The Scum Shou's Survival Guide

Shen Ye tightly grasped the wrist of the person in front of him, and his sharp and deep eyes fell on the side of the other person's face. The turbulent waves that had been stirred up in his heart just now hadn't faded away. At that moment... he seemed to see Han Xu reappeared in front of him.

For ten years, he has never forgotten that person, he has been looking for him, waiting for him to come back... But the cruel reality made him have to realize that the person who betrayed and abandoned him would never come back again. Those who have abandoned him like a shoestring will never come back to give him a chance to retaliate.

Only the ridiculous him remained at that moment, unable to get out.

Ye Ming lowered his head, his lips turned white, he never expected to see Shen Ye again so suddenly, ten years have passed in the blink of an eye in this world, but what happened that night seemed like yesterday to him.

Just a short month ago, he accidentally learned the truth about the death of his parents, and his world was turned upside down... The mortal hatred tormented his heart.

He couldn't forgive himself, calling out a murderer who killed his biological parents for his father for 20 years, and couldn't forgive Shen Dayao for what he did... But he also couldn't deceive his heart, and couldn't face Shen Ye's love.

A look of deep pain appeared in Ye Ming's eyes. He would never forget the despairing eyes Shen Ye looked at him that night when he was lying in a pool of blood... To him, Shen Dayao was a sworn enemy, but to Shen Ye , but the most beloved father.

If we are destined to be only enemies, if you are destined to see the person you love kill another person you love most, and bear the unsolvable hatred and self-blame pain...then why don't you hate me, let you think I'm only in it for the money.

Ye Ming took a deep breath, trying to calm down the complicated thoughts in his chest, and slowly raised his head, his eyes had become as calm as a deep pool, without wind or waves.

Shen Ye watched the person in front of him slowly raise his head, the familiar profile turned around little by little, and those black eyes fell into his eyes.

Shen Ye knew that this person was not Han Xu, he was younger and more youthful, probably only in his early twenties, like a college student, but... it was the first time for him to feel such a familiar aura on a person, not only Not only because of the very similar face, but also because of the eyes.

It was as if Han Xu was looking at him.

But... After all, it wasn't the person he was waiting for.

Shen Ye stared fixedly at Ye Ming, then slowly let go of his hand, and said in a low voice, "What's your name?"

Ye Ming lowered his eyes and said, "Tao Xu."

Shen Ye's eyes were fixed, and he almost couldn't maintain his expression. It just so happened that there was a word "Xu" in his name... How could there be such a coincidence?

Even though Shen Ye is no longer the naive young man he was back then, he is already used to not showing emotions of joy and anger, and tightly sealed his wounded heart, so that he won't be easily hurt again, and won't let others see through his thoughts easily ...However, in this short period of time today, he was almost unable to maintain his calm again and again.

But he should wake up, this person is not Han Xu, no matter how resembling he is, he is not the person he loved and hated deeply, he is just a stranger.

He couldn't even fool himself.

Shen Ye's eyes slowly returned to indifference, he glanced at Ye Ming, and said, "It's okay, you can go out."

Ye Ming didn't take a second look at Shen Ye, and retreated as if he couldn't avoid it.

Shen Ye looked at Ye Ming's leaving back, glanced at the overturned plates on the ground, turned around and sat down behind the table, with a calm expression, as if nothing happened just now.

The man who scolded Ye Ming just now was at a loss. He had dealt with Shen Ye before, and he knew Shen Ye quite well... Besides, everyone still didn't know what kind of person Shen Ye was?To put it nicely is to not like to meddle in other people's business, but to put it badly is to be ruthless and indifferent, not the kind of kind-hearted person, like this kind of waiter who did wrong things, how could Shen Ye stand out for him?Even took the initiative to ask his name?

It's so abnormal!

He hesitated for a long time, and suddenly he had a flash of inspiration, and he smiled: "Mr. Shen, have you taken a fancy to him?"

Although this reason is also very absurd, after all, Shen Ye has always been difficult to get close to, there are countless people who want to climb into his bed, and he has never seen him pretending to anyone, how could he fall in love with a waiter at first glance?But if it wasn't for this reason, what other reason would allow him to personally come forward to rescue the waiter?

