Peony Heavy Ripple Carmine

People wrapped in darkness will be accompanied by panic involuntarily. It is a distant shadow, perhaps hiding behind or hiding in the dark corner, quietly staring at you.

I hate the dark, I've always had that from a long time ago.

When we were in Qinling, my mother would always take out the shining pearl from the cabinet and put it under my quilt.The soft light that emanates surrounds me, and my heart will settle down.I got into the quilt and covered my head together, like this is a light that only belongs to me, and it will never go out when I don't pay attention.Later I discovered that the bead actually had the power to heal wounds.

When I asked about the origin of that bead, my mother always read those words softly with a smile on her face.

Sakura, red cherry.

My master is the legendary heroine in red, Hong Ying.

red?What a strange last name.

When I saw her in person, I stopped digging into that wacky name.Because she is Hong Ying, only Hong Ying.

On the third night after my mother passed away, I huddled under the quilt with my eyes swollen from crying, looking for the light.

The quilt was lifted, and I was roughly pulled out of the quilt by her, and the bead was smashed to pieces by her.

I was so terrified that the suffocating darkness had almost engulfed me.As for her, my master only hummed a word lightly.

"This little darkness can't trouble you."

Although I didn't understand what she meant at the time, but more than ten years later, I finally understood this sentence thoroughly.Yes, this bit of darkness really doesn't bother me.If you want to survive, the only way is to hide yourself in the dark and look for even a glimmer of light.Exposing yourself to the light for nothing is tantamount to running counter to it. The word "Zangzhuo" is not without reason.

I lay in the grass until the moon was in the middle of the sky, I thought about it for a while, the sun was already in the afternoon when I was escorted, okay, I have been lying down for several hours since I woke up, and I haven't gotten tired yet.But there are some good signs. Gradually, the fingers are not so numb, and the face can also feel the itching of grass rubbing against the cheeks, and a toad croaking under the feet, hey, go away!go away!

It took a lot of effort to move my neck, I saw blood was still dripping from my arm, I couldn’t stop it, I would have to bleed to death for nothing, I managed to escape the life-and-death test, I have to live anyway Show the master, the spell was not given to me in vain.I sighed, who would have thought that such a small thing would be so effective, look, where are these things, I don’t even know if it’s Huainan state or not.

Now that I think about it, I'm quite scared. The first time this thing is used, it's a life-or-death moment. I even looked down on the assassins ambush on the outer wall.It is estimated that in a few breaths, I am afraid that my neck will be pierced.Yo, one knife goes in and the other comes out, leaving two holes, one in front and one in the back... for planting flowers.

It's still sprinkled with soy sauce, but mine is blood, the blood on my body, hey.

The whole body was twisted alive, and the eyes were smeared. Although the moment was short, it was absolutely thrilling that people could spend their entire lives recalling.God bless you, why didn't you crush me into a ball of powder at that time, and I can still leave something in the world, life and death are just a matter of thought.Although the previous days were enough for me to live and die, but when I really faced it, I realized that it was just an appetizer before the meal, not even a dish.It was real, heartfelt fear and genuinely overwhelmed.

sigh, sigh, sigh...

But it's still alive, it's good to be alive, isn't it?

Go mess yourself in Qiongshan City, it has nothing to do with me anyway.

Who lives and who dies and who lives and who takes care of those trivial matters has nothing to do with Qin Xiange and me.Although I feel sorry for Xiaoxia Wangchuan, it's all so close, I really should have told them before, seeing Xiaoxia's pale face, like a face stuck in a vat, actors will be laughed at and smeared too much many.

Take a breath, forget it, let's start from the beginning.Out of sight, out of mind, Yangyang Qifeng can't find a place where I, Qin Xiange, can stay?At worst, go up to Tianshan Mountain to hug that happy girl's thigh, and she won't do anything to save her... Well, maybe, although I'm not sure.

But living in that cold place for a lifetime, how aggrieved.

Forget it, I'll wait and see, at least I can move first...

Close your eyes, exhale and adjust your breath.

It was that face that appeared in front of my eyes. In fact, I understand it better than anyone else.

Love and hate intertwine, thoughts are entangled, and the days of reunion flowed by before my eyes like running water. The memory is so deep that I can't restrain myself from describing that light-hearted smile.It's hard to find a reason to let go, really, really hard.Only I know that the only thing that has supported me through this period of time is that although I once harbored a strong hatred for her, when I went to the execution ground, when I crushed the spell and turned the yin and yang world upside down, there was nothing in my heart. She was alone, flipping through the book under the willow tree, raising her head occasionally, with a faint smile on the corner of her mouth.

Yes, yes.

I, Qin Xiange, have been flamboyant for more than ten years, happy and carefree, with nothing in my mind.

Perhaps, it is really retribution.

I no longer have an excuse to refute my desire for her. It is not a friend, not a longing, not a curiosity, not a dependence, not... nothing, I think I can be by her side, sitting on the sun, moon and stars, enjoying the bustling beauty , as firm as a chime stone, unmovable and unchanged.

This is a kind of persistence, an unreasonable impulse and emotion rising from the bottom of my heart.Because of her, even the stones and weeds under the seat become more beautiful; because of her, the autumn night I hate the most is embraced by the warm moonlight; because of her, I don't want to be greasy; ...

I'm not the same person I used to be who didn't care about anything.

I actually tried to stand down-to-earth on this land, raised my head and announced that I, Qin Xiange, am not inferior to anyone else.

This is an inferiority complex hidden in my bones that even I refuse to admit, Lu Chexue, Lu Chexue, you just stand there, ignoring me and looking at me.But in my heart, it set off a vast and incomparable wave.

After all, you have caused me misfortune. I thought I could deceive myself into being airtight. You are like a real mirror, looking into your eyes, reflecting the truest me.

Sigh, only sigh.

But you abandoned me after all.

The author has something to say:

Long time no update... very busy, really busy.

The more I wrote in the second half, the more I felt that I was writing a diary. After I finished coding, I felt stupid.

Fortunately, I am still young.

Suddenly a sentence came to mind: "For young people, three to five years can be a lifetime."

To whom have I entrusted my whole life, an unreal dream?

Actually, I really figured it out, really...

I'd rather live with the memories than start over, I'm a fool, an incomparable fool.

Only young people can say these words, I think, I am naive and stupid...