Pavilion in the garden

Near the end of the term, the students are all busy.Either busy with final exams, or busy with preparing papers.

Although Ji Tingxie promised to find him anytime before the two parted, Ji Yi still didn't disturb him lightly.It's just that every week when Ji Tingxie is free, the two of them will have a meal near the school and get together to talk.

Every time the two meet, there will be no silence.Ji Yi can't wait to ask a lot of questions.For example, if Ji Tingxie has any troubles recently, don't keep it in your heart, and if you tell him, he can help to some extent.I am also concerned about whether Ji Tingxie is eating well at school, whether it is cold, and whether he has paid attention to keeping warm and adding more clothes.Ji Yi knew that he was afraid of the cold, and his hands would become cold when exposed to a little cold wind.

Ji Tingxie was slowly eating the hot food at the side, and didn't care about his endless nagging.

After eating for a long time, Ji Tingxie's cheeks gradually became light red, and her fair face added a bit of color.

"You still don't eat? The food is cold."

Ji Tingxie looked up at him angrily, her eyes were watery, black and white distinct, as if shimmering.

Ji Yi was stunned for a moment, forgot to speak, and finally stopped his unilateral chatter.

Until a small bowl full of food was pushed in front of him, "Eat quickly."

Ji Yi picked up the chopsticks, picked up the food and slowly put it into his mouth one bite at a time.

It tasted so good that he couldn't bear to swallow it.Ji Yi thought to himself.

"You're a man anyway, so you're not afraid that you won't find a girlfriend if you talk so much?"

Ji Tingxie had put down his chopsticks long ago, and took the time to watch him eat slowly.

Ji Yi stopped chewing in astonishment, and raised his head to meet Ji Tingxie's eyes.

"Brother, do you think I'm annoying?"

Ji Yi spoke with difficulty, suddenly tasted like chewing wax, and a burst of bitterness welled up in his mouth.

Then suddenly thought of something, "I still have a girlfriend?"

Ji Yi pulled a stiff smile on his face, trying his best to look happy.

Ji Tingxie didn't speak, and his eyes stayed on the glass of lemon juice, with a piece of fresh lemon soaked in it.

"No."

Ji Tingxie spoke abruptly.I don't know which question to answer, or both.

"Brother, what do you mean, I don't understand..."

Ji Yi's voice was hoarse, as if he was muttering to himself.

After all a child.Ji Tingxie thought to himself.

"Look, you'll be a college student next year, and I'll graduate in two years, and I'm thinking about starting a family."

Hearing this, Ji Yi secretly heaved a sigh of relief, barely suppressing the panic in his heart.

"Brother, it's still early. Why are you so young? Thinking about getting married and having children so soon?"

Ji Tingxie was noncommittal, playing with the empty glass with his slender fingers.

"Have you decided which university to go to?"

Ji Yi thought for a while, of course he wanted to stay in the city where his brother was.

"S is big."

"Huh? Your grades are good enough to get into A university. Why don't you consider it?"

He has been paying attention to Ji Yi's study.Every time I go to a parent-teacher meeting, I always see Ji Yi at the top of the honor roll. The teachers also speak highly of him and praise him every time.It can be said that even the best universities in China are stable.

I want to be closer to you.Ji Yi recited silently in his heart.

Ji Yi cherishes the time they spend together.Even if it's just a minute and a second longer, he feels lucky.

"S University is also very good. Although it is not as famous as A University C, but the teaching staff, equipment resources and so on are also first-class, not far behind."

Ji Tingxie did not answer.But his eyes looked at Ji Yi, with imperceptible exploration and thinking.

"If I really go to City A, I won't be able to see you often."

Ji Yi also looked into his eyes without blinking.The face was obviously calm and unwavering, but there was a strong emotion that was tense and about to explode in the next second.

The two looked at each other, and neither of them looked away.

"The decision about studying is in your hands. You should be clear about which is more important."

Ji Tingxie's voice suddenly sounded.The usually calm and indifferent tone sounded extremely hurtful to Ji Yi, stabbing his heart hard like being tortured.

"Brother, you should know. Why do you still say that?"

Ji Yi endured the emotions that were about to collapse, and said in a low voice.

"I know what I should know. You are also an adult, do you want me to do more?"

Ji Tingxie seemed not to notice Ji Yi's strangeness, and spoke calmly.

"No. Of course I will choose the most suitable school, don't worry about it."

Ji Yi's previous stubbornness seemed to be swept away, and he returned to the well-behaved and sensible brother before.

At this point, Ji Yi no longer had any appetite, and left the restaurant together after paying the bill.There was no more words between the two.

The two walked back to Ji Tingxie's school in silence all the way.

Every time they met before, Ji Yi was reluctant to part with him, coquettishly pestering Ji Tingxie for a long time.Even if he didn't speak, Ji Yi just leaned against him, and there seemed to be a dense net between the two of them, completely isolating them from the outside world, and there was no one else.

And once, staying for one more second was tormenting.He couldn't do anything but feel sad.

After saying goodbye briefly, Ji Tingxie turned around and walked inside.

But he didn't notice that the people behind him had been standing still, motionless.

It was not until he could no longer see the person leaving that Ji Yi slowly began to walk back.

He didn't take a taxi.Just a person walking home along the same road.

Obviously not thinking about anything, but Ji Yi seems to be full of thoughts.All the emotions came together, confused, uneasy, frightened, resentful, messy, but equally heavy, making him breathless.

His steps became more and more messy, and finally he couldn't stand it anymore.

He squatted heavily on the ground.

Like a desperate person, there is no room for survival.He buried his head heavily in his arms, and his body trembled like a convulsion.

In the dimness, he seemed to feel a soft touch.

He slowly raised his head, tears had already soaked most of his face, and he still had a calm and self-sufficient look. The whole person was weak, like a flower that had been completely withered by the storm.

Through the hazy tearful eyes, he endured soreness, swelling and pain and looked at Ji Tingxie.Without thinking, the words buried in my heart blurted out.

"I love you."

"I love you, brother." Ji Yi murmured again in a daze.

The voice was so hoarse that it couldn't be heard clearly, but he gritted his teeth word by word, as if exhausting all his strength.

"This time you know."

It is so light that it is inaudible, and is instantly lost in the thick night.