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The clouds came out again, and the sun was covered by a piece.The rain in the morning has dried up, and the grass that was crushed by the raindrops just now is standing stubbornly.

Yong was very careful with his words, even though he could still see Hiroki's mother frowning from time to time.During the period, the aunt prepared the meals, and the three of them ate together; after clearing the dishes, the aunt brought two cups of tea and walked away tactfully.

"That's how things are." Finally, he made it clear what he wanted to say, and tried his best to search for the past in his mind, stringing together the bits and pieces, sighing in his heart as he spoke—they were really very happy. It's not easy, it's amazing.Compared with her own excitement and her emotion when she talked about the moving part, Hiroki's mother never showed a relaxed expression on her face, she held the cup in a daze, and did not speak for a long time.

"For you, it's still hard to accept..." In fact, I always felt in my heart that doing so today was too much, and the expression on the other side deepened this feeling, and I couldn't help comforting myself with a little disappointment.

"Yes, very..." Unexpectedly, when she looked up again, Hiroki's mother, who seemed to have no response, suddenly burst into tears, "Why, why is it Hiroki? It's obviously... so hardworking and motivated child......"

"..."

"Is their so-called love really more important than family and the world? Why..."

"this......"

"You knew it a long time ago, didn't you?! Why can't you persuade him?!" The water glass was overturned, and a piece of it was sprinkled brightly on the tatami, stinging the dry and hot air.

"Why is it my child..." Covering her face, low-pitched sobs came out from between her trembling fingers, even her shoulders twitched.This is the result that Yong had thought of a long time ago, but seeing this scene with his own eyes, there is still an indescribable sadness in his heart.

"I think," Yong handed the handkerchief to Hiroki's mother, "this kind of thing may be the so-called fate."

The sunlight pierced straight through the thick clouds, and the dazzling light exposed the pink wildflowers that were not very conspicuous in the grass. They nodded slightly as if enjoying the sunshine.

"I don't know if you've heard Hong Shu mention it. I once had a marriage; it was short-lived. I didn't do well enough on my own. Before the divorce, she found someone else." Wanting to smoke, her throat became very dry Unbearable, Yong gently turned the teacup in his hand.

"I can't forget the person I used to like. I just got married like this, and I still feel that it is really unfair to her when I think about it. The feelings for that person are love or a willful obsession. Later, I feel vague I'm just used to it, and I have such a person in my heart." Hiroki's mother stopped crying, although her face was still ugly.Because the topic changed, she raised her head and looked at Yong with still aggrieved eyes.

"Later, I let her know and had a fight with me. I didn't justify it. I like her. Even if it is a past thing, it is an important past event that cannot be changed for me. Later, I divorced and lived their own lives. Life, I don’t think it matters—marriage, family, I’ve experienced it all, for me, life is just a mediocre dawdling.”

"To be honest, when I first found out that Hiroki likes men, I was also taken aback. What kind of relationship would that be? Will it last long? Will it be happy? In the end, I got divorced, and that boy is still the same every day Live forever." Every time Hiroki was mentioned, those familiar days would flash before his eyes, and Yong couldn't help grinning.

"I go to work in the university step by step every day, and the shirt is always clean; the bento I bring every time is very rich, and it can't be seen that it was made by a man. If I want to have a drink with me after work, I will go to that guy first Contact with Dr. Kusama. Although these are small things, in my opinion, they are very happy—whether they are men or women, they can take care of each other in life, communicate effectively, think of one place, and be considerate of each other Caring, this is a perfect life. For such a life, I, to be honest, am very envious."

Hearing Yong talk about Hiroki's life, even envious, Hiroki's mother's eyes widened in surprise.But no matter how you look at it, he didn't seem to be talking deliberately to make himself feel at ease. The sincerity on his face comforted his heart that had been hanging all along.

"Now that I've come to this point, let me tell you about me." Yong smiled shyly, and took out a cigarette from his pocket, "Can I ask?"

"It's okay, please." Hiroki's mother smiled, stood up and took out an ashtray from the cabinet behind her and put it in front of Yong.

"excuse me."

The light in the room softened.Lighting the cigarette, Yong took a deep breath and closed his eyes.

I didn't expect that I would want to tell the story about Hiroki because of his affairs.There was some soreness deep in the nose, and when he opened his eyes again, the corners of his eyes were sore unconsciously.

"This is also a long story..."

The chest was tight and aching, I don't know how long the grievance and helplessness had been accumulated.Yong's fists on his knees were clenched tightly, and the corners of his mouth twitched into a smile.

The setting sun somehow turned into an orange-red fireball, and fell heavily into the purple-gray fog at the junction of the sea and the sky.The sea breeze is cool, and it is not so cold because of the sound of children chasing the waves.Yong sat by the sea, his clothes were dyed the color of the tide.

There was a time when I refused to go to the beach.I always feel that there are the teacher's words in the sound of the waves, which makes my tears flow like a magic spell.

Maybe it was really letting go. Although looking at the dark sea, I still think of her gentle voice, but there is another person in my heart.

"Hello—how are you—" Feet buried in the sand, face covered with wet and salty sea breeze.Maybe it was influenced by the two children who built sandcastles beside him, or maybe it was because he really wanted to talk to him, Yong shouted loudly into the depths of the boundless sea.

hello how are you

You're all right, brat.

I haven't heard your voice for a long time, you will laugh at my sour words.

Fool, I remember very clearly every sound of yours: laughing when you are happy, yelling when you are angry, sleepy just waking up, crooning coquettishly, and the kind that make my heart flutter.

"I'm fine—"

I'm glad to hear you're used to it over there.

'My little fool can take care of herself anywhere', did I tell you that when you left?I am not lying, am I?

"Yes, yes, yes!"

I also heard that you have a girl by your side, which is pretty good, brat.But you have to change your usual bad temper.Girls are not like my uncle, they are very delicate, you have to be more patient, they have no obligation to tolerate you.

And don't cook for her anymore, the food you cook is really unpalatable.

Don't tell her about me, it's nothing to be proud of liking an uncle.

"I can do it too----"

Forget me if you can.Maybe when you are very old, you will remember that there was such an old man who walked out of your life without saying a word, which is really bad.Maybe at that time you can already think about it, you will meet all kinds of people in your life, and I will be satisfied if you regard me as a part of your long life.

"it is good......"

that's it.

The rest could not be said, choked in his throat, Yong could only recite silently in his heart.Although it is a bit ridiculous that I am still full of girlish feelings at this age, watching the white waves roll up and down, as if they are taking away the words in my heart, even if it is an illusion, I feel very satisfied.

The two children were frightened by Yong's yelling, they held up their hands and ran away in a hurry, half of the beach belonged to Yong alone.Unknowing which can of beer it was, Yong spread out on the beach relaxedly, not knowing whether to cry or laugh.

"I fell in love with you again, and I love you more deeply than ever; I can still fall in love with you again, from my heart."