, he is quieter and I am more irritable, but in fact I am much more careful than him in many things. When I remind him to take this and that, and do this and that, he will listen obediently, and when he is done, he will listen to him obediently. The look of begging for praise - he thought his expression was normal, but he didn't know that there were even stars in his eyes.

Hey, he doesn't like to join in the fun, without me, he probably can stay at home for a year without going out.

Well, he's probably staying home right now.

I don't know if he had dinner, this guy is really annoying, it is more difficult to get him to eat on time than to take his medicine-and this guy will never take medicine without me watching.

Childish as a child.

But it makes me want to give him my heart.

Now...it's ten o'clock, I guess, it's time to go to bed—he has this advantage, his schedule is more accurate than the clock, and he is sleepy every night, but no matter how early he goes to bed, he won't wake up early 1 minute, when we lived together in the dormitory, every morning I could see him curled up like a caterpillar, inseparable from the quilt, and when I asked him to drill into the quilt, most of the time I only drilled in a daze.

I don't know if the gas is turned off when I sleep...

gas!

I hurriedly called him and made three calls, each of which took more than a minute and finally hung up by myself.

He's not going to take my call anyway.

I gotta, gotta check it out.

7.

Sure enough, I was tired from crying and crying, and I didn't even know when I fell asleep.I fell asleep very well, not only comfortable, but also felt like I was soaking in a hot spring, bubbling and bubbling, and I was about to float happily.In the end, when it was a little hot, I poured out the hot spring water, and the whole mountain was moved by me.

Well, then, I rescued His Royal Highness He Yuancheng, the princess who was imprisoned by the hot spring.

He Yuancheng is so handsome, he looks so handsome on my face, so handsome that I drool, and so handsome that I want to pounce on him directly.

I am the knight who saved the princess!So the princess gave me a kiss...it's nothing, right, it's just a reward?Well, I licked/licked my lips, and called out affectionately: "He Yuancheng... give me a kiss?"

I can't read He Yuancheng's expression, it's too complicated, but after thinking about it for a while, I decided to ignore this problem and talk about it after I kissed him.But I may have exhausted myself when I leveled the hot spring mountain just now, and I couldn't reach He Yuancheng.

This guy, I don't know how to get closer to make it easier for me to move.

I was a little unhappy, and hummed: "He Yuancheng...you...come closer, I can't reach you! Give me a kiss...um...huh~"

He Yuancheng continued to have a complicated expression, but he obediently moved a little closer, but his weak hands easily pulled off his collar, chirp~

I finally got to kiss...so happy...so tired, let me...sleep for a while.

8.

Fortunately, the guy who didn't let me worry was not stupid enough to sleep without turning off the gas.

But the situation was not much better, the fever reached 39 and a half degrees, and he rolled around on the bed/on the bed dishonestly, and the quilt was thrown to the ground.

Seeing me and knowing how to recognize someone, clamoring for hugs and kisses... oh my god.

I don't know whether I should take the opportunity to touch/hug kiss/kiss, or slap this guy to death, so that I will be pissed off by him one day.

This guy is really...

Forget it, seeing how enthusiastic he is, let's kiss first.little bastard.

I have a fever, the house is deserted, and things are messed up.

Hey, it took eight lifetimes of bad luck to fall in love with such a fool.

Better not let me know what other stupid things he did.

It's really going to be an accident if you leave for a day.

What is he thinking?So are you sure I'll take care of him?What if I don't come?He was burned to death in the house, so desolate?Hehe, I wonder if the soul will linger in this room waiting for me after death, to see if I will regret it?

Really...

Chen Ningyu, I hate you...Master!

He doesn't even eat rice!You are going to become a fairy!Chengxian Nima, what fever do you still have? !

Labor and management will kill you sooner or later.

After wiping his body, changing his clothes, pouring antipyretics and stuffing him under the bed, the ancestor finally fell asleep peacefully at one o'clock in the morning.

Go to the kitchen to cook porridge.

God bless, the little bastard will be fine tomorrow, don't make any more fools.

9.

Woke up feeling good, except a little hungry.

Stretched in bed, feeling tired and weak for some reason.I'm in a good mood too, um, maybe I had a good dream last night?

Sit up from the bed, lean against the head of the bed and yawn...

and many more.

Something seems wrong.

What about the clutter of clothes on/on my bed and on the floor?

Where's the instant noodle bowl next to my bed?

I……

"Hey, are you awake?" I suddenly looked up and saw someone I hadn't seen for a long time.

