like a dog

Lin Xun walked out of the hospital and walked along the sidewalk to the subway station.I went out early today, and it ended quickly. I asked the usual questions, and the medicines were those medicines.These days Lu Yuan usually goes out in the morning and comes back around [-] pm, and today is probably no exception.He is going back by subway now, and he should arrive home earlier than him.

The breeze was blowing, and the cicadas were singing faintly. Lin Xun was walking on the street with people coming and going. When Lin You called, he stopped and stood at the corner of the street and listened quietly.In the sunshine, the teenagers walked over shoulder to shoulder, smiling and throwing their backpacks on the back of the previous person.The girl is holding the girl's hand, and the milk tea in her hand is printed with light lipstick marks.The father put the child off his shoulders, and the child ran forward bouncingly holding the bubble stick.

"...If you still don't want to, I'll tell him that you still have things to do." Lin You brewed a cup of Pu'er with a teapot, and placed a few decaying gloxinia plants in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, "He just wants to see you, after all It's been quite a few years. Although I have sent videos and talked on the phone, but I haven't met in person, he just can't let go, and always feels that I am hiding something from him."

"Is he all right?"

"Very good, very good." Lin You nodded, and then asked, "How about you, how are you doing?"

"Fortunately."

"You don't have to worry too much about it, just let it be." Lin You slowed down and said, "I respect your wishes on this matter. If you don't want to come back, you can just come back. Take your time, no need... "

Lin Xun stood at the entrance of the alley, and the crowd flowed in front of him like a river.He held his mobile phone for a long time before he hesitated and said, "I'll go home during the Chinese New Year this year. Is that okay?"

Lin You was stunned for a while, then hurriedly said: "Yes, of course." There was an irrepressible smile in his words.

"Maybe when the time comes, I won't come alone."

"Is that Jiang Wu?"

"No, it's someone new." Lin Xun paused, "It's someone I'm dating now." Lin You was rare silent, but soon his voice appeared on the phone again.

"What kind of person?"

"A person who likes to be clean and loves to smile."

"How are you?"

"very good."

Lin You smiled and said, "That's good."

Seeing that Lin You didn't intend to continue asking, Lin Xun asked, "Don't you ask other questions? Name, gender, age, occupation, etc. I thought you would ask these first."

"Those, those are not important." Lin You stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows and watched the traffic on the street. This incident was unexpected and reasonable.Lin Xun is 31 years old this year, falling in love is a very normal thing.

When he left, Jiang Wu moved into their house, and the two of them later went to Qingying University together.Lin You thought something would happen to them, but Lin Xun just regarded each other as friends.After the accident, it was delayed for many years.Lin Xun has become self-enclosed and afraid of the dark, but he is more worried that his emotional life will not be able to shine in the light.

After all, living alone is a lonely thing.

"Is it Beta too, a boy or a girl?"

"It's Alpha, a boy." Lin Xun followed Lin You's words before he felt that this title was awkward, but considering his age, Lu Yuan was indeed a boy, let alone compared to Lin You.

"Oh," Lin Youtuo asked with a smile, "It was hard work, wasn't it?"

Lin Xun frowned, and suddenly realized what Lin You was laughing at.

He annoyed: "Dad!"

Lin You laughed on the other end of the phone, as if he had figured out Lin Xun's thoughts again.

"You, you are a soft-hearted person, and the other party is an Alpha. Needless to say, it must be...Is he older than you, or younger? I mean age."

Lin Xun took a deep breath, he regretted it, he shouldn't have started this conversation with Lin You.

"I'm hanging up the phone."

"Okay, let's not talk about this." Lin You smiled and waved his hands, "Bring him to meet me sometime, I want to take a good look, what kind of person took you down."

"In a while."

Lin You nodded and said yes, sat back on the chair and said with a smile: "I'm younger than you, I think you dote on him from what you say."

Lin Xun frowned and said, "Is there?"

"How old are you?"

Lin Xun thought about Lu Yuan's birth date, and replied, "Eight years old."

"23, that's really small, what's its name?"

Lin Xun used to wonder why Lin You didn't ask what should be asked, but now he asked each item, and he was annoyed by the questions again.

"My name is Lu Yuan. I'm still in college. Let's talk about it next time. I have something to do."

After Lin Xun and Lin You talked a few words, they hung up the phone and continued walking towards the subway station.He and Lin You don't talk on the phone very often, only once in a month or two, and the conversations are also inconsistent.There may be 10 minutes of talking time, but only three or four minutes of real conversation.

