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"Did it scare you?" Mother Lin squeezed out a smile, which seemed a little vain under the bright light.

Lin Mo sat on the edge of the bed and nodded feebly.

"I know you went to see Wenxuan today..." Tears rolled down the corners of her eyes calmly. Lin's mother calmed down her choked emotions. There was no harshness in her eyes when she looked at her son, but endless despair.

"You've been in contact with him for the past few days, and I've seen it too, but Mom didn't expect that you've reached this point, and you still won't listen to us..."

"Mom, don't talk about this, you should have a good rest first." Lin Mo was afraid that his mother would be emotional, so he didn't want to talk about this topic.

Mother Lin closed her red eyes and shook her head. She pursed her pale lips as if she was enduring it. She opened her eyes after a while, her bloodshot pupils were staring at the ceiling, and her weak voice came intermittently.

"You have always had a strong personality since you were a child, and you don't like to get too close to others. Whether it's a boy or a girl, they always take the initiative to show their favor to you. From elementary school to university, I haven't seen who you put in your heart. I thought you That’s how your personality is, only now do you know that in fact, you have hidden the good things of others in your heart, but buried them too deeply... so deep that even you yourself feel pain, and you don’t want to accept other people’s good things anymore.”

Hearing this, Lin Mo couldn't restrain his sourness.

"I've been holding back all these years, and I don't look at other people more, silly boy, why are you so single-minded... Isn't it against yourself to guard someone who has no hope?" Lin The mother turned to look at Lin Mo, her twinkling eyes were full of love and distress, she murmured: "I know, I know everything."

Lin Mo couldn't bear it any longer, and cried beside his mother.

As if being taken away from the winding dark alley, he did not expect his thoughts to be seen through by the closest people early on.The loneliness and forbearance floating in his obscure sky were truly captured and displayed in front of Lin Mo's eyes.

Mother Lin stretched out her hand and touched his head, patted him lightly with relief as in childhood, "During the time you were with him, you have fulfilled yourself, but you have fulfilled yourself, how can we What should I do with your father."

Speaking of which, the piece next to the pillow was soaked with tears, and Mother Lin's voice continued to murmur, "Mom figured it out, it doesn't matter whether you like men or women, as long as it's not him, it's fine, Momo, can you Can't understand, can you understand Mom's painstaking efforts... We all take a step back, you promise Mom, don't contact him again, okay?"

Seeing her son's head buried in her arms with tears in her eyes, Mother Lin bit her lips and said, "If you don't agree, I'm afraid mom won't be able to recover from this illness. Son, I beg you as a mother..."

Lin Mo, who lowered his head and put his face on the bed sheet, couldn't see any light leaking in. He closed his eyes and nodded in compromise in the darkness.

In the past few days, Lin Mo was busy taking care of his parents at the same time. He was busy at both ends of the day, and couldn't sleep well at night. He lost most of his weight in a short period of time, and Lin's mother felt distressed.

"You can go home and sleep at night, you don't have to stay with us here."

"It's okay, it's more convenient for you if I'm here." Lin Mo helped his mother up and sat on the bed.

The mobile phone placed next to the hospital bed suddenly vibrated a few times, and he subconsciously looked in that direction. Mother Lin leaned on the cushion and thought for a while, then said to her absent-minded son, "You should reply to him."

"It's useless to avoid it all the time, send a message or call him to make it clear." Mother Lin picked up the phone and handed it to Lin Mo, "Go."

Lin Mo took the phone, as if he was forced to take the sharp knife that cut off the bond between the two, and walked out of the ward expressionlessly.

All the unread messages on the phone were sent by one person. He was afraid of hesitation and regret, and he didn't even click on it, but now he wanted to say something against his will. He knew he didn't have the courage, so he lowered his head and pressed it down. A few words, decided to say goodbye in this way.

Not long after it was sent, the phone rang, seeing the name of the caller ID, Lin Mo pressed it without thinking, and then stubbornly remembered that this time he did not reject the answer, but glanced back at his mother's ward , pick up the phone and put it to your ear.

"You are finally willing to answer my phone." Gao Wenxuan's deep voice sounded slightly tired.

Lin Mo didn't speak, and there was a silence on the phone.

"Have you decided?" The other party asked suddenly.

Lin Mo understood the meaning of his words and replied, "Yes."

"Sure?"

After a pause for a few seconds, Lin Mo pinched the ring hanging around his neck and whispered, "Sure."

"Okay, then I'll wait for you."

"How long?"

"It's up to you." Gao Wenxuan smiled faintly, "Don't feel guilty, just treat it as repaying the years you waited for me, including interest, and there is no deadline."

