like a dog

In the darkness of the bedroom, only the globe on the table was whirring.

"The money has already been credited to your account." Guan Shan untied his tie and walked past Fu Rui without looking up.

"I have to increase the price." Fu Rui stopped pressing the globe and yawned, "Staying up late hurts my body, I cherish my life."

Zhou Wan's illness is capricious. Sometimes the medicine works, and sometimes the effect is minimal.Whether four years is long or short, Zhou Wan watched him grow from 11 to 15 years old, and his face was the most impressive thing in his mind.

When the medicine doesn't work, he will come to Fu Rui, and he will receive a sum of money as a reward after the end, which is also part of the agreement.Take what you need, fair trade.

"Song Yuan will send another 50 to your account." Guan Shan opened the curtains, there was still some time before dawn, and the window was still gloomy.

"Thanks." Sitting on the desk, Fu Rui lowered his head and rubbed his fingertips, as if he remembered something, he raised his head and said, "Speaking of accounts, I still have some accounts that I haven't paid back to Fang after thinking about it these two days. Here, it's that little boy." Supervisor. In the end, the phone was not connected, and there was no one in the apartment. I thought he was hiding from me, but I asked the company, and they said that he hadn’t gone to work for more than a week.”

Fu Rui glanced back at Guan Shan: "Did you do it?"

Guan Shan looked away from the window and looked at him expressionlessly.Fu Rui smiled and said, "Why are you so serious? I didn't consider asking, but after thinking about it, it's more fair to ask in person, otherwise my conscience will not..."

Guan Shan seemed to be tired of hearing it, he closed his eyes and said, "I didn't know that she locked Lin Xun up at the time."

Fu Rui sneered and got off the desk, leaning on the edge of the desk and approaching Guan Shan.

"What do you mean?"

"Fang Hui's life and death, you don't care at all. If you care, it won't be today. After so many detours, isn't this what you want to know the most?" Guan Shan said unhurriedly, mentioning the events at that time, There is no wave in the eyes.

"I didn't know that my mother had meddled in this matter, but I didn't want to let him go. Whether I gave the order or she gave the order, it is a result, but she did it for me first. This is my answer .”

Fu Ruili remained silent for a while, then suddenly smiled.

"So what you mean is that this debt should be settled on your head, so that I won't be soft-hearted for her, and I won't be able to hate her anymore. Is that what you mean?"

Guan Shan didn't answer.Fu Rui hated his silence the most.

"Thank you so much for your sympathy." Fu Rui took a few steps back, nodded and said, "That's right, I said I would hate for a lifetime, more or less, it's all the same."

Fu Rui turned around and opened the door to go out without looking back.

From Guan Shan's bedroom to the entrance of the mansion, he has walked back and forth many times.Go down 32 steps, walk through two long corridors, and return to the entrance.He has walked this road in an ordinary and embarrassing way.But it was the first time for such a suppressed sense of powerlessness.

Fu Rui took out a cigarette on the corridor, lit it several times but failed to light it.The wind was not strong, but his hands were shaking.He gathered the cigarette tightly and crumpled it.The oppressive feeling squeezed from the palm of the hand to the chest, like a cotton wool blocking the airway, a hard thorn knocking.

From Anchi to Zhangzhou, the [-]-kilometer road is like two faults.

He told Guan Shan that day that he would not meet again after that day, but he came to Xiqiao No. [-] Middle School that night.It really didn't break the agreement.But I don't blame him, for such a small place, even if you don't look for it deliberately, you can meet each other even if you go around.

But this meeting was several times more tragic than the last one.

Tragic in the true sense.

He was slammed against the window, shattered the glass and fell out, falling hard in front of his umbrella from the third floor.The smell of blood mixed with the rain, he couldn't open his eyes, his whole body was cold, and his limbs ached.

Guan Shan held Fu Rui's hand, the heavy rain soaked both of them, he wiped away the blood on his face, but he didn't dare to hug him.

Fu Ruiqiang opened his eyes, it was the first time he saw him in such a distraught state.He wanted to tell him a joke, "Look, I said I don't want to see you, as soon as you come, something will happen to me again", but trembling with pain, he couldn't say it or laugh.