Shen Ye raised his eyes and glanced at the man.

The man's expression suddenly became a little apprehensive, wondering if he said something wrong?

Shen Ye looked at him fixedly, tapped his fingers on the table, and said lightly: "Mr. He, aren't you going to tell me about the land in the development zone today?"

The man was stunned, he really invited Shen Ye out for dinner today because of that matter, but before he could speak, he didn't expect Shen Ye to bring it up, and quickly smiled: "Yes, yes."

Of course, business is important, and the little episode just now was immediately forgotten by him.

………………

When Ye Ming returned to the kitchen, he was severely scolded by the manager and pointed at his nose: "It's a good thing the guests didn't complain, otherwise you've done nothing this month. Do you know how important that table's guests are?!"

Ye Ming lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry, I will pay attention to it in the future."

The manager was still puzzled, and said angrily, "Really, I usually look fine, but I can't do such a thing well at critical moments. I'm still a college student, and I can't even serve a plate. What a waste!"

Ye Ming clenched his hands tightly, his face turned pale slightly, he gritted his teeth and said, "It's my fault, I feel a little uncomfortable today, I want to ask for leave and go back to rest first."

The manager said coldly: "I did something wrong again, and I have to ask for leave, but I have to deduct money."

Ye Ming said in a low voice: "But I really don't feel well, I can't bear it anymore."

The manager looked at Ye Ming's pale face, and felt a little nervous. Could this kid be really sick?If something happens in the hotel, it will be troublesome, and finally said: "It's really troublesome, let's go."

Ye Ming apologized again, greeted the others and left the hotel early.

He stood downstairs in the hotel, looking up, there was light in the box on the top floor, faintly revealed, like a lamp in the night sky, and Shen Ye was there... Although he didn't dare to look at it just now, Shen Ye's The appearance is still firmly engraved in his heart.

The Shen Ye in his memory was still very young, full of vigor, and would show him a wanton and flamboyant smile, but today's Shen Ye, although still handsome, was more calm and deep, and less comfortable... In those black eyes, there seemed to be incomprehensible emotions brewing, indifferent and unsmiling, even though he was in the crowd, he seemed to be independent from the world.

It's been ten years, and in his heart, he should be just a hated person...

Their love was originally a mistake.

Ye Ming paused, turned around and disappeared into the night.

………………

After Ye Ming left, the people from the hotel quickly came in and cleaned up the broken plates, and there was no problem with the meal again.

Mr. He had a very pleasant conversation with Shen Ye, and when he returned, he smelled of alcohol, and suddenly remembered that when he teased whether Shen Ye liked the waiter, Shen Ye didn't actually deny it, right?

But if it is really fancy, how is it possible?Maybe it's just too insignificant, so he didn't answer, Mr. He thought so.

When Shen Ye returned home, he didn't drink much, and he was still very sober at the moment. The house was pitch dark. He reached out to touch the switch by the door, and with a 'click' sound, the dark room suddenly brightened up, but... no matter how bright it is, Also empty and lifeless.

This is his apartment outside. He moved out of the house several years ago and lived alone outside.

He walked to his bedroom, opened the drawer, and took out a tin box from the inside. He was silent for a long time, with pain and nostalgia in his eyes, and finally opened it slowly.

Inside the box were a few old photos, which were the only memories he brought out from home that belonged to Han Xu.

Shen Ye gently flipped through the photos, and finally his eyes fell on a photo. In the photo, Han Xu and him were both young. That time... it was taken by Han Xu on the way home when he picked him up from school.

He stared at the person in the photo, but his thoughts returned to tonight, when Ye Ming pushed the door and entered...

After a long time, Shen Ye laughed at himself and put down the photo. What was he thinking?

Just because of a similar person, I think of you again uncontrollably, but what about you?Probably never thought about me, all the good things you did to me were lies, all the love words you said to me were all lies... and when you coldly wanted to kill me and left ruthlessly, you probably also ...never thought how much pain I would have.

