think about love

My name is Miao Huang. I just celebrated my 15th birthday the day before yesterday. I am very happy, although I only had my sister to accompany me on the night of my birthday.

My father called me to wish me a happy birthday, but maybe she didn't know what my mother said, or she didn't care at all, which might be more appropriate.

Yes, my parents disagree, and to be precise, they disagree in every way.My father teaches in a small town, and my mother has her own decoration company in this small county.

In fact, the marriage of two people is nothing more than the words of the matchmaker at the order of their parents, and the father only recently learned that the mother was forced to marry him.My mother originally wanted to wait for a childhood sweetheart, but this wait lasted for more than 6 years.Grandpa watched his daughter become an "old woman" day by day and was pointed out by relatives, so he kept trying to match her mother.

I heard that my father was single and had a good reputation, so I inquired about my father's life experience in every possible way, and found out that my father had lost his parents a long time ago, and that my grandfather was originally a scholar, and the ancestors in the family were also considered to be scholars.Then I went to discuss marriage with my grandfather's house.

After the father lost his parents, he has been fostered by the grandfather's house, so naturally the father will not refute the opinion of the grandfather.As for the mother, I guessed that the grandfather used some method to threaten her, and then the father married into the mother's side.

As far as I can remember, my mother seldom talked to us, including my father. Later, I remember that when I was 6 years old, my mother gave birth to a younger sister. Later, when my younger sister was one year old, my grandfather worried that my younger sister would suffer with her mother. He felt sorry for her and took her to a big city to release her. Support by your side.

It may be that my mother told me clearly when I was a child that she annoys me, saying that I look like my father and feel sick whenever she sees me.At that time, my father was teaching high school in my hometown town, so I also proposed to go to the town to study in elementary school. Of course, my mother didn't have any reluctance. On the contrary, she might be happier, after all, I can no longer be an eyesore.

My father is an idiot in life. He lives in a very simple place without a kitchen. Before I got there, he often went to the school cafeteria to eat. When I came, he also took me to the cafeteria to eat.In fact, it's okay, because he won't ignore my existence like my mother, he taught me mathematics, calligraphy, and urged me to study.This is especially good because I can feel that someone cares about me.Not so lonely. Later, when I was in junior high school, he would teach me a lot of knowledge that was not involved in junior high school.

It's strange, he is obviously a Chinese teacher, but he feels that he knows a lot of things.

My grandfather felt that I would not be able to learn knowledge by studying in the town. In order to train me, he wanted to send me to a big city to study in high school, but I refused.Then what happened was that my sister was bullied by the campus in the elementary school, and was bullied coldly and violently.

Later, I heard her say that it was because a boy whom many girls liked abused the bird during the spring outing, and then my sister stood up to protect the bird.Later, the trouble came to the teacher, because the boy was the teacher or nephew, the teacher opened his eyes and told nonsense, and scolded his sister.The girl who played with her younger sister began to ignore her, her pencil would break for no reason, there would be caterpillars in her schoolbag, and snacks, pencil cases, and textbooks would disappear out of thin air.She told the teacher, and the teacher scolded her and warned her not to talk nonsense, and not to tell her parents otherwise she would be expelled.There was only one time when my grandfather offered to buy her a new schoolbag, but my younger sister refused. My grandfather asked her why she refused, but my younger sister kept crying without saying a word.Grandpa sent someone to start an investigation.

I heard that the teacher in the back was expelled, but the younger sister didn't go to school because she wanted her brother, she wanted her brother.I was surprised when I heard my grandfather talk about my sister looking for me: Although we two are siblings, we can actually say that she has never met me, and I only met her the year she was born.I think she just subconsciously believes that her brother can protect her, after all, many times we also want to have a brother.

Because I was about to take the high school entrance examination at that time, I proposed to let my sister come to the town.Then grandpa and the others sent the younger sister to the town.At that time, my father was taking a high school class to take the college entrance examination, so my father was not at home, so I had to take care of my younger sister.

It may be because the people in the town are simple and the teachers are understanding. When I told the teacher that my sister has no one to take care of me and wanted to take her to class, the teacher just told her not to make trouble when she was in class.Since I can't cook, I took her to town for a snack after school.When I was in class, she just looked at me or the people around her without making a fuss.My class teacher likes to play with her very much, and will come to tease her after class, and she also kisses my class teacher more.

Later, the night before my exam, I asked her, "Little cat, do you want to go to junior high school with grandpa?"

The kitten may not like that place. "Brother, can I not go? I don't want to go."

I told my grandpa that we were not going, and my grandpa was very angry and called me a white-eyed wolf, saying that he would beat me to death if he didn't see the kitten unable to leave me.I used the public phone in the town to call him. It was obviously very hot in June, but I could only feel the coldness in my heart under the sun.

I quietly listened to him scolding me, and then I told the reason why I didn't let my sister go, "Grandpa, the kitten is still young, the city outside is too indifferent, there are plenty of things in big cities, but there is too little sincerity." , I want to hide from my sister and also want to hide for a few years. You think the material in the town is not enough, so let's go to my mother. The material in that county is good. Although it is not as good as yours, it is still okay. And my mother hates me because I She looks like her father, but her younger sister still looks like her mother, so she won't embarrass her too much."

Grandpa seems to be moved by my words and fell silent for a while, but I know there is still a problem. My father and I have no ability to let my sister enter the junior high school in the county in a legitimate way. "Grandpa, if you agree to let my sister stay I would like to trouble you to let her enter that junior high school." Grandpa's volatile temper came up again, "I know, you don't need to tell me." After saying this, I heard a beeping sound, and I knew that the phone was blocked. Grandpa hung up.