"Ah Cheng..." I looked at the figure who was leaning against the door frame and kept stirring the bowl with a spoon in his hand. I stayed there for a long time and didn't know what to say. Finally, I could only call his name.

Ah Cheng snorted casually, sat down on the edge of the bed with a bowl in his hand: "Eat."

Only then did I see clearly that he was holding boiled sticky/thick porridge in his hand.

"Oh." Although the situation was unclear, seeing Ah Cheng's low pressure, I didn't dare to ask anything, so I had no choice but to do whatever he said, and let him do whatever he wanted.

He nervously fed me porridge with a spoon, but I didn't dare to grunt.Even if he was fed a bowl of porridge, he didn't even give him a pickle.

As a result, he asked me strangely after the feeding: "Where's the pickles? Have you eaten the whole plate?"

I carefully observed his expression before answering: "No, you didn't feed me...you didn't feed me pickles." When I said hello, I remembered that I should be flattered at this time, being fed by someone I like, Although the girl is a little bit upset, she still feels very happy. I am a pig brain, and I am still thinking about the problem of not having pickles.

Ah Cheng was stunned for a moment, and scraped the bowl with a spoon, only to find that the bowl was clean.

"Oh, I forgot." Ah Cheng looked calm, but...was he also...a little nervous, like me?

Ah Cheng didn't give me a chance to pry into his mind, so he scraped the bowl again, and he got up and went out—maybe he put the bowl away.

Leave me sitting on the bed/thinking why Ah Cheng is in my house.

But when I thought about Ah Cheng feeding me just now, I couldn't think about anything.

10.

The little bastard's fever subsided after four o'clock, but seeing that his eyes were blue, I didn't call him, and stayed by his bedside to play with his mobile phone, and finally sneaked into his bed and hugged him to sleep for a while.

The little bastard didn't wake up until I had eaten his breakfast and reheated the porridge for him several times.

Sitting on the bed in a daze, I didn't know what I was thinking. I called him and stayed for a long time before I realized that I called my name.

I lost all anger when I was called by him.

Little bastard, he was born to beat me.

When I came back to my senses, I had already fed him a bowl of porridge, and I didn't even give him a pickle.He also feeds and eats a spoonful obediently, without even a single protester, and a bunch of hair on his head / tilted / looks like a dull hair, and the recruiter can't help but want to grab it with his hands.

Now that I am looking honest, what about waiting until it is out of my sight?Do you want to go back to your old ways?

I didn't know whether to speak or not, so I had to hide by putting away the bowl.Lest I can't help it, I went over my friend and taught him as a man.

11.

Ah Cheng went out for a long time and didn't come back.I don't know what he's doing either.

I don't even know why Ah Cheng came to me on Christmas, a holiday that was supposed to be spent with his girlfriend, as if...he took care of me all night.So he spent Christmas Eve with me.

I don't know how his girlfriend can stand him.

I can't spend Christmas Eve and Christmas with me, instead I ran to take care of some brothers.

Girlfriend, brother.

Originally because of the good mood of being taken care of and fed, after thinking about this, it seems that there is nothing to be happy about.

Should I tell him that this is not good, it will hurt the girl's heart and lose face, if things go on like this, in the future... I won't be able to marry a wife.

Isn't this guy known as a prodigal son in love? He doesn't even understand this.

Hey.

I threw the quilt aside and stretched my feet to the ground to reach for my shoes.I have to go and see if this guy has gone to the kitchen to grow mushrooms and hasn't been here for so long.

12.

Out of Aning's sight, it seemed that the whole person relaxed a bit.

But I obviously want to see him very much.

Throwing the bowl into the sink, thinking for a while, then resignedly rolled up his sleeves to wash the dishes - counting on that little bastard, he can only either forget about it, or make the bowl brittle.

After tidying up the kitchen, it's ridiculous. I'm not so diligent in my house.All the talent and willingness to serve people are dedicated to the little bastard lying on the bed, and it turns out that this guy is not worry-free.

It's time to drag him out and give him a heavy beating. Well, considering how weak he is, I'll just reluctantly execute him with my hands... If he hits harder, I probably won't dare to spoil my body anymore.

Well, I know that this kind of thing is just a matter of thinking about it, and it cannot be realized.

However, if you think about it anyway, it won't break the law, and no one will know about it, so I'll just think about it.

Lighting a cigarette, I picture punks/tender asses, and take a long breath.

13.

Ah Cheng didn't grow mushrooms in the kitchen, he just turned the kitchen into a suspected fire scene.

