Xin Zhai

As soon as March is over, it is Ching Ming Festival.

Su Xiaoqian took a week off and went home to visit his father's grave.After Ye Li went to college, he never participated in this activity at home.After many years, everything has been simplified.

The lights in the dormitory were not turned off on weekends. After nine o'clock in the evening, Shi Jingchen and Pu Liang came out of a ten-man battlefield. With a sound of "thump", Ah Gu went online.

Shi Jingchen immediately sent a message: "You weren't here yesterday!"

After waiting for a long time, Ah Gu went directly into the chat room of several people and said, "I just found an Internet cafe."

Pu Liang reacted quickly: "You won't go home with Yong Ye, will you?"

"Oh, don't mention it." A Gu sighed, "Don't tell others about it yet."

"You can't be irresponsible!" Pu Liang joked.

A Gu said: "When the mother saw me, she didn't let me in at all."

"I didn't say you..." Shi Jingchen was halfway through speaking, and realized that although A Gu was his classmate for many years, Su Xiaoqian was also his roommate.He felt that there was absolutely no need for A Gu to find a boy, let alone Su Xiaoqian's thorny head.He didn't know much about the two of them, but he felt that based on the current relationship between Su Xiaoqian and A Gu, they might be closer than him and A Gu.So the second half of the sentence came to his mouth, but was swallowed back into his stomach.

There was a burst of noisy voices from the Internet cafe through the speaker, and after a while, Shi Jingchen asked, "Ah bone?"

"Come spend the night with me."

Shi Jingchen and Pu Liang agreed in unison: "Yes."

"Let's stop chatting, enter the guild channel."

Ah Gu asked on the channel if anyone was browsing all night, and immediately got responses from a dozen men and women.For the first time, the guild formed an all-night battlefield group of 20 people. When they entered the battlefield, they happened to meet the group of old opponents of the tribe "Elemental Force", so they fought in the dark.That night, Agu captured the flag and scored 34 points, his military merits increased by two levels, and he immediately changed into a marshal's cloak when he came out.

After Su Xiaoqian came back, he became much silent.Ye Li saw that he had less time to play games, so he went to enroll in New Oriental's English class, turned off the lights at night, and lay on the bed with the emergency light on, still reading the GRE.Ye Li saw that Pu Liang and Shi Jingchen still played games with A Gu every night, Su Xiaoqian was usually not there, and even if he was, he didn't respond much.Ye Li thought at first that the two were arguing, but later he could hear the two talking on the phone.He caught a night when Su Xiaoqian stayed up all night memorizing vocabulary alone, and leaned over to ask: "Are you going abroad?"

"Well, go abroad to study for a doctorate."

"Where's A Gu?"

"I haven't told him yet."

"what?"

"Don't talk to him yet."

Ye Li persisted: "What do you mean?"

Su Xiaoqian buried his head between his arms and lay down for a long time.Ye Li whispered, "I'm asking you something."

"I want to break up." Su Xiaoqian's voice was muffled, "Ye Li, it's too difficult, really, I can't hold on anymore."

Ye Li thumped in his heart, and immediately said: "Don't, if you want to go abroad, go together. The pressure will be much less outside, don't break up."

Seeing that Su Xiaoqian was still lying on his stomach without speaking, he anxiously went up to push him: "Did you hear that?"

"I only have one mother, and I have to come back sooner or later. It's very uncomfortable to go home this time." Su Xiaoqian said incoherently, "You don't know the feeling of being opposed by relatives...I told my mother that he is very nice, I've never met anyone so likable, really, I've never met anyone like Ah Gu...no one doesn't like him...but...my mom hit me and said I shouldn't have that Thoughts... say that I am selfish, I don't think about her, and I don't think about A Gu... I chased him first, if it wasn't for me... maybe A Gu wouldn't like boys... He used to have a girlfriend. So it's still me Wrong. Sometimes liking is a burden...Why should people accept this burden? Just because I like him?"

Ye Li wanted to interrupt him after hearing what he said earlier, but what Su Xiaoqian said later shocked him.He once asked Tong Yan, "Is it wrong that I like you?"He was full of grievances when he said this.Tong Yan didn't answer, but kissed him.But today Su Xiaoqian told him that sometimes liking is wrong.

Why can you take liking as justice?

"I figured it out... Just let him hate me. After a year or so, he'll be able to find a better...girl and live a normal, easy life."

Ye Li thought for a long time, and said, "He likes you too...it can't do without you."

Su Xiaoqian laughed: "There's nothing wrong... anyone who leaves... can live. Let alone him."

For the next few days, Ye Li was so depressed that he couldn't tell.Although Su Xiaoqian is a few years younger than him, he is rational and clear-headed in the face of emotions, with a smart mind and execution ability.Ye Li suddenly found that he was terribly calm, and wanted to persuade him, but he had no reason or qualifications.He also tried to think about how to persuade his mother, but he didn't think of a good way.