"Ashan, don't..." He said hoarsely, with the smell of blood in his mouth, and said against his palm, "Don't hurt him, he...is my friend Xi..."

Qi Ruoyousi said it like a last word.But he thought his last words would be more romantic, for example, I am actually very happy to meet you today.

But his eyelids were heavy, and he couldn't even finish the first sentence, so he was dragged into the darkness.

With my eyes closed, it was two months.

Two months is not short, enough to cure a person, but also enough to destroy a person.

But Fu Rui, who opened his eyes from a long sleep, didn't understand this.All he felt was dizziness, pantothenic acid nausea in his stomach, gauze still wrapped around his neck, and a dull pain when he raised his head.

Only Song Li was in the room. During the years in the Guan family, few people got close to him, and she was one of them.I haven't seen her for many years, and she has grown from a little girl with small canine teeth and a sweet tooth to a girl with delicate features.He took a sip of the water she handed him, and asked her if she knew where Lin Xun was, a tall, thin and pretty man with a good-looking smile.

"Is that the one my brother brought back?" Song Li took the water glass, helped him to lie down, and frowned, "He made you like this, why do you care about him?"

"What did you say?" Fu Rui seemed to be able to hear the sound of his own blood flowing backwards. He grabbed Song Li's hand and said, "Who told you he did it?"

"The one named Lin Xun, he said it himself." Song Li was frightened by his sudden action, and he was about to speak in a hurry, "I asked my brother, and he said that Brother Ashan was there when he saw him. Upstairs, that person admitted it himself. Although you were not seriously injured and the dangerous period passed early, we are all worried that you have not woken up. Brother Ah Shan has been..."

"Is he sick! Why is it that he didn't do it?" Fu Rui shouted angrily, unable to hold anything else in his mind, "Where is he now?"

Seeing that Song Li didn't speak, he turned her shoulder and stared at her eyes: "Where is he?"

"Say... say that he was locked in a confinement room," Song Li didn't dare to look into Fu Rui's eyes, lowered his head and whispered, "I was inside... a long time ago."

Fu Rui's eyes widened in disbelief, and for that stuck second, he suddenly couldn't hear anything.

He jumped out of bed, and the monitor was torn apart and fell to the ground hard.It was as if something had smashed into pieces in my heart, and it was scattered all over the ground, and I couldn't pick it up.

He staggered up and ran towards the basement, his feet still couldn't move, and every step he took felt pain from his bones.His head was sweating profusely from the pain, and his nausea got worse as he was spinning around, but he couldn't stop.The whistling of the wind passed by my ears, very similar to the wind blowing on the playground of Xiqiao No. [-] Middle School.

Lin Xun gave Zhong Yue his harmonica, and whistled and hummed the tune of "Xiang Wan".He turned the fallen leaves in his hand and said with a smile: "Fu Rui, when you come back from buying the medicine tomorrow, let's book the train tickets. It will be over next week, and two months will pass in the past. It's really fast."

"I was a little hesitant when I came here, and now I'm not willing to leave. Zhong Yue said that he wanted to come to me in the future, but it will take at least eight years for him to enter university and graduate. Eight years is too long. Thirty, don't talk about me."

"But it's not certain, don't talk about years, sometimes just a day or two, things will change," he smiled back in the afterglow of the setting sun, "You think so, Fu Rui?"

Fu Rui fell down the last few stairs, Song Li caught up and hurriedly helped him up, crying helplessly: "What should I do! The plaster has just been removed and the bones haven't healed yet, you can't run at all! And there are still ..."

"Open!" Fu Rui squeezed her hand, pointed at the door of the confinement room and shouted, "Open it!"

"I don't have the key, I can't open it!"

Song Li has never seen Fu Rui like this before, he looks very similar to Guan Shan back then, hysterically like a sad monster.She said with red eyes: "It's been almost two months, and no one can survive two months. It's too late, it's useless."

