The First Bud of Cultivating Heart and Fruit

After walking out of the noisy bar, the cool air didn't seem to be able to relieve Ye Xiu's swollen head for a moment.He leaned against the corner of the smoking area, took two deep puffs on the cigarette, and let the thick smoke suffocate him wantonly, his eyes narrowed slightly from the choking, and his brows were further furrowed.The beautiful figure against the suspender skirt, the sultry red-pink light and shadow on the fair skin, and her sweet smile...so sweet, so sweet that it is almost greasy.Ye Xiu vigorously snuffed out the cigarette butt, and the wisps of smoke dissipated into the air along with his breath.

The bright light strips illuminate the smoking area, and people chatting against the wall can hear crisp laughter from time to time.Ye Xiu glanced around, and his eyes unconsciously fell on the man and woman who were talking and laughing opposite him.He chuckled and looked away, sighing lightly.Seeing that the cigarette butt that had been pushed hard just now was still emitting green smoke, the corner of his mouth unconsciously twitched, and he shook his head helplessly.The charred shreds of tobacco were scattered among the white gravel, and the last spark in the cigarette butt was completely extinguished.

Chen Guo is still so sweet, even if the tall foreigner hugs her waist and kisses her cheek affectionately, she is still as sweet as ever, without any displeasure or reluctance... Ye Xiu frowned involuntarily, Subconsciously, he sucked deeply on the cigarette holder, but he didn't want to, but he only inhaled a mouthful of air.The cigarette that was habitually held in his mouth just now was not lit at all.Touching the deep bite marks on the cigarette holder, he couldn't help but smile bitterly, feeling that he was the most naive and ridiculous person in the world.The blue flame jumped out with the crisp impact of flint, dancing in the cool air.Chen Guo's smile became more and more clear in the firelight, not facing others, but facing herself, that smile was so sweet, it was the same as when she was facing that tall foreigner, just as sweet, as beautiful, and as greasy.Ye Xiu felt that the air around him seemed to be swallowed by the blue flames, becoming thinner and thinner.There seems to be a huge boulder in the chest, which is a thousand times heavier than that in the bar.He felt that he couldn't breathe, and the cigarette he was holding seemed to be blocked by an invisible force, and he couldn't touch the jumping blue flame.Familiar faces, enthusiastic foreigners, figures embracing each other on a blind date, suffocatingly sweet smiles... the voices and laughter in my ears are getting louder and louder, and my head is swollen as if it is about to explode. The heart is as manic as if it has been pulled.He grabbed the cigarette in his mouth and crushed it in his hand.

People in the smoking area were still talking and laughing happily, and no one noticed that the person leaning against the corner had left.Ye Xiu turned slowly out of the passage, and the familiar figure in the corridor in the distance came into view instantly. Beside her was the tall foreigner, the translator of the Italian team, Amedeo.

Ye Xiu hurriedly retreated to the corner, and all the anger and irritability in his heart disappeared at this moment.He leaned against the wall and half-covered his body, standing in a daze, but kept looking at the two people in the distance.He tried not to look at them, but he couldn't control his gaze, he could only watch as Amedeo took Chen Guo into his arms and sealed his lips.

Ye Xiu leaned against the wall stiffly, staring straight at them, frowning tightly together.He didn't think his eyesight was good enough to see the details of two people kissing in the distance, but he did.And he can see it so clearly, so clearly that every flirt and every lingering are so distinct.It is so clear how Amedeo probed Chen Guo thoroughly with his lips and tongue.

Ye Xiu's mind went blank, he even forgot how to breathe, the pounding heartbeat rang in his ears, the bottle of all kinds of flavors was completely knocked over, and the world's all kinds of flavors were scattered everywhere, but he couldn't taste them. Sweet, sour, salty, hot, only tasted a deep bitterness, the chest was completely hollowed out like this, and the sourness stuck tightly in the throat.Chen Guo suddenly disappeared from his field of vision, and he scanned the distance in a panic, only to see that figure was running towards the other end of the corridor.Ye Xiu didn't have time to think, he stared at Chen Guo and chased after him.

The light and shadow on the outer wall of the building flashed like a meteor, and the clouds in the sky went away with the wind, leaving a blurred image on the glass curtain wall.The tall trees in the garden on the North Terrace are lush and lush, and the leaves are rustled by the cool evening wind.Ye Xiu ran to the depths of the garden along the winding path. The delicate flowers became dull in the night, and the changing colors of the floor lamps couldn't make them re-dye their bright colors.He walked around the fountain, walked through the flower pavilion, and gradually slowed down.The rapid running made his heart beat fast, he was panting heavily, but his eyes never left the figure not far away for a moment.

