paranoid personality disorder

He's been home a lot, really, and I've basically had a rough life with me.

Unless I said to go out to buy groceries, he could say that he didn't even leave the house, and I didn't even see his phone ring.

In the morning, before my mind woke up, my desire was first aroused by him.

And after that, he would whine and tell me to hurry up, he said he was going to cum.

In the end, I would cover myself and resist ejaculation with me.

During the period, I sent messages to the doctor many times, and he told me that he would record the feedback messages I sent, probably because he seldom replied because of his busy schedule.

After Mo Qian tidied himself up from the bathroom, he came out with a smile and sat beside me, leaning against me bonelessly.

I thought for a while and asked him, "Have you seen Xu Zhao recently?"

He was biting his fingernails in his mouth, and he looked a little dazed.

I waited for a while, and saw that he didn't respond to me at all. I leaned over and pinched his chin. After meeting my eyes, I frowned and said, "I feel like you've become more and more stupid recently."

His hand touched my face, lingered on my lips for a while, and replied with a smile: "It seems to be a little bit."

I patted his head: "Do you want to see a doctor?"

He sneered.

I glanced at him: "So you've seen a psychiatrist?"

He looks at me and winks.

I asked: "How to say?"

He suddenly leaned in front of me, with both knees across my thighs, the pores on his face could be seen clearly, he said faintly: "They said..." He paused, then suddenly raised his hand to give I looked at his wrist, the blue veins on it protruded, so it looked like there was only a thin layer of skin, and he continued in this posture, "Send me to a mental hospital and give me an electric shock."

I stretched out my hand to caress his wrist, put my arms around his waist, let him sit on my lap, and looked at him without any expression: "Why was he sent to see a doctor?"

He froze for a moment, and laughed until his gums came out: "Kill."

I hesitated for a while, he put his arms around me, leaned his head on my shoulder, looked at me sideways, and asked with a chuckle, "Are you afraid?"

I raised his head and stared into his eyes, trying to see a truth from inside, but I couldn't see anything. After pondering for a while, I told him: "A little bit."

He laughed and fell into my arms.

When I went out in the afternoon, he followed me and watched me.

I said I was going out for a while, he stood at the door and said oh, then waved his hands and said, "Then, bye?"

I close the door.

When I went to the appointed coffee shop, Dr. Lin was already sitting there, with a computer in front of me, I looked down and didn't know what I was doing, I walked up and said, "Dr. Lin, I'm sorry, I still disturb you on your rest day. "

He raised his glasses to look at me, and smiled: "No, I am very interested in Mr. Mo's situation."

After finishing speaking, he put away the computer, took out a notebook, opened it, and raised his glasses: "Let's consolidate the messages you sent me now, shall we?"

I nodded, and after calling the waiter to order coffee for me, I waited for his analysis.

He opened his notebook and pointed to one and said, "He denied my analysis that his parents divorced when he was a child."

I nodded and added, "And I don't think it looked like he was lying."

The doctor nodded and thought: "My parents didn't divorce when I was a child, but they proposed one of them's home alone in the chat, so is it grandma or something?" He lowered his head and drew something, and then pointed to the next one, "Now Are you starting to refuse to go out and socialize?"

I nodded: "Yes, if I didn't ask, he would never leave the house."

The doctor looked up at me: "Have a tendency to be depressed?"

I shook my head, just as the waiter brought the coffee I ordered, I took a sip, and the bitter taste spread in my mouth.

The doctor said: "If you have a very pessimistic outlook on emotions..." He glanced at me, "If you have a pessimistic outlook on emotions, it may be because your parents' marriage was not harmonious when you were young?"

I thought about it: "If it's just because of this reason that he looks like a psychopath, is it possible?"

The doctor said: "The marital relationship of parents plays a very important role in the emotional status of adults, just like we always live according to the way of life passed down from our parents."

I looked at the doctor: "It's very strange, I mentioned to you that he once intervened in the emotional life of my ex and I, and he made it clear to me that no one in this world would like me, and no one could bear it temptation."

The doctor said, "Yes, a very extreme and negative thought."

I stretched out my hand and flicked the cup in front of me, and laughed a little: "But it's strange, he told me he likes me after expressing this point of view to me."

The doctor frowned and smiled: "Really, can you tell me what kind of situation it is?"

I raised my cup and took a sip of coffee, and continued: "He admitted frankly that he likes me as well as my ex."

The doctor thought for a while: "If he can say such a thing, I guess he either doesn't care at all, or has a very weak sense of morality." He paused, and suddenly whispered to himself: "Antisocial personality disorder? "He shook his head and looked at me, "Or is it that his ability to control his emotions is very low, or he has a very high position in his emotions, that is to say, he is very confident in controlling this relationship?"

I didn't speak.

The doctor said: "One can fall in love with many people in one's life. In fact, it is not uncommon to fall in love with two or more people at the same time. But what he said frankly to the client, haha." He smiled, "According to the judgment of a normal person, either he doesn't want to continue this relationship, or he has absolute control over you." The doctor lowered his head and drank his water, and said, "He thinks you can't escape his trap." Palm."

Mo Qian?Have absolute control over me?This was probably the funniest joke I've heard in a while. I looked at the doctor and tried to stay calm and asked him, "So what kind of doctor do you think he is?"

The doctor smiled: "Sorry, I don't know, I haven't had much contact with him."

I thought about it, and told him the content of my chat with Mo Qian in the morning: "He told me that he has seen a psychiatrist, and he may have experienced some bad things, so I guess he is very repulsed by this .” I hesitated for a while, then continued, “He said he was scheduled for psychological treatment for murder.”

The doctor held his pen and seemed to think for a while, his eyes looked straight at me from under the lens, and then he told me: "That means he has a history of mental illness, even hospitalization, and is extremely aggressive." He shook his head. He nodded, "No, if he had the experience of attacking others to death, he can't still be here now." He looked at me from behind the glasses, "Did you say that he actually has a normal job?"

I nodded.

The doctor sealed his notebook and said to me: "Now I have reason to suspect that most of what he said are fabricated by himself."