Love him deep into bone marrow Jian Hanfeng Chengyou

When tidying up the study before, the little mute saw a photo on Yin Jingnan's desk.

It looks like a candid shot, the handsome man inside is holding a lump of sweet cotton candy, smiling happily.

The photos are framed in exquisite mahogany frames and placed prominently on the table.

I couldn't help picking it up and looking at it, but Yin Jingnan just came in and found it. Yin Jingnan got very angry with him that day and didn't allow him to enter the study after that.

The little mute vaguely understood that he was someone very important to Yin Jingnan.

He was just picked up from the side of the road, maybe no different from a kitten or a puppy, so he is not qualified to ask, and even if he wanted to ask, he couldn't speak at all.

Later, when we were dining together, I accidentally saw all kinds of photos of that person in Yin Jingnan's photo album. His eyes were so focused on the sad or smiling faces of the men in the photos that he didn't notice the people around him. People are also watching him.

Yin Jingnan went upstairs, and the house was quiet again.

Just like when he was alone at home.

The little mute sorted out the folds on the apron in a daze, went into the kitchen, took out the food in the insulated box, ate a few mouthfuls, and then put it in the refrigerator.

It took some time to tidy up the kitchen, and it was already 11 o'clock at night when he went upstairs. He gently opened the bedroom door. Yin Jingnan was lying on the bed in gray silk pajamas, with his eyes closed, as if he had fallen asleep.

The warm light from the bedside table lamp softly outlines Yin Jingnan's cold and hard outline.

At least not as inaccessible as usual.

The little mute silently put the hangover soup in a porcelain bowl on the bedside table, and stared at Yin Jingnan in a daze.

Only then can you look at him like this without any scruples.

Yin Jingnan was always too busy on weekdays, and had very little time at home. Later, Yin Jingnan began to avoid him intentionally or unintentionally.The little mute found that the more he showed that he liked him, the colder Yin Jingnan would be.

He was already working hard to hide the light in his eyes, and even secretly practiced in front of the mirror, not to be so joyful and eager when he saw each other, Yin Jingnan didn't like him like that.

But so far he hasn't done it.

He is so incompetent.

Can't even do such a simple thing.

No wonder the other party began to loathe his existence.

The little mute sat down by the bed, his eyes traced Yin Jingnan's stiff facial features, and finally fell on the sharp-lipped mouth.

Perhaps it was because of drinking that she looked extraordinarily red.

The person who was obviously drunk was Yin Jingnan, and even the little mute seemed to be dazzled by the smell of alcohol, and he wanted to take this opportunity to get close to him.

Even if it's just a light kiss.

The hands on the legs tightened slightly, the little dumb man's Adam's apple twitched, and he boldly bent down. Just when his breath was about to collide with the opponent, Yin Jingnan opened his eyes.

His eyes were so dark that he didn't look like a drunk person at all.

The little mute was like a frightened bird, and bounced away from Yin Jingnan's side. He stood up, his face full of panic and bewilderment, and the only reason left was that he remembered to pick up the hangover soup on the bedside table and hand it to Yin Jingnan, "ah ..."

Everything seems to be concealed.

Yin Jingnan sat up, his eyes fell on the little mute's huge belly, and he called him in a deep voice.

"Xiaoyan."

I don't know since when, the two have become so estranged.

Obviously Yin Jingnan took good care of him at first, and would show him a warm smile.

The little mute withdrew his hand holding the soup stiffly.

"From today onwards, let's sleep in separate rooms." Yin Jingnan frowned and said, his eyes never left his stomach when he spoke.

It has been more than seven months, and the boy looks too young, and the belly grows on his body, which is really a bit abrupt.

But the boy will indeed be the father of a child in the near future.

Even though he looks so thin and his shoulders are so weak.

The little mute seldom cried, but at this time he couldn't control it. There was a mournful voice in his throat, as if he was begging, "Ah..."

Tears rolled down like broken beads.

Yin Jingnan had a severe headache and his brows furrowed even deeper. He rubbed his temple with his right hand and said, "We shouldn't have slept together in the first place."

"The appearance of this child was a mistake, and it cannot continue to be wrong."

"You'd better live in the next room."

The little mute knew that it was because Yin Jingnan found out that he had done something bad just now, so the other party got angry.

He shouldn't be bold enough to kiss him, it's already a gift from heaven to be able to see each other often, to be able to sleep on the same bed, and to be able to peek at each other unscrupulously once in a while.

It's because he is too greedy, he wants more after getting these, wants to be close to the other party, and hopes that the other party will not always be so far away from him when sleeping, even if he can hug him occasionally.

After all, winter in Beijing is so cold.

The hangover soup slipped from the mute fingertips to the floor, the porcelain bowl was broken into pieces, and the back of his hand was hot red. He didn't care about these things, he bent over clumsily and grabbed Yin Jingnan's arm, crying silently, and begged in a panic, "Ah... "

"what……"

He didn't dare anymore, and he wouldn't dare again in the future.

Yin Jingnan looked at him and said in a low voice, "Xiaoyan, don't do this."

He has always been too soft-hearted, compromising again and again to make things develop to this point.

Xiaoyan is too dependent on him.

