Love him deep into bone marrow Jian Hanfeng Chengyou

He was a fool.

In fact, compared to the harm given by outsiders, it was the disgusting words like idiots and idiots spit out from Jian Qing's mouth that made Cheng Wen feel inferior and painful.

How could a fool like him be worthy of Ah Qing.

Jian Qing didn't know what to say for a while, she stretched out her hand and hugged her into her arms, "Don't be sad."

Perhaps it was because he was worried that the little fool's already unstable emotions would be stimulated again, so he took out all the tenderness that he was not willing to give before.

His tall figure is enough to surround Cheng Wen's whole body, and he is still so warm. As long as he thinks that he may never be able to touch his temperature in the future, his eyes will turn red with discomfort, but he replied, "Don't worry, Ah Qing." Well, I'm not sad at all."

The little fool will be very strong, and he will be strong when he is alone, so that he can take good care of the baby and let him grow up happily.

Jian Qing knew that he was lying, but she didn't expose it. She gently stroked his back with her big palm up and down, comforting him silently.

He didn't know that the little fool who had always been chasing him foolishly from behind, who would be happy for a long time as long as he got a little sweetness from him, was already determined to quit his life.

After a while, Jian Qing let go of the man in his arms, and stroked his soft hair.

Cheng Wen's house is the third house in the alley. The light blue wooden door seems to be older and darker than in memory, as if some things cannot withstand the wind and sun, and the cruel years.

Mom has been gone for seven years.

But it was easy to picture her gentle smiling face in her mind, when she was cooking by the stove wearing an apron, she would pick up a few pieces for him to taste first, and then wait for Ran Ran to come back from school to eat together.

Things are wrong.

Cheng Wen held back his tears, took out a slightly rusty key from his pocket, inserted it into the lock and turned it a few times, and opened the door.

The house is very small, and the things in it are ordinary furniture, because no one has lived in it for a long time, it has long been covered with dust, the corners of the roof are covered with cobwebs, and every inch of the floor reveals the shabby and hardship.

It's just that this place is full of precious memories for Cheng Wen, and only now does he have a sense of belonging.

Jian Qing was born with a golden spoon in his mouth. Since he was a child, he was rich and rich, and he didn't know the sufferings of the world. He only knew that the Cheng family was poor, but he didn't expect it to be so poor. He couldn't help but frowned and said, "You grew up here ?”

Cheng Wen lowered his head and replied, "Yes."

Jian Qing looked inside, not even tiles, but the most primitive concrete floor, with a bed, a cabinet, a table, a few chairs, and a stove by the window. A bigger house can be said to be a kitchen and a bedroom in one.

This is where people live?

"How did your family live in such a big house?"

Although Jian Qing didn't show it on the surface, there was a bit of unknowing disgust in his tone. Cheng Wen was inevitably a little embarrassed, but he still replied seriously, "Mom and Mom live in a small cubicle next to this place. Live with Ran Ran"

"Oh." Jian Qing nodded, her brows furrowed further, "Fortunately, you met me."

Otherwise, just relying on this fool, he could only live in this kind of place for the rest of his life.

Cheng Wen didn't understand what he meant, "Ah Qing, do you want to come in with me?"

"I won't go in, hurry up." Jian Qing said.

The inside was so dirty that there was not even a place to sit, Cheng Wen was not surprised by his answer, and entered the room alone.

He was worried that Jian Qing would get impatient after waiting outside for a long time, so he came out after a quick glance, and was going to see his parents before coming back to clean up.After locking the door, he turned to Jian Qing and said, "Ah Qing, I'm going to pay homage to my parents, are you going?"

"where?"

"Walk there for about 10 minutes." Cheng Wen whispered back to him.

Jian Qing was actually not very willing to go to that kind of unlucky place, but she was a little worried when she thought of those stinky kids who openly bullied men just now.

In case Cheng Wen meets them again, if someone picks up a stone and throws him, or pushes him, just because of this stupid man, he might really be bullied. .

"Let's go, I'll accompany you." Jian Qing said.

A small shop nearby sold incense and paper money. Cheng Wen went to buy some, then went to the car to take out the bouquet of flowers from the capital, and took Jian Qing to the village cemetery.

Naturally, the tombs here are not as elaborate as those in the capital, but they were cremated in a proper manner and a stele was erected.

Families spread out, and each family's grave was separated by a tree that could not be named. As soon as Cheng Wen stepped on this path, his eyes couldn't help turning red.

Jian Qing couldn't help feeling a little worried, she put her arms around his waist and said, "Are you okay?"