Sometimes, he would choose not to answer the call, because he really didn't know what to say after he was connected.It was the first time in the past few years that a call like today's was made, and he almost forgot when was the last time Lin You made jokes with him.

As for Yu Wen, rather than saying that he dared not see him, it could be said that he could not see him.He has lower endurance than Lin You, and is also more difficult to persuade than him.He didn't dare to tell him about himself, and he wasn't sure to pretend that nothing had happened in front of him.

Yu Wen can always see through him.As a child, as long as he told a lie, he could be found out.It is said that he basically inherited his father, but he didn't inherit Lin You's ability to pretend.

In the past two or three years, his condition has basically stabilized.At that time, Lin You also mentioned a meeting, and he agreed.But when it came to the month of meeting, he became more and more anxious, pacing back and forth in the room, with a small range, just like he was trapped in that limited range day and night in the ward in those years.

He was too scared to go out, so he locked himself in his bedroom. Apart from taking medicine, he went to the bathroom to get tap water to drink when he was hungry.Didn't come out for a whole week until the appointed time passed.

Afterwards, he called Lin You and said sorry.Lin You didn't say much, just let him take care of himself.

Lin You seldom mentioned the meeting afterwards, and he blocked Yu Wen's side for him.If he is still afraid of meeting, he can find other reasons to continue to prevaricate this year.But he didn't want to hide anymore.

Also, this year is different from previous years.

After Lin Xun walked through the bustling commercial street, there were fewer people on the sidewalk.I used to come and go by myself, and I was in a bad mood before and after the follow-up visit, and I didn't have much mood to pay attention to my surroundings.This time he came to see a lot.

The scenery he had never paid attention to showed its appearance along the way, and the sound of the sun shining through the leaves seemed to be within reach.When he opened his hand, the laughter of passers-by and the breeze passed through his fingers.Those warm and bright ones seem to be related to him again.

A cat fell from the fence, snow-white and snow-white.It jumped up and meowed in front of Lin Xun and looked at him.

"Did you smell it?" Lin Xun knelt down, and when he was going out, he poured out a bowl of cat food for Xiaoyue, sprinkled some on the floor, and he picked it up casually and put it in his pocket.

Lin Xun took out those few grains of cat food and put them in the palm of his right hand.The cat didn't come over at first, but turned around in front of him from a distance, and then slowly came over, sticking out its tongue and cleaning everything.He smiled and scratched the cat's head.

"Subquery?"

Lin Xun looked back, he was not wearing glasses, and the man was standing a few meters away, unable to see his face clearly.He stood up and hesitated, "Han Zheng?"

Han Zheng came over from under the shade of the tree, and when he stood in front of him, he was a head taller than him.After many years, this always taciturn person will also laugh.He stretched out his hand and said, "Long time no see."

Lin Xun looked at his hand, hesitated for a moment, and shook his left hand: "Well, long time no see."

Han Zheng used to have a straight face, a serious face, and a natural majesty. Even when he was a teenager, he was difficult to get close to.Han Zheng was six years older than him, and according to his seniority, he still had to call him uncle, but he basically didn't call him that at that time.

"Did you just get home from get off work?"

"Probably." Lin Xun didn't explain too much, so he continued, "I'm going back."

"Are you nearby?"

"No, go to the subway station." Seeing that Han Zheng was still looking at him, Lin Xun continued, "It's quite far in the development zone."

"It's quite far away." Han Zheng nodded, and a sprinkler truck slowly passed by on the street, splashing water everywhere, and the white cat jumped up on the wall early in the morning.Han Zheng habitually pulled Lin Xun and took a step back towards the wall: "Be careful."

"It's okay." Han Zheng was a little closer to him, maybe because he had been with Lu Yuan for a long time, and the oppressive feeling on Alpha became familiar.But unlike Lu Yuan, Han Zheng's approach made him feel depressed.

Seeing Lin Xun backing away calmly, Han Zheng lowered his head and asked, "Are you in a hurry to leave?"

"Well, there is still something to do." Lin Xun paused, and added, "Someone is waiting for me to go back at home."

Han Zheng glanced at him quietly, and said in a low voice, "Are you married?"

"No, it's...a friend," Lin Xun was silent for a while, then said softly, "Boyfriend."

"Really?" Han Zheng smiled, the kind of alienation and politeness.He glanced at the wet ground and the few gray and white birds that fell on the empty road, and turned his head and said, "I'll take you back, take the subway slowly, you hurry, my car is in the parking lot behind, you Where is your home in the development zone?"

