touch the back of the unknown

There were too many people in front of the class schedule posted at the school gate, I struggled to squeeze forward, a girl I met gave me a blank look, I looked at her big face and pockmarked face, and her face was full of embarrassment. With a disgusted expression, he couldn't help but spit in his heart.

My class has not changed, so I started to look for Yan Wu's name, he also learned, and finally I was disappointed to see that his class was on the fifth floor.

Fifth floor, fifth floor, fifth floor... My legs, my legs, my legs...

There is no reason to walk together after school and have dinner together at night.

In fact, I can wait for him at the stairs.

But after thinking about it, I still rejected this choice. The risk was too great. I didn't want Yan Wu to realize anything, and this kind of approach was not something I would do.I've never been a clingy person or stalking voyeurism.

But this by no means means that I will allow myself not to see Yan Wu for several weeks...

joke!Am I the kind of person who gives up easily! ?

Unfortunately I am.

I pedaled my bike and rode home slowly. The fast boy next to me gave me a contemptuous glance and sped away. I despised him in my heart. Sooner or later, my knees would be worse than mine one day after riding so fast.

The new class is ordinary and unremarkable, and I successfully reduced my sense of existence to a negative value once again.There are no more than three people I know in the class.

I should just pass my three years of high school in an ordinary way, I am lucky.

But the facts have proved that what you are afraid of will come.

In the evening self-study that day, my whole body almost collapsed.

That long-lost feeling is back.

I regret not taking the medicine. The doctor is right, I should take the medicine on time to control it.As the patients on the Internet said, you can't stop the medicine, you can't stop the medicine.

You can't stop the medicine, man!

I covered my head and lay on the table, picked up the pen and put it down with trembling hands, overwhelming negative emotions flooded in, my heart was hurting, my stomach was twitching, my trachea smelled sweet, and my knees screamed not to be outdone.

So sad.

So sad.

So sad

I clenched my fist tightly, and then loosened it. I couldn't control my hands anymore, they were useless at all.It's hot and dry tonight, but I feel chills all over my body, like being surrounded by ice cubes.Every strand of hair is pulling, the cries and screams of countless people penetrate my eardrums, and frequencies that I cannot hear are also stimulating my brain, and the cold flames are sweeping and whistling inside the body, burning My skin, my consciousness half-frozen in despair.

Mr. Russell wrote why he lived for love, knowledge, and sympathy.

At this moment, I am so uncomfortable that I want to die, but I don't want to die at all.

I haven't had love yet.

My brain is dazed, in the air,

The school bell rang.

I took a deep breath, raised my legs, dragged my heavy heart, and walked all the way to the fifth floor.

Yan Wu was sitting on the seat, reading a book.

I watched him from outside the classroom.

As if everything had died, the world was finally quiet.

I looked at his figure silently, stood for a while, then turned and left.

You can't take him as a tranquilizer.Consciousness warns me.

you forgot?The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. You can't bear it anymore, and you will collapse emotionally if nothing happens.If one day he betrays your expectations, then you are finished, completely finished.

At that time, no one can save you.

Imagine if he broke up with you one day, or had a lover.

I tried to imagine the picture of him smiling and greeting me with another person holding hands, I responded to him with a smile, he walked past me, my expression gradually changed, my pupils dilated, my mind was broken into powder, Consciousness disappears, leaving only red in the world.

I took you for salvation, and you cast me into hell.

I shivered.

You can't sink into it, you know.

When that day comes, you will either kill yourself or him.There is no difference between the two.

Yes, I will kill him, I think.When he has a lover, I will kill his lover too.In one night, in a place without monitoring, I would stun them separately, and then take them home, in the bathroom, cut them into more than 100 pieces, pack them in sacks, clean up the blood, and then transport them to the wilderness without fail. In the river of people, put stones and throw them down.

Then I would jump off the building, or use gas, to kill myself.

Then I'm done, I thought.

You can't tolerate Yan Wu's betrayal of you. What you can't accept the most is deception and betrayal. Consciousness persuades me, so don't have any expectations.