Fu Rui shook his head and muttered no.He fumbled up and down, saw the indwelling needle on the back of his hand, and pulled it out without hesitation.He stuck the needle in the keyhole.His hands trembled uncontrollably, he pressed his wrist tightly, and continued to grope in the keyhole despite the dizziness until he heard the crisp click.

He pushed the door and rushed in: "Lin Xun!"

Even if a long time passed, he would have nightmares at night, and would often break out in a cold sweat because he dreamed of the hours of being locked up in a confinement room in his early years.He didn't dare to imagine what the hundreds of times of hours would turn a person into.

The room was dark and dark, the air stale and dirty.Fu Rui walked towards the center of the room, and slowly knelt down in front of the statue-like motionless figure.His body was filled with a rotten smell, not only from the skin, but also from the depths.

Fu Rui lifted his drooping head with stiff hands, Lin Xun's eyes were unfocused, like two stones forced into their sockets.Called his name, but no response.

"Lin Xun, look at me, talk to me, please talk to me." Fu Rui touched his face, but his own hands were shaking.Lin Xun's whole body seemed to be emptied, only a pale and thin body was left empty.

His voice was hoarse, his nose was sore and he was about to choke his throat: "Didn't you say you want to go back together? Look at me, Lin Xun, I'm here."

Fu Rui shook his shoulders, and heard the sound of the chain being loosened.He lowered his head with a stiff neck, and saw the chains on his ankles. The locks were stained with old black blood. The end of the chains was connected to the wall. The length of the chains was only enough for a person to move within two or three meters, and it couldn't reach the door at all.The flesh near the ankle buckle was dug out one after another, new and old superimposed, some festered and some scabbed.

He knew exactly how painful it would be and how long it would last.But Lin Xun had no expression or response from the beginning to the end, and even the sound of breathing seemed to be too quiet.He is like a bored tree, decayed and withered.

Fu Rui has seen such a process.

The process of dim light, the process of brilliant fall.

"Why is it like this again," he let go weakly, "Why is it like this this time..."

All the strength I had held up just now was gone.His shoulders were slumped, and a big hole seemed to be gouged out again in his chest, and all the happy laughter was stripped out.His heart was twisted like a knife, his eyes were red but no tears flowed.

"I'm sorry, Ah Xun, I'm sorry..." He pinched the back of his hand and choked up his sobs, his head hanging down as he was about to drop to the ground.

Suddenly he stopped talking.He detected the smell, an all-too-familiar pheromone smell.

Fu Rui straightened his back slowly, turned his head and looked at the door, where Guan Shan was standing.Looking at his face, he suddenly understood that feeling.

All the resentment, repression and pain surged in his chest, and when he squeezed and swelled to the point of going crazy, he felt like he saw an exit.

Guan Shan's hair was uncommonly disheveled, as if he just rushed here from somewhere.He walked into the room, his voice still trembling.

"Fu Rui, you come out first, and leave the rest to me."

"roll."

"I'll give you an explanation, trust me, come out with me first." Guan Shan held out his hand to him.The gauze on Fu Rui's neck was loose, and the cut where he was stabbed by the glass when he fell from the building split open, blood soaked the gauze and jacket.Fu Rui trembled because of the pain up and down, but he still guarded against him like an enemy with thorns all over his body.

It is very dirty and can easily cause wound infection.Fu Rui is still recovering, it's too dangerous to stay any longer.

"Then can you die?" Fu Rui looked at him quietly, the hatred burned crazily under the calmness, burning his heart stinky and shriveled, "This is the confession I want now, can you give it to me?"

"You can't give me." Fu Rui sat on the ground and looked up at him, with no hope or nostalgia in his eyes, "Guan Shan, from the beginning to the end, you can't give me anything."

He said with a blank face: "I really hate you. From now on, I have always hated you."

Guan Shan squatted down slowly, he imagined many possibilities after he wakes up, but he didn't expect it to be this one.

"Fu Rui, listen to me first..." Guan Shan said in a low voice, and suddenly noticed the pair of eyes behind him. They were different from before. They had emotions, but they were not emotions that people should have.

Those eyes stared at Fu Rui, cold and damp like sludge dug out from the ground.

