think about love

Chapter 27

Originally, the number of people in our class was odd, and in order to take care of everyone’s feelings, the head teacher often asked me if I wanted a deskmate. Later, Zhu Huainan joked, "The teacher asked him to sit next to you, and you will be his deskmate." Really seriously asked me if I would move the table up.I could only explain a lot in a hurry, but the class teacher felt that I might be wronged later, so I told her that I like to sit alone.

Later, when Lu Chan came, the head teacher also asked me if I wanted to sit at the same table as my new classmates. Before I said anything, Lu Zen came over with the schoolbag and stuffed it for me, and then went out to move the desk and chair that the head teacher had brought back just now.

In this way, I have been at the same table with Lu Zen for two and a half years. Lu Zen is a bit serious about partial subjects, and he has the most bizarre way of partial subjects that I have seen so far.It is the first time I see someone who is partial to a subject and is a strange person who is poor in mathematics but good in physics. In my impression, mathematics and physics are generally good or bad at the same time.It seems that Lu Zen is not an ordinary person but an ordinary person.No one knows about Lu Chan and us, but some people think that our two brothers are doing well.Zhu Huainan did ask me once why Lu Chan always took me with him wherever he went?I didn't answer and told him to ask Lu Chan.

Originally, everything passed by slowly, and it ended in that hot summer. After Lu Chen was together for a long time, I temporarily forgot that people's hearts are unpredictable.The time in the second semester of the third year of high school should have flown by, but the Internet exploded. I don’t know if it was the person who didn’t like me. He actually made up an article on the Internet, and there was a picture of me and Lu Chan kissing. It was me and Lu Chan who went to the small town to look for kittens and see his father by the way. Lu Chan was going to drink that day, so I had to accompany him when I couldn’t stop him. Later, when he was a little drunk, I pulled him out of the bar. What Chun came out and kissed him, I couldn't push him away and he was acting like a baby all the time, so I couldn't say anything, besides, it was almost midnight, so I didn't refuse, let him kiss me lightly, I didn't expect to be photographed.

All kinds of crazy words appeared on the Internet for a while, and I suddenly lost my pace. I didn’t know how to solve it. The head teacher also talked to me. I was so nervous that my hands and feet were cold, and I didn’t know how to explain all this.The class teacher tolerated me with the greatest heart, "Are you being forced?" I didn't dare to look anywhere, I lowered my head and closed my eyes, I couldn't see anything, and if I couldn't see the light, I wasn't afraid of anything. "No." Hearing her He asked me again, "Are you gay?" I stopped pulling my clothes, raised my head, and opened my eyes, "Is there a difference? I just fell in love with someone like you. Why can't you see us , because we betrayed your thinking?" I thought someone would understand us, but it didn't seem to be the case.

My eyes began to blur, I couldn't see the expression on the teacher's face at all, disdain?nausea?When the water in my eyes dripped and my eyes were not blurred, I could clearly see the pain on the teacher's face.Distressed?She handed me a piece of paper. "You are not wrong. People are used to using their own thoughts to define likes and dislikes."

I didn't take her paper, "Thank you, teacher." I raised my numb hand and wiped my face, and it felt really bad, "Teacher, is there anything else?"

The teacher shook his head, "Can I ask you who this person is?" I bit my tongue and looked at the mosaic face with her fingers, I smiled, "Who knows? Maybe it's a fairy." Classroom.

The reality is not like the Internet, where no one would blatantly point at my nose and scold me. I looked at the students who lowered their heads, and I didn’t know what to do. I was kicked out again before I fully integrated into this circle.Looking at Lu Chen's desk, he has disappeared for almost a week.I can't contact him anymore, because not long ago it happened that a girl was cheated into marriage by a man who likes boys like me, so after my incident broke out, a large number of netizens came out to accuse me.I have a month left for the college entrance examination.

I did the papers in the classroom all morning, how can I ruin myself because of this kind of thing, the class teacher has won the opportunity for me with the best ability so that I can continue to study in school, but I don’t want to look at other people’s pointers every day I didn't want to give pointers to affect other people's mood, so I refused.I asked for leave, but I must notify my guardian if I ask for leave.Originally, the head teacher wanted to help me hide it, but I don't think it's necessary.Grandpa came to take me back that day, but he didn't say anything along the way.

When I got home, I didn’t say anything and just pretended to be nonchalant. Grandma was very happy to see me, but she wondered why I came back. I just wanted to say that my grandpa snatched me, "He is about to take the exam now, let him come back to study by himself." Well. The school doesn’t teach well.”

I have been eating, sleeping, and doing questions for a month, waiting for a call. Unfortunately, I have not waited until the end of the exam, and I have not returned to the town.I did not wait for the notification letter when I applied for volunteering. Zhu Huainan approached me many times but I never contacted him or met him.I'm afraid of affecting him.

Actually, I didn't go there. I just rented a hut in an old alley in City A for a summer vacation.I don't go out, I'm very obedient at home, and blacklisted everyone, including the kitten. I sent her a text message.In a nutshell: My matter was discovered, but it has been resolved. Let her study hard. I will go home to see her in the future. I am doing well.I called my mother before the exam. I couldn't find anyone to rely on. I wanted her to coax me like crazy. I didn't expect to be humiliated mercilessly by my mother again.I didn't know that when my mother scolded me too loudly, the kitten was at home again.I don't even know that the kitten and its mother broke up from that day on.

I stayed in that little house day by day. I didn't buy a bed, but I just bought some carpets to pave the little house.I went to buy a small table, a small one about the size of a desk, but I went to buy cigarettes and alcohol, thinking about Lu Chen, he said that he usually drinks or smokes when he is upset.

One advantage of my small house is that there is a window, a three-story house, that allows me to see the sun.Every day I charge my phone and put it on the table and start smoking cigarettes one by one. The smoky feeling is very good. I start drinking wine on time every night, and I start to feel that such things are not good at all. I don’t understand why. Many people including Lu Zhen will like it.I seem to understand it later, and I feel very good.

I remember every bit of you and me, when I looked at the moon, I remembered your phrase "I love you".

The author has something to say: Please don't bully me π_π