Peony Heavy Ripple Carmine

The snow in the wild in spring, the grass grows when it disappears.

The king is like spring grass and green, falling in love at first sight.Mibu Tadazen

The black-covered boat creaked and twisted, and I was drowsy as it swayed all the way, so I gave the boatman a few coins.He waved his hand to signal that he didn't need to help me, so he tiptoed and jumped to the shore.The boat made me shake a little bit, and the little lady in the cabin waiting to be ferried to the next pier almost cried out, and there was a sound of a man jumping and cursing from inside.I stuck out my tongue, shrank back, and got into the crowd.

Today is the seventh day of July, a good time for lovers to meet privately.

Seeing that the boat was far away, I squeezed to the shore and watched the lights and the bustling crowd all the way. It was really lively.After all, I still came to Jianye in Huainan due to a strange accident.

Going further south is Qianliu.

I dare not go to that place.If we meet again, she won't remember me. After passing by, I really don't know how many bowls of boudoir wine and old pot life I have to drink to relieve my worries.

Qifeng is very big, and I am just a wheat blown by the wind among millions of people.How can it be so easy, if you say meet, you will meet.Thinking of this, my heart also strengthened.There is a Lantern Festival in Jianye today, and the girls and boys who can't be let out on weekdays all sneak out to meet each other.

Along the Huaihe River, the scenery is enchanting, there are many wine shops and fragrant pavilions, and the faces of childish flower sellers are all beaming.

"Good sister, do you want to buy some flowers?" I lowered my head, and a little boy was holding the corner of my clothes.Just as I was about to answer, a little girl came beside her, who seemed to be a little older than her, and walked away dragging her arms, "How many times have I told you that the flowers will be sold to two people walking side by side. Why can't you remember?" .”

It sounded a bit harsh to me, so I waved at them both, "Wait a minute, whoever says you can't buy flowers for one person, I'll buy them all."

Surprise flashed across the boy's face, but he immediately changed into a smiling face and ran to me.The girl froze for a moment, and followed him to stand in front of me. "Good sister, I said something wrong just now. You want it all, does it count?"

I saw that there were about thirteen or four sticks left in their baskets, so I pinched a pink gardenia and put it on my head.Holding the remaining magnolia and Yueyuehong in his arms, he took out a piece of broken silver from his pocket, weighed it and placed it in the little boy's hand.

"Of course, what you say is what you say. Today is the holiday, and the extra two of you will have a good meal."

"Okay, thank you, Miss Sister." The two children looked at each other with a smile, and ran into the alley with happy faces.

I've seen such dolls a lot, and I don't know how many copper coins this money can get into their hands, but at least it's true that they can get a full meal and avoid a beating.

But what can I do to help?I can't even take care of myself.

Thinking of this, bursts of fragrance came from my arms.

This flower is so fragrant.

In the past, I could only see the beauty of peonies, but now I feel that all kinds of flowers have their own beauty.

I have money and leisure.

It's good to go wherever you like, isn't it?

A smell of wonton came to my nose, and the soup base, I don't know what seasoning was added, it was extra tempting.I ordered a bowl of fresh meat wontons, found a chair to sit down, and placed the flowers beside me.Anyway, those who come to eat wontons come in pairs, and I guess there is no one who does not have the eyesight to grab a stool with me.

After eating and drinking enough, the soup base is really delicious.

The proprietress is a shrewd and capable person, and I chatted with her incongruously, and she said, "Girl, there are boat lanterns in Hexi, why don't you take a look?"

"What is it?"

"Ship lanterns." She said: "Our Huaihe River can go all the way down to the sea. Every year on the seventh day of the seventh month, girls and boys will come here to set up boat lanterns. If you are dexterous, you can write well." Put the note that made the wish on the boat in the boat, or if it’s too late, there are ready-made ones for sale nearby. Make a wish, it’s alive.”

I'm also not very interested, but after hearing what she said was absurd, I also made up my mind to take a look at it later.Anyway, if I have money in my pocket, I also buy the biggest one and put it on for a walk.