"It's all right." Cheng Wen pulled the corners of his mouth forcefully, and his heart was already full of blood and tears.

The closer he got to the tombstones of his parents, the heavier the guilt in the little fool's heart, and he was almost out of breath.

He still can't accept it now, it turns out that he was the chief culprit who killed his father.

When he was about to reach the end of the road, Cheng Wen stopped suddenly, looked at the two steles next to each other not far away, and said softly, "Here we are."

"I'll wait for you here." Jian Qing grabbed his palm.

Cheng Wen didn't have the courage to face them, even though his mother never blamed him for this incident when she was alive, and she didn't even tell him the truth when she left.

And it was precisely because of this that he felt broken, painful, and guilty.

He couldn't forgive himself.

Jian Qing's concerned eyes gave him a little strength, as if no matter what happened, he would stand behind him.

Even if he knew it was a lie, at this moment he was willing to indulge in his dream and pretend that Jian Qing loved him very much.

Then he has courage.

"Yeah." Cheng Wen smiled at him.

Then go to the parents.

The moment he knelt down in front of the stele, tears finally fell out of his eyes uncontrollably, Cheng Wen gently put the lily in his arms on the ground, and said in a hoarse voice.

"Mom and Dad, I'm back"

"sorry"

"Long time no see you guys"

"I miss you so much"

"Ran Ran already told me about that."

"I'm sorry Dad, I did such a willful thing when I was a child"

"sorry Sorry"

"If only I was the one who died at that time"

"You can live happily, I am the one who ruined this family"

"sorry"

"sorry"

"sorry"

"Mom and Dad, I'm sorry for you"

Cheng Wen's thin body trembled, and he wept uncontrollably.

After a while, he gradually calmed down, weeping silently, stretched out his thin hand to touch the stone tablet belonging to his mother on the left, and stroked the uneven inscription with his fingertips, whispering, " I really want to accompany you guys."

"I am pretty tired"

"mother"

"If only you were still here"

"I really miss you so much"

"I went to find you last night and wanted to talk to you, but it was so dark that I couldn't see the stars."

"Are you angry with me too? That's why you hide and don't want to see me"

"Don't be angry, okay, if you don't like me, no one in this world will like me"

"I thought that if I jumped off the bridge, I would be able to see you and Dad, and apologize to you."

"But I don't dare." Cheng Wen said, stretched out his hand to caress his swollen abdomen, and choked up, "Look, mom, I have a baby."

"If I die, the baby will be gone"

"I don't want to..."

"He is like me, no one likes him, if I don't love him, no one will love him"

"I want to raise him well"

"I know I'm useless and I can't give him a warm home, but I will definitely love him very much"

"Mom, you told me that if you meet someone you love, you must hold each other's hand tightly and never let go."

"I tried my best"

"But I really can't hold on"

"He doesn't like me, I can't help it"

"Mom, did you see that he came with me today, his name is Jian Qing, and he is the baby's father."

"I didn't seduce him. I thought he liked me at first, so I was with him"

"I hope he will be happy with Ran Ran."

"I will hide away and not disturb their lives"

"Mom, don't be angry with me, I really didn't mean to"

The sky is getting darker, the wind is blowing, the leaves are rustling, and the wilderness near the night is somewhat depressed, and the whistling sound seems to be the response of the dead parents to him.

Cheng Wen wiped the tears from his face, forced a smile and said, "It's getting late, I have to go first."

"From today, I will live at home, and I will visit you often in the future."

"Goodbye Mom and Dad"

He supported his stomach with one hand, bent down clumsily and kowtowed three times. When he got up, he almost collapsed because he knelt for too long, which surprised Jian Qing.

Fortunately, the man held onto the stele and walked towards him after standing still.

Just now Jian Qing only saw Cheng Wen's back trembling non-stop, knew that he was crying, but didn't hear what he said, now seeing his red and swollen eyes, he couldn't help worrying.

"are you OK?"

"Ah Qing" Cheng Wen looked at him, tears suddenly fell, "Can you hug me again?"

Jian Qing frowned, not understanding why the man was so abnormal these two days, but he still hugged him into his arms, "What's wrong with you?"

Cheng Wen slowly wrapped his arms around his waist, and said in a hoarse voice, "Ah Qing, I like you"

"I know." Jian Qing became more and more confused, but the man's frank confession of love was quite useful to him.

"You and Ran Ran must be happy," Cheng Wen murmured.

"What are you talking about?" Jian Qing realized something was wrong at this moment, let go of the man, and stared at him with a little scrutiny.