Even if you think of me inadvertently in the past ten years, you will only scorn and laugh at my stupidity, and mistake calculations for sincerity.

why don't you come back

Because you dare not come back, right?

………………

Ye Ming left the hotel early and went back to the dormitory to sleep soundly. Because there was no class the next day and there was no one else in the dormitory, he slept until noon before going to the cafeteria for dinner.

【888: Shen Ye didn't intend to do anything to you. It seems that your wishful thinking is not very useful. If you want to deliver it to your door, you have to be liked by others. 】

【Ye Ming: No hurry, no hurry, give him some time to think about it, he is not dissatisfied with desires, he will never want to fall in love with a similar person, but I will let him know that I am different~ Hee hee hee. 】

[888: ...] This spicy chicken.

Ye Ming was not in a hurry, and lived a leisurely college life. He answered Zhou Jiaping's calls several times in the past few days, and he refused to ask him out.

【888: Aren't you going to break up?Why don't you answer the phone? 】

【Ye Ming: Yes, of course we're going to break up. No matter how you look at it, I'm no longer Tao Xu in this shell. It's impossible to continue to talk about love with Zhou Jiaping. Breaking up is a matter of course. 】

【888: When you break up, just break up neatly. I still respect you for being a man. 】

【Ye Ming: ...】

[888: What? 】

【Ye Ming: This is the first time you said that you want to respect me as a man, I was so excited that I was speechless QAQ】

【888: Then divide it quickly. 】

【Ye Ming: But what makes me even more distressed is that I can't divide it now. After all, it's normal to have to hesitate for such an important matter, right?After all, I am not such a cold and heartless person! 】

【888: ...you say it again with your conscience? 】

【Ye Ming: O(∩_∩)O~】

Ye Ming spent a few days of relaxed and happy college life with no classes at ease, and received a call from Zhou Jiaping again. Ye Ming waited for the phone to ring a few times before finally answering it.

"Xiao Xu, you didn't answer my call yesterday, what's wrong?" Zhou Jiaping's anxious voice rang through the phone.

Ye Ming was silent for a while, and said, "Let's go out for dinner today."

Zhou Jiaping immediately said: "Okay, is it still the same one from before? I remember that you like the pickled cabbage fish very much."

Ye Ming said, "Let's change to another family today."

Zhou Jiaping finally waited until Ye Ming answered the phone, so naturally he would not object to him on such a trivial matter, and readily agreed.

Ye Ming changed into a T-shirt and jeans, with a clean and neat look, and then took a taxi to go out.He came to the hotel first, chose a well-lit place by the window, and waited for Zhou Jiaping there.

Zhou Jiaping came soon. He was a tall, handsome, sunny young man who looked very popular. Zhou Jiaping walked over and sat down directly opposite Ye Ming, and asked nervously, "Xiao Xu, what are you doing?" Why don't you pay attention to me these days, did I make you angry? "

Ye Ming looked at him with complicated eyes.

He could see that Zhou Jiaping really liked him, the emotion in Zhou Jiaping's eyes was very sincere, even though he was clearly the one who was wrong, he was still reflecting on his own mistakes, coaxing him flatteringly, never thinking... Maybe it was not at all Not his problem.

He couldn't help but think of Shen Ye. The Shen Ye back then was also like Zhou Jiaping now, no... loved him more than Zhou Jiaping, believed in him and loved him with all his heart.

But he failed him.

Ye Ming agreed to come out with Zhou Jiaping today in order to break up, this is his deliberate decision.

He didn't know why he came back to life. He had been dead for ten years. He should have been buried in the world, but he was reborn in another person. Maybe God gave him such a death because he was unwilling to die. A chance to return from hell for revenge...

The rest of his life is nothing but hatred, how can he drag another innocent person down?And I'm sorry, the person you liked is actually gone...

So he decided to break up with Zhou Jiaping, but at this moment, facing Zhou Jiaping's hopeful eyes, he couldn't tell. His decision was cruel to him who knew nothing about it.

But for some things, delay is not the solution, and after the truth is exposed, it will only hurt more.

