【Jing Lin】Yes

People change, but in varying degrees.

Since he hadn't gone to work for a long time, and when he no longer had a claim for damages to public property, Shizuo felt that he had become more or less gentle.He no longer gets angry at things on the side of the road at every turn, and few people are affected by his violence anymore, but thinking about it, if this change is based on the month of living with Orihara Rinya, it will make Shizuo a little impatient live.

After all, the source of the violence is Orihara Rinya, and the direction of the violence is also Orihara Rinya. It sounds reasonable to restrain because of that person, but Shizuo Heiwajima doesn't want to accept this reason.

Sometimes he found that he was no longer in the mood of being furious when he met Orihara Lin, but more of a sense of novelty, as if he was curious about the other party's next actions.Perhaps that change stemmed from this sense of curiosity, which made Shizuo Heiwajima hold back his emotions and wanted to get closer to this person.

Compared with Orihara Rin, Shizuo Heiwajima's change seems to be much more peaceful.

The information dealer's change is based on the heart, and perhaps Heiwajima Shizuo will never know that Orihara Rinya's change is based on the despair of Heiwajima Shizuo.On the night of the decisive battle, Shizuo Heiwajima personally broke Orihara Rinya's belief, and personally destroyed Orihara Rinya's belief, which gave Orihara Rinya the idea of ​​leaving Ikebukuro for the first time.Orihara Lin is not escaping, it is just a choice made by his wise instinct, the development of the situation is often out of control, otherwise the two of them would not be able to spend this month in peace, although there are episodes, but for each other It is not necessarily a good thing that both have improved each other.

Heiwajima Shizuo couldn't understand what Orihara Rin was thinking, but he knew clearly that for him, Orihara Rin was not just a high school classmate he missed.It's just that in his heart, how much weight Orihara Lin also occupies, no one knows.

After wandering around the festival, the two discussed and decided to return to the hotel to make dinner by themselves.

Orihara Rin didn't know what was wrong, he insisted on eating hot pot because he was begging for nothing, Shizuo couldn't hold him back, it was just that he was lazy, maybe it was just because he remembered that Rin once said that his favorite food was hot pot, So it was rare for him to kindly satisfy the other party's trivial wish.

In the end, they walked into a convenience store only 50 meters away from the hotel where they lived, and in Orihara Rinya's weird and enthusiastic mood, they chose the ingredients for the hot pot.In fact, Shizuo really wanted to ask why there were tools for cooking hot pot in the room they lived in, but after seeing the confidence on Orihara Rinya's face, he chose to resign himself to fate once.

"What do you want to eat?" Originally, Shizuo asked Lin Ye to wait at the counter, but Lin Ye insisted on coming to pick it up, so Shizuo asked while putting mushrooms in the shopping basket.

"Hmm... Let Xiaojing go. For meat, it depends on Xiaojing's appetite. I won't eat too much." Lin Ye seemed to have no interest in ingredients, but he kept holding the shopping basket, and Jingxiong went inside. When he threw something, he reached out to touch it to see what it was, but he didn't post any comments after touching it.

Jingxiong helplessly considered the amount of food for the two of them, and after careful consideration, he chose a few more boxes of meat and put them in the basket. He estimated that it was almost enough, so he pulled Lin Ye up to go to the cashier to pay the bill.Before he took a step, he saw Orihara Lin also lowered his head slightly, as if he was thinking about something.

"Why, what else do you want?" Jingxiong asked casually.

But Lin Ye raised his head in the next second, with the most incomprehensible smile on his face: "Xiao Jing, let's buy some wine and go home. Eating hot pot without beer is too satisfying."

Shizuo frowned slightly, seeing the expression on Lin Ye's face gradually becoming normal, and then asked: "Do you like to drink beer?"

Lin Ye smiled strangely again: "What do you think?"

Shizuo stopped talking. As far as he was concerned, he didn't like beer very much. The harsh taste of beer had always been difficult for him to accept.But seeing Orihara Rinya's expression like this, he didn't know whether he should refuse.

"...Okay." He finally compromised, and dragged Orihara to the beer counter.