This is not a good thing.

When he first brought him home, he was still very vigilant, and within a few days he became very clingy. Although he couldn't speak, Yin Jingnan felt helpless just by his actions.

Obviously arranged a room for him, it was just next door, but Xiaoyan didn't want to sleep, and went to sit at the door of his room every night until dawn.

Yin Jingnan knew that he lacked a sense of security. He had been wandering outside for a long time and was afraid of being abandoned.

The boy was very obedient, but he was extremely stubborn on this point. Yin Jingnan had no choice but to let him come in and sleep with him, and wait for him to get used to it before making another plan.

The two of them slept on the same bed, covered each with their own quilts, and lived in peace.

Until he found out what the little mute had in mind for him.

The boy who just fell in love even has the purest eyes, and all the emotions are clearly written in it, and he loves to laugh when he sees Yin Jingnan.

It's really nothing.

For Yin Jingnan, Xiaoyan is just a younger brother, and helping him is like helping a cat or dog on the street. He will take good care of him until he finds his family, but he will never respond to this relationship.

Xiaoyan is still very young, he will have better choices in the future, maybe he will marry a lovely girl and have children, and have a happy family.

If he doesn't respond, the other party may not even understand what liking is.

The word "drunken sex" shattered Yin Jingnan's fantasy.

The night was very dark that night, when he came back from the entertainment, Xiaoyan greeted him as usual, and quickly took out the slippers from the shoe cabinet to change for him.

The boy bent down to help him take off his shoes, and the white sweater lifted up, revealing his thin white waist and sunken waist.

Xiaoyan and Cheng Wen are really similar, not in terms of appearance, but in feeling. They are both cute and quiet. Yin Jingnan has to admit that it is precisely because of this that he brought him back from the outside without hesitation.

But I just feel sorry for him, and feel that he shouldn't be living outside, even having a full meal is a problem.

That night, he didn't know what was wrong with him, and as if in a daze, he lifted the bent man and pressed him against the wall. He remembered that the little mute was very scared at first, but he didn't resist, and finally cried in his arms.

He also cried like Cheng Wen, but he didn't look like it when he looked closely. The corners of Xiaoyan's eyes drooped slightly, and his facial features were deep and beautiful. When his eyes were red, he looked even more innocent and pitiful, but Yin Jingnan didn't soften his heart at all. Someone else.

He knew that the person under him was not Cheng Wen.

He is committing a crime.

It was alcohol that clouded his sane mind.

Yin Jingnan ran away the next morning, he couldn't face Xiaoyan's clear eyes, he could have rejected the other party bluntly, his indulgence made this pure relationship ambiguous.

At least Xiaoyan misunderstood.

Two days later when he returned home, Xiaoyan heard the movement and ran out of the house quickly, excitedly gestured to Yin Jingnan with his hands, the corners of his eyes were slightly red.

Yin Jingnan understood what he meant.

The little mute said he missed him and asked him where he had been these days.

Yin Jingnan couldn't tell him the truth, so he had to use the excuse of busy work to reply him.

Of course Xiaoyan believed him unconditionally, and happily went into the kitchen to prepare dinner. He probably thought that the two were already lovers, so he was very happy.

At the dinner table, Yin Jingnan spoke out what he was holding back in his heart.

He told the little mute that he was drunk that night and lost control.

He said he was sorry.

If you want to leave here, I can find a reliable family to adopt you, so you don't have to worry about your future life.

Xiaoyan focused on serving Yin Jingnan's food, he was stunned when he heard this, and looked at him blankly.

"Don't get me wrong, I just treat you as a younger brother."

"I'm very sorry."

"I'm really sorry."

Compared to deceiving the other party, Yin Jingnan is more willing to accept moral condemnation, and he does not want to make the same mistakes again and again.

Xiaoyan's eyes turned red, and she cried silently.

Yin Jingnan coaxed him for a long time before he was able to coax him, telling him that if he wanted to stay, he would stay and he would not drive him away.

Kittens that have been raised for a long time are suddenly given away to people, and they will have a stress response because they do not adapt to the environment, let alone people.

The difference is that humans are smarter and more sensible than kittens. They know that crying will be annoying, so they are quieter.

The little mute began to want to sleep alone.

A few months later, his belly was bulging and he was diagnosed as pregnant by a doctor.

From Yin Jingnan's eyes, he saw surprise, nervousness, annoyance, all kinds of complex emotions mixed together, but there was no joy.

The appearance of this child was not expected.

Xiaoyan understands.

His health was poor, and a miscarriage could be life-threatening, and the child was forced to stay.

Yin Jingnan became more and more indifferent.

To be precise, alienation.

Yin Jingnan was planning to go to France that day. He took care of everything in the country and was finally able to see Cheng Wen. Xiaoyan's sudden fainting disrupted his plan.

From the moment he learned of the existence of this child, he knew that there was no possibility between him and Cheng Wen.

He lost the qualification to love each other.

Xiaoyan's warm gaze made him feel heavy.

He can't guarantee whether he can give happiness to someone who doesn't love at all.

He had no choice but to be ruthless.

The author has something to say

In fact, I don’t think Brother Jingnan is a scumbag in the true sense (Manual dog head)