But now, there is really no wish to allow.Why not, just put a blank sheet of paper and let everything go as it pleases.

Thinking this way, I took the flowers and walked slowly towards the west of the river. From a distance, I saw many people gathered there. There may be some lights on the river. I can’t see them clearly. They must be boat lanterns. Well, a little bit of light is shining in the Huaihe River, and I even saw with my own eyes a few boat lanterns being knocked over by the oars of the ferrymen in the water.

I actually bought one of the biggest boats, about as long as my arm, for three or seven denarii.The boss was very happy, and after busy work, he asked me what I wanted to write on the note with a smile. He said, if I can't write, he can write it for me.After thinking about it, I took off the gardenias on my head and put them in the boat.

"The girl is very elegant." He praised.

I laughed out loud: "The boss is really good at talking, so just drop by for me and put it down, it's inconvenient for me to carry things."

I bought a bunch of candied haws, sat down in a secluded place on the shore, and watched the boss push the boat into the water, walking slowly along the current, and I couldn't help but sigh in my heart, life and the world are impermanent.Suddenly feel that this is not the same as me?I don't know where I'm going to float, and one day, because of something, I'm going to sink to the bottom of this Huaihe River.

I used to feel that I had never thought about these things, and I didn't believe in fate, but now, no matter what happens, I always have to chew it out of my life, so that I can enjoy it.

After eating the candied haws, I threw the bamboo sticks into the water, which just knocked over a boat lantern.

See, this is called impermanence.

I took out a pack of steamed buns wrapped in oil paper from my pocket, and was suddenly fascinated by the lights all over the river.The last time I made a wish to the Dragon God was to make Lu Chexue forget about me. If I change my mind now and write another one on that boat lantern, will I be able to transform her back again.

It's ridiculous.

There are so many coincidences in the world.

"Little master, run slowly." When I heard this voice, all the sweat pores on my body opened, as if I was dragged back a long time ago, this voice... I turned my head and looked at the back of the maid on the river bank , I couldn't help being a little dazed, this small shoulder, this small waist, this small voice, really fucking like Lianxiang...

I subconsciously felt something was wrong, and when I came back to my senses, I wanted to oil the soles of my feet.But I didn't expect to bump into a little girl in a goose yellow skirt, probably about two or three years old, and her height was just above my knees.

I saw that she seemed to fall, so I quickly reached out and picked her up.

The girl was not afraid either, she grinned at me and stretched out her two tender arms, as if she wanted me to hug her.

"Little master~" The lotus-like person on the river bank is still struggling to find him.And now, what I hold in my hand... Could it be...

"Ah Xian, come here." A female voice, gentle but piercing into my heart like a sharp knife.I almost lost my strength and sat on the ground.She... never called me that.Just hearing her say a few words, this heart seemed to be pulled up suddenly, and the strength I deliberately pretended to collapse in an instant.

No no no no... no.

She probably doesn't recognize me now, I thought to myself, then turned around and gently put the girl down.But when she saw the woman's expression, she looked like she had done something wrong, she immediately turned around and grabbed my skirt and murmured, "I'm sorry, did I bump into you?"

"No, it's okay. Be careful in the future." She nodded and ran back in a stumbling manner.

I didn't look up because I recognized the voice.

"Sorry, my daughter bumped into you, is there anything wrong?" Her voice was still so gentle.I dare not look up at her for fear of meeting her eyes.Fortunately, the night on this shore is dark and the lights are sparse, perhaps, it can just hide my figure.

"No, the child is very good. There is trouble in the street. Take her by the hand and don't get lost."

"Okay, thank you." The other party promised, and I saw her pick up the girl and was about to turn around when the girl's voice sounded again: "Mother, look, that hairpin is really pretty."

I was taken aback, what I was wearing today seemed to be... that hairpin.

The man turned back again.

I stood on the shore and slowly raised my head.I couldn't keep my eyes open because of the light behind that person, but when I looked back suddenly, she was in the dimly lit place.