Ye Ming was silent for a while, then slowly said: "You are right, it is my problem."

Zhou Jiaping immediately looked at Ye Ming with concern, and said comfortingly, "Is it because you are having trouble finding a job? Don't rush and take your time, I believe you will be fine."

Ye Ming couldn't help but chuckled softly. In their eyes, the most difficult thing was just finding a job or not...their world didn't have so many unresolvable hatreds. It was ordinary, warm, and exciting. People are envious.

Ye Ming's gaze softened, and he said, "Let's eat."

In any case, let's talk after this meal, Zhou Jiaping like this made him a little soft-hearted, but he is not the one he loves, so it's better to break up than wait for him to discover this cruel fact.

Draw a full stop to each other hastily.

………………

Shen Ye came to the mall today to choose a birthday gift for his mother, but as he was choosing, he couldn't help but think of that person again, his eyes darkened slightly.

In the past, Han Xu would always choose gifts for his mother on his mother's birthday. No matter what he gave, his mother was very happy, but... now he is the only one left to do this.

Ever since Han Xu shot him and disappeared ten years ago, my mother has been depressed for a long time, and that incident has become a knot in her heart. She loved the man she loved for 20 years like a son, but she wanted to kill her for the company. Another son of his, finally disappeared like this...

Shen Ye raised the corners of his mouth mockingly, he chose a silk scarf and a coat, and when the shopping guide helped him pack, he sat there and closed his eyes tiredly.

But what appeared in front of him involuntarily was the scene that Ye Ming abruptly opened the hotel door and appeared in front of him a few days ago.

In the past ten years, it's not like he hasn't seen anyone similar to Ye Ming. He walks in the vast crowd, ebbs and flows with the tide, and occasionally passes by others. When he sees a similar figure from the back, he will think it is Ye Ming. ...can't help but catch up and watch.

But the result is just disappointment again and again.

It's not him, those people are not him, even if someone really looks similar to him, Shen Ye will know that the other person is not him just by looking at him.

But this time, it took him a long time to realize it.

"Sir, your clothes." The shopping guide said cautiously. Although the man looked handsome and dignified, he seemed to be in a bad mood.

Shen Ye opened his eyes, took the things and left here without saying a word.

It's ridiculous... Could it be that it's been too long, hating someone for too long, so long that even the memory is blurred... so that even a person who is only similar in appearance makes him so unforgettable?It's just that they look similar, so what's the use.

He doesn't understand how much pain he has.

After all, it is just a passerby, and maybe we will never meet again next time.

Shen Ye thought this way, and curled his lips in a self-deprecating manner. The elevator door slowly opened in front of him. He walked out, but his eyes fell on the opposite restaurant. The person sitting by the glass window appeared with a gentle and handsome profile. in front of him.

Shen Ye's footsteps stopped suddenly.

The young man inside the glass window was sitting with another young man, smiling softly, the corners of his beautifully curved lips slightly raised, his hands resting on the table, as if they were talking about something, the atmosphere was warm and harmonious...

At this moment, he seemed to travel through time and space, returning to more than ten years ago, and seeing the person he once loved appeared in front of him again... He used to look at him like this, sitting opposite him, smiling gently.

But this time, his side was no longer himself, but another person.

………………

Ye Ming and Zhou Jiaping get along very happily. Zhou Jiaping is a humorous young man, and he knows how to take care of other people's emotions. It can be seen that he really likes Tao Xu. If this accident hadn't happened... maybe they really I can go on.

Thinking of this, Ye Ming's joy was diluted, his eyes dimmed, what he was enjoying now was something that didn't belong to him.

The time for a meal was fast and slow, and it was finally time to end. Ye Ming looked at Zhou Jiaping seriously, pursed his lips slightly, and still had to say something after all.

Ye Ming pursed his lips, and was about to speak when he was suddenly interrupted by a deep voice above his head.

"What a coincidence."

The voice fell into Ye Ming's ears, making him stiff, he slowly raised his head, and saw Shen Ye standing beside him, staring at him with some kind of deep and dark eyes, "I didn't expect to meet again. "