He called his mother at the end of the week and said something inconsequential.Ye Qi is going to take the college entrance examination in more than two months, and his mother said that he did well in the second-model exam, and he can be admitted to the first choice with normal performance.Hearing that Ye Li had saved his tuition fees for two years, his mother was very happy and murmured, "I don't know how hard it would be without Xiao Li's mother".Seeing that she was in such a good mood, Ye Li wanted to tell her about himself and Tong Yan.As a result, the mother said later: "I have a bad life in this life, and I owe it to Xiaoli."

Ye Li was very disgusted with his mother saying that he had a "bad life".Although Ye Li also resigned to his fate to a certain extent, he would sympathize with others when they sighed like this.But if a woman says that she has a "bad life", it is mostly because her husband is not strong enough.

No matter how much he did, he couldn't change his mother's fate.

Ye Li was at a loss what to do about it, this feeling of powerlessness annoyed him.The good mood of chatting with her suddenly disappeared.

"What's wrong? Are you unhappy?" Tong Yan saw that he was listless these days.He was also sleepy in class, he would chime in with the others when he asked questions, he would write on the blackboard, and he would draw on the book, not knowing whether he had thought about it or not.

Both of them are teachers and students during the day, and usually chat like a couple when they meet in the evening.Sometimes it was walking in a place where there were few people in the school, and sometimes Ye Li went to Xinzhai to look for him.

"When I came out just now, someone asked me, did I go to see Teacher Tong again?" Ye Li didn't answer, he lowered his head and kicked the pebbles on the road while walking.

Tong Yan said "Oh": "What did you say?"

"I didn't say anything." Ye Li muttered.

During this period of time, probably because more and more people knew that they were together, Tong Yan could feel the strange eyes from time to time.He didn't want to be too ostentatious, but Tong Yan didn't want to disappear at all, or be too sneaky.He thinks it's good now, and when everyone hears about it, it's nothing new and it's over.

Tong Yan teased him with a smile: "Well, it's nothing, you don't lose a piece of meat."

When Ye Li heard this, he seemed very dissatisfied with the relief, and kicked a small stone on the ground far away.

Tong Yan looked at him like a child, and said with a smile: "Come home with me on weekends?"

"Go back to what home?"

"Go back to our house." Tong Yan said.

Ye Li smiled, then lowered his head again: "I won't go, then half of the people in the corridor will know that I'm staying outside."

"I used to run around my dormitory with a bad face and not go back, but now it's serious, I worry about this and that." Tong Yan patted his head angrily, "Is it a new thing for juniors not to go back to the dormitory?"

"Others are fine, I'm a different kind now." After Ye Li finished speaking, he felt something was wrong again, fearing that he would get angry, so he secretly looked at him.

Tong Yan thought to himself, after all, he was still young and felt that he was fearless, but in fact he still didn't have such a strong psychological quality.But this is also normal, homosexuality plus teacher-student relationship, whoever it is, it is not easy to take on any of the burdens.

He took Ye Li's hand, put it on his lips and kissed it: "Okay, I'll go when you want to go."

Ye Li felt a little better.The two walked along a small road and turned to Xiaoou Road.At this time, the sea surface was dark blue, and it was hard to distinguish it from the sky.The rhythmic sound of waves coming over made Ye Li feel peaceful and peaceful.

He suddenly wanted to tell Tong Yan about Su Xiaoqian, but he was afraid of exposing his privacy, so he asked in another way: "Your parents know about you..."

"I know, I told them earlier." Tong Yan lowered his arm and took his hand, "You don't have to worry about this, they will definitely accept you."

"My mother will definitely not agree... I don't know how to tell her yet."

"Let's talk about it after you graduate. I'll tell her." Tong Yan thought for a while, "Now I'm also afraid that if he abducts his son before he graduates, she will definitely beat me up."

Ye Li didn't know if he was sure, anyway, after chatting with him for a while, he felt much happier.After the sea breeze blew for a while, the two walked to the dormitory area.Ye Li said: "Let's go here, I'm going back."

"Okay." Tong Yan stopped and watched him walk forward alone.

"Hey!" Ye Li took two steps, then suddenly turned around and called him.

"Ok?"

"The homework you left yesterday, the last question, how do you do it?"

Tong Yan frowned: "The last question? Which question?"

"It's an integrator, the one with the half-wave sine signal."

"Oh, points."

"I can't find the formula in the book."

"What formula are you looking for?" Tong Yan asked, "Can you push it yourself?"

"Push it yourself?" Ye Li thought, why do you always leave these weird questions!

"Well, calculus, no?"

"Yes." Ye Li muttered, turned his head and walked away.