"No, the subway is pretty fast. The subway station is just ahead."

"The last time we met, I didn't talk to you very much. There were so many people at that time, and I was busy, I didn't know when you left, and I didn't even leave a call." Han Zheng stood beside Lin Xun, There was sadness in the smiling eyes, "I didn't expect that you would come over then."

The last time they met was at Han Lin's funeral two years ago.Han Lin is Han Zheng's father. Among his sons, Han Zheng is the most like him and also the least like him.His personality and appearance are a replica of his youth, but his path is completely different.Han Zheng doesn't care about the family business at all.

"I was just going to see him off, but I shouldn't have gone either." Lin Xun said calmly, "That's not the occasion for me to appear."

"He mentioned you in the last few weeks." Han Zheng looked at Lin Xun and said, "In fact, he still loves you the most."

Lin Xun didn't say a word, and didn't respond to Han Zheng's gaze. He just looked at the setting sun in the distance.

"I'll take you back." Han Zheng didn't continue, pointing to the other side and said, "My car is parked there, wait for me for a while."

Just as Lin Xun wanted to refuse, a call came, and it was Lu Yuan.

As soon as the phone was connected, Lu Yuan smiled and said a lot. "Teacher, are you awake? I thought I had to make several calls, but I didn't expect to pick up so soon. Are you at home now?"

"I woke up early." Lin Xun smiled, what did he think of himself, if he slept till now, he would be useless, "I'm not here, I'm coming out."

"Ah? Where did you go, why didn't you tell me?"

Lin Xun could imagine him blinking blankly on the other end of the phone. He held the phone and said, "I'm in the urban area. I have something to do. I'll be here in the afternoon."

"You're in the urban area, that's great." Lu Yuan breathed a sigh of relief, and his voice rose, "I came to the urban area with my colleagues this afternoon to run materials. I thought it would be finished soon, but the efficiency was very low. , I haven’t done it until now, and it’s probably almost seven o’clock when I get home, so I’m afraid you’ll wait for me too long, so I’ll call you first.”

Lu Yuan held the phone with his head tilted, and skillfully signed the document handed over: "If you are also in the urban area, let's eat in the urban area today. I haven't eaten outside for a long time. Is Western food okay? The postal circuit There's a nice steakhouse nearby. Where are you, is it close?"

"It's not far. I'm on Changqing Road. Let's walk for three or four minutes. When will you finish?"

"The slowest is six o'clock. I will try to hurry up. You go there first, don't wait for me, just order first, um... the first few rows of the menu are delicious, and the squid tendrils in the snacks are a bit Hard, everything else is fine, let’s talk about it when you arrive, I will send you the address later.” Lu Yuan handed the document back to Bian Hai.Bian Hai took the door out, and shrugged his shoulders with his arms outstretched to Xue Xi who was walking towards him.

The soundproofing effect of the room is excellent, but Bian Hai's expression almost completely leaked the content of the call.Xue Xi took off his earphones, pointed at the door with his mouth and whispered, "Sister-in-law?"

Bian Hai nodded his head heavily, his face wrinkled into a ball, and he also spoke silently.He waved his hand and said, "I can't listen to it anymore, it's too scary."

Xue Xi patted Bian Hai's firm shoulder solemnly, expressing his shallow condolences.

"I'll see you then. I'll rush over as soon as I'm done. Lizhi may be hungry tonight." Lu Yuan shook his head with a smile.

"I fed it when I went out."

"Well, then there's nothing to worry about. See you then."

"Well, see you later."

Lin Xun hung up the phone, Han Zheng stood a few steps away, and he never left.Lin Xun stood where he was and didn't approach him again. He pointed to the road ahead and said, "I'll go first."

"Zixun." Han Zheng called Lin Xun to stop, and Lin Xun turned to look at him, the smile on his face only appeared briefly during the call as a symbolic courtesy.Han Zheng swallowed a sentence, smiled and said, "Leave a call, you are busy today, when you are not busy, come out and meet."

"Han Zheng, on the surface and in private, I will never have anything to do with you again. That was the last time I went to a place with you guys." Lin Xun looked at him calmly, "Also, I am Lin Xun , don’t make a mistake.”

"Just remember, anyway, there will be no time to call my name again." The birds on the street fluttered their wings before the vehicles approached, and Lin Xun took a last look at Han Zheng under the street tree, " See you no more."