don't talk about the past

The physical education teacher asked the students to practice standing shooting in groups. Zhou Pujiang originally wanted to be in the same group as Mi Huaile, but the teacher asked for a pair of men and women, so Mi Huaile and Zhou Pujiang were placed next to the two girls.Zhou Pujiang was throwing the ball, and his mind had already drifted to Mi Huaile's side. From time to time, his eyes glanced at the slender figure halfway outside the basketball court. He slid the basketball several times and went straight to the pretty face of the girl.

"Mi Huaile, hey! Hey!" The girl threw the ball to him, "Your husband is watching you!"

Catching the ball, Mi Huaile frowned handsomely: "Don't talk nonsense!"

"Hehehe...Admit it, you two are so close, and you openly hold hands in class, do you think we are all blind sitting in the back row?" The girl made a gesture of throwing the ball, "You have progressed to Where is it? First base? Second base? Home plate already? Tell me!"

I really want to seal that noisy mouth with tape!Mi Huaile threw it hard, and the ball flew far away.He spread his hand at the girl: "I'm sorry, please pick it up, I'm going to the toilet."

More than half of autumn is over, and the withered and yellow leaves are like the residual wings of a dead butterfly, whirling on the treetops, struggling to absorb the last drop of nutrition belonging to the tree, and then swinging their heads unwillingly to fall.It turns into a fine powder with a light touch of a finger, as if it never existed.Stepping on such dead leaves exuding a rotten smell, it feels like stepping on dried bones, which makes one's hair stand on end.

Mi Huaile felt that someone was following him, thought that Zhou Pujiang was trying to play tricks on him again, so he didn't care much.He washed his hands in the sink, walked into the partition in the toilet, and prepared to wipe his sweaty back with a paper towel.As soon as the door was closed, there was a strange sound outside. It seemed that someone had used a stick or something to hold the doorknob.Mi Huaile panicked immediately, pushed the door open, and found that the wooden plank was not moving at all.

"Who is it? Who pinned the door! Let me out!"

Mi Huaile hit the door with all his strength. He wanted to kick it with his feet, but since it is the school's public property, the compensation for damage is small, and he was given a demerit by the school, which affected his thinking and evaluation, especially the exams he wanted to take Institutions of higher learning place particular emphasis on Sipin scores.Thinking of this, Mi Huaile lowered his raised foot.He lay on the door and listened. There was obviously movement outside, but no one opened the door for him.

"Did you do it on purpose? Open the door!" Mi Huaile scratched his head anxiously inside, how he wished that it was Zhou Pujiang who came in with him just now.that bastard!All day long like a tail, where did he die now? !

"Now are you willing to answer my question properly, student Mi Huaile?"

Because the man obviously came prepared and spoke with a mask on. His voice was so muffled that he couldn't tell who it was, but he could probably tell it was a girl.Trapping him in the toilet in this way, what on earth do you want to do?Mi Huaile's mind was spinning rapidly, imagining various possibilities.The boy who had the experience of being murdered instantly recalled that stormy afternoon not long ago, the abandoned classroom full of debris and dust, and the wailing and wailing of his muscles being torn.He couldn't help shaking, tears welled up in his eyes uncontrollably.

"Tsk tsk! You're not even as good as a girl, but you're scared to cry just like that! I really don't know what Zhou Pujiang likes in you!" The voice outside the door sounded harsh, as if to cheer, the girl kicked the door with her foot from time to time, 'Deng Deng' sound.

Every time the man kicked, Mi Huaile twitched. He was terrified, but he covered his mouth with all his might, not daring to make any more noise. Tears flowed from the back of his white hands like broken pearls. tumble.

"You think you can just keep silent?"

After waiting for a while, there was no movement. Mi Huaile thought that the man had left, so he slowly relaxed, looked around, and tried to find a way to get out.It seems that there is no other way but to kick the door.Just as he took a deep breath and made a kicking posture, a bucket of cold water suddenly poured down his head and soaked him completely.

"Ah! Who are you! What are you going to do!" Enraged by that man, Mi Huaile slammed his shoulder against the board, but he didn't know whether it was because he was not strong enough or the wood used to make the board was strong. After dozens of blows, the shoulder was numb and almost dislocated, but the door did not move at all.hateful!Now even this broken door is against him!