He'd seen that look before, long ago in the hunting grounds.Those who have been waiting in the hunting ground for a long time always have such eyes in the end.

A chill rose from behind Guan Shan, and an ominous premonition stirred up like a reptile under his skin, and he shouted: "Fu Rui!"

Fu Rui turned his head subconsciously, but before he could turn around, he was knocked to the ground.Lin Xun threw him down like a wild animal, his hands stuck like iron clamps.He pressed the back of his head and bit his neck, the wound was severely torn, and his mouth was red with blood.He bit the flesh until he was dragged away.

Fu Rui fell into a pool of blood and closed his eyes tightly, making no sound like a machine whose power had been unplugged.Song Li fell and screamed while covering his face outside the door, Song Yuan rushed in, pressed Fu Rui's wound, and picked him up from the ground.Even if he didn't have any special equipment at hand, he could still infer Fu Rui's condition from the extremely chaotic pheromones. His glands were damaged.

Severe to fatal injury.

Guan Shan grabbed Lin Xun's hair and slammed it against the concrete wall, grabbed his neck and shouted, "Are you crazy?"

Lin Xun's face was flushed from being pinched, but he grinned, his forehead was cut and bleeding, and the blood flowed to the corner of his mouth and mixed with Fu Rui's.He laughed until his whole body trembled, and the chains on his legs also dangled non-stop.

The out-of-control pheromones, the smell of corruption and blood, the sound of laughter, screams and shaking chains, all squeezed in the darkness, swelled like a monster.

No one can survive two months.

Relatively speaking, those who have survived for two months are no longer normal people.

Darkness breeds darkness, madmen make madmen.

Lin Xun became a monster.Severe violent tendencies, delusions, loss of emotional control, and hysteria when it gets dark.The lights in his ward could only be on constantly.

The most he asked in his waking hours was about two people.One is Fu Rui and the other is Zhong Yue.

A few weeks later, Song Yuan brought him a stack of files, and Lin Xun never mentioned Zhong Yue after reading it.He shed a lot of tears that day, but unexpectedly he didn't get sick, and he cried soberly until he was exhausted.The next day he signed a consent form for ECT treatment, which was carried out along with exposure therapy.

After being discharged from the hospital two years later, he did not return to Xinyang, nor did he go to Anchi, and lived alone in the most remote community in Zhangzhou Development Zone.Lin Xun rarely goes out, except to go to the hospital for follow-up visits.For several years, no one else came to see him except Fu Rui.He spent Mid-Autumn Festival and New Year's Eve with him, sitting on the floor and watching DVDs.

Soda has become beer, VCD has become DVD, and they still laugh when it comes to funny scenes.The change seems to be very small, but both of them know that everything is different from before.

Fu Rui sat on the corridor and slid to Lin Xun's name in the address book.He leaned against the porch pillar and dialed his phone, the sky turned white, and the sun was about to rise.

Lu Yuan glanced at the entrance, Lin Xun's cell phone vibrated slightly on the cabinet next to the entrance.He got up from the sofa and walked towards the door with heavy steps.He pulled the power cord and turned the phone around. Looking at the name on the screen, he flipped the phone to mute.

"What's wrong?" Lin Xun fell asleep leaning on the sofa, but his sleep was light, and he woke up as soon as Lu Yuan got up.Wrapped in a blanket sleepily, he asked, "Is there a phone?"

"It's nothing, it's not someone important." Lu Yuan sat down beside him, Lin Xun leaned on his shoulder, closed his eyes again, Lu Yuan took his hand and said softly, "I turned off the TV, go back to the room sleep."

"Let's watch it for a while."

"Didn't you say you should go to bed early? It's almost dawn now, Lin Xun."

"Let's start tomorrow." Lin Xun closed his eyes and whispered, "Go to bed early tomorrow."

When Fu Rui made the third call, the phone shut down automatically due to low battery.He put away his phone, got up and continued walking down the corridor.He took out his cigarette and lighter again, and this time his hands didn't shake anymore.

The sun has risen.

He walks in the shadows and no sun shines on him.