General's humble stand-in

The moonlight is faint, shrouding all kinds of desolation.The clear shadow under the moon has gone through several vicissitudes.Remnant dreams of the past, but recall a little bit of sadness.Time flies, would you like to see you again at the beginning of that year?

With an inaudible sigh, Shen Feng patted Tao Zhuo's thin shoulder lightly, "Go back and rest early, don't think too much."

Tao Zhuo didn't think too much about it, but his mind was so clouded that he couldn't keep up with his reactions.Shen Feng talked to him, and he was stunned for a while before he nodded numbly, turned around and walked into the tent.

Shen Feng helplessly pulled him back, "It's the other way around, your residence is on the left."

left?Taozhuo looked around blankly, but couldn't tell the direction.Shen Feng had no choice but to send him back to the camp, and watched him fall asleep before getting up and leaving.

The moonlight in the sky was cold, Shen Feng stopped and watched for a while.It is inevitable to feel emotional in this situation. If he had not been a doctor in the army that year, he might still be the young master Shen respected by everyone in Shengjing at this moment.

Suddenly someone grabbed his wrist tightly, and before Shen Feng could react, he was dragged vigorously to a dark and remote place.

"Cheng Ziyuan." Shen Feng shouted angrily in a low voice.

After standing still, Shen Feng pulled back his wrist angrily.Although the surroundings were dark and made it difficult to see clearly, Shen Feng could vaguely see the scarred mark on his wrist.

Still annoyed by the pain in his wrist, he was suddenly hugged tightly in his arms again.Almost suffocating, there is a kind of madness to rub Shen Feng to the bone.

For Cheng Ziyuan's forced dragging here in the middle of the night to show his love forcibly, Shen Feng felt bored and disgusted from the bottom of his heart.It's just that he was not as strong as Cheng Ziyuan, and after struggling for a long time, he was hugged tighter and tighter.

Simply giving up struggling, Shen Feng sneered, "Cheng Ziyuan, what do you want to do?"

It was obvious that Cheng Ziyuan's body froze, but he didn't make any sound for a long time.

What do you want to do?have no idea.He just couldn't wait to hold Shen Feng in his arms, as if only in this way could he completely fill the long-lost vacancy in his heart.

Cheng Ziyuan used to be impulsive, and he was also young and frivolous and undisciplined.But after getting married, Cheng Ziyuan seemed to be a different person, as if he had been buried in quicksand and suddenly settled down.At this moment, I don't know if it is impulsive or not, but only Shen Feng can stir Cheng Ziyuan's heart, making him unable to pretend to be calm.

"Let go of me." Shen Feng said coldly.

"Don't let go." It was very domineering like before, but he couldn't stop the trembling and panic in his tone. After all, he was no longer the same him.

Shen Feng laughed back in anger, the cold laughter made Cheng Ziyuan's whole body tremble slightly.

"If you don't let go on that day, I will accompany you into the abyss of hell. But on that day, you are newly married, and I have been ridiculed by the world. What did you tell me at that time?"

Shen Feng pretended to look back, "Oh, I remembered. Say it, let's go."

What could be more heart-wrenching than this memory?The painful Cheng Ziyuan could barely stand on his feet.He could only hug Shen Feng harder, even though it couldn't relieve the pain in his heart at all.

"So, what do you mean by telling me not to let go now? Do you want to take me back to face your parents and your beautiful wife? Or do you want to keep entangled with me in a sneaky way?"

— Cheng Ziyuan was speechless when he was asked, he neither thought about taking Shen Feng back to face the crowd, nor did he think about secretly entangled with him.He doesn't know what he wants, maybe he just wants to hold him like this, and hold him all the time, from the wild to the old.

"Brother Shen."

Cheng Ziyuan's voice trembled, but Shen Feng interrupted him as soon as he opened his mouth.

"Call Mr. Shen to be more pleasing to the ear, General Cheng."

Every word uttered from Shen Feng's mouth showed a sharp edge, piercing into Cheng Ziyuan's heart accurately.Cheng Ziyuan felt in a daze that the person in his arms was actually very heartless, and he did not hesitate to provoke the scars to make each other suffer again and again.

"How can you forgive me?"

Cheng Ziyuan's question made Shen Feng silent for a moment, he never thought of forgiving, nor did he think of continuing to pester.

Sticking to Cheng Ziyuan's ear, Shen Feng said lightly, "You die, or I die."

The warm breath curled around the ears, causing tingling pain along the cochlea all the way to the internal organs, crushing Cheng Ziyuan and making it almost impossible to breathe.

Cheng Ziyuan let go of Shen Feng little by little as if he couldn't bear it, the night was dim, but the tears in the corners of his eyes were shining clearly.

"Brother Shen, do you really hate me so much?"

Shen Feng pursed his lips and smiled, "You think too much, if I still hate, it proves that I still love. It has nothing to do with you, let it go."

What is more suffocating than love and hatred is probably not caring.

Seeing Shen Feng's leaving figure, Cheng Ziyuan knelt on the ground weakly.He thought about being disgusted, resented, and hated by Shen Feng, but he never thought about the feeling of being stripped from his heart by him and feeling so painful.

When Tao Zhuo woke up from the dream, it was already daylight, and he was having nightmares all night.Being ruthlessly abandoned again and again, from life to death, the blood and tears never stopped.

Half-opening his eyes, he vaguely saw Gu Yan sitting beside the bed.

Tao Zhuo stared blankly, laughing at how much he couldn't let go, it was him in the dream, and he was still him when he woke up, hallucinations appeared in his mind.