It's been four years and this is the first time I've seen her.

It's still the same as I remember, every frown and smile is so beautiful.

She still looks calm in the past, with plain clothes, a peony on her long black hair, and an enchanting face.I was a little unsure whether it was in a dream or if I had misjudged the person in a moment of inattention.However, the occasional dream is still extraordinarily painful.I was probably in a dream.

She stared at my peony hairpin in a daze, and when she learned that she lost her composure, she immediately looked away.I saw her think twice, and planned to turn around and leave.But I heard the man behind me question hesitantly: "Did we meet somewhere?"

I was startled, but immediately put on a smile and replied: "Ma'am, I'm afraid I made a mistake. This is the first time I have come to Jianye. I am not familiar with the place where I live. I heard from the lady who sells wontons that there are lanterns here. Come and join in the fun." She still didn't believe it, and stood still without leaving.I saw that female doll was staring at my hairpin all the time, stretching out her hand, as if to grab it.

Probably, this is fate.

It's hers, and it's useless for me to keep it. It's better to let it go and give it back to her.

Thinking of this, I stretched out my hand to untie my hair, took off the peony hairpin, handed it to the doll, and teased her with a smile. "I have such a predestined relationship with you, how about I give this hairpin to you?"

The child was very cheerful and kept smiling at me.

I smelled the incense she usually used, and I couldn't help feeling a little dazed.I took a few steps back unconsciously, but I was still timid.

"Ah Xian." It turned out that this was the girl's name.My heart was pounding, and I slowly let it go.But it seems that there are some unexplainable things that are confused in it.

I put that hairpin into the hands of the little girl named A Xian. "You are so blessed to have such a good name." Her hand was like a small meat bun, I held her fingertips and let her hold it firmly.

"It was Ah Xian who disturbed the girl first, how could I accept such an expensive gift..." This time, I didn't avoid her eyes, "Do you believe in fate?"

I went on to say: "Meeting is fate. Your daughter is very cute, just like you. I like her very much. I gave this hairpin to her as a memory." My hair was all loose Come down, "may I do you a favor?"

She nodded, and I handed her the flower branch in my hand. "Get it for me."

I took out a branch of Yueyuehong, which was still strong to the touch. I cut off a section and used it as a hairpin, and tied up my hair again.

"Flowers for beauty." I smiled at her, turned around and squeezed into the crowd without any hesitation.The branch of Yueyuehong pierced my hand just now, and it hurt a little, but no matter how painful it was, I didn't think it would be like it is now.

It hurts to the bone, but in my heart, it feels like a heavy stone has been let down.

It's not that I haven't thought about the picture of meeting her, but I didn't expect that I would meet her so soon.

I felt a little cold on my cheeks, probably because I was running too fast.

It must be so.

"Lu Chexue...you promised me that you would never forget me."

"Lu Chexue!!!... Lu... Chexue..."

I was like a ghost wandering in the street, tears could not stop flowing down my cheeks and into my mouth, how could it be so salty.

I have loved her for nine years.

She forgot about me.

How could she forget me.

How could she... forget me...

"... Lu... Chexue..."

I bent down, my heart was about to burst from pain, and I said her name over and over again, afraid that I would forget all this when I turned around.

"You know me." She stared at me, motionless.

I still stared blankly at her, if it wasn't for the distance, the sound of my heartbeat would have been heard by her.

"!" I didn't expect that she would catch up.

"You heard wrong."

"I heard you clearly. You said my name. Who are you? Have we met before? Why don't I have any memory at all." I saw the conflict between her brows getting deeper.

"I said you heard it wrong!" I was a little hysterical, I stood up and wanted to pass by her.My heart feels like a dusty scroll from long ago has been torn apart.

If it was me before, I would definitely rush over and hug her tightly, because she owes me a life, and I will use her whole life to pay it back.Just like what Nuanqin said, I will take her away, to the end of the world, escape from everyone, find a place where no one knows us, and live a quiet life.But now, I can't say these words, and I can't chase her, even moving a step is so difficult.