The ramp surrounded by columns is full of roses. The dark flowers can't distinguish the color in the night, and the sweet fragrance drifts with the evening wind.Chen Guo leaned on the pillar and gasped for breath. She slowly squatted down, buried her face deeply in her arms, and her body heaved even more than before.Ye Xiu watched from afar, all this happened so fast and suddenly, he didn't even understand why Chen Guo left suddenly, why she was crying here.He hesitated for a while before slowly leaning over and slowly lifting her up.Chen Guo's head was drooping, tears were dripping down, her hands were tightly clenched by her sides without making any sound.Ye Xiu looked at her silently, unable to say a word of comfort.It was a sweet smile and a lingering kiss just now, but her eyes were so sad with tears in front of her eyes... Ye Xiu held back for a long time before gently pulling her tightly clenched fist, and asked softly, hesitantly, "That...you...don't like it?" him?"

Chen Guo raised her head upon hearing the sound, and looked at Ye Xiu in confusion.She wondered if she heard it wrong, and wanted to ask Ye Xiu for confirmation, and wanted to know why he asked such a question.But there were only tears left in front of his eyes, his eyes had long been blurred, and Ye Xiu only had a blurry shadow under the light of tears.I couldn't see anything clearly, I couldn't hear anything clearly, I just felt that Ye Xiu was getting farther and farther away, so far away that my hands couldn't touch it, so far away that my heart couldn't be conveyed.She wanted to argue, but found that her voice had been taken away by bursts of sourness, and she was unable to appeal.He wanted to shake his head and tell Ye Xiu that he didn't like Amedeo, but found that his neck was too stiff to move.Tears of grievance welled up in her eyes, and she tightly covered her mouth, hiding her humiliated lips tightly.

Chen Guo burst into tears, her body constricted as she sobbed, and her trembling body trembled with sobs.Ye Xiu's heart was tightly pinched, he didn't know what he said wrongly, which would make Chen Guo cry.He wanted to raise his hand to wipe her tears, but he didn't dare to touch her, for fear that he would inadvertently make her cry even more sadly.Ye Xiu's heart was in a mess, and the image of Chen Guo pushing Amedeo away unknowingly appeared in front of him.He was startled, his head hummed as if he had been hit with a sap.He suddenly realized that he seemed to have asked a very stupid question, so stupid that he thought Chen Guo would like Amedeo.The scene in the bar was overwhelming, Ye Xiu's heart was in his throat, his chest was hit violently by the turbulent waves, and he couldn't breathe.

If there was no inexplicable temper tantrum, no uncalmness, no intentional avoidance...

Maybe.

just maybe...

Maybe she won't worry, won't come out, and won't be alone...

Ye Xiu didn't want to think about it any further, because all the facts seemed to condemn his mistakes and stupidity.He was sure that without those ifs, Chen Guo would not have met Amedeo, nor would she have been raped by that man...

Forced kiss!

She...was kissed forcibly.That's why I pushed him away and ran away, that's why I hid here and cried...

The heartbeat became clearer and clearer, the chest cavity was squeezed by an invisible force, and the whole person was empty chattering.Ye Xiu couldn't help holding Chen Guo's hand tighter and tighter, and the sourness in his heart became more and more intense.

"Stop crying!"

As Ye Xiu said, he pulled Chen Guo into his arms, clutched her chest tightly, stroked her head vigorously, buried his lips deeply into her hair, and hugged her firmly. Tight in his arms, it seems that only in this way can the hanging heart be settled, and the sour and difficult emotions can be calmed down.The gurgling sound of the fountain couldn't hide Chen Guo's sobs, but made them clearer.The evening wind blowing through the branches and leaves could not take away Chen Guo's tears, but it took away Ye Xiu's breath.The choking sound hurt Ye Xiu's heart deeply. He clenched his teeth tightly, trying to hold his breath to bear the pain, but unexpectedly, his body trembled involuntarily due to excessive breath holding.Chen Guo in his arms was sobbing intermittently, and the sobbing sound filled his brain unscrupulously.He clasped his arms tightly, and locked Chen Guo tightly in his arms, hoping that his arms could calm her down, but Chen Guo, who was blown cold by the wind, had already taken away all her body temperature.Ye Xiu breathed in the air forcefully, as if only breathing so forcefully could have enough strength to bear her pain.But every time he breathed out, he inhaled the fragrance of her hair and her pain into his body.They went straight to the heart, directly to the weakest part of the heart, digging out the obvious heartache thoroughly, and the feeling of heartbreak was instantly released with two lines of tears.