I walked back to the residence slowly, the weather was cloudy and cloudy, it was sunny just now, and it was already raining now, watching the people around me rushing home.I walked back slowly against the rain alone.

When I arrived at the residence, I just took out the key, and the door opened from the inside. I saw that the little sister had difficulty opening the door, because she was not as tall as the door lock, and had to step on her feet to open the door.The little girl just woke up from a nap, so her hair is a little messy, wearing the little raincoat and rain boots I bought for her a few days ago, and holding her little rabbit umbrella.

I was a little surprised by her appearance, I squatted down and asked her "Little cat, are you going out?"

The kitten rubbed his eyes, "My brother is gone, it's raining, I'm going to pick him up."

I suddenly felt that the air was so warm, I wanted to hug her, but my body was wet "Little cat, you" I smiled, the little person didn't know what I was laughing at, and just kept giggling along with me.

Kitten, the rainbow in my heart.

I took her to the county where I had been separated for a long time, and met my mother whom I had not seen for many years.I know she doesn't welcome me, but she won't hate her sister, because she looks more like her. I will only remind her of the sense of persecution she felt when she was forced to marry her father. After living for more than ten years, I have lived Self-knowledge.

On the first day of school, my father was very happy, because the first thing was that I did well in the exam, which seemed to say that I entered the high school as No.1.The second and most important thing is that his sister has brought him a very good mood during these few months.The kitten is starting to cling to its father, which is a good sign.

I took the kitten in the car to go to a county town that didn't welcome me. After I was a child, I felt the malice towards me from that county town.

I remember that time when my mother had gas on my 6th birthday, because one of my little friends said that her mother would kiss her every day and tell her that she was her "you are my mother's angel".

Then I came home and asked my mother if she could give me a kiss or a hug and she said a bunch of things I couldn't understand at the time and started crying.I don't know what exactly I'm doing wrong.Look at the time I was such a boring person!

My mother was crying very sad at that time, and then she started to hold her belly. I was very anxious at that time, because I knew that my mother had a stomachache and my sister was not good.I started crying too, I opened the door crying and went out to find someone to help, luckily there was someone next door.Later, I watched the aunts get my mother into the car and take her to the hospital, and the aunts were in a hurry, and I went back to find my mother's clothes because she wore too little.So when I came out again, there was no one at the door.I am forgotten.

That day I took my mother's clothes and went out to find my mother, but I didn't know which direction to go and had to run around.It was gradually getting dark.

I couldn't find my way home, so I sat on a park chair.

I wondered if my mother would worry about me, did I say something wrong today, and I was just in a daze like this.

Behind me, I vaguely heard someone calling for help. I slowly got down from the chair and walked over. I saw two young men swearing at a young lady and trying to take off her clothes. .I overcame my fear, "Little brother, can you stop bullying this young lady."

The two young men looked at me and suddenly laughed out loud, "Little brother, didn't your family tell you not to meddle in your own business if you don't learn well at such a young age?"

Maybe they were focusing on me, so that young lady kicked the young man who had been holding her, and the young man let go of the pain. Just when he wanted to hit the young lady, she ran away.The young man was going to chase her, but was stopped by another young man, "Here's a new one, why do you care about that bitch?" "Yeah, I didn't expect you to be so good at it."

I instinctively felt the threat, turned around and ran, but they still caught me with my short legs.

I think that little sister should find someone to come back and save me.Because some people say that if you help others, others will help you.

Those two young men wanted to fuck me that night, yes, fuck.I only found out after I was a little more sensible.Fortunately, I touched a stone nearby. I picked up the stone and threw it at one of the men. They were very angry and beat me until they found that the young man's head was bleeding profusely.The two of them may have been frightened by the blood, and they were more reluctant to die.Kicked me a few times and left.

It's not that I don't hate it, I just can't hate it anymore.Who do you hate?Mother?next door?Father?Don't blame them, I can't hate myself.

I lay on the ground with my eyes open and looked at my mother's clothes. It was so cold. There was no one around here. I kept waiting for that young lady. It was too late, maybe it was too cold for her to come.It wasn't until dawn that I saw an uncle who was jogging in the morning, and he saw me too. He took me to the hospital, and when I arrived at the hospital, I started looking for my mother.Will she blame me, I lost her clothes, I forgot to take the clothes when my uncle brought me here just now, and I caused trouble for her again.

That uncle has always cared about me and asked me all kinds of things.Later he asked my parents' contact information, and I told her my mother's name.I noticed that his eyes were shining, and I wondered why that sister didn't come back to save me, even if she came back to see me, the doctor said that one of my feet was broken, and I was cold, so it shouldn't affect me.

But I don’t know how that uncle contacted my mother. My mother was also in the hospital at the time, so my mother came quickly, 24 minutes, the approximate time told by the hospital clock.

When my mother came, she took a look at me.That uncle has always been polite to his mother, and later he said that since he saved me, he hoped that my mother would do him a favor.The mother looked at him coldly, "I haven't said that you beat him, why did you save him, I asked you to save him? If he is a corpse here today, I might give you some more. "

I don't understand what the dead body my mother is talking about, I just think my mother is unhappy.The uncle spat, "It's really fucking unlucky, I thought I could get some good, but I didn't expect it to be a poisonous woman." After finishing speaking, he left.

My mother looked at me and said, "Do you know that you are very annoying, really, you look so much like your father, I am disgusted."

I try my best to understand what my mother said, and I can generally feel her dislike for me.

The doctor said that it has no effect may be for other ordinary people, or it may be special for me.In the back, my left leg is actually a bit sloping, but it is obvious, as long as I am not running, it is normal.

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