I know that she has me in her heart, but it's not enough. Her feelings for me are far less deep than my love for her.

My heart was ups and downs, and I couldn't calm down at all. This sudden incident caught me off guard.

Should I turn back? No, I must never have such thoughts.

How can I wishfully destroy her happiness.

The only son of the Mo family, Mo Weihan, was born in the Venus Lu Mansion, the general of the Venus Dragon Rider Lu Chexue, and the general Ruixiang of the Qifeng Empire.

She couldn't give up all of this.

And I can't afford to bear all these sins alone.Sometimes it is a kind of happiness to make a clean break.

"!" At that moment, I was grabbed by the wrist. Her strength was unexpectedly strong. I was pressed against the wall by her. I didn't know what hit my back, and the pain was severe.

"I promised someone, I can't forget her." She pushed me against the wall, and I stared at her bottomless eyes, just about to explode, but at that moment, my heart softened again.I saw tears in the corner of her eyes, "She told me that I can't forget her, but I can't even remember that person's face."

"What does that have to do with me?" I tried to push her away, but she pressed against my body, preventing me from moving.

"I ask you, you know my name, why do you say that you haven't seen me."

"How do I know that you are the mighty Jin Xing Dragon Rider, the noble Princess Rui Xiang, and the Zhi Si Zan who has been in Huainan for so long, I know what happened to you, is it strange?" I desperately I wanted to run away from her, but how could she have such great power, and she was holding on to me desperately.

"You..." I felt that my hands imprisoned by her suddenly lost strength, and I slid down, the woman in front of me was staring at my hands, eyes full of annoyance and confusion. "Who are you? Why do I..."

I saw her close her eyes in pain: "I'm sorry..." she murmured. "sorry……"

I was just about to get up and leave this oppressive place.

"Xiange." The name overflowed from her mouth.

I looked at her in surprise.

Chexue held her head, leaned against the wall in great pain, and took a deep breath.

"String song."

The second time, she called my name again.

"Xiangge..." the third time.

"I finally understand why I named my daughter Axian, because I forgot someone." She raised her head, and the sky was full of moonlight. "Countless times, I woke up from my dream. I just remember a person shouting my name loudly in front of me, telling me not to die, telling me not to die. Sadly, for four years, I haven't seen clearly once her face."

"I remember now, I usually call her Xiange." She seemed to be trying to regulate her breathing, and then I saw her turn her face, her eyes were deep, and I felt like a big rock was hanging over me. On the head, such a Chexue made me feel very strange. She opened her mouth slowly, with a solemn expression: "Tell me, who are you."

I turned my head away from her. "String..." I couldn't say it.

I heard her footsteps, walking towards me step by step.

She stood in front of me with her arms around my chin. "I asked you, what's your name."

"I do not want to say."

The color between her brows grew darker.

Because, what I want is not only her body, but her heart.

What I like is the Lu Chexue who talked eloquently at the imperial banquet, the Lu Chexue who was calm and unhurried in front of the Five Armies, the unstoppable Lu Chexue who was on the back of the golden dragon, and the one who would be happy after I disappeared. Lu Chexue who wrote me a lot of greetings and would blushed and said I was worried about you.

To force her to be with me would be like gold that would never shine again.

"I'll ask again, tell me your name."

"I said I didn't want to tell you! No matter how you ask, I won't open my mouth!" I held her arm and opened her fingers bit by bit.

"She is Chen Shangshu's youngest daughter, Chen Xiange. She was the one who saved you at Tanghe Pass." The young man's cold voice sounded, and I looked back.He is dressed in white and has black eyes, with a guqin behind his back.

"Wang Jing."

"Jin Ming."

Che Xue and I blurted out at the same time.

"Hehe, I'm not the only one who came to catch the adulterer."

Behind the boy, another person came lazily carrying a flagon. "They promised me that they would not provoke her. Why are you so disobedient?"