"Hmph! Slut! Are you awake? How does it feel to be drenched? You are disgusting! You deliberately pretended to be weak and waited for Zhou Pujiang to save you, or was it just so vulnerable? Doing your part as a man Son, why not be a duck! Zhou Pujiang is also a sissy like you who can covet it? You don’t even piss in your own face! You’re gay!” The vicious words attacked Mi Huaile like a cannonball fragile nerves.He had never been insulted like this since he was a child, and Mi Huaile's lips turned blue with shame, and his ears screamed as if sharp thorns scraped metal.He covered his ears, but he couldn't cover the insulting curses outside the door.

"You bloody monster! You must be the one who seduced him! If you want to refuse, you will act like this! Shameless thing! Are you so unfucking? Are you so cheap that you can't stand without a man for a day?"

The more and more unpleasant words forced Mi Huaile to almost collapse, he huddled helplessly in the corner of the toilet cubicle, those abuses were like countless sharp knives, piercing the most secret and vulnerable part of his heart, Tore his newly born specious yearning for emotion into pieces.He still couldn't figure out what was wrong?I didn't do anything, and I didn't give that person a positive response. Why should he be insulted because of him?The wet clothes clung to his body coldly, like vines covered with moss, enveloping him densely, slowly tightening, bit by bit, threatening to kill him.

"No... I didn't! I didn't seduce him!"

"Ha! Who would believe you!" The girl saw the familiar tall figure at the door from the corner of her eye, and hurriedly asked, "Do you dare to say that you have never liked Zhou Pujiang? Have you never pretended to be pitiful or sympathetic in front of him on purpose? "It really worked. The man stopped after hearing her question, obviously waiting for an answer.

"I don't like men! I don't like Zhou Pujiang! I'm not a disgusting perverted gay!"

The sound pierced Zhou Pujiang's eardrums sharply, making him dizzy and blurry.He clenched his fist fiercely, his nails dug into his palm, and drops of bright red gradually appeared in the blue and white.ha!It turned out that he had always been self-indulgent!Mi Huaile!Are you kidding me?I look like an idiot you've been fooled by?

"Hmph! Stay inside and reflect on yourself!"

As the footsteps faded away, Mi Huaile crouched on the ground with her head in her arms, crying helplessly.

The girl walked out of the toilet and saw Zhou Pujiang leaning against the wall, but the object of her crush was staring at her angrily with fierce eyes burning with fire.The girl met his gaze with a desperate expression. Suddenly, Zhou Pujiang smiled: "Stupid woman!" After speaking, he pushed her away and went straight into the toilet.The girl seemed to be drained of all her strength in an instant, and fell to her knees on the concrete floor with a 'plop'.

Looking out of the window, Mi Huaile held hot water up to the tip of his nose, and the warm breath lingered in front of him. He slowly closed his eyes, trying to forget, but the recent events came to his mind one after another. , bothered.Did he go too far that day?what to do?To apologize to him?But Zhou Pujiang didn't even give him a chance to apologize, he either avoided seeing him these few days, or met him by chance but became a stranger.He was a little flustered, he never meant to hurt him, but although those words were what he wanted to say to Zhou Pujiang a long time ago, he said them in an inappropriate way at an inappropriate time, which really hit him hard he.There is nothing wrong with Zhou Pujiang, there is nothing wrong with liking someone.So is he wrong?There is nothing wrong with rejecting a well-intentioned request, what is wrong is time, chance, and coincidence.If it wasn't for the fact that I was slandered by others that day, and my obsessed mind only wanted to find a channel to vent, so I blamed all these encounters on the appearance of Zhou Pujiang, and said nothing, then the ending would not be... ...But the reality is not to make a movie, if the performance fails, you can still do it again with NG.Mi Huaile clearly remembered Zhou Pujiang's desperate eyes as if he was fighting a trapped beast. He had never seen him cry, but that day he was like a violent lion, holding back his anger, with tears in his eyes but he didn't defend himself. Thinking that he would retaliate with old punches, but nothing happened, the man just walked away without looking back.How much he wished that Zhou Pujiang would beat him up at that time, and after he calmed down and made it clear, we were still friends, but he couldn't be the kind of friend Zhou Pujiang hoped for.

