dinner for three

There is no place to call home in this city. After leaving the area where Xu Yifan's home is located, Gu Miao didn't know where to go with his travel bag.He chose to leave hastily just to avoid the embarrassing atmosphere.I am reluctant to live in those high-end hotels with gorgeous revolving doors, and I don’t have the courage to go close to those hotels in alleys that look cold and damp. Such dark scenes will always evoke some bad memories.After asking about one, I chose one with an acceptable price, and paid a deposit for several days in a row.I don't know if Xu Linfeng will give back his job to him, and it will take some time to find a house.

Even though it was already summer, the night was still chilly.Walking into a strange room, smelling the faint smell of washing powder from the quilt.Gu Miao went straight to the window, trying to observe the weather tomorrow. When she was with Xu Yifan, Gu Miao took time to look at the night sky every day to judge whether the weather would be fine tomorrow.Although the judgment is not accurate, it is also very enjoyable.

This is the feeling of freedom. What I have thought about for so long has finally been returned to my hands.

It's just different from what I imagined, the moment that should have been ecstatic, but now there is only a trace of relief and a sweeping exhaustion.He simply took a shower, but still put on his coat and lay down under the quilt without feeling safe.The snow-white quilt is reminiscent of the lonely feeling of the hospital.Huddled in the quilt, obviously physically and mentally tired, but closed his eyes but couldn't fall asleep peacefully.It was Xu Yifan and Jiang Xiaoai's strange but familiar smiles that floated back and forth in front of their eyes.

After all, Jiang Xiaoai is so perfect, for a boy like him, suffering should never be the norm in life, he is a jewel that should be held in the palm of others.He is not Gu Miao, so he has no reason to witness and endure those unbearable situations.But now, the person who gave him favor has become his past benefactor. Although it is not an unimaginable situation, it is still difficult to convince himself to accept it in a short time.

If it wasn't because of the meeting today, even Gu Miao himself would not have realized that the source of his feelings for Xu Yifan seemed to be more complicated than the relationship he defined.The previous benefactors had always avoided him, but this was the only time he would choose to come back and face him.Maybe it wasn't just that he was worried about indebting Xu Linfeng, maybe there were other reasons for this.

The stomach that was hungry is now numb, only a feeling that had appeared before gradually began to surge.

This feeling terrified Gu Miao who forced herself to sleep under the bright light.He got up and wanted to drink a glass of water, but he remembered more clearly that when this feeling appeared, it was the feeling that Xu Linfeng had walked away.The intense burning sensation that seems to swallow people up has rarely appeared in Gu Miao's life, but it is so vivid that people can't ignore it.

Its name is jealousy, an ugly but menacing emotion that can be overpowering once it sets in.

The water flowed down the throat, as if trying to extinguish this discomfort.Imagining that Xu Yifan might be doing things with Jiang Xiaoai that he was familiar with in the past.From now on, when I wake up, I will no longer have the arms and face that make people feel at ease. Those have become the things of another person.Maybe longing itself is a side effect of habit, becoming an accessory beyond the control of reason.

If, as Xu Yifan said, he had already received the money, he would have to work harder to pay it off.

Freedom is indeed a luxury.And the love between the same sex is something more dare not expect than freedom.

When I woke up the next day, I received a call from the school, saying that the teacher who was temporarily sent to take over from me would leave tomorrow, and Gu Miao could continue her previous teaching work.Because she didn't sleep well the day before, her temples were aching, but the sudden news made Gu Miao feel a little better, and she was grateful for Xu Linfeng's kindness from the bottom of her heart.

In addition to getting work back on track, Gu Miao has also found a new place to live. After calculating his salary, he can still have a surplus. Although the house is not a little smaller than the one he lived in before, Gu Miao still enjoys that he can finally rely on his own money. Trying to find a place to stay in this city.Although it would be difficult without savings, Gu Miao still felt that everything would be fine.

The new residence is closer to the school than before, so Gu Miao decided to buy a bicycle to go back and forth.When arriving at the school gate every morning, the bustling school gate always reminded Gu Miao of when Xu Yifan sent her to work, she always came very early and just appeared at the school gate waiting for her.Sooner or later, that person never showed an expression of impatience.

It's just that that was already a thing of the past, Gu Miao felt a sense of loss in her heart, and threw herself into the not-so-easy job in a blink of an eye.

After about half a month of touching, Gu Miao's mood improved day by day, but Xu Yifan's condition kept deteriorating. After the day he frightened Gu Miao away in a fit of anger, his mood never returned to the normal level.Relying on a lot of work to paralyze myself, because of the irregular work and rest, I only eat one meal a day, I am obviously thinner, and my attitude towards everyone is cold.

This is probably the feeling of being broken in love. The one who said to let go is me, and the one who tosses and tosses is also me.

Until this day, after dealing with a thick stack of documents, there was a severe discomfort in my stomach.It's already afternoon, I haven't eaten anything today, and the physical discomfort is getting worse, so I ask Xiao Liu to help me buy a meal.The warm food made people feel very comforted, and a strange phone call came from the person I entrusted to help Gu Miao arrange work.Gu Miao, who said she left suddenly, had already returned to school.Xu Linfeng on the other end of the phone couldn't believe it, shouldn't that person be in another city?

Repeatedly confirm that the person is indeed working in the school normally, and has been half a month old.Hang up the phone and look at the time on the watch.The speed of consuming food was mechanically accelerated, and I didn't know what I was thinking, probably because the habit was reawakened.He dropped his work and went straight to the parking lot while starting his car.I suddenly thought of something and changed another car.Wearing a mask, he drove the car out at the fastest speed, and after a while, he drove to the gate of the school.

He didn't think about doing anything, he just wanted to see him, he just wanted to make himself feel better.

Sure enough, Gu Miao's figure appeared at the school gate after school.Wearing a simple shirt, he was no longer wearing the clothes that Xu Yifan bought for him.He looked happy and greeted the teachers around him, and even a few students passing by said hello to the teacher.Not a perfunctory attitude towards anyone, Gu Miao responded politely, seeing Xu Yifan's car getting closer and closer.

Gu Miao's gaze finally passed Xu Yifan's car. Even if he knew that the other party would not find out that it was him, he knew that the driver's face could not be seen clearly through the special glass.Still feel guilty and want to turn around and leave.But before the car started, a face was pressed against the glass. The man looked at Xu Yifan, showed a handsome and sly smile, and knocked on the glass calmly.