The man walked up to the boy and stood still, and said with a smile: "Wang Jing, Qiong, and Meiyu. Everyone knows that the daughter of the Lu family of Jin Xing, Che Xueying, is away, but few people talk about the son Lu Qiong. Today I saw her, and she really has an extraordinary temperament." " She said sharply: "I don't know what crime the old Chen family has committed. The little girl in the family is being bullied by two siblings surnamed Lu."

"Come here quickly." Nuanqin waved to me.

I wanted to rush to her as if I saw a life-saving straw, but my arms were firmly locked by Chexue, and I couldn't move.

Seeing that she didn't let go, Nuanqin's expression changed, she stabbed across and shook off Chexue's hand. "You're a woman, what's the point of taking action against someone else's wife? If you can't figure it out, do you want to report to the authorities?"

"I want to take a step forward." Chexue stared at her, and her tone became colder by a few degrees.

"What are you talking about, what are you talking about, you bitch, you like to go out and have fun with some people, come home with me quickly." Nuanqin grabbed my hand and pulled it back.

Relying on her strength, I finally broke free from Kai Chexue's hand.I don't have time to worry about how my face is crying. Fortunately, I have Nuanqin by my side, which made me calm down, and pretended to be calm: "Girl, you have misunderstood the wrong person. I just want to ask, you said I am with that person?" People are similar, but who are you looking for? What does that person have to do with you? In the future...if you see it, I can help you pass it on."

"Since you said that I made a mistake, then don't bother to convey it. I will definitely meet her and tell her personally."

"Then... what do you want to say." I was discouraged again without paying attention.

"Xiange!" Nuanqin said angrily.

I focused all my attention on Chexue, she shook her head, "I don't remember, but I know it's very important."

I lowered my head and choked with sobs: "I don't know who you are looking for, but since you think she is very important, that person must also wish you a happy life."

Under the moonlight, I saw the tangled expression on her desperately thinking, but desperately unable to remember, and my heart softened again.She is still the same Lu Chexue that I love.

Chexue, one day, you will no longer have me in your life, and you must not remember my existence and my traces.I won't comfort you when you sigh, I won't be with you when you're sad, and I won't be with you when your heart is broken.Although I am a person who likes to be jealous, a bit overbearing, and can't tolerate the person I like loving others.But I still hope that you live better than me, and hope to see you live happily every day.

So, Chexue, as long as I remember you...as long as I...remember you.

This heart has been given to you and will never be taken back.

Love can be a momentary thing, it can be a lifetime thing.Everyone can fall in love with different people at different times.It's not that whoever leaves can't live, I don't want to forget you, so just bury this feeling in my heart, it will make me stronger.

"Che Xue, I'm sorry, please forget me."

I pressed Nuanqin's hand hard, she opened her mouth to say something, but seeing me shaking her head, she had to swallow it back.

For the last time, I silently lip-sync to her.

Nuanqin's brows were almost tangled together.

I looked at Chexue and took her hand cautiously. The look in her eyes was the confusion I had never seen before.I stretched out my hand to stroke her brow. In my impression, she had never let me get so close to her, just like a lost lamb. I wrapped her in my arms and rested my chin on her shoulder.

"You don't have to deliberately remind yourself, it's good for you and me."

"Is it you?" I heard a shallow sentence in my ear: "Xiange..."

The author has something to say:

It’s been 9 years, with a total of 37 words, thank you for your company until now.

Without your encouragement, I certainly wouldn't be able to write the story in my head so quickly.Although 90% of it is just me venting my emotions.When writing this story, it was the most difficult and confusing period for me.

Thank you for always being with me, encouraging and supporting me.

Although I am still an idiot (no mistake), at least I lived through that period of time, and looking back, I feel very relieved.

The ten years of my life are condensed in this article.

I love you all, I will open new pits, anyway, I have a lot of pit outlines in my computer... cover your face.

Anyway, like the title and synopsis of the last chapter, is it you (me)?Presumably 'that person' (you or me) also wishes you (or me) a happy life.