After paying the bill, he regretted it, because he didn't expect Orihara Rin to unceremoniously order two dozen cans of beer in total, not because of the high price, but because he didn't think the two of them had such a good drinking capacity After drinking all the beer, even if I manage to finish it, I may get alcohol poisoning or become drunk.But then thinking about it, Shizuo realized that he didn't seem to understand Orihara Rinya's drinking capacity, maybe he could finish these two dozen by himself.

It was almost seven o'clock when we returned to the hotel room and started to prepare dinner. Shizuo laid out all the things on the dining table, rummaged around and found the induction cooker and hot pot in the cupboard.

Orihara Lin also nestled on the sofa outside, he didn't turn on the TV or fiddle with his cell phone, he just closed his eyes slightly, as if he was resting.What surprised Shizuo Heiwajima was that Orihara Rin didn't bring his computer with him on this trip, as if he really planned to leave work and relax.

God knows what Orihara Rin thought too, he Heihejima Shizuo didn't plan to pay any more attention to it, and continued to cook his hot pot wholeheartedly.The soup base of the hot pot can be cooked quickly. Shizuo unpacked some of the ingredients, and carefully arranged the ingredients in the hot pot as carefully as possible.Seeing that it was almost time to start eating, Shizuo brought the hot pot to the tatami warming table, arranged the bowls and chopsticks facing each other, and beckoned Lin to come and eat.

Lin Ye was just closing his eyes and resting his mind. The moment the hot pot was brought out, he could smell the aroma. At that moment, he suddenly felt that his mood was a little strange, and there were some unspeakable emotions surging.He didn't show it, he sat up after Shizuo yelled, walked to the kotatsu table based on his impression and sat down.

He told Shizuo that hot pot should be served on the kotatsu, but now that he thinks about it, he also wants to laugh.He didn't pay much attention at first, he just thought it would be more comfortable to sit on the kotatsu, but of course he didn't tell Jingxiong the reason.

The heat of the hot pot was billowing in front of Lin Ye, and the aroma rushed to his face. Lin Ye groped for the chopsticks on the table, but suddenly found that he couldn't do it.Lin also smiled wryly to himself, he thought that after so long, he had already gotten used to all of this, but when he actually encountered some things, he found that he was still not as indifferent as he imagined.

Lin stared at the hot pot with his chopsticks like this, and as expected, he heard the movement of Shizuo Heiwajima on the opposite side a few seconds later. The man seemed to stand up, and then he heard the plate in front of him collide with the table when it was taken away After a few seconds, the plate was put back again, together with the heat and fragrance that was extremely close to the cheeks.

"Call me when you're done eating. If you have something you don't like, just leave it aside." The man's voice came from the opposite side, confused by the heat, and it was very low.

Lin Ye smiled to himself, didn't thank him, picked up whatever was on the plate with his chopsticks, and put it in his mouth.

After a while, he heard the sound of opening a soda can from the opposite side, and the gas evaporated instantly, and there was a slightly harsh "呲啦", and then, a can of beer was placed in front of him.Lin Ye was slightly taken aback, then reached out to catch it.There was another sound of opening a soda can from the opposite side, and then Shizuo Heiwajima's voice sounded: "Actually, thinking about it, we never went out to play well, and the school trip when we were in high school was a mess... But don't get me wrong, dead fleas I really want to go on a trip with you!" The other party's voice suddenly became eager, "But since I'm out, I'll toast you for the time being... Let's take it as a commemoration of this trip."

In the next second, Lin also felt that the beer in his hand was hit with a slight force, and then there was the sound of gurgling and swallowing beer from the opposite side.

Lin also wanted to laugh, without looking at him, he knew the expression on Heiwajima Shizuo's face, first he pretended to be calm, then he realized that he had said something wrong, and finally he smiled plainly.Lin also imagined Shizuo Heiwajima's expression when he said the last sentence, and tried to show such a faint smile. He raised the beer in his hand and drank it with his head raised.

After about ten seconds, Lin Ye slowly put down the can. He only drank half a glass, but judging from the sound, the man opposite must have finished the whole can.He originally thought that Shizuo Heiwajima didn't like beer, but maybe the other party just needed a push.

"This kind of commemoration is meaningless." Lin Ye said jokingly, continuing to hold the dishes on the plate.

