cold flame

Although I told Gao Wenxuan last time that I don't need to come and pick me up every day, and the other party has already agreed, but I haven't actually changed my actions, as if it has become a habit. In the dark, quietly waiting.

Every time at this time, a strange emotion would surge up in Lin Mo's heart. The familiar feeling let him know that this emotion is dangerous and should be avoided, so he tried to communicate with his parents again about the idea of ​​renting a house outside, but the result was still to strong opposition.

"What are you thinking?" Cai Cong came over and patted Lin Mo on the shoulder, and threw a bottle of water over him, "I often see you in a daze recently."

Lin Mo took it, unscrewed the bottle cap, and said casually, "It's nothing."

"Could it be that you've encountered some kind of love problem?" Cai Cong kept his head straight, and teased Lin Mo by saying the opposite polite words.

"also?"

Cai Cong raised his chin and stared at something, "Here, look there."

After Lin Zi's cold words of refusal that time, Lin Mo originally thought that such a thin-skinned Confucian and cowardly character like Xu Yan would never come again. Appeared, he was still holding on to the corner of Lin Zi's clothes, his mouth was opening and closing quickly, talking about something.

This kind of scene made Lin Mo think of the scene he saw a few days ago. It was also a boy who was holding on to the woods. The difference was that the boy's face was full of sadness and he took the initiative to give him a hug, while Xu Yan, at this time, was Frowning tightly, the hand holding the corner of Lin Zi's clothes was clenched into a fist, as if to crush the material.

"Lin Zi is really attractive. Just after we broke up, another one came. They both look pretty good, but I can't see this kid. He's too delicate to stand up to Lin Zi. He likes the unrestrained and flirtatious type."

"He broke up with the previous one?"

"Yeah, don't you know? Some time ago, I pestered Lin Zi every day to get back together, crying and making noise." As a friend who has known Lin Zi for a long time, Cai Cong seems to see such situations often, showing a look of surprise Not strange expression.

"But I heard that they finally broke up completely. Originally, everyone in their circle knew that Lin Zi was a famous prodigal son. Haha, it's normal to break up."

It turned out that what I saw that day was not the quarrel between the lovers. For the lover who he unilaterally said to break up, Lin Zi still responded with a residual tenderness in the hug, but for Xu Yan, he really refused to give even a little hope.

"Even you know it. It seems that the number of people who were abandoned by Lin Zi is considerable."

Cai Cong immediately changed the tone, and said righteously for his friend: "You can't say that, isn't it all about love and willingness? Even in his circle, it's the same? Moreover, he has never I'm sorry who, I think Lin Zi treated those exes very well when they were together."

Lin Mo originally wanted to take another sip of water, but he couldn't help laughing after hearing the other party's words: "You know all this?"

"Of course, anyway, I've known him for so long. Before that, his little boyfriends would come to the bar to see him, and every time they would bring a large number of cronies to drink with him. Later, Lin Zi didn't let them because he was afraid that it would affect his work. coming."

Cai Cong finished speaking in one breath, as if suddenly thinking of something, he asked carelessly: "Hey, who is that person who comes to pick you up every day?"

"My brother-in-law." Lin Mo naturally replied calmly.

"Brother-in-law? Then you and your sister should have a good relationship. It's not bad to come to pick you up so late."

Cai Cong defaulted that it was Lin Mo's sister and brother-in-law who came to pick him up every day, and felt that Gao Wenxuan was able to persevere because of his sister's favor.Of course he knew this well, but he instinctively didn't want to mention his sister to outsiders, so he nodded and didn't answer.

"I just want to start as friends...isn't that okay too?"

Although Xu Yan's behavior at this time seems a bit recalcitrant to others, only he knows how long it took him to gather up the courage to say these words today. It is just such a small hope. Will not ask others for anything.

"Start as a friend, then what?"

Xu Yan bit his lower lip and said nothing, his eyes were the same as his hands, he just held onto Lin Zi tightly, stubbornly silent.

Lin Zi smiled, and suddenly took a step forward to approach Xu Yan, and said in a playful tone next to Xu Yan who was at a loss, "You don't think that you will be responsible for you after kissing you? Find out, then It's just a game."

Xu Yan raised his head abruptly, his eyes glistened, he gritted his teeth and insisted, "I didn't think so. Why...why didn't you try it with me?"

"No reason, impossible is impossible, don't come here again."

There was a faint smile on the corner of Lin Zi's lips, but there was no trace of a smile in his eyes.Xu Yan unconsciously let go of his hand when he finished the last sentence, and slid back to the original position as if he had finally been pushed away by determination.

He turned his eyes to the other side, and said with all his strength: "I see."

Lin Zi didn't take a second look, and even forgot to tidy up the folds of his clothes before turning and leaving.In subsequent performances on the stage, I deliberately ignored the figure sitting in the corner with her head down, but the more I controlled myself, the more my gaze involuntarily swept over there.

"Go if you want to." Lin Mo threw out these words when he stepped down from the stage and walked past Lin Zi.

"Nothing."

"He seems to be drinking, Lin Zi, don't you want to go and have a look?" Cai Cong glanced at Xu Yan, and continued: "At any rate, he is also your junior, don't be so desperate, that kid is drunk alone what to do."

Lin Zi was slowly packing up his guitar, as if he hadn't heard of it.Lin Mo greeted them and walked towards Gao Wenxuan's direction. During the process, he glanced at Xu Yan, who was blushing and holding a bar in his mouth.

"Your friend?" Gao Wenxuan followed his gaze and stared at Xu Yan.

"That's it."

"Why don't you go and have a look? He doesn't look like someone who can drink."

"No need, someone will take him back later."

The evening wind blows in the summer night, the night is heavy, without any stars, contrary to the usual dull and hot weather, this kind of weather seems to imply the coming of rain, the air conditioner is not turned on in the car, and the wind from both sides is poured in from the wide open window .

"Are you free the day after tomorrow?"

"Well, I'm going to ask for leave tomorrow and the day after tomorrow." Lin Mo put his arm on the window sill, looked outside and responded in a low voice.

"Alright."

There was another silence. Gao Wenxuan didn't know if he had noticed Lin Mo's subtle changes recently. He rarely talked about irrelevant topics like before, or he was just a little tired from driving late at night.In Lin Mo's view, this is the real him - hot and cold.

"It might rain tomorrow, are you going out?" Gao Wenxuan asked suddenly.

"Don't go out, what's the matter?" Lin Mo turned to look at him.

"You can go shopping with me after I get off work." Before Lin Mo could respond, he added, "For Xiao Ran."

"Ah."

Lin Mo had no reason to refuse.

Another day will be Lin Ran's death day. The memory of that day two years ago seems to be frozen in my mind. The cold whiteness of the hospital is mixed with the pungent smell of disinfectant. Suffering gradually erodes the restless heart, and finally goes out with the lights outside the operating room...

"Mo Mo." Silently, hearing Gao Wenxuan softly calling his name interrupted Lin Mo's thoughts.

Lin Mo turned his head, his face looked a little lonely because of the weak light outside, and even Gao Wenxuan's calm voice was softened by the wind, "Don't think about it yet."

"Can you resist not wanting to?" Lin Mo asked sharply.

This was one of the few times when he mentioned his sister to Gao Wenxuan after the accident, the cold words spit out from his throat, as if the wind was cut off, the car was surprisingly quiet, Lin Mo didn't let the other person's face go Any facial expression changes.

"You know that I'm the same as you." Gao Wenxuan said with a faint wry smile, "I just don't want to see you showing such an expression now, and your sister must hope so too."