Time passed silently, every minute and every second was enough to make people suffocate, but they were reluctant to say the end words nostalgicly.

"I'm going to die." Finally, Lin Mo couldn't bear it and opened his mouth.

"it is good."

Quickly pressing the hang up button, Lin Mo leaned against the wall exhaustedly. Looking sideways at the straight corridor glowing with cold white light, he felt that this road seemed to extend to endlessness, it was too long...

I thought that everything would have a good result with my persistence, but my parents fell ill one after another, and they didn't say anything and didn't make any efforts.Being forced to accept this only choice seems cruel, but in fact, Lin Mo had thought of countless times about the doomed ending from the very beginning.

It's just that it came too fast, and even the parting seemed hasty, and the relationship between the two of them was completely interrupted without procrastination.

It seems that they have finally returned to the original point. They are two people walking in parallel and going in different directions. They live a life that no longer overlaps. , but it lasts forever.

After the parents recovered in good health, they went through the discharge procedures and returned home to recuperate. After everything was settled, Lin's mother proposed to her son that she had discussed with her husband many times about going abroad.

"I visited this conservatory with your father. It is the most helpful for your further study and meditation. Moreover, your aunt is also in that country and can take care of you in everything. This way, my mother can rest assured. You should go abroad to relax and relax. Wouldn’t it be nice to be in touch with the music I like the most.”

Lin Mo glanced at the brochure his mother brought, but said nothing.

"A few years, soon, when you go there and see more people and things you haven't been in contact with, you will know that the world is actually very big, and things you don't need to care about will gradually fade away, Momo, Parents are also reluctant for you to go so far, but we are also for your own good..."

Lin's mother lowered her eyes and sighed, "Mom knows that you are not happy at all during this time. Every day when you get home, you hide in your room. Every time you go out before eating a few mouthfuls, you don't talk to us. Are you blaming Mom? I know you are uncomfortable, you don't need to see us after you go abroad, and you don't need to think about him anymore, it will pass and everything will be fine."

The formalities were completed faster than expected. Lin Mo dragged his suitcase to bid farewell to his parents at the airport, checked his luggage and went to the boarding gate. It was not until he got on the plane that he recovered from the emotion of being out of the way.

He looked out at the wide square from the small lattice window, trying to find something different from it.A year ago, he came back from City A reluctantly, and the person who greeted him was the person he didn't want to face. Now, he set off from here again to a country farther away, but the person who took his suitcase with a smile could not appear It's in sight.

This strong contrast aroused suppressed emotions in Lin Mo's heart over and over again.

Soon, he will be far away from his hometown and meet all kinds of people in a strange land. The future is like a small piece of scenery separated by four-corner windows. What he glimpses from it is just a corner of the long life.But he no longer has any expectations, because he knows that there is someone who will be absent forever in the rest of his life.

Something on the chest is still stuck to the heart.Lin Mo picked up his phone and typed a few words in the dialog box, but he didn't have the courage to press the send button before the plane took off.

Two years later.

In the center of the elegantly furnished room, there are two long fabric sofas. A man in a white robe sits on the sofa facing the floor-to-ceiling windows. Opposite him is a backlit position that most mental patients would choose. At this time There was a person sitting there, one side of his slightly sunken cheek was hidden in the light and shadow, like his heart that he refused to reveal most of the time.

Dr. Chen glanced at the clock on the wall without missing a beat.

"Are you in a hurry to end?" The other party asked with a faint smile.

"No, I'm just looking at how much time has passed."

Dr. Chen leaned his body back, trying to look comfortable and relaxed, but he sighed unconsciously in his heart. It takes twice as much energy and time to treat patients with him as ordinary patients. If the other party is not Dr. Gao’s son, he can quickly Private clinics whose primary purpose is profit will certainly not accept such special depressed patients.

"You just said that you were waiting for someone, and that person should still be in touch with you now?"

"Unrelated."

"Then how long are you going to wait?"

"I can't answer that question."

Dr. Chen smiled understandingly, and continued: "It seems that this person is very important to you. Let's talk about him. If you wait for him, what are you going to do?"

"I want to tell him one thing, there is a word, I have been forgetting to tell him."

Can vaguely guess something from the other party's thoughtful expression, Dr. Chen continued to ask: "Then do you regret it?"

The man picked up the teacup on the table, but he didn't put warm water into his mouth for a long time. Just like this question, he couldn't get a definite answer from the other party in the end.

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There is no extra episode, the follow-up of the deputy CP will be discussed in the next article, and the next article is about modern fantasy.