There was another sound of opening a soda can from the opposite side, which made Lin Ye suddenly feel a little funny.He began to wonder if Shizuo Heiwajima's drinking capacity was so bad that he couldn't stop drinking with just one can?

As if to verify his own thoughts, Lin also called out "Xiao Jing" softly.

"...Huh?" The other party seemed to respond after a while, with a weird nasal sound in his voice.

Lin also chuckled, and then raised his own plate: "I'm done eating, help me get some food."

He could feel that the other party stood up and took the plate in his hand, and he also faintly felt that Shizuo Heiwajima's drinking capacity was not as good as he imagined, although two or three cans might not be enough, but if he finished drinking With this fight, something wonderful might happen.

Thinking of this, he raised his unfinished half can of beer: "Xiao Jing, let me respect you this time."

Heihejima Shizuo didn't ask anything, Lin also heard the other party's vague answer, followed by the sound of drinking heavily, Lin also just took a sip and put down the beer can.

"Xiao Jing, I didn't expect you to like beer."

"I don't like it very much either. The beer tastes too bitter."

Hearing that Jingxiong quickly picked up his words, he deliberately put on a look of surprise: "Then you still drank so much."

"Hmm... I don't know why, although it doesn't taste good after the first sip, but I can't stop."

"Xiao Jing is not addicted to alcohol."

"Freeze said."

Lin also smiled, and then picked up the can of beer that he hadn't finished drinking until now: "Beer won't make you intoxicated, Xiao Jing. If you like to drink, try to drink all of them, otherwise tomorrow will be bad Bring the Shinkansen."

Serious nonsense seems to be quite useful for Jingxiong. He felt Jingxiong's eyes fall on him for a few seconds, and heard Jingxiong snorted disdainfully: "Damn fleas, don't buy it if you can't finish it yourself." There are so many." As soon as the other party's voice fell, he heard the sound of the other party pulling out another can of beer and pulling the ring.

The next meal seemed a lot more dull, Lin also deliberately slowed down his eating speed, and deliberately took a sip of his beer from time to time.Shizuo Heiwajima's performance lived up to Orihara Rinya's expectations. He was like a first-time drinker who was easily bluffed and poured cans into his body.

Lin also suddenly felt that it was a pity that he couldn't see, otherwise he really wanted to see Shizuo Heiwajima drinking beer after can in a daze. However, this made him an alcohol addict. Even if he doesn't like to drink, he can't help but keep drinking after a few sips, regardless of whether it tastes good or not.

The conversation between the two gradually decreased, and the heat from the hot pot dissipated a lot. Lin Ye's appetite was not large. After eating a few plates of meat, he didn't have much appetite anymore, but the man opposite him still had a lot of food. things to do.

He has been counting, this is already the eighth can of beer that Shizuo Heiwajima has drunk, although he doesn't know where the man's bottom line is, and he doesn't know if the man will go crazy or something, but let a long-term non-drinker The alcoholic drinker drank so much alcohol, he still had some scruples for fear that the other party would be poisoned by alcohol.

Gently put down the chopsticks, Lin Ye raised his eyes, faced Shizuo Heiwajima and said, "Xiao Jing, you can't drink any more." His voice sounded more serious, as if it really had the meaning of admonition, but also Only he knew that he just wanted to test how much the man drank.

After a while, there was still no response from the other side, and Lin was also a little strange. According to his judgment of the other party's situation through his voice, the other party should not have reached the point of unconsciousness.Suddenly, there was a crisp sound of opening a can from the opposite side, but there was still no response, which surprised Lin Ye and made him inexplicably anxious.

"Xiao Jing, stop drinking!" Shizuo Heiwajima's situation seemed to be more wrong than he expected, and he involuntarily accentuated his tone.

A rustling sound came from the opposite side, and Lin Ye was surprised again. Listening carefully, he found that Shizuo Heihejima had stood up and was walking in his direction.

Lin also felt that the muscles of his whole body were tense in an instant. He had already guessed what the other party was like and at the same time he subconsciously wanted to leave, but just as his body moved out of the warming table and before he had time to stand up, he felt a huge The force came from in front of him, and he was crushed heavily on the tatami almost in an instant, and a strong smell of alcohol came over his face.There are tatami mats on the back, so it doesn't hurt, but the man's uncontrollable strength makes him a little unbearable.

