Then there is no more

Sanfeng concealed her resignation from her family, only saying that she had adjusted her job and would have many business trips in the future.

Today is no better than later generations, who will shout "I am GAY" on the Internet for the purpose of attracting attention, but now the real homosexuals are hiding like mice in the gutter.If Sanfeng wants to investigate this group, he can only start from the prison. During the crackdown in the 80s, many gay men were reported and thrown into jail under the name of "hooliganism". Sanfeng's interviews started with these people.

You can't go to the prison if you want, and Sanfeng has to run relationships, give gifts, and so on.

Cheng, the first gay interviewed by Sanfeng, is 41 years old and was imprisoned a few years ago for 15 years.There is more than one prisoner in the prison. Lao Cheng was arrested for being gay, and he was discriminated against even in prison.He has been collectively squeezed out by his inmates, and his eyes are numb.

"Family? None. They don't recognize me if they think I'm ashamed. They never came to see me."

"I also know it's not normal. But I didn't kill or set fire. I don't understand why this is done to me."

"What, you say it's normal for me to be like this? Is it not a mental illness? What did the foreigner say? I never knew about it."

"It doesn't matter what the foreigner says, anyway, I'm already like this."

"I thought about changing it... I really can't change it. I just don't think about women, and my mind is full of men. You say that a person like me really marries a woman at home, isn't it delaying her? Who doesn't want to take a road?" A normal way? I think so too! But I can’t change this, I know it myself.”

"When I was young, I was ignorant. If I liked someone, I would write it down in my notebook. That person was my friend. We went to the countryside together and came back together. Actually, I didn't think about what to do with him, but he When he saw my diary, he couldn't bear it, felt disgusted by me, and reported me."

"Now? I definitely don't like him now. Hey, girl reporter, please cross out his name, or use a pseudonym."

"No, no, I really don't like him, but I never thought about getting revenge on him."

"In the future? I dare not like others in the future."

"I really don't have much thought about the future. My relatives are gone, my friends are gone, and I'm not young anymore."

"When I get out of prison, I will be [-] years younger. Find a job that can make a living, and I will be thankful if I can support myself!"

……

When leaving the prison, Sanfeng felt that his whole body was completely cold.When she walked to the gate of the prison, she suddenly knelt down and burst into tears.When she thought that Bian Jingyu might have the same experience as Lao Cheng, she felt extremely uncomfortable.She must not let Bian Jingyu encounter these things!

Time flies, and another year has passed in a blink of an eye.

Sanfeng's leave without pay expired, but she didn't finish the work at hand, so she simply resigned this time.Her former colleagues are well-known in the workplace, and their names often appear in the newspapers.In their view, Sanfeng, who has great potential, has disappeared from everyone.

Sanfeng had no time to pay attention to those slightly sympathetic or even mocking eyes, so she hurried to the newspaper office and left in a hurry.

When Bian Jingyu was 20 years old, he felt that the groundwork was almost done, and he began to move on to the next step.So, on a certain day when the season was not good, he suddenly ran from the capital to Baoping Town, and after finding Mao Chunmei, he cried hard in front of Mao Chunmei without saying a word.

Mao Chunmei was dumbfounded by Bian Jingyu's crying!

The eldest grandson is the pride of Mao Chunmei. He published a book at the age of five and went to college at the age of ten. He has never been troubled by any problems, but now he is crying so helplessly!Countless thoughts immediately popped up in Mao Chunmei's mind, and she asked, "Dabao, if you have something to do, tell grandma, grandma is here!"

Even if the eldest grandson killed someone outside, she would find a way to help destroy the corpse.

Bian Jingyu continued to cry.He hadn't cried like this in two lifetimes.

Crying is a skill, and Bian Jingyu used chemical reagents to keep crying.He was acting in front of Mao Chunmei.Although the old lady has many shortcomings, she has no reservations about Bian Jingyu.Bian Jingyu accepted her affection, and he was a little ashamed to lie to her now.

Mao Chunmei led Bian Jingyu to the back room, closed the door, and asked, "Dabao, don't be afraid! Tell grandma if you have anything."

Bian Jingyu showed an unspeakable expression.

"You...you don't really kill people, do you?" Mao Chunmei tried her best to keep calm, but her hands were already shaking.

Bian Jingyu shook her head, called grandma to Mao Chunmei, and then burst into tears again.

Crying and crying, Bian Jingyu said intermittently that when other boys were his age, they had already started to miss little girls, such as Xiaoyi, when she woke up every morning, somewhere she was full of energy.But his body has not moved, so he went to the hospital for a check-up two days ago.As a result, the doctor said that he really had no ability in this area, and his sperm activity was very low, so he would definitely not have offspring in this life.

Bian Jingyu spoke cryptically.But Mao Chunmei quickly understood!

The grandson's little sparrow has grown in vain?The eldest grandson can't give her great-grandchildren in the future?

Mao Chunmei's tears fell immediately, and she cried with Bian Jingyu.

"It's my fault, I made grandma sad... What should I do in the future... I, I don't want to live anymore!" Bian Jingyu said sadly.