"Do not cry……"

Ye Xiu wiped the tears off Chen Guo's face distressedly, and his eyes fell on her hands unconsciously.He couldn't bear to pull her hand away, and the pink lips were instantly soaked with tears.The original pink lip gloss faded at some point, and the plump and beautiful lips lost their luster at some point.Ye Xiu couldn't help but gently stroked her lips, wanting to wipe away the wet tears and heal the wound.Unexpectedly, a hot tear rolled down his fingertips, and his heart was flustered. He hurriedly hugged Chen Guo into his arms, and pressed against her tear-stained face, letting her tears run down his cheeks. flowing.

Chen Guo closed her eyes tightly, Ye Xiu's prickly and warm face comforted her stinging heart.She quietly leaned against Ye Xiu's arms, letting the heat of his breath dissipate on her face, and letting the warmth envelop her cold heart.She hopes that time can stop, that she can indulge in this embrace, and let herself forget what she has lost, what she should have with her beloved, the first kiss...

But time neither stops nor goes backwards.What is lost is lost and can never be retrieved.Chen Guo suddenly realized that all of this was just wishful thinking.Ye Xiu's embrace was still warm, but she felt covered in frost.Ye Xiu's breath was still warm, but she felt the cold wind hit her face.The grievance and unwillingness in my heart condensed into tears that filled my eyes at this moment.Lost and anxious, at this moment condensed into shackles and closed the door of the heart.She tried to take a big breath, but she could only sob rapidly with her mouth open.She tried her best to hug her, but she could only hold tightly to her skirt.Heart-piercing cries, salty tears, she couldn't do anything but cry helplessly.

Ye Xiu's already tightly frowned brows tightened even more, and the sourness suppressed in his heart was turned upside down by the sudden wailing. He felt his eyes were hot, and the tears mixed into Chen Guo's cheeks uncontrollably. in tears.He hurriedly pushed Chen Guo away, trying to stabilize his over-excited emotions, but his eyes fell on those lips trembling with tears.

"Sorry……"

"I……"

Ye Xiu couldn't say a word more, he pressed Chen Guo's lips, closed his eyes tightly, gently caressed the hurt lips, kissed, and carefully searched for Ami's place. The scar left by Ou, try my best to kiss...

Tears instantly solidified in Chen Guo's eyes, and her mind went blank.Before she could react, she felt that the warmth around her lips had slowly dissipated and left her own lips.

Ye Xiu?Is it Ye Xiu?

"Isn't it just a KISS!"

Before Chen Guo understood the situation, Ye Xiu's voice suddenly rang in her ears.She hastily wiped away her tears, her vision suddenly became clear, and Ye Xiu's calm face immediately appeared in front of her.She looked carefully and found that there were tears on his face.

"why are you crying?!"

"I don't know." Ye Xiu turned his head away, rubbed his face, and said nonchalantly, his voice was as flat as ever, and he couldn't hear the slightest bit of embarrassment.

"Did you kiss me just now?" The kiss just now was too short, and Chen Guo's mind was in chaos. She looked at the careless Ye Xiu and asked softly.

"Yeah!" Ye Xiu looked at Chen Guo and responded, "You will be licked by a dog!"

"You!" Chen Guo wanted to ask Ye Xiu why he kissed herself, but was a little annoyed by his nonsensical answer, "Which breed are you?!"

"Golden Retriever? Or... a Labrador?" Ye Xiu avoided Chen Guo's gaze, "Whatever! It's better than that mangy dog!"

Chen Guo looked at Ye Xiu, but couldn't say a word.I was so troubled and sad for a long time that night, but in Ye Xiu's mouth, I was just licked by two dogs.For a moment, she didn't know whether she should cry or laugh.

'Is this... is this consolation?Could it be that you want to tell me that... you haven't lost it? '

"Okay, it's getting late, let's go back." Ye Xiu said, wiping away the remaining tears on Chen Guo's face, and patted her head.

Chen Guo nodded dully, and Ye Xiu who was beside him didn't say anything more, he just took off his coat and put it on her body, hugged her tightly and left the garden on the North Terrace.

The author has something to say: Everyone has been waiting for a long time, and this one is very difficult, far beyond my imagination.

I planned to change the article as soon as I came back, but I was so tired that I was delayed for a week.

I thought that the manuscript I wrote before I left could be published as long as I read it again, but when I came back, I saw that it was written like a pile of shit.After three days of painstaking revision, the girl said that this article was hit by 'unrecognizable' and was completely rejected. . . .

The process here omits [-] words, and all kinds of disputes are no longer spoken.Thank you for your patience and understanding, those children who said 'don't worry, take your time, pay attention to rest', I love you so much, thank you~!

By the way, are you all using paper towels? O(∩_∩)O

I have always been aggrieved, this chapter is too worrying. . . . .

☆, self-justification