Zhou Pujiang carried him out of the toilet, and carried him into the dormitory under the eyes of everyone. He didn't dare to open his eyes until his butt touched the bed.The heavy breathing of the person above his head made him unable to raise his head to face, and could only stretch his neck to maintain a humble appearance.The wet clothes were half-dried by the heat of the body, hanging damp on the body, making it itchy with stuffiness.The pale yellow stains on the snow-white shirt were eye-catching. I don't know what kind of water the girl splashed, and I could smell a fishy smell faintly at the end of my nose.In such a mess, he was carried back to the dormitory by Zhou Pujiang, and he suddenly felt so humble.Why do you feel humbled?The one who was injured was obviously himself, why did he seem to be the one who did something wrong to Zhou Pujiang?But for some reason, the neck just couldn't exert its strength, and it drooped and refused to stand up.

"You don't want to see me! Hehe! Did I do something wrong again?" Zhou Pujiang laughed dryly at himself. Although he didn't want to stay here anymore, he hadn't gotten the answer yet, and he hadn't heard the person in front of him admit it himself.ha!People are really cheap!The facts that he had heard on the spot, he was unwilling to accept, admit, or just give up.How do the plots in the TV series say?Look me in the eyes and tell me!I do not believe!I don't believe you don't like me!How ridiculous and bloody?As a result, what about myself now?I have to say it again according to the original version: "Although I heard it just now, I still want to ask you again," Zhou Pujiang typed on Mi Huaile's heart word by word in a cautious tone. He already knew what he was going to ask and subconsciously rejected it. Shaking his head like a man: Please, don't ask me questions when I'm distracted... Zhou Pujiang seemed to understand his expression, "You don't want to answer?"

Supporting the boy's chin with one hand, Zhou Pujiang forced Mi Huaile to look directly into his eyes, which were as beautiful as black glass beads, and there were still traces of traces on the thick eyelashes that trembled because of being frightened. The tears that stained him when he was crying just now reflected the fragile light, flickering and pricking Zhou Pujiang's heart.Perhaps, it's the only thing that won't lie: "Look at me, Mi Huaile! Let me ask you again, have you ever liked me?"

Everyone is asking the same question, why do you always have to force him?He lived according to his parents' wishes, brainwashed himself according to their expectations, and pretended to be the "good boy" they recognized, just to take care of their feelings, win face for them, and let them have face in front of others.He is passive in everything he does, no one cares what he thinks in his heart, no one needs to know what he likes?What can't you bear?No one really cared about his feelings.Even if the person in front of him is doing self-righteous things under the guise of liking, does he have to be grateful to him?Could it be that he is that nympho girl who denounces her imaginary rival in love, puts on the old drama of overturning the jealousy, and asks him to give alms to her sympathetic love?Why did he have to accept all this?Why!

Taking a deep breath, Mi Huaile said, "When... have you been there?"

"Don't answer irrelevant questions!" Zhou Pujiang was a little impatient, and he squeezed Mi Huaile's chin with more force.

Mi Huaile frowned in pain, but did not release his grip.As if trying to understand something, those bright pupils finally obeyed Zhou Pujiang's order and looked straight at him, but there was no longer any warmth: "Could it be that you were there from the beginning?"

Zhou Pujiang was forced to go crazy by that look, he tried his best to suppress the anger in his heart: "Don't look at me with that look! Answer my question!"

Mi Huaile patted his hand away, stood up, and met his eyes: "What qualifications do you have to order me? Why didn't you answer my question first? Who is that woman? Did you find her on purpose?" ?” Not only the eyes, but even the voice became cold.

Zhou Pujiang clenched his fists tightly, his bones creaked, and tried his best to endure the soaring anger. Under the rage, his voice calmed down a lot: "Who do you think I am? I am so filthy in your heart?"

Mi Huaile did not answer, but stared at Zhou Pujiang with stubborn and certain eyes.That attitude is determination!

