Love him deep into bone marrow Jian Hanfeng Chengyou

It was past dinner time, and Yin Jingnan hadn't come back yet, so Xiaoyan couldn't help feeling worried.

He sat at the dining table with his mobile phone on the table, hesitated for a long time but didn't have the courage to make a call.

After all, the two of them have become like this.

After the nanny cleaned up the kitchen, she went back to her room to rest. Snow was falling slowly outside the window, and Xiaoyan was the only one in the huge living room.

I don't know how long I sat there, when Xiaoyan was about to pick up his phone, there was the sound of a car driving into the courtyard outside.

He stood up from the chair suddenly, ran over to open the door, but held back when he reached the door, withdrew his hand from the doorknob, and stepped aside.

At this moment of hesitation, people outside had already arrived at the door, Xiaoyan vaguely heard someone talking to Yin Jingnan, before he could react, the door opened, and Lin Yi walked in with Yin Jingnan who was drunk and fainted.

With a height of 1.8 meters, he was not short among men, but it was very difficult to support Yin Jingnan who was nearly 1.9 meters tall.

"Do not touch me……"

Lin Yi kicked Yin Jingnan angrily, panting from exhaustion, "Oh! Stop making trouble!"

Now that Yin Jingnan was much more honest, he raised his drooping head to look at Lin Yi, and he didn't know where he was cramped, so he pushed him against the wall with all his strength, in a standard wall-dong posture.

Lin Yi's back hurt so badly, and she was about to scold her, when she saw Yin Jingnan buried her face in his shoulder and rubbed it, then raised her blood-red eyes, and said aggrievedly.

"Don't be angry... I know I was wrong."

"I like you."

Lin Yi was stunned, and quickly realized that Yin Jingnan had been drunk and misunderstood the wrong person, and shouted at Xiaoyan who was standing blankly by the side.

"Why are you standing there, come and help your cousin."

Xiaoyan nodded hastily, and hurried over, reaching out his hand to support Yin Jingnan, but he pushed it away as soon as he touched it.

"Do not touch me."

"roll."

Xiaoyan was pushed back a few steps, and hit the cabinet in the entrance with his back, his face immediately turned pale, and he bent down holding his stomach.

Lin Yi was stunned, "Hey, are you okay?"

The pain in the stomach was faint, but he could still hold it back, Xiaoyan shook his head dripping with cold sweat, and forced himself to stand up straight.

Seeing him like this, Lin Yi didn't dare to command him anymore, "Forget it, let me do it."

Yin Jingnan couldn't open his eyes wide at the moment, and couldn't recognize a person or a ghost. Lin Yi gritted his teeth and helped him up the stairs.

After finally getting him onto the bed, Lin Yi put her hands on her hips and breathed a sigh of relief, and ran to the bathroom to wipe Yin Jingnan's face with a towel soaked in water.

Xiaoyan stood at the door watching this scene, her chest felt very tight.

Even though I knew it all, I still felt a little uncomfortable seeing them in good condition.

Lin Yi noticed the boy at the door, and seeing his red eyes, couldn't help asking.

"What's with you?"

Xiaoyan shook his head and raised his hand to gesture.

"what……"

Do you need help?

Lin Yi smiled, "No need, go and rest."

"I'll just take care of him."

Xiaoyan's eyes turned to the sleeping Yin Jingnan, looked at him for a while, nodded, and gestured to Lin Yi.

That troubles you.

"No trouble."

Lin Yi knew the relationship between Yin Jingnan and Xiaoyan. From the first time he came back here, he felt that the "cousin" Yin Jingnan said was not just a cousin.

Later, he went to check Xiaoyan, and he picked it up on the side of the road, presumably it was a normal nurturing relationship.

It's just that the boy seems to have moved his heart.

Out of selfishness, he didn't intend to take the initiative to explain what happened tonight.

Xiaoyan had no excuse to stay any longer, and turned back to the room.

Lin Yi helped Yin Jingnan take off his coat and shoes and socks, covered him with a quilt, and left.

Yin Jingnan woke up in the middle of the night, taking advantage of his dizzy mind, went to Xiaoyan's room in the dark, and touched his bed.

Xiaoyan knew it was him when Yin Jingnan came in, he was familiar with his footsteps, his breathing, his smell, everything about him, and most importantly, Xiaoyan didn't fall asleep at all.

Yin Jingnan hugged Xiaoyan from behind, Xiaoyan did not refuse, he let himself lie in this generous and warm embrace, for the last time.

At daybreak, Xiaoyan turned around lightly, drawing Yin Jingnan's resolute and stern outline with his eyes in the dim light outside.

He stretched out his hand, and gently stroked the hair on his forehead like Yin Jingnan had done to him many times.

Yin Jingnan was in a deep sleep, and he didn't know when, as long as Xiaoyan was by his side, he would feel at ease.

But for Xiaoyan, he could no longer stay by Yin Jingnan's side.

He has to go.

It's not because I don't love anymore, it's because I love that I choose to fulfill.

Xiaoyan packed his luggage last night, he only took a few warm clothes and a few hundred dollars in the drawer.

Yin Jingnan would withdraw [-] cash to Xiaoyan every month, and he never treated him badly in life. Xiaoyan knew that he lived and lived for nothing here for more than a year, and it was not very good when he left without even saying a word.