I don't want to gamble again.I gambled once and lost everything.

I also gambled a second time, and lost even worse in the end.

I also gambled the third and fourth times, and none of them won.I've never been a good gambler.

I thought, and went home alone in the dark.

Unforeseen disasters.

I think.

Things are not going well today.

I sighed and watched the boy in front get out of the car and walk towards me.

A bad fight was inevitable.

I should just look at the almanac before going out.

After school in the morning, there was a lot of traffic. I accidentally left a mountain bike in front of me, so the boy riding the bike got off the bike, looking troubled.A few people he knew next to him also got out of the car.

The people around gradually realized what was going on and retreated one after another.

I want to try to give myself such a chance...

"The classmate... sorry, I..."

Not finished yet.

His fist greeted me in the face.

At that time, I thought he was only doing it for me to leave his car, but later I found out that he and the other people were the ones who had a good relationship with Shen Yu and were beaten into the hospital by Yan Wu.They knew that I had a good relationship with Yan Wu, so they had the opportunity at this time.

They were also the ones who sent Yan Wu to the hospital.

It's a pity I didn't know it at the time, or I wouldn't have gripped and let go of the knife in my pocket.

The punch was so hard that my glasses flew out, and I felt half of my face swell up, although it wasn't there, it was just a big bruise and blood was dripping from the corner of my mouth.

If others must have felt a roar in the head, but I didn't, I felt that my consciousness was extraordinarily clear.

A girl next to him let out a scream.

better call more...

Want to fight back?Definitely.But remember, you must never slap your face, or other places, or leave traces.

Then hello belly!

I dodged a punch from the guy in front of me and kicked him straight in the stomach.

Thanks to the three months of taekwondo I had practiced, I did not kick the wrong place.

The boy obviously didn't expect that I could fight back. He stepped back a few steps, and I kicked him sideways again.Several of his friends realized something was wrong and moved closer to me.

"If you have something to say, why bother to do it, everyone."

The people around stopped.

A muffled voice.

I looked in the direction of the voice. It was the boy I met in the movie theater. If I remember correctly, his name was An Shun?

He still has the familiar gentle and dangerous temperament, with a refined smile.

The people around looked at each other, one of them walked towards An Shun, and the others approached me.

A neat over-the-shoulder fall.

The surrounding crowd was in an uproar.

The boy who was thrown to the ground moved a few times and failed to get up.

An Shun stopped smiling, he removed his glasses, stuffed them in his pocket, and walked towards me.

The crisp and sharp skills must have been practiced.

I commented, then a little jealous and a little envious.

For the first time, I knew that there is such a thing as one against many.

Then I saw something in An Shun's hand.

Damn, I said why these people can't stand up.

Anti-wolf □□...

This kind of thing...is self-defense?

The corners of my eyes twitched.

"Let's go," An Shun said, "but what if they trouble Yan Wu again." He looked at me.

I know what he means.

First of all, I'm too weak and in poor health, so I can't even take physical education class.

Secondly, I don't know anyone in the society, and no one can help me.

Finally, they trouble Yan Wu again, what will the school do?Does Yan Wu's strict father know?

Besides, that kind of thing happened to Yan Wu at school...

I broke into a cold sweat.

I picked up my glasses and rode alongside An Shun.

"You like him," An Shun said, "then why don't you try to tell him?"

"Maybe he will agree." An Shun smiled kindly.

Yeah, why don't you try to tell him?Maybe he will agree, and then you can hold hands openly, or even kiss, and then...

Why not tell him?

"I'm afraid of losing," I said, "If I had it and lost it, I don't know what I'd do."

"Maybe you didn't like him anymore at that time." An Shun said.

I pondered for a while: "The risk is too great."

An Shun sighed.

indeed.

But wouldn't it be more risky to wait like this?If he's with someone else—

"By the way, who are you?" I stopped the car and asked An Shun.

An Shun adjusted his glasses: "You know."

I looked him in the eyes and said, "Not yet."

An Shun smiled: "Yes, not yet."

When I arrived at the gate of the community, An Shun continued to ride north.