The blue veins on Zhou Pujiang's forehead twitched violently: "Oh! Good! I asked her to come here! I asked her to slander the person I like! I asked her to pour dirty water on you! I'm so fucking full! Yes, go around in such a big circle, risking being misunderstood and hated by you, just to get the stupid answer that you fucking like me! You are satisfied!"

"You feel wronged? You can get angry at me? You don't know who it is? Then why did you make those intimate actions in front of my classmates? Do you know what 'avoiding suspicion' is? You complain now I misunderstood you, so why have you ever asked me how I feel? Even once?!" The expression of the man in front of him was about to collapse, but he was weak but pretending to be calm and strong: "Don't you just want to know the answer? Good! I'll give it to you Answer. I never liked you! Everything you do is for yourself! You only think of yourself, you never care if I want to! Yes, I thank you for helping me, saving me from danger, being loved by others Taking care of me also feels very warm, but what you give me may be love, and what I give you can only be friendship. Have you ever thought about it seriously for a moment? Are you giving because you are willing or do you ask me to give you the same If so, I can only say I'm sorry, I can't do it! I don't like men! I'm not gay! I think that...that's disgusting!" Mi Huaile complained, and the feelings that had been suppressed for a long time poured out of his brain It is like the frenzied burst of water when the gate is opened to release the flood, and it is menacing.The embarrassment of being insulted by words became a catalyst for emotional catharsis, which almost collapsed this emaciated soul.Trembling, and only trembling can accuse the feeling of humiliation.

The two standing face to face each held a sword aimed at each other's heart, approaching each other step by step.Zhou Pujiang was speechless by Mi Huaile's words.All this time, I have never heard a word of Mi Huaile's affirmation of his actions. He was indeed dazzled by "likes", and he didn't realize that Mi Huaile's inaction was actually a kind of silent resistance.He was so stupid, why didn't you ask him how he felt first?Why not speak out about love openly and honestly, and then go on the offensive?It turns out that everything he did before was just pretending to be smart!In the eyes of that person, he was a clown, and what he did his best in return was not applause, but the sighs and booing of the audience.

"...Hahahaha, haha, hahahaha..." Zhou Pujiang couldn't stop laughing wildly, but tears fell from the corners of his eyes.I was wrong, sorry.What can I do?I like you.Sorry, I fucking love you!

It wants to escape like a trapped animal, but there are cast-iron hedges all around. Where can it escape?Zhou Pujiang's eyes were wide open, the bloodshot eyes instantly filled the eyeballs, and they were terribly red: "Mi Huaile..." He raised his hand, intending to touch his hair, but when he saw his slight movement to avoid him, he suddenly Thinking that this would offend him, he hesitated to put down his hand and held nothingness unwillingly, "Only you...Only you!"

do you know?Only you make me feel that this world is extremely cute; only you make me have the desire to be alone for the rest of my life; only you make me want to tell you those nasty eachother all the time; only you make me feel like a fool for your smiling face King You went through fire and water like hell, and only you can hurt me to the point of insanity with just a few words.You are so close, right beside me, but now I don't even have the right to touch you.It's not that I haven't thought about a compromise, but how can I be willing to be just one of the many friends in your life?Be someone who doesn't matter to you?I am not willing to stand with you as a friend!I like you, how can I control this idea that I know it's abnormal?Please don't keep silent, please teach me!How can I get rid of my feelings for you, so that I won't get stuck in the mud and can't extricate myself.

The person standing by the window turned his head to the window, his profile under the setting sun was cut neatly by the shadows, only the faint pink at the corners of his eyes, smudged like an ink painting, against which the white jade-like soft skin was somewhat transparent.His eyes were covered in shadow by thick eyelashes like crow's wings, Zhou Pujiang wanted to get closer to see if there was even the slightest trace of him in there, but he was blocked by the aura of repelling people thousands of miles away, as if everything had returned to When they first met, the indifferent look on their faces made him excited to challenge at first, but now he couldn't help but retreat.It all started too fast and ended too fast.Zhou Pujiang didn't dare to look at him anymore, his heart was tormented like ten thousand insects biting him, but what could he do?He raised his feet and moved towards the door step by step, as if carrying a heavy burden.After all, Mi Huaile couldn't bear it, and turned around to see that the person had already left.