Mao Chunmei was so frightened that she shed her tears and said, "Don't be afraid, Dabao. The doctor you met must be a quack doctor. Our family has enough money now. Let's find another doctor! I'm sure you can be cured! If you don't live What are you going to do with grandma? Don’t talk nonsense like that again!”

The grandfather and grandson cried a lot.

Bian Jingyu said: "I have another set of books to be published soon, and the teachers all praised me as a young talent. One teacher even wanted to introduce his granddaughter to me, who is a lady from a famous family... I could have a career and a family. Double Harvest, so that grandma can follow the scenery, but now..."

Mao Chunmei felt more and more uncomfortable.This thief is short-sighted, her grandson is good everywhere, and there is no one better than her grandson. What do people outside say?Said that her grandson came down to earth as a Wenqu star!Why put her precious grandson through this pain?

Suddenly, a flash of light flashed in Mao Chunmei's heart.

Is it because her grandson is so good, so God insists on keeping a hand in this regard?Mao Chunmei hurriedly comforted Bian Jingyu and said, "Dabao, we must have confidence. Let's see the doctor carefully, and we will definitely be able to see the doctor. I heard a story told by your sixth sister before. There was a woman in the story because she was so nice." It’s so good that God is jealous, and God made her die early. Our Dabao is too good, so good that God is jealous, and God made you suffer like this.” In terms of grandson’s early death and no great-grandchildren In the meantime, Mao Chunmei would rather have no great-grandchildren.

"The doctor who treated me is already the best doctor in the best hospital in Beijing..." Bian Jingyu said with red eyes.

Bian Jingyu's calculations are very good. He is now twenty, and before he turns 30, he has a full ten years to "see a doctor", but this "disease" is definitely not good.Then he has a reason not to marry for life.After he turns 30, if other members of the family want to urge the marriage, Mao Chunmei, who loves her eldest grandson, will definitely help him stand in front.In Lao Bian's family, as long as one Mao Chunmei is dealt with, it is equivalent to everyone being dealt with.

Mao Chunmei's ten years have not been in vain.

She often helps others to mediate, knowing that men and women cannot have children after marriage, and the problem does not necessarily lie with women.

Therefore, if Bian Jingyu's "disease" is not good, then as long as Bian Jingyu doesn't want to marry a wife, Mao Chunmei will never arrange a marriage for him.Because, not getting married can also be said that Bian Jingyu has a personality, and cultural people are different from ordinary people.However, if a child cannot be born for a long time after marriage, some people will doubt the fertility of the husband and wife.Mao Chunmei must be reluctant to let her outstanding grandson bear the doubts of others!

Why would Bian Jingyu give up her masculine self-esteem to lie to Mao Chunmei that she is not good, rather than come out directly?

Because, if he chooses to come out, Mao Chunmei will definitely not be reconciled.Most people in the world attract opposites, why can't my grandson like women?Did Shen Yi bring her eldest grandson under her wing?If there is no Shen Yi, will my eldest grandson be normal?Mao Chunmei really cares about Bian Jingyu.But as long as she is unwilling, the more she cares about Bian Jingyu, the more she wants to bring Bian Jingyu back to the so-called right path. She will continue to put pressure on Bian Jingyu in the name of "love", such as using herself Bian Jingyu's life threatened to break up with Shen Yi and so on.

Bian Jingyu didn't want the matter to get into such a trouble.

Therefore, he simply forged the medical records for himself, and blamed himself for what no man would want to blame.

In this way, after the age of three or forty, even if the relationship between him and Shen Yi is exposed in front of their respective families, he can still tell Mao Chunmei that his body prevents him from marrying a woman, but he doesn't want to marry a woman himself. Living alone, that's why he chose to live with Shen Yi as a partner.There was a time difference here, and Mao Chunmei was misled. She thought that Bian Jingyu had been cured for ten years, and only after she found out that the cure could not be cured, did she break the pot and fall with Shen Yi.So not only would she not object, but she would like to thank Shen Yi for her dedication to Bian Jingyu.

However, Shen Yi couldn't use this method.Because the Shen family are all high-level intellectuals, they are not as easy to fool as Mao Chunmei.

It's not right to lie.

However, this is the best way Bian Jingyu has come up with to reduce family conflicts.

Because, he and Shen Yi will never be separated.

They will never be apart.

Bian Jingyu cried and cried to Mao Chunmei, and finally managed to cry herself to sleep.Before he returned to Province Z, he deliberately stayed up all night, so now his eyes are gray and he looks very haggard.Mao Chunmei helped Bian Jingyu tuck the corner of the quilt, she was still crying silently.

When Mr. Bian got bored with the news and hurried home, Mao Chunmei was sitting in the yard in a daze.

Seeing his wife's red and swollen eyes, Bian Lao was stunned.He hasn't seen his wife cry for many years.

"What's wrong?" Bian Lao asked sullenly.

"It's nothing, the sand is blinding my eyes." Mao Chunmei said.

Old man Bian: "..."

Dabao, his mother, the degree of redness and swelling of your eyes cannot be achieved by a grain of sand, at least it must be a sandstorm!