I don't know how many cigarettes he smoked to make the whole room smoky.

"Stop smoking!" My body was faster than my brain, and I quickly stepped forward to snatch the cigarette from his mouth.Ah Cheng seemed to be thinking about something, and when I suppressed his smoking movement, he looked at me blankly.

"Hey, how many days have you not smoked? Have you never seen a cigarette?" I just didn't want to talk to him.

Ah Cheng glanced around, and said casually: "Oh, I was thinking about something, I didn't pay attention."

I saw that he didn't care, and felt that he was going to be wronged to death.Maybe it's because I'm more fragile and more motherly after I got sick, I already spoke in a nasal voice: "What are you thinking about so obsessively? Your girlfriend? Then go find her, I didn't stop you."

It was only after I finished speaking that I realized that not only did I have a nasal sound, but I also had resentment.

This is a bad phenomenon.

But I can't help it.

After feeding me, the cat escaped, and the cat smoked in the kitchen with a sad face.

I just don't invite you to see me?Then you don't have to come.

I turn around and leave.

He Yuancheng, you are really annoying.

14.

I seem to have pissed off the little bastard.He yelled at me and told me to find my girlfriend.

Fuck, it's against him, it's terrible, if I didn't see him crying, I would beat him up on the spot.

But, he... Damn, he won't really cry, right?

Why is a man crying?I, I, I don't care about you!

I hurried to catch up, but the bridge of my nose was almost flattened by the roaring door.Twist the handle again, and it won't work.

If you don't open the house for three days, the little bastard will learn how to lock the door.Good guy, dare to throw face at your brother, and shut your brother out...

Hmph, did you forget that labor and management have keys to every door in your house?madness.

I had the winning ticket in my hands, and slowly picked out the key to the bedroom from a large bunch of keys, and the door opened with a click.

But the little bastard who locked the door didn't seem to mind me coming in.

He threw himself on the bed and wept.

Or howl.

Ever since I was a child, I have never seen him cry so miserably. Even if his father found out that he was robbing the rich and helping the poor with me back then, the little bastard took all the responsibility, and the belt was broken, but he was just sobbing.

It looks weak, but it is actually ruthless.

Now he flung himself on the bed, howling as if there was no one else around.

I feel cold hands and feet.

15.

I think it's over by the end of the day.

But labor and capital don't care about it.

It's over, it's over, whocare!

Mother is mother, labor and management will cry first and then talk.

I realized that I was such an idiot before, crying is such a useful decompression method, but I abandoned it for the sake of saving face, it's so stupid and naive.

Howling is like killing a pig, I know.But so what.At worst, I will set off tomorrow to go far away, leave this sad place, and forget about these old people.

Hehe, the brain hole is quite big, and I don’t forget to tease me even when I cry.

He Yuancheng is a bastard, he doesn't like me being nice to me, he still thinks of his girlfriend when he's being nice to me, and he doesn't say anything about his girlfriend, as if he has been wronged for being nice to me.

Son of a bitch.

The bastard seems to have come in.

Who cares, labor and management will disappear tomorrow and go to another country to hide their names.

hiccup...uh hiccup...

Oops, I seem to be hiccupping from crying too much.

You bastard, hiccup, still... hiccup over there... hiccup watching a play... hiccup, nowhere... death is so good!

16.

I felt all my panic dissipated.

Okay, I was wrong, but I really can't blame me for this, it started when I was crying so hard... Hiccup, little bastard, are you here to be cute, aren't you?

Okay okay I lost to you.

I'll hug you, pat you on the back, don't look so pitiful that you've been bullied, okay?My heart is almost broken by you.

17.

Do you think you can coax me well if you come here and hug me and pat me?Do you think I'm still three years old?I tell you, I, I want to break with you.You fucking let go of me.

Forget it, don't let it go.

Hold me for a while longer, I'm going to another country tomorrow.

18.

This is a sample of refusal and welcome.

Can't deal with you?

I just need to tighten my arms, and you will make a symbolic effort twice, and then you will be soft in my arms.

Okay, okay, I know, I won't let go, you obediently bury in my arms like an ostrich, don't look at me with distrustful eyes begging for a hug.

good.

The author has something to say: Well, you read that right, there is only one chapter in the main text.Yes, only one chapter, only a few thousand words.Then it's the end.I think it's time to end it.But there are still extras.Visually, it will not be less than the text.Well, it depends on the character of the scumbag author.I hope you like it~ The scumbag author finally sells a cute one? (°?‵?′??) Sell another one (づ￣3￣)づ╭?～