Love him deep into bone marrow Jian Hanfeng Chengyou

Yin Jingnan held Xiaoyan's hand, "...I don't hate you."

The sound was not annoying, it seemed to contain tenderness, the corners of Xiaoyan's eyes were red, and his chest heaved abnormally, he withdrew his hand, closed his eyes, tried to stabilize his emotions before opening them, and gestured.

Don't lie to me.

you are always like this.

When Xiaoyan was still awake, Yin Jingnan wanted to say a thousand words to him, and was determined to speak out what was in his heart, but now facing his fragile and sad eyes, Yin Jingnan suddenly found it difficult to speak, and bowed his head dejectedly.

"Xiaoyan..."

How can the damage be easily erased by a word of like?

Xiaoyan didn't mean to blame Yin Jingnan, he just didn't understand what the other party was thinking. He didn't understand it at first, and he still doesn't understand it now.

The man she loves so much showed such a frustrated expression in front of her, Xiaoyan's heart softened just by looking at it.

He stretched out his hand and pulled Yin Jingnan's sleeve, and gestured.

"what……"

You are a good man, I know that.

You are nice to me, not because you like me, but because I am weak, pitiful, and need help.

I am too greedy, I not only want your good, but also you.

But now, I would rather you never rescued me and let me wander outside and fend for myself.

I am in pain.

I don't blame you, you let me go, okay?

Yin Jingnan looked at the boy's pale face, his eyes were red, "I won't let go."

Xiaoyan looked away in disappointment, tears rolled down from the corners of his eyes, and gestured.

"what……"

I am tired of living.

Yin Jingnan bent over to Xiaoyan, wiped away his tears with his palm, and said in a hoarse voice.

"I'll be with you from now on."

Xiaoyan choked up in a low voice, and gestured.

We've been living together, but I've always been alone.

Yin Jingnan's heart was pierced, and he held his face, "I know, I won't make you feel lonely in the future, I...I promise."

"I will spend a lot of time with you, and I won't be angry with you anymore, and I will be cold to you, I promise."

"Do not cry……"

On the contrary, Xiaoyan cried more and more out of control, as if wanting to vent all the pain and grievances these days, tears poured down like rain.

Yin Jingnan's kiss fell on Xiaoyan's forehead, and he coaxed him tirelessly. Five or six minutes later, Xiaoyan gradually calmed down.

When he was crying, he looked popular, unlike now, his eyes seemed to be filled with a dead sea, lifeless.

Yin Jingnan sat down beside the bed and gently held his hand.

"Xiaoyan, you have a baby."

Xiaoyan didn't respond at first, and after two seconds, he turned to look at Yin Jingnan in a daze.

Yin Jingnan gave him a smile, "The doctor said, you have a baby."

Xiaoyan's breathing was slightly stagnant.

Seeing him neither sad nor happy, Yin Jingnan said, "Aren't you happy?"

Xiaoyan didn't know whether to cry or laugh. When he decided to give up this relationship and himself, this child appeared.

He thought of the stupid things he had done all the time, and wanted to disappear in front of Yin Jingnan with shame.

He just felt that he was extremely ashamed and despicable.

Xiaoyan raised his hand to cover his eyes, and his body trembled slightly.

Yin Jingnan panicked, pulled Xiaoyan's hand away, and asked softly.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying again?"

"Don't you like children very much?"

Xiaoyan wiped away her tears, raised her hand and gestured.

It was I who punctured the condom in the drawer.

Yin Jingnan was stunned, and quickly reacted, smiling.

"So it is."

Yin Jingnan's reaction was beyond Xiaoyan's expectation. In his imagination, Yin Jingnan should be furious and furious, so he should just walk away.

After all, he did such a despicable and shameless thing.

Xiaoyan gestured in a daze.

Don't you blame me.

Yin Jingnan didn't want to put too much pressure on Xiaoyan, although he was puzzled, he didn't ask any further questions and touched his face.

"I don't blame you, I am also very happy to have a child."

Xiaoyan's vision was easily blurred, and he gestured.

"what……"

You said that Yangyang will come back to us.

I want him back.

After the baby was born, although you didn't come to see me very much, you still smiled at me. Unlike now, you are always angry and hate me. I think, maybe when the baby comes back, you may like me.

Yin Jingnan didn't expect Xiaoyan to think so much, but he himself was like an ostrich, always refusing to face his own thoughts, and let him bear so much alone.

He suppressed the boredom in his heart and was about to speak when Xiaoyan gestured again.

"what……"

I also thought about the second outcome.

You know you're going to be pissed off later and throw me out.

fair enough.

I'm too cowardly, it's not that difficult for you to make the decision.

After all, we're long overdue.

It's because he is too stubborn, even if he can only have a little physical contact with Yin Jingnan, he can be complacent for a long time, so he never rejects him, even though he understands that such a relationship is unhealthy and unfair.

Yin Jingnan frowned slightly, and smiled wryly.

Xiaoyan is not cowardly, he is so bold, he can jump off such a high floor without any hesitation.

Thinking of that scene in the morning, Yin Jingnan felt suffocated.