I closed my eyes again, but couldn't fall asleep after tossing and turning.He simply opened his eyes again, and saw that Gu Yan was still sitting on the edge of the bed with the same expression and posture.

Following Gu Yan's eyes blinking slightly, Tao Zhuo suddenly trembled.Perhaps, the person in front of him is not an illusion at all?

Soon, Tao Zhuo's suspicion was confirmed because Gu Yan spoke.

"Did you have a nightmare?"

Tao Zhuo hurriedly wanted to sit up, but was gently held down by Gu Yan, "Lie down and don't move around, your body is weak, take a good rest first."

It seems that it has been a long time since I heard Gu Yan talk to herself so gently, it is always a little unreal, Tao Zhuo shrinks into the quilt a little uncomfortably.

"I just came to see you." Gu Yan paused slightly, and said in a low voice, "Thank you for saving your life."

There is always a feeling of disappointment that expectations have failed, even though Tao Zhuo also knows that Gu Yan can't say anything other than thank you.

The fingertips hidden in the quilt gently scratched the warm palm, as if to relieve the loss and anxiety.Taozhuo whispered, "You're welcome, I..." At a loss for words, Taozhuo didn't know what to say.Say willingly?The weight of these four words is too heavy, I am afraid that Gu Yan will not be able to bear it, and it will bring pressure between him and Mo Zizhi.Say what should be done?Too hypocritical, he is neither his lover nor his general, so he should do what he should do.

There seemed to be nothing else to say except the polite greetings to each other, the camp was surprisingly quiet, and the eyes of the two never met from the beginning to the end.

Seeing that Tao Zhuo's temples were wet with sweat, Gu Yan subconsciously raised her hand to wipe Tao Zhuo, but the temperature of her skin seemed to burn him, so she suddenly withdrew her hand.

"Why do you want to save me?"

The voice was very soft, like a feather brushing against the ears, if Tao Zhuo hadn't been tense all the time, he wouldn't have heard Gu Yan's question.

Tao Zhuo sighed silently, and explained, "Because you also saved my life, I don't want to owe you."

Gu Yan frowned slightly, perhaps this was not the answer he wanted to hear.

With a helpless wry smile on her thin pale lips, Gu Yan asked, "So, are we cleared up again?"

One sentence is clear, it seems to extend the memory far, far.That round of sunset, that piece of icy and snowy land, don’t be afraid of those words, I’m a little worried about that sentence...

Tao Zhuo suppressed the soreness in the corners of his eyes, and nodded sullenly, "Well, it's clear again."

Gu Yan seemed to be in a daze, even his eyes were fixed on one point without moving.Suddenly, he raised his hand to cover Tao Zhuo's eyes.

All eyes were blocked, only a piece of light red light reflected the lines of Gu Yan's fingers, Tao Zhuo was taken aback, "What are you doing...?" It was soft, and the cool touch like the touch of a dragonfly on water quickly disappeared.

Tao Zhuo heard the sound of his own heartbeat about to break through his chest, the feeling of that moment was all too familiar.Even though his sight was blocked, Tao Zhuo knew that Gu Yan kissed him lightly just now.

Unable to hold back the tears in her eyes any longer, warm water droplets rolled over Gu Yan's palm.

"Are you kidding me?" Tao Zhuo cried.

You know that I love you, and I also know that you can't give me anything.I've already retreated, why are you still trying to provoke me?What is this, mercy?

alms?

Gu Yan's deep voice came from next to his ear, I'm sorry.

The hand covering the eyes moved away, but Tao Zhuo didn't want to open his eyes anymore.He heard the footsteps gradually drifting away, as if the distance between him and Gu Yan could never return to the original point.

What he left to Mo Zizhi was I love you, what he left to himself was just sorry.

Tao Zhuo raised his arm to cover his eyes, but finally slid down to the corner of his lips, vigorously wiping the traces left by Gu Yan.

Outside Shen Feng's tent, Mo Zizhi carefully sorted out the medicinal materials that Gu Chan had taken recently, with a solemn expression, talking to Shen Feng incongruously.

"This is the only ginseng left?"

Shen Feng nodded, "This was brought by Doctor Ge from Shengjing. There should be some in the back mountain, but it's too dangerous to go too deep. You don't have to worry, Gu Yan and Tao Zhuo are fine. Enough for them to condition their bodies."

Mo Zizhi didn't respond anymore, just happened to notice Gu Yan's figure out of the corner of his eye, and hastily put down the herbs in his hand to meet him.

Seeing Mo Zikeng approaching, Gu Yan blinked away the soreness in the corners of her eyes, and forced a gentle smile.

"You told him all about it?" Mo Ziji asked in a low voice.

"Yeah." Gu Zha nodded, showing a trace of melancholy inadvertently, "There is no need to say too much, he knows the relationship between you and me, and he won't get entangled too much just because of saving me."

Mo Zikeng lowered his eyes, his eyes always showing anxiety, "Actually, I should thank him, but..."

"It's okay." Gu Yan put his hands on Mo Zies' shoulders, "I know you don't like seeing him very much, so don't force it."

"Then, when will he leave the barracks?" Mo Zikeng's tone was anxious.

Gu Yan was speechless for a moment, because he never mentioned the matter of letting Tao Zhuo leave.

Facing Tao Zhuo just now, he swallowed the words a few times, although Gu Yan didn't want to admit it, but he did have a bit of reluctance in his heart.