But if he really had to wait for Yin Jingnan to wake up, and then tell him that he was leaving, he might not be able to leave.

He will definitely be reluctant.

So Xiaoyan left a letter, which was also written last night, and was originally going to be placed on the dining table downstairs. Since Yin Jingnan was here, Xiaoyan took the letter out from under the pillow and put it next to Yin Jingnan's pillow.

After doing all this, Xiaoyan should leave.

A little bit reluctant, he hesitated and stood in front of the bed, bent down and kissed Yin Jingnan's lips.

Afraid of waking him up, he restrained himself and only touched him lightly. He made up his mind, picked up the suitcase, turned and left the room.

At five o'clock in the morning, the nanny was still sound asleep. Xiaoyan tried not to make a sound when he went downstairs. He didn't turn on the light in the living room. He stopped at the entrance and looked around. He paused for nearly 2 minutes before turning around and gently turning the doorknob. , left the home where he lived for more than a year.

He's going to wander again.

The beautiful villa is located under the silent and dark sky. Xiaoyan once thought that there would always be shelter from the wind and rain for him, but now thinking about it is all a dream.

Time to end.

As for where to go, Xiaoyan didn't know either.

Take it one step at a time.

He withdrew his gaze and walked slowly outside the community. The guard saw Xiaoyan and asked if he was going out so early in the morning to catch the morning flight.

Xiaoyan smiled, neither saying yes nor no.

The consequence of a hangover is that the biological clock is disturbed. Yin Jingnan didn't wake up until 10 o'clock. The sun was too hot outside. He got up with his eyes squinted and found himself in Xiaoyan's room.

The headache was severe, and the memory of last night was broken, apart from meeting Lin Yi at the bar, he didn't even remember how he got back.

Yin Jingnan frowned, making sure that he was the only one in the room, dragged his limp and tired body, washed his face, dressed neatly, and went downstairs.

The nanny is cleaning the living room.

"Sir, you are awake."

"En." Yin Jingnan nodded.

"What about Xiaoyan?"

The nanny was stunned, stopped mopping the floor and straightened up, "Isn't Xiaoyan with you?"

"He didn't come down this morning. It happened to be Saturday. I thought you two were sleeping late together, so I didn't call you."

Yin Jingnan suddenly had a bad feeling in his heart, frowned and said, "Xiaoyan is not with me."

"Huh?..." The nanny looked puzzled.

Yin Jingnan turned around and ran upstairs, calling Xiaoyan's name to search the room, and finally found the letter by the bedside in the bedroom.

A white envelope with three words written on it.

Anan (closed)

Yin Jingnan's heart skipped a beat, his face suddenly became ugly, and he hurriedly picked up the letter and opened the envelope.

It's Xiaoyan's handwriting, which is very different from his impression as a person. There is a coolness in the vigorous and powerful strokes, but the words inside are warm.

[Anan:

I'm glad I can call you that. If I could talk, I'd like to talk to you every day by your side.

Too bad I won't, and you don't want to hear it either.

I am very happy to meet you. After wandering outside for so long, I thought I would be like this all my life. It was you who made me feel that people can have so much happiness in life.

It was you who let me know that happiness has a time limit.

But I am very satisfied.

I thought about giving you a smile and saying thank you frankly when I said goodbye, but after hesitating for several days, I found that I still didn't have the courage.

I am too timid.

Don't worry, I will live on, even if it's for the baby.

I heard that the scenery in Yunnan is very beautiful. I want to go and have a look. If there is no accident, I probably won't come back.

I will live a good life and work hard to make money. If there is a chance to meet again, I hope that next time we meet, you can be happier and stop being angry all the time.

I want to forget you as soon as possible.

Someday if you and Lin Yi are going to get married, I won't attend the wedding.

Anan, I wish you happiness.

Don't come to me, I will take care of myself, and you should take care of yourself too.

don't read. 】

Looking at what he said, Yin Jingnan almost crumbled the letter paper in his hand. He didn't expect Xiaoyan to leave without saying goodbye. He took out his mobile phone in a panic and wanted to call the other party, but suddenly found a man lying quietly on the bedside table. Only black cell phone.

It was Xiaoyan's, and he didn't even take his mobile phone with him.

It seems that he is determined to cut off contact with him.

Only then did Yin Jingnan realize the seriousness of the matter. Holding the letter, he turned around and ran downstairs.

Seeing Yin Jingnan's haste and pale face, the nanny expressed concern.

"Hey, sir, I found Xiaoyan..."

Before he finished speaking, Yin Jingnan ran out, and the door was closed with a 'bang'.

He drove to the train station.

Xiaoyan said a long time ago that he wanted to go to Yunnan to see the scenery. He said that the sky there is very blue, and if he can snuggle up with the one he loves, it must be very warm.

But Yin Jingnan didn't like him at that time. To be precise, he hadn't found out what he wanted. He was very unhappy after hearing these hints from Mingli, and told Xiaoyan not to think about it, you are still young.

A sentence of "you are still young" is trying to block all the thoughts of the other party back.

Yin Jingnan thought, it would be great if he took Xiaoyan to Yunnan to see the scenery at that time, it would be enough if time squeezed, but he just didn't think it was necessary.