"Xiao Jing, you're drunk." Lin Ye said, trying to bring back Shizuo Heihejima's mind.

Heiwajima Shizuo seemed to be really drunk, he pressed his whole body on Orihara Rinya's body, and pressed his hands hard on Orihara Rinya's shoulders, not giving him a chance to move.The man's face was very close to the ground, and every breath was sprayed on his face, with a strong smell of alcohol.

Lin also wanted to reach out and touch Shizuo's face, so as to judge how drunk the other party was, but the other party pressed his shoulder hard, making him unable to move at all, so he relaxed himself and let the man Pressed on his body, there was no movement for a long time.In fact, Orihara Rin also didn't know why he did this. Not seeing the current situation of Shizuo Heiwajima made him a little impatient, but more, he seemed to just want to see what this monster would do.

This scene was stalemate for a few minutes, Heiwajima Shizuo didn't say a word, and Lin also didn't speak, but he could feel Heiwajima Shizuo's eyes with intense warmth falling on him all the time.Suddenly, Shizuo Heiwajima stood up and half left Rinya Orihara, but Rinya still didn't move. Then he heard the sound of cans colliding, and the sound of a man taking a gulp of beer.Lin also wanted to laugh, but before the corners of his mouth could be pulled away, he felt the man's body pressed down again, and his breath drew closer, until his own breath was brutally blocked, and a gulp of beer flowed down his mouth and into his throat.

He opened his eyes wide suddenly, and the unexpected liquid made Lin also feel a strong sense of discomfort, a violent cough broke out in his throat, and his whole body trembled.But Heiwajima Shizuo ignored it, biting Orihara Rinya's lips without any rules, like a wild beast looking for food, regardless, he took advantage of his body to ruthlessly press Orihara Rinya's wobbling body, Holding Lin Ye's head in both hands, he kept deepening the rough kiss.

For a moment, it seemed that his ability to think was deprived. He didn't know what else he could do other than passively accept the kiss. After some time, Lin also felt Shizuo Heiwajima leave his mouth. Gained the ability to breathe, his throat was burning with pain, but his body seemed to be exhausted without any movement.The beer that was forcibly poured was a little hot, and Lin also felt his eye sockets start to heat up, and his temples began to throb.

"Heh..." He laughed calmly, with a hint of excitement in his voice, as if what he just experienced was a very beautiful thing, "You really... are a beast, Xiao Jing."

Orihara Rin also had to admit once again that Shizuo Heiwajima's behavior would never be under his control.

He bought these wines on purpose, and he also deliberately made Heiwajima Shizuo drunk on purpose.He just wanted to see Shizuo Heiwajima's posture after being drunk. He thought that the man might fall asleep, or run out like a drunk maniac, or just grab all the furniture in the room, just like before He threw it at himself without hesitation.

It's just that he didn't expect that after being drunk, Shizuo Shizuo of Heihejima would be as calm and turbulent as the deep sea, as if this is the most real state of a man, suppressing all emotions and strength, but the appearance is as quiet as his name .

What he has always wanted to know is what Shizuo Heiwajima would do in front of Orihara when he was only driven by instinct, when he put aside those hypocritical sympathy and pity, but he didn't expect that the man would give it to him. I gave him such an answer sheet.

Heiwajima Shizuo let go of his hand suddenly, without the restraint of the man, Lin also struggled to stretch out his hands, and caressed Heiwajima Shizuo's cheeks, the other person's temperature was as hot as a high fever due to excessive alcohol intake Orihara Rinya's thoughts were eroded by the fingertips, and the brain invaded by alcohol gradually became chaotic.

Then he showed a provocative smile, raised his head and approached Heiwajima Shizuo: "Don't let me down, you monster."

He heard a deep voice coming from the deep throat of the man in front of him, like the signal before the attack of a beast, with a creepy sense of menace.

The next second, he felt himself being hugged horizontally. The man's actions were very rude, his arm hit the table, the beer seemed to be knocked down, and the volatile liquid flowed onto the tatami, the sound was very obvious.Not in the mood to think about what was there and what was not, Lin also reluctantly shrank himself into the man's arms, enduring the nausea that came over him because he was forced to take a sip of beer.