"Originally, I did not plan to have a child in the near future, because you are still young and your body has not fully recovered."

Xiaoyan was silent, waiting for him to continue.

Yin Jingnan lowered his eyes.

"I'm angry all the time."

"I think you are getting too close to your classmates. I have seen you hug each other intimately several times. I am...very angry."

Confusion appeared in Xiaoyan's eyes, and his hands on the quilt slightly tightened.

Obviously, there was someone he was familiar with before him, but he couldn't understand what he said.

Yin Jingnan raised his head, and there was a completely unfamiliar emotion in Xiaoyan's eyes, uneasy, serious, and struggling, "Xiaoyan... I don't know when, I have a special feeling for you, not a brother, but a lover. "

"I like you...do you still want to be with me?"

Xiaoyan came back to his senses, mechanically raised his hand and gestured.

"what……"

What are you talking about.

Yin Jingnan looked determined, and said in a low voice.

"I was serious."

"I never hated you. During this period of time, I wanted to reconcile with you many times, but when I thought of you and Ye Binyuan... I couldn't be angry. I did a lot of excessive things. I'm sorry."

"I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm obviously not an unreasonable person, but when encountering such a thing, I will become unreasonable, and I can't even control my emotions..."

Yin Jingnan looked up at Xiaoyan, the corners of his eyes were slightly red.

"I promise, I won't do it in the future, let's stay together, okay...?"

Xiaoyan's nose felt sore, he couldn't breathe and became heavy, he gestured.

Are you telling the truth?

Yin Jingnan nodded, "Well, it's true."

"I want to be with you forever."

"From now on, I only like you alone, and no one else."

Xiaoyan suspects that he is dreaming, or that he is actually dead. All of these are imaginary. He heard that when a person’s life ends, the best past in his life will appear before his eyes. The best thing in his memory is being with Yin Jingnan It's time.

Even when it hurts a lot.

He was unwilling to let go of the opportunity in front of him, and gestured with tears in his eyes.

Then what do you like about me.

Yin Jingnan wiped away tears for him with a smile, "I like your gentleness, understanding, and beautiful appearance. When you smile, you look like a little angel falling from the sky. I like the way you look at me, I like when you talk to me, I like when you sleep at night The way you crawl into my arms unconsciously, like you always like to rely on me."

"I like the way you love me."

Xiaoyan was obviously crying, but couldn't help laughing, and gestured.

But I can't speak.

"But I know what you want to express."

"Just like now, it's enough to be together and quietly listen to each other's thoughts."

"I like this." Yin Jingnan lowered his head and kissed Xiaoyan's eyelids, his deep voice contained sincerity without impurities.

Xiaoyan still couldn't believe it was real, so he gently pushed the other party away and gestured.

But you didn't like listening to me a lot of times before.

Yin Jing leaned forward again, and pressed the tip of his nose against Xiaoyan's, "I'm sorry, I know I was wrong."

Xiaoyan didn't speak, and the two just watched each other quietly, seeing their own shadows in each other's eyes.

The atmosphere in the house gradually began to change, from the final coldness to warmth.

Xiaoyan closed her eyes, stretched out her hand to hook Yin Jingnan's neck, and brought her lips up to touch Yin Jingnan's neck lightly.

There is such a sentence, it is enough.

Yin Jingnan quickly realized that he turned his back on the guest, and placed his big palm on the back of Xiaoyan's head to kiss her softly, tenderly and affectionately.

About 30 seconds later, Yin Jingnan let him go, kissed away the remaining tears in the corner of Xiaoyan's eyes, and said in a warm voice.

"Are you hungry?"

Xiaoyan nodded, he was really hungry.

After a phone call, the assistant delivered the dinner. It was packaged by a nearby hotel. It was nutritious and hearty. Yin Jingnan put a piece of Peking duck into Xiaoyan's bowl, and Xiaoyan put it in his mouth. After chewing it twice, he retched.

Yin Jingnan quickly tore a piece of paper and handed it to him, "How long have you been pregnant?"

Xiaoyan shook his head weakly.

In fact, I have always had a bad appetite, and I have had such a situation before, but I was depressed all day long, so I didn't think about it.

Seeing his pale face, Yin Jingnan blamed himself even more.

"I'm sorry, I didn't pay enough attention to you."

Xiaoyan raised his hand and smiled.

"what……"

It doesn't matter, we will be happy together in the future.

I have a bad memory, and it is easy to forget the past.

Yin Jingnan was amused by him, feeling sore and astringent in his heart, he put a bowl of degreased chicken soup by Xiaoyan's hand.

"Let's drink the soup, this one is lighter."

"The doctor said you need nutritional supplements."

Xiaoyan nodded, and just picked it up and took a sip when Yin Jingnan's cell phone rang suddenly, and the caller ID showed Cheng Wen.

He and Cheng Wen were innocent, and there was nothing to hide, so he picked up the phone, and the soft voice of a little fool came out of the receiver immediately.

"Brother Jingnan, what are you doing?"

Xiaoyan paused, looked at Yin Jingnan helplessly, then pretended to be indifferent and lowered his head to continue drinking soup.