Before he could recover, he felt his body was slammed onto the bed, and Shizuo Heiwajima's body was also pressed up. The force was even stronger than before, and Lin couldn't help but breathe out when he was so pressed. Let out a low moan.But the man Shizuo Heiwajima obviously didn't notice any reaction of Orihara Rinya. In Orihara Rinya's senses, he was like a beast that lost his mind.

All beasts are savage, and there is no gentleness at all.

When his coat was torn off by the man with irresistible force and thrown to the ground, Orihara Rin also began to laugh at himself whether it was correct to provoke a monster like this.The body was a little dry and hot due to the alcohol, and the bedroom without the air conditioner made the air even more unsettled. The man's kiss fell again, and the degree was even more intense than last time.Lin also felt that the collar of his bottoming shirt was pulled open by the man and hung on his shoulders, and his collarbone was exposed to the air, feeling a bit of coolness. Heiwajima Shizuo left his lips, leaned down and began to bite roughly on his neck .

It is said that the behavior after drunk will not lie, and it is also said that the behavior after drunk is the truest desire in the heart.

When he felt that one of the man's hands had started to tear his belt, Lin also showed a somewhat bleak smile.

"Xiao Jing, in your heart, what kind of existence am I?" He said, his voice was low as if he was talking to himself, and his tone was unpredictable and erratic.

Lin also closed his eyes, and was about to give up struggling and let nature take its course, but Heiwajima Shizuo stopped all movements.He was a little strange, but he just lay there quietly, listening to the man's heavy breathing quietly.

"Rinya..." When Heiwajima Shizuo's deep voice sounded, Orihara Rin also opened his eyes suddenly. At that moment, he thought he could see Heiwajima Shizuo's perkin eyes, but still It was just pitch black.

He trembled a little.

But Shizuo Heiwajima's voice continued: "Rinya, tell me..."

"Why... I care about you so much."

This question was like a bolt from the blue, violently blasting Orihara Rinya's world, but what shocked Orihara Rinya was not the question itself, but his inability to believe that Shizuo Heiwajima actually asked this question himself.He knew that this question should not be answered by himself, only Shizuo Heiwajima himself could answer it, but the drunk man didn't seem to realize this, even if he couldn't see Orihara Rin, he could still feel the pain of the man falling on him Warm sight.

Shizuo Heiwajima could see him.

Thinking of this, Orihara also raised the corners of his mouth: "Then, please tell me too."

"What am I in your heart?"

Both of these questions are unanswered, or impossible to answer tonight.

The two were silent, and neither of them spoke. To Orihara Rinya, he had nothing to say, but to Heiwajima Shizuo, it was a period of torment in his heart.Maybe the man is thinking about the question he asked, maybe the man is still worrying about his own knots, but no matter what the reason is, the two of them have no further communication, and Orihara Rin is also lying peacefully, feeling the man covering him. Your own warm body temperature.

I don't know how long it took, until Orihara Rin also started to feel a little tired, and he felt Shizuo Heiwajima's whole body pressed up again, but this time the man didn't move any more, his hair fell on Orihara Rin The soft breath sprayed on the neck, and there was some faint itching.

Orihara Rin also lightly hugged Shizuo Heiwajima, wrapped his arms around his head, and stroked the soft hair.The difference in height between the two made this action seem ridiculous, but Orihara Rin didn't care. After hugging him quietly for a while, he slowly moved his body away and placed Shizuo Heiwajima who had fallen asleep. On the bed, then sat up from the bed with difficulty.

He touched the top of his right shoulder, and there was a faint pain, maybe the skin was bitten by a man, Orihara Lin was also a little helpless, turned his head, and imaginatively glanced at the man sleeping soundly on the bed.

"Good night...Jingxiong." He said, but for some reason he laughed a few times after he finished speaking.

Then he stood up, groped the edge of the bed and the wall, and walked out of the bedroom bit by bit, into the living room.There was still a faint smell of hot pot in the living room, Lin Ye moved slowly, and cautiously came to the side of the kotatsu table, his head hurt a little, and he felt a little uncomfortable to concentrate like this.After sitting down at the kotatsu table, he touched a can of beer that hadn't been opened, hesitated for a moment, Lin also pulled the tab, and there was liquid splashing out, he didn't care, and poured it down with his head up. gulp.

Beer is not intoxicating.

Lin also remembered that he had fooled the single-cell paramecium in this way, and then he smiled again, and took another sip of beer with his head raised.

-Maybe I'm just drunk

Splitting headache.

This was the first and only feeling Shizuo Heiwajima felt after waking up.

It was just that he was not conscious at first, but the tearing pain from his scalp the moment his eyes opened made him unable to fall asleep again.Shizuo felt very uncomfortable, rubbing his temples and sitting up with difficulty, for a long time he did not move, just sat on the bed to relieve the discomfort in his head.

Suddenly he felt that the temperature was a bit cold, and when he looked up, he could just see the rainy weather outside through the open window.He stood up and went to the window and opened it, a gust of cold wind blowing in his face, mixed with some cold rain on his cheeks.Shizuo regained his composure, and felt that his mind was much clearer after being blown twice like this. Looking outside again, the sky was covered with dark clouds, heavy rain was raging on the ground, and there was no one on the broad street.

Realizing that it was already daytime, Shizuo remembered that he and Lin were going back to Ikebukuro by Shinkansen at [-]:[-] this afternoon. He walked back to the bed and picked up the mobile phone he bought before he left. He saw the time displayed on it. It was still one o'clock in the afternoon, so I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.He raised his head again and found that Lin Ye was not in the room, so he pressed his temple and walked out of the bedroom.

"Lin Ye." Jing Xiong called the other party's name, yawned and waited for the other party's response.

It's just that after a long time, the room was still empty and there was no response. Shizuo suddenly froze, looking around the living room and kitchen in a daze, but didn't see that familiar figure.

"Lin Ye?" He called again tentatively, turning up the volume, but still no one responded.

The bathroom was partially hidden, Jingxiong knocked on the door first, and rushed into the bathroom after receiving no response, but he still didn't find that person except seeing his distorted expression and frizzy hair in the mirror figure.A feeling of uneasiness and panic surged up, making Shizuo tremble involuntarily.

"Lin Ye!"

He couldn't hold back anymore and ran all over the house, searching the bedroom, kitchen, living room and dining room, and the reality clearly told Heiwajima Shizuo that Orihara Rin was not here.In a panic, Shizuo saw the mobile phone in his hand, and he hurriedly called out the address book and dialed Orihara Rinya's number. After a while, a burst of music rang from the bedroom, and Shizuo rushed into the bedroom, only to see Orihara Rinya's cell phone rang over and over again on the bed.

At that moment, Shizuo Heiwajima felt that he was in a daze, as if he had lost his ability to think, and he didn't understand what happened.Looking back in a daze, Shizuo suddenly saw the coat belonging to Rinya Orihara that had fallen on the ground, he hurriedly picked up the coat, and found obvious tear marks on the coat.He quickly walked to the living room again. The place where they ate yesterday was full of empty beer cans, and a can of beer was spilled on the tatami. It was yellow, and there seemed to be traces of someone struggling on the tatami.

Shizuo was a little dazed, and began to recall what happened last night, but as long as he remembered, his hangover head would ache violently.In the end, he could only remember that he seemed to have drank a lot of alcohol, and after that, his memory was almost gone.

Seeing the coat in his hand, Shizuo let out a somewhat irritated growl.He suddenly had a very bad premonition, everything in the room showed the fact that Orihara Rin was also missing, after all, in his cognition, it was impossible for Orihara Rin not to bring his own mobile phone.

He looked at the weather outside the window, and suddenly thought of something and ran to the door of the room quickly. The room card had not been pulled out, and the two umbrellas provided by the hotel were still there without signs of being used.

Jingxiong became more and more uneasy, so many facts combined could only make him consider one possibility——

——That fellow Lin Ye, he must have been taken away!

Thinking of this, Shizuo couldn't bear it anymore, he took the room card and rushed out of the house regardless of his aching head.

The moment he left the hotel, he realized that the rain was heavier than he had imagined. The sky was covered with gray and dark clouds, with no end in sight. It seemed that the rainstorm would not stop for a while, and there were even more rainstorms. big trend.Jingxiong didn't care about it so much, and he didn't bother to take an umbrella when he went out, so he simply rushed into the rain.

"Lin Ye! Lin Ye!"

He didn't know when Lin Ye was taken away, maybe a few hours had passed, maybe it was too late now, but he didn't think so much, the inexplicable fear in his heart made him unable to think more, he could only rely on Instinctively rampage in the rain.At this time, there was no one on the street, and there was not a single car. The surrounding shops were probably closed due to the weather, and the huge street seemed extremely empty.

Shizuo didn't know where he should go to find it, he kept calling Orihara Rinya's name, his thin shirt was already soaked through, and he couldn't see the surrounding scene clearly because of the interference of water vapor and raindrops.

He ran all the way to the street where they attended the temple fair yesterday. The festival had long since ended and all the shops had been evacuated long ago. This once bustling street was nothing but a silent and worrying place at this moment.

Shizuo stopped, his eyes flashed with a look of bewilderment, his body was trembling all the time due to the cold or anxiety.He didn't dare to go any further, he was not familiar with the capital, so blindly looking for it like this would only make him encounter things that he couldn't even imagine.

Heiwajima Shizuo felt that it was the first time in his life that he hated himself so much. He hated himself for putting Orihara Rin in danger because of such absurd behavior as drunkenness. He hated that he had promised to protect him but failed to do so.

He walked back step by step, his trousers were splashed with mud from running, his hair was wet from the rain and stuck to his face in a mess, and he was in a state of embarrassment.He felt that maybe he should go back to the hotel, maybe Orihara Lin just went out to buy something, maybe the other party will go back soon, but he is not in the room, which will make Orihara Lin feel uneasy.

He stopped.

He clenched his fists.

One meter away is the convenience store they passed yesterday, the water dripping from the eaves fell on his shoulders, it was still open, and the white fluorescent light shone on Shizuo's face, which made him feel a little glaring.

Finally, Shizuo Heiwajima finally realized——

——He was so afraid of Orihara Rinya's disappearance

Not only the disappearance when encountering danger, even Heiwajima Shizuo realized that he was actually afraid of losing Orihara Rinya.

Lost Orihara Pro also.

Shizuo Heiwajima is afraid of losing Rinya Orihara.

What an ironic and ridiculous joke, but Shizuo Heiwajima couldn't laugh at all.

He remembered the question that he had been burying in his heart all along, but he didn't dare to ask Orihara Rinya—why would I care about you so much.Now he still can't give an answer, but his heart has made a choice for him.

- He doesn't need to know the answer

- He just has to do it

He is still Shizuo Heiwajima, and that person is Rinya Orihara. Shizuo Heiwajima doesn't need to understand what his feelings for Rinya Orihara are. He just needs to stay by Rinya Orihara's side.

For Shizuo Heiwajima, maybe this is enough. Answers are always superficial, and the authenticity of words can never be compared with the original heart.

Shizuo Heiwajima finds it ironic that when he realizes what he needs most, he has already lost it.

"Pro also!!"

He punched the wall in front of him, the whole wall trembled a few times, and then the gray tiles fell down scatteredly, and there was an incomparable anger and anxiety in his heart, which made him unbearable. I want to find a place to vent.But at this time, he would remember that the person who had always let him vent his emotions was gone.

It is absolutely impossible to say no to self-blame, Heiwajima Shizuo regretted that he had not been able to protect Orihara Rinya well, the scene of Orihara Rinya being injured once appeared in front of his eyes, Shizuo let out a low growl, and clenched his fists even harder.

In the noisy rain, Shizuo vaguely heard the sound of a person walking towards him, he ignored it, trying to restrain his emotions, not wanting the person beside him to become a victim of his emotions.

But the closer the footsteps came, the more subtle emotion Shizuo felt.

There was a familiar smell pervading, but maybe the rain had diluted the smell, that smell was so unreal that Shizuo didn't dare to judge.Then, the sound of footsteps stopped, and Shizuo felt a hand caressing his arm, and then, an extremely familiar voice came through the rain——

"...Xiao Jing?"

Shizuo's eyes widened suddenly, his body became stiff, and his mind went blank for a moment, unable to think about anything.In the next second, he turned around abruptly, the excessive